Kasamatsu's black silk

If you are invited by a boy you like to sit at his house for a while, I think no matter who you are, you will agree, and then you will follow him closely as if you are afraid that he will regret it, urging him to leave quickly with your eyes.

Well, anyone would.

but……

After following him to the door of the house, I realized that his family members were not there...

I held the umbrella in one hand, and with the other hand I tightened Kasamatsu-san's sports coat. I raised my head to look at the second-floor window, which was still not lit in the dark, and then looked at the person who was hastily pulling out his mobile phone. Yukio Kasamatsu himself dialed a series of numbers.

"Ah? Traveling?! You, your father, and your sister all went?!"

...I seem to have heard something extraordinary.

"Why didn't anyone tell me in advance... what? Did you think I didn't go home during the competition? Mom, how far do you think I traveled, it's just in Tokyo... Ah? Everyone has already left and let me do whatever I want Deal with it... Although I won't starve to death or something, but..."

Yukio Kasamatsu, who was talking on the phone, suddenly paused, and he suddenly turned his head and glanced at me standing behind him, which made me a little confused, not knowing how to react, so I tried to smile at him.

As a result, the man showed a startled expression, and immediately turned his head back.

...What do you mean, is it my illusion that this reaction seems familiar! ?

"Why is it today...how many days are you going to go? Huh? Ha!? I wouldn't do that kind of thing...!"

The conversation between the other end and the other end of the phone is still going on. I can only stand behind and watch and listen. I feel a little bored, and it is impossible to join in. To be honest, I don’t understand what they are saying while listening to Kasamatsu Yukio’s side. What kind of communication is going on.He lowered his head, stood on the spot and shook his right leg, and the shallow water on the road was kicked and splashed everywhere.

For some reason, Kasamatsu Yukio's voice stopped again.

I subconsciously looked up and met his eyes.

……Huh?Look at me again?Why?

Wait, I said, Kasamatsu-san, are you trying to get my attention once or twice this time?Well, you did it!Now I'm super curious about what you guys said on the phone! ?And this person is really over the top... This time is the same as the first time, when I found that I was looking at him, I immediately turned my head away.

And it can be seen from the back that the ears have turned red, and it seems that the neck is also red.

Gynophobia again?Hmm... I thought he'd gotten used to it after these days, and it's just because he glanced at me when he was on the phone, did he have to be so nervous?

"No, it's nothing! Stop guessing! There's nothing wrong! I'll hang up now!"

While I was thinking about strange questions alone, Yukio Kasamatsu had already ended the call with a high pitch. After closing the phone, he took a deep breath and hesitated for a while before turning around to face me formally.

"That... seems to have been an accident." Kasamatsu Yukio's expression was a little dignified.

"Ok?"

"I just found out, it seems that my parents and sister are away from home, so..."

"So Kasamatsu-san has an older sister? This is the first time I've heard of it."

I seem to have mentioned it on the phone just now. It turns out that Kasamatsu-san has an older sister... Because of his gynophobia, I wondered if it was caused by too little contact with women. Now it seems, maybe not?

"Well, although I haven't mentioned it, there is indeed. I am the second son in the family... Wait, I didn't mean to say this!"

"?what is that?"

I tried to think back to the conversation just now, and it was indeed Kasamatsu-san who said that his family had gone away... Ah, what he meant... Eh?What is it?

"Just, that is to say... um... there are only the two of us at home..."

"I don't mind."

I answered my thoughts truthfully.

In fact, I don’t mind, I probably welcome this situation more?On the way back with Yukio Kasamatsu, it seemed like it would be better to say hello to Mrs. Kasamatsu's mother?I don't know if Kasamatsu-san's father is very fierce?What if you are hated?Questions like these worry a whole lot.

Now there is no need to have those worries.

Moreover, he could be alone with Kasamatsu-san.

I laughed at something that was enjoyable just by imagining it, but for some reason, Yukio Kasamatsu stared at me for a long time with a somewhat bewildered expression...then he let out a long sigh.

……Eh?Why? !

"It's my fault for expecting you...don't worry about it."

Having said that, Kasamatsu Yukio turned back and approached the door, and began to take out the key from his bag to open the door. Keeping his back to me, he said, "Anyway, come in and sit for a while... It's hard to wear wet clothes."

Kasamatsu-san is really a gentle person.

I put away the umbrella in my hand and silently followed behind him.When he returned with the same umbrella all the way, he kept tilting the umbrella towards me, and his right shoulder was almost wet by the rain.

Speaking of it, it seems that this is the first time I have looked at this person's back so carefully.

Although the seat in the classroom is Yukio Kasamatsu's backseat, every time I just regard this person as a good barrier to sleep and be lazy in class, only now did I find that Kasamatsu-san's body is unexpectedly strong, with some wet and thin T-shirts stuck to his body , the uneven lines of the muscles on the shoulders and back become particularly conspicuous.Further up is the tight neck line, the skin tone that has been slightly tanned due to years of exercise is just right, and there are still some unwiped water droplets on it.

Yukio Kasamatsu turned halfway after opening the door, and his bewildered face immediately appeared in my field of vision.

"Come in... um? What's the matter?"

"Ah, no, nothing!" I lowered my head to hide my hot cheeks, took a deep breath, and entered the room from Yukio Kasamatsu. "sorry for disturbance."

It's so embarrassing... It's so embarrassing to be distracted by looking at Kasamatsu-san's neck!

I covered my face in pain from an angle that Yukio Kasamatsu could not see.

After changing into slippers for guests at the entrance, Kasamatsu-san led me into the living room.He said he was going to pour me a cup of hot tea and went to the kitchen, leaving me alone to sit and look around, but overall I wasn’t very interested—it would be more interesting if it was Kasamatsu-san’s room, For example, will there be someone's poster on the wall, what kind of flavor.AVI is placed under the bed...

"Will you drink barley tea...?" Kasamatsu Yukio who came back with the tea looked at my face in a daze, "You, aren't you thinking about something strange?"

"Eh? Eh? No, there is no such thing!" I denied it, desperately shaking my head and waving my hands, "I just imagined what Kasamatsu-san's room would be like! I didn't think about other things!"

"..."

"..."

Did I say something wrong...Kasamatsu-san, don't be silent!Don't look at me with that look! !

"If you're interested in my room, go up and have a look." Kasamatsu Yukio pointed at it, "But you really are...forget it, I'm going to get clothes for you anyway."

"clothing?"

Because Yukio Kasamatsu walked directly towards the stairs, I had to stand up from the sofa in a hurry. I wanted to trot to catch up with his footsteps. A little unsteady...or maybe the joints are numb and it's hard to move?In short, before I could take a few steps forward, I stumbled and fell straight forward.

"Wow!"

"Hey! Be careful—!"

It's really embarrassing... I thought again and again as I fell.

I always felt that I didn’t make a good impression on Kasamatsu-san all day today, and waited foolishly for him in the rain until I was completely soaked; obviously he lost the game but couldn’t think of a word of comfort; thick-skinned I followed him to his house, and finally there was no one else in the house, but there was such an ugly accident as a fall...

I closed my eyes tightly.

Woohoo... It's really embarrassing, I want to apply for a file load to start over.

"Hello!? Are you okay?" Kasamatsu-san said in my ear with a worried voice.

Huh?I should have fallen down, but even if the carpet in Kasamatsu-san's house is thick and soft, it doesn't mean that I don't feel any pain at all, right?Indeed, I heard Kasamatsu-san shouting in a hurry and running towards me on the way... It's hard, could it be...

With a guess that even I didn't believe, I slowly opened my eyes, and the first thing I saw was the anxious expression on Kasamatsu's face who couldn't be closer.

"Where is the pain from the fall? Are you okay? Why did you fall suddenly when you are so good...I said you should give me a reply!"

"Eh? Ah? That..."

I tried to open my mouth, but couldn't get the words out.

To put it simply, Kasamatsu-san and I are now in a female-on-male-down... To describe it more plainly, I pushed him to the floor.

That's right, overwhelming.

It was probably an instinctive reaction when I fell down. My hands were firmly grasping his arms, and of course I was pressing them firmly on the ground now. One leg was pressing on Kasamatsu’s thigh, and the other leg was Kneeling on the open space next to him, because I tried to get up just now, my upper body was almost leaning against his upper body, and I was keeping my head up slightly, facing Kasamatsu-san at close range.

Boom, boom, boom...

I can hear my own heartbeat beating in my chest, and another, ringing in my brain since I opened my eyes.

——Oops, oops... No, maybe I should say I fell too well! ?

"Are you really all right?"

Looking at Kasamatsu-san's expression, he probably didn't realize what was going on right now, but soon, he struggled to move his wrist because he was trying to get up, but found that he couldn't move, and his face flushed suddenly .

"Then, that... If you, you, you, you are fine, get up quickly!"

"Okay...I'll get up right away."

Responding like this, I raised my body a little bit, and distanced myself from Kasamatsu-san.

But I didn't just get up like this, but stopped after straightening my arms.

If you have to say why... probably because you are not reconciled.

Even under such circumstances, Kasamatsu-san's reaction was the same as before, not changing at all.

Gynophobia?So nervous?So blush?Don't even look at me?The way I turned my head to look at Kasamatsu-san next to me while avoiding my eyes really made me feel very unwilling.

Not reconciled, a little want to cry.

"Kasamatsu-san, I like you."

"Huh? What are you talking about all of a sudden... I-I know about this kind of thing! Anyway, you, you get up first...!"

do you know?Do you really know?

Obviously, he couldn't even meet my eyes.

Probably seeing that I hadn’t moved much, Kasamatsu-san tried to break free from my hands again, but this time I used my weight and the strength of my whole body to hold him down. It seemed incredible that Kasamatsu-san finally stared at me with wide-eyed eyes. A face was so red that it was about to bleed.

"... Tangerine?"

Kasamatsu-san called my name in a confused voice, her eyes seemed a little shaken.

The appearance of the person under me quickly reminded me of the two dreams I had not long ago. In the dream, Kasamatsu-san seemed to be pressed down by me like now, blushing.

Pretty much the same.

"...Kasamatsu-san, do you understand the current situation?"

"what?"

I lowered my head a little, getting closer to each other.

"I, I like Kasamatsu-san... Now there are only two of us in the house, and we're in such a posture... Does Kasamatsu-san understand? What kind of situation is this?"

"..."

Seriously, what the hell am I doing.

Seeing Kasamatsu-san fell silent again, I closed my eyes and opened them again.

Obviously, I am trying to make Kasamatsu-san like me. I have been working hard every day since the summer vacation, but what am I doing now?This kind of behavior obviously doesn't make others like it... I lowered my head again, bent my arms, lowered my shoulders, and gradually shortened the distance between us.

It was so close that I could even smell Kasamatsu-san's breath.

……can not stop.

Even when I realize that I can't do it, I can't seem to control my behavior.

Five centimeters, three centimeters, one centimeter.

Just a second before I was about to stick Kasamatsu-san's lips, I suddenly heard his voice saying:

"What's the situation...Of course I know...Damn it...It's you who obviously don't know the situation..."

...I don't understand?

Although I really wanted to ask Kasamatsu-san what this sentence meant, but I had no chance.

That day, I kissed for the first time on the floor of Kasamatsu-san's living room.