Kasamatsu's black silk

The sea breeze off the coast of Kamakura was colder than expected.

Even though it was summer, the unexpectedly strong wind hit my body and face, and I still felt bitingly cold, but what was even worse was the heat from Kasamatsu-san's hand that I was holding tightly.

We had been standing for a while on the sand where the waves kept breaking up.

There are no pedestrians to be seen on the way here. Except for the sporadic street lights along the road, the only light source that can be seen is the 24-hour convenience store across the road. Compared with these, the moonlight in the sky may be even stronger. Brighter, I lowered my head, followed the wind blowing skirt, and saw the shadows of the two of us intertwined under our feet.

Heart beating so fast.

Once I realized who I was standing shoulder to shoulder with, holding hands, I couldn't tell whether it was bitterness or sweetness, it buried all my facial features... Then I couldn't help it, I just wanted to cry.

During the days when I didn’t see Kasamatsu-san, the tears that I couldn’t shed no matter what, became irresistible when I met him. My lacrimal glands, like my heart, became extremely fragile in front of him. .

"...Today, before going to Harajuku, I was in the school gymnasium. Or these days... After school, even after the club activities, I don't want to go home. I don't do something desperately. Can't calm down."

Are you talking about things after the breakup?

I don't know how to respond, I turned my head to look at him, the side face of Kasamatsu-san, lit up by the full moonlight, had a more serious expression than usual, perhaps sensing my gaze, Kasamatsu-san also looked at him I.

Then, he shook my hand firmly.

"On the way to bring you here, I've been thinking about how to tell you, but to be honest, I'm really not very good at thinking about these things...even so, I'm still thinking hard."

"Ok, I know."

Because Kasamatsu-san is such a person.

He is not good at joking, and is always too serious, and even this is very attractive, presumably because of this, everyone in the basketball team is convinced to follow him and admit him.

So, when he told me to break up, I didn't even have the room to suspect that he was joking with me.

"You haven't come to school for the past few days. Although you asked for sick leave, I was the one who asked you to take leave. I still have this feeling... But at that time, I thought it was the best choice for you. , both to me and to Kobori."

"...Kobori...kun?"

I didn't understand why the name of the good man appeared in Kasamatsu's words, I blinked in a daze, and couldn't help frowning slightly, perhaps sensing my bewilderment, there was a smile on Kasamatsu's tense face, Although it is a wry smile.

"You really don't understand..."

"Kasamatsu-san always speaks indistinctly, so I can't understand."

"That's exactly what he said... Kobori said the same thing about me." Kasamatsu-san looked at the sea, "'Just say what you think! Who knows what you're thinking if you don't say anything!' After being reprimanded in this way, It's the first time I've seen him so angry, but if I were him, I'd probably be angrier than him..."

He closed his eyes, opened them again, and took a deep breath, as if making a final decision.

Then, he made up his mind.

"The reason why I broke up with you...is because I thought you fell in love with Kobori."

"……what?"

"Sorry...it sounds like you're making excuses now?"

"No, that's not the question!?"

The excessive surprise made my voice a little out of tune, and when I was alone, I would often think about the reason why I was dumped by Kasamatsu-san, but it was just because I was too nympho, too perverted, too... In short, it was all This result was caused by me doing something that Kasamatsu-san found unbearable.

But, because I fell in love with Kobori-kun?

How could this be a misunderstanding! ?

"Why do I like Kobori-kun... Although, although he has helped me a lot? I also think he is a good person? But, I have never considered love affairs at all!"

Kasamatsu-san's face was a bit complicated, and after a while, she softened, and then slowly opened her mouth.

"...During the sleepover, I saw you sniffing his clothes."

"Eh?"

"He hugged his clothes and said, 'Kasamatsu-san don't come here for now...' Then he buried his whole face in it."

This, this, is this talking about that night?

"Wait, wait a minute! I thought it was Kasamatsu-san's clothes...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I didn't mean to say that! Did you see that? When...!?"

"If you're asking when I arrived at the door that night...when you just woke up."

Didn't you see it all from the beginning! ! !

Unfortunately, at that time, I thought that Kasamatsu-san arrived later, what a shame!

No no no, the problem is not here!

"Well, it's pretty cool to tell the truth? I really didn't know it was Kobori-kun's clothes at the time. I thought it was the clothes you put on me while I was sleeping..." Confess the perverted behavior in front of me It's a shame beyond my imagination. The more I speak, the lower my voice becomes, and I can't lift my head. "I thought the clothes belonged to Kasamatsu-san, so I hugged it, and even, um, what does it smell like?" It's...! Because, Kasamatsu-san said that you are not used to too close contact, but I... really want to stay with you all the time, so even your smell is very greedy, so..."

"Ah, um... I, I know, that, I know now that it was a misunderstanding..."

I couldn't help covering my face with my empty hands because I was so ashamed.

"If this incident made Kasamatsu-san feel very concerned, he should have told me clearly at the time."

"No, how should I put it... I don't know how to bring it up, so I just..."

That's right, most people wouldn't be embarrassed to ask questions like "Why did you sniff XX's clothes just now?" Just thinking about it makes me want to die of shame!No, think about it carefully, I actually did it!

"Besides, it's not just because of this that made me decide to break up."

"?"

Isn't it just because I smelled the wrong clothes?But, but I can't think of any perverted things I did after that?And if it's related to Kobori-kun... ah...

Could it be that……

"When Kobori-kun and I were discussing what gift to buy for you...you saw it too?"

"Eh? Ah... because the distance is relatively far, so I don't know what you are talking about, it's probably what you said." Kasamatsu-san rubbed his nose with his hand embarrassedly, "I found you holding him I know now that it was a misunderstanding, but at the time I thought what you thought about him, and I always subconsciously observed how you looked when you were with him, and often talked together when you were in the dormitory, and also after school started, saying She would blush and show an embarrassed smile while talking, and the two of them exchanged email addresses but still kept it from me... To be honest, I felt really uncomfortable."

Indeed, Kasamatsu-san has become a little strange since then, and Kobori-kun and I, who are worried about him, will get together to talk about him from time to time, no matter which time it is.

What happened to Kasamatsu-san?Is Kasamatsu-san in poor health?Still have something on your mind?How can I get him back to his senses?Buying a gift?What would he like to buy?

All I was thinking about was this kind of thing, and I was trying my best to make Kasamatsu-san happy, but I didn't know that these things, in the eyes of Kasamatsu-san, who didn't know anything, looked like this.

"It's a misunderstanding..."

all of them.

"Why does Kasamatsu-san think I like Kobori-kun?" I pulled his hand hard, forcing him to look back at me and look straight into my eyes, "It doesn't matter if he can talk to Kobori-kun, or show an embarrassed smile Whether it's blushing or not, it's all because of Kasamatsu-san? Because I'm worried about Kasamatsu-san, I want to make you happy, and it makes me feel shy and blushing no matter what I mention about you. Kasamatsu-san."

"Natsu...you..."

I took a deep breath.

"I won't become like that because of someone other than Kasamatsu-san!"

No, it seems to be talking too hard, I think I want to cry again.

Sucking my sore nose, I really wanted to lower my head to avoid Kasamatsu-san's eyes, but once I did that, it felt like I had surrendered, which made me feel disgusted.

Kasamatsu-san's expression recovered from the brief shock.

I thought he would laugh at me, but he didn't.

But unexpectedly, he gave me a hug.

The sore nose bumped into his thick chest, and the subtle pain stimulated the tear glands. The patience just now was completely broken, and big tears rushed out.

"I'm sorry, Natsu."

"I don't want to listen, I'm sorry... woo woo woo..." When was the last time Kasamatsu-san hugged her tightly?Feeling this long-lost and friendly atmosphere, I grasped his clothes tightly with both hands, and vented the grievances accumulated in my heart unbearably. Misunderstood that I like other people, such Kasamatsu-san is the most annoying! Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu like the most annoying!"

"It's okay to hate me." The arm holding me seemed to be a little harder, "I still like you the most."

It's really the most annoying.

Saying such things at this time, what exactly do you want me to do in response?

Or, has this person already seen through my feelings?

"me too……"

No matter how much you hate me.

Even if you say goodbye to me, you will never be able to hold hands and hug me again.

I also still—

"I like you the most, Kasamatsu-san."

On that day, I felt that I had cried all my tears for a lifetime.

Listening to Kasamatsu-san telling all the things that a person was thinking about, everyone explained the misunderstanding, and the mood became much more comfortable. It was only then that I remembered the friends I threw at the fraternity party, as well as Honma-kun and the others In a panic, I wanted to ask him to borrow his mobile phone to call back, but Kasamatsu-san also told me with an embarrassed face that he was too anxious to run out, so he threw the bag in the school and did not bring it out. In the end, we had to go to the convenience store opposite. Borrowed a public phone to call a friend.

Fortunately, I still remember her number.

"My friend said that she has heard about it from Honma-kun..." I was relieved that I was not scolded by my friend on the phone. After hanging up the phone, I suddenly remembered that Kasamatsu-san said that he came out in a hurry, and I began to care about the reason , "Speaking of which, why did Kasamatsu-san come to Harajuku? He also appeared in a karaoke shop. I always feel...it doesn't seem like a coincidence?"

"Hmm...it wasn't a coincidence." Kasamatsu-san blushed a little, "Well, when I was alone in the gymnasium practicing at night, Kobori came to me and told me that you were going to participate in a fellowship, and asked me what is going on."

"Kobori-kun?"

I always feel very surprised...

"At that time, I thought you guys had already... Sorry, anyway, I was still misunderstanding at that time, so I felt very angry, and said to him, 'It has nothing to do with me! If you want to control it, you can control it or not!' After that, Almost got beat up by him."

"Eh!? That Kobori-kun!?"

unimaginable!An honest person with a gentle personality will be so angry that he almost hits someone... Ah, although Kasamatsu-san's words sounded very irritating to me...

"Don't put on such a face, I know I'm wrong... It's also the first time I've seen Kobori who is so furious, the degree of shock is definitely not inferior to yours. He grabbed my collar and endured it. It took a long time before he put down his clenched fist, and without saying anything, he took out his mobile phone and showed me the email your friend sent him."

——The above is the place where they are dating. If you don't want her to be snatched away by others, go there.

"...Oops, I think Kobori-kun looks a little handsome."

"Just forgive me..."

"But Kasamatsu-san is the most handsome!" I hugged his arm tightly, "Come here to find me, Kasamatsu-san is the most handsome in the world!"

"Really...you." Kasamatsu-san blushed completely when he heard what I said, he turned his face away unnaturally and coughed a few times, then raised his hand and patted my head.

Happiness is a bit too much.

The breakup a few days ago was like a farce, and it didn't feel real at all.

"Speaking of which, I still have something I haven't said to you."

The station of the return train appeared in front of me, Kasamatsu-san stopped for no reason, pushed me away from holding his arm, and stood squarely across from me.

What is this for?

Because I couldn't understand, I chose to listen to him quietly.

"Tachibana, I like you."

"Eh? This wasn't just now..."

Kasamatsu-san ignored my doubtful muttering, took my hand, and said that sentence in the most gentle voice I have ever heard.

"Can you date me?"

...That's right.

Because we officially broke up, if we don't make it clear, it's not considered a fresh start.

But I always feel that it's too easy to say yes to him directly.

I thought about it, and decided not to answer Mr. Kasamatsu's confession, and then, under his shocked gaze, let go of his holding my hand little by little.I'm not used to such pranks, I feel like my heart is pounding and I'm about to jump out, but in the end I lost to Kasamatsu-san's depressed expression.

I trotted a step, and flew up to hug him.

"Well! I would."