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Ni Xingqiao had a dream. In the dream, Yao Xu stood in front of him wearing a black dress, and said to him expressionlessly: "I have already died of the flames."

He woke up from the dream, drenched in sweat.

Ni Xingqiao lives in the school dormitory. There are two people in one room in the postgraduate dormitory. His roommate moved out when he started school, and now he lives alone.In the past, Ni Xingqiao was very afraid of living alone. He was afraid of ghosts, and he was too scared to go to the toilet at night.

But these past few years, he seems not afraid of anything, the only thing he fears is that he will never see Yao Xu again.

Sometimes he felt that Yao Xu was punishing him on purpose, but he couldn't figure out what he did wrong.

Living in the mystery all day, Ni Xingqiao felt a little tired.

But exhaustion is exhaustion, and we still have to wait.Anyway, there is no one else to like.

He got off the bed, got a glass of water, and went to the balcony to draw the curtains.It was already dawn, and Yao Xu would not die from the flames.

Ni Xingqiao drank a glass of water, went to wash and change clothes, and was about to go out

Before arriving at the teaching building, Lu Shangchen suddenly called. "Surprised, isn't it? I called you suddenly."

Ni Xingqiao stood in the lobby of the teaching building, watching people coming and going.Say, "Well, I'm going to class."

His subtext is: I'm in a hurry, hang up if you have nothing to do.

Lu Shangchen understood what he meant: "Okay, then I'll make a long story short." Ni Xingqiao leaned on the pillar next to the hall, and heard Lu Shangchen say: "The company has seconded me to the Ancheng branch for two years."

Ni Xingqiao gave a thoughtful "Oh" and said politely and distantly: "What a coincidence, I'm in Ancheng. If you need help after seniors, you can always come to me."

Lu Shangchen smiled: "Then I will thank you first.

Ni Xingqiao glanced at the time, ready to go to class: "My time is almost up, then we will contact later."

"Wait a minute." Lu Shangchen said, "You are studying in Ancheng University now, right?"

"Correct."

"I'm going to Ancheng this weekend to deal with some things, and I also want to rent the house by the way." Lu Shangchen said, "Is it convenient for you to accompany me to look at the house on the weekend?"

Ni Xingqiao didn't want to go, but he thought that Lu Shangchen took care of him a lot at school before, so he had no choice but to agree.

"Great." Lu Shangchen said happily, "Then we'll see you on the weekend." After hanging up the phone, Ni Xingqiao sighed.

Early on the weekend morning, as soon as Ni Xingqiao sat down in the library, Lu Shangchen called and said that he had arrived at the gate of Ancheng Yiyi Middle School.Ni Xingqiao said in surprise, "Why didn't you tell me in advance?"

"A surprise for you."

Ni Xingqiao didn't like such a surprise at all, so he had no choice but to pack up his books and go to the school gate to find Lu Shangchen.

Lu Shangchen came the day before, went to the company to go through the formalities, and officially joined the job next Monday.

"What about your luggage?"

"I brought some with me and put them in the hotel." Lu Shangchen said, "The other part will be sent to me by my friend after the house is rented here."

Ni Xingqiao nodded and asked him: "Senior, have you had breakfast? I'll take you to have a meal first."

"Okay." Lu Shangchen was not polite at all, and followed Ni Xingqiao to the cafeteria.

When the two were walking on the road, Ni Xingqiao was still reticent. Lu Shangchen looked at his profile and said to him, "You seem to have lost weight again."

"It's okay." Maybe it's because of getting used to it, Ni Xingqiao has indeed lost a few catties recently, but it doesn't seem obvious.

"A few days ago, I met an alumnus at a friend's bureau, who was in the same class as you."

Ni Xingqiao frowned slightly, he didn't like others talking about himself very much. "He said that you were quite famous in school at that time." Lu Shangchen smiled, "The general exam was the first in the grade."

"No." Ni Xingqiao said, "I am the second child of Wannian."

He thought of Yao Xu again, so he said, "The first one is my good friend." In fact, it was his ex-boyfriend.

"Really? He said that before the college entrance examination, you came first almost every time."

Ni Xingqiao didn't say a word. At that time, he took the first place in the exam purely for Yao Xu, but in the final college entrance examination, he still lost to Lin Suchen.

"It's been so many years, I can't remember clearly."

Lu Shangchen nodded: "That's right, a hero doesn't mention his bravery back then."

When the two arrived at the cafeteria, Ni Xingqiao asked Lu Shangchen to choose by himself, and then he swiped his card.

Ni Xingqiao had already eaten, so he just bought a bottle of drink and sat opposite Lu Shangchen.

Lu Shangchen chatted with Ni Xingqiao about some irrelevant topics, and Ni Xingqiao responded copiously.

Lin Yuzhou sent a WeChat message, asking what Ni Xingqiao has been up to lately, and if he wants to find time to go back to the mountain city to play.

Ni Xingqiao replied to him: Lu Shangchen came to Ancheng.

Lin Yuzhou: Is that the senior who likes you but dare not chase after you?Ni Xingqiao sent a "um".

Lin Yuzhou was still lying on the bed, turned over with his mobile phone, thought for a while, and told Ni Xingqiao: If he is really good, you can actually consider coming out.

After posting these words, Lin Yuzhou himself felt sorry for Yao Xu, but he watched Ni Xingqiao get more and more depressed these years, and as a friend, he really felt distressed.

The youthful and invincible boy who was alive and kicking back then is now as lifeless as a walking corpse. Who would not feel uncomfortable seeing him.

Lin Yuzhou never dared to persuade Ni Xingqiao, because many times he felt that finding Yao Xu seemed to be the only motivation to support Ni Xingqiao to live a good life. The hollow shelf collapsed.

Love is so torturous.

Ni Xingqiao here stared at the news from Lin Yuzhou for a while, and Lu Shangchen asked him, "What's wrong? Is there something wrong?"

"No." Ni Xingqiao put away his phone and took a sip of his drink, "It's not something important."

Ni Xingqiao didn't actually listen to what Lu Shangchen said afterwards. He was immersed in his own world again, thinking about Lin Yuzhou's words.In fact, he understood what Lin Yuzhou meant, and everyone felt that Yao Xu would not come back to him.

But Ni Xingqiao always believed in Yao Xu, he believed that even if Yao Xu was absent for some days, he would always come back.

Lu Shangchen looked at the absent-minded Ni Xingqiao in front of him, and he still didn't say some words when he reached his lips. .

Lu Shangchen studied in Ancheng High School, but his hometown is not here, so one of the most important things to do when he comes back this time is to rent a house.

He asked Ni Xingqiao to accompany him to see two sets of two-bedroom apartments in the neighborhood opposite Ancheng Yiyi Middle School. The reason why he chose this place was: "My company is relatively close to here. I haven't bought a car yet. There is a bus downstairs." And the subway, the transportation is more convenient.”

But in fact, the place where he works is nearly [-] kilometers away from Ancheng No. [-] Middle School, and he wants to live here just for Ni Xingqiao.

Ni Xingqiao didn't want to interfere too much in other people's lives, he only acted as a companion, and didn't even mention opinions and suggestions.

When they were looking at the house, the intermediary asked, "Is it the two of you living here?" The intermediary thought they were renting a flat together, and said, "This two-bedroom apartment is just right, the location is good, and the price is right. The landlord originally renovated the apartment. I planned to get married, but was transferred to another place not long after the installation was completed, and the two left together. The furniture is brand new, and there is no need to worry about formaldehyde, all of which have passed the test.”

Ni Xingqiao turned a deaf ear to all this, it had nothing to do with him anyway.

On the contrary, Lu Shangchen is very satisfied with this house, since he can directly see the campus of Ancheng University from here.

"How do you feel?" Lu Shangchen asked Ni Xingqiao.

Ni Xingqiao said casually, "As long as you like it."

Lu Shangchen rented the house, signed the contract and took the key on the same day.

Before Ni Xingqiao returned to school, Lu Shangchen said, "Two keys, let me put one with you."

Ni Xingqiao felt baffled.

Lu Shangchen said: "In case I forget to bring the key when I go out one day, you live opposite, and it will be convenient for me to ask you to get the key." Although Ni Xingqiao doesn't want to get involved too much, Lu Shangchen's words are also Not entirely out of the ordinary.

Thinking that Lu Shangchen didn't have any other acquaintances here, after all, the two were considered friends, so he accepted it.

Lu Shangchen heaved a sigh of relief, beaming with joy.

"You've helped me so much today, so I'll treat you to dinner tonight." Lu Shangchen said, "Let's have two more drinks, it's a way to welcome me."

"No." Ni Xingqiao said, "I have been out for a day, and I still have things to do in school, so I have to go back."

He refused flatly, and Lu Shangchen wanted to fight again: "But no matter what, you have to eat, right?"

"I'll just buy some bread."

Seeing that he was so determined, Lu Shangchen had no choice but to give up.

"Okay, then another day, I must give me a chance to treat you to a meal."

Ni Xingqiao nodded, ready to leave.

"That's right." Lu Shangchen grabbed his wrist, and Ni Xingqiao quickly withdrew his hand as if he had been electrocuted: "Senior, is there anything else?"

He doesn't like being touched by others, even if the other party is just a subconscious action.

Lu Shangchen noticed his resistance and apologized repeatedly.

"I'm sorry." Lu Shangchen took out a gift wrapped in dark blue paper from the bag he was carrying, and handed it to him, "A while ago I was on a business trip abroad, and I saw this and thought it was very suitable for you, so I bought it back.

Ni Xingqiao looked at the gift box, but didn't accept it.

He didn't even ask what it was.

"You don't get paid for nothing." Ni Xingqiao said, "Senior, I accept your wish, but I can't accept gifts."

He took half a step back and said to Lu Shangchen: "My boyfriend will be jealous.

After he finished speaking, he smiled at Lu Shangchen, turned and left.

Lu Shangchen stood there in a daze, and it took him a long time to recover.

When did this Ni Xingqiao have a boyfriend?

He stood there in a daze for a long time, when suddenly a man in black and a baseball cap walked by and hit him hard on the shoulder.

The things in his hand fell to the ground.Lu Shangchen frowned and complained: "Why don't you look at people when you walk?"

The man hurried past without looking back.

"......Neuropathy!"

Chapter One Hundred and Four

For a while, Yao Xu felt that he had almost no weaknesses. He was like a person who died once, and he didn't find it strange to experience anything again.

He doesn't care too much, nor is he afraid of too much.

However, the facts proved that the weakness that he thought he no longer had had actually been hidden in his heart all along.

He will never be able to resist Ni Xingqiao.

This kind of feeling seems to be cut continuously, and it was destined thousands of years ago to worry about this person in this life.

As soon as he came in front of this person, he became incoherent, swaying left and right, and the things he had decided would always be led away by the other party.

Moreover, Ni Xingqiao always seems to be able to arouse his own terrible desires, possessive desires, intrusive desires, and even destructive desires.

He wanted to leave red and purple marks on Ni Xingqiao's body, he wanted to see him sweat and cry, he wanted to hear this person choked up and begged for mercy before saying he loved him.

Sometimes Yao Xu would reflect on what he should do. He obviously wanted to treat Ni Xingqiao tenderly, but he couldn't help wanting to possess him even harder.

No erection?It doesn't matter.It will set you on fire.

Yao Xu kissed, caressed, and swallowed instinctively. They were all men, and they knew too well how to be aroused.

However, Ni Xingqiao's reaction was wrong.

Ni Xingqiao was eager and fearful at the same time, his hands were tightly grasping the hem of his clothes, and his home clothes were crumpled.

His throat was tight, his body was covered in cold sweat, his back was pressed against the wall, and he stared straight ahead without any focus on his eyes.

After so many years, he thought he would be fine when Yao Xu came back.

However, that scene back then haunted him like a nightmare, making him seem to be drowning in the underworld.

Yao Xu noticed his abnormality and raised his head to look at him.

Ni Xingqiao was trembling all over, not the kind of trembling caused by lust encroaching on his body, but fear, a fear that was very unfamiliar to Yao Xu.

Yao Xu stared at Ni Xingqiao for a while, then frowned. "Is it so reluctant?"

Yao Xu looked at him worriedly: "Why are you sweating so much?

Yao Xu raised his hand to touch his face, the cold sweat made him flustered.

Yao Xu didn't know what happened to him, he only knew that Ni Xingqiao was experiencing great pain now.

He held the other's hand tightly and wiped his sweat carefully.It took Ni Xingqiao a while to come back to his senses. He was standing there disheveled and began to cry at some point.

Ni Xingqiao was sad and disappointed, angry with himself, and also sorry for Yao Xu.

He hugged Yao Xu subconsciously, for fear that the other party would leave because of his lack of cooperation.

He hugged him tighter and tighter, and Yao Xu realized more and more that something that he didn't know was happening to Ni Xingqiao.

"What's wrong?" Yao Xu finally raised his hand.

He knew that with such a hug, they would be inseparable.

Now he and Ni Xingqiao are no longer the two boys they used to be. They even have different social and social situations, but Yao Xu has never cared about this.

What he cares about is that if one day, he really hurts Ni Xingqiao...

"I'm done." Ni Xingqiao was trembling in Yao Xu's arms, and at this moment he finally broke down emotionally, crying uncontrollably.

For so many years, Ni Xingqiao digested this secret by himself.He was anxious and painful countless times, but he never dared to let others know.

Originally, he didn't want Yao Xu to know.

He was afraid that Yao Xu would feel that all this was because of him, that Yao Xu would blame himself and be upset, that Yao Xu would feel sorry for himself.

This is the last thing Ni Xingqiao needs, he just needs Yao Xu's love, it's as simple as that.

But now, he felt that because of this incident, he was extremely disappointed in himself, and because of this, he felt that he could not fall in love with Yao Xu properly.

He was so scared to death that he would be like this for the rest of his life.

Not only can't get an erection, he even feels terrible about having sex.What can he do...

Yao Xu didn't know what happened to Ni Xingqiao, but he could feel the great grief from the other party.

Ni Xingqiao cried in front of him, which made Yao Xu gradually regain his former feeling.

In the past, he was the person that Ni Xingqiao could rely on with confidence, and he was also the person who made the other party trust him without reservation.

During the eight or nine years, who knows how many days and nights and reincarnations it was.They don't count anymore.

Those past times have become a glimpse at this moment, the important thing is why the person in my arms is crying now.

Yao Xu caressed his back and kissed his ears lightly.

Just like many years ago, when they were childhood sweethearts.Ni Xingqiao cried for a long time, they just stood at the door of the house in such a mess, and Yao Xu also patiently accompanied him.

Over the years, Yao Xu's personality has also changed a lot, or in other words, he has just returned to his most authentic personality, and he doesn't need to be as restrained as before, and without Ni Xingqiao by his side, he doesn't need to be gentle.

But during the [-] minutes when Ni Xingqiao held him and wept, the temperature and tears of the other party seemed to help him regain his memory, and his heart became soft again.

After all, he and Ni Xingqiao are destined to be two people.

The baby kiss that was like a joke more than [-] years ago may have been God's guidance to parents, and that fate should have belonged to them.

Ni Xingqiao cried until he had no more tears, and was completely tired from crying.

He lay on Yao Xu's shoulder in despair, feeling the sense of being hugged by the other party.

For many years, he has been waiting for this embrace.

"Ah."

Ni Xingqiao pursed his lips.

After Yao Xu left that year, he also seemed to be a different person, but now, Yao Xu finally came back, as long as he saw him, Ni Xingqiao seemed to be the happy little fairy from before.

All his emotions are only drawn by this person.

Even his character is determined by Yao Xu.

Ni Xingqiao kept calling Yao Xu's name as if to confirm something.

Yao Xu answered one by one patiently, feeling a little helpless.

He could feel Ni Xingqiao's unreservedness, the more the other party was like this, the more shameful he felt about himself.

He is hiding his ugly side to win the other party's love. He is afraid that he will be exposed and annoying.

What he looks forward to most is to hug Ni Xingqiao again, that cute little prince who lives in the castle, eagerly waiting for the knight to come out of the evil black forest.

After all these years of wanting nothing, Yao Xu's heart is alive again at this moment.He remembered the words he said when he confessed to Ni Xingqiao back then: If you look at me, I will live.

It turns out that no matter how many years, it has always been like this.

Yao Xu resigned to his fate.

After Ni Xingqiao confirmed, he closed his eyes and relaxed.

"Aren't you going to pull up your pants first?" Yao Xu couldn't hold back and asked this question.Ni Xingqiao suddenly laughed: "You pulled it down for me, and you are responsible for lifting it up."

Yao Xu sighed, and wanted to let go of Ni Xingqiao and help him lift his trousers, but Ni Xingqiao didn't let go, the two hugged in an awkward position, Yao Xu pulled his home trousers and came up.

"Tell me." Yao Xu asked, "What happened?"

He wanted to get up and find a tissue to wipe Ni Xingqiao's sweat, but Ni Xingqiao grabbed his clothes tightly and refused to let him go.

Yao Xu had no choice but to use his own clothes to wipe him slowly, his heart was clenched tightly.

Ni Xingqiao bit his lip.

"If you don't tell me, I can only understand that you don't want to have sex with me." Ni Xingqiao glared at him: "Don't use this trick against me again, I'm not afraid of you anymore."

Yao Xu had no choice but to change his attitude and said, "Then please, tell me what's wrong?" "

Yao Xu quietly waited for him to confess.

Ni Xingqiao was silent for a while, then let go of Yao Xu, went into the room and took out a can of beer from the refrigerator.

He stood there, drank it in one gulp, and was a little dizzy.

Yao Xu said: "It looks very unusual, I have to rely on the strength of alcohol to tell." Ni Xingqiao's eyes were red, and he squeezed the can hard with his hands.

"I can't get an erection."

"What?" Yao Xu looked at him in disbelief.

"It's useless to think of any solution, and it's useless to see a doctor." Ni Xingqiao pouted sadly, "I'm a useless person."

Yao Xu stood there, looking at him with frowning.

Ni Xingqiao lowered his head, gritted his teeth hard, and finally said the matter.

Pressured in my heart for so many years, Ni Xingqiao is really going crazy.

Because of this incident, he would always quarrel with himself, belittle himself, berate himself, and even hurt himself.

Reason told him that people don't live for erections, and he still has many important things to pay attention to.

But isn't it like this for everyone, the more you lose something, the more you care about it.Ni Xingqiao even talked about sex because of this incident, he felt shameful.

"How did this happen..." Yao Xu muttered softly, as if he suddenly remembered something, he asked Ni Xingqiao, "Is it because of Qi Meiling?"

Ni Xingqiao's tears flowed out like a flood, and he knew the answer without answering Yao Xu.

That scene was their mutual nightmare.

However, Yao Xu did not expect that Ni Xingqiao had to bear more than he imagined.

He walked over and hugged each other tightly.

For a moment, regret and heartache consumed him.

"I'm sorry." Yao Xu was heartbroken, he never thought that his fatal injury to Ni Xingqiao had already begun since then.In other words, it started from the moment he fell in love with Ni Xingqiao.

Ni Xingqiao burst into tears again, he didn't want Yao Xu to feel like a crying idiot, but he really couldn't help it.

Over the years, countless emotions have been suppressed in his heart, and Ni Xingqiao has never felt that he is a person who can bear these.

He is not brave, not strong, not strong.

He just wanted to act coquettishly to Yao Xu, wanted Yao Xu to coax and pamper him, wanted Yao Xu to accompany him to face all the difficulties in life.He is such a worthless person.

But because Yao Xu was not around in the past few years, he has been enduring it.Those emotions finally vented out today, because his Yao Xu hugged him again.

"Yao Xu..." Ni Xingqiao wiped away his tears with Yao Xu's clothes, "You are sorry for me."

"sorry."

"Then make it up to me and don't leave me again." Ni Xingqiao cried and said, "Is that okay?"