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Yao Xu watched his world collapse bit by bit with his own eyes.His carefree life since he was in his early teens is over.In the beginning, he was just hit by stones, but later, the stones accumulated and turned into a mountain on his body.

However, this heavy mountain also has precious green streams, so that he can feel the breath of life.

However, one day, he suddenly discovered that the so-called green grass had loosened from its roots, and the briskly flowing stream flowed far away and never returned.In an instant, the land collapsed, and for a long time, Yao Xu felt that he could never stand up again.

He always took Qi Meiling as a lesson from the past, telling himself that he must never be blinded by resentment and hatred, and he forced himself to look at the beautiful side of the world - look at Ni Xingqiao who brought this beauty to him.However, Qi Meiling's words became the last straw that overwhelmed him.Your little boyfriend brought me here.

This sentence was like a nightmare, replaying in Yao Xu's ears non-stop.He didn't want to believe that Ni Xingqiao betrayed him, he kept telling himself that it wouldn't be Ni Xingqiao.

But Yao Xu had already reached the edge of the cliff, and his tense nerves were about to collapse in a second.

When he opened and closed his eyes, Qi Meiling said to him with a hideous face, "Your little boyfriend brought me here." It drove Yao Xu almost crazy.

He thought that he should question Ni Xingqiao and ask that person if he did it.

But he couldn't even get close to her. Almost every time he found Ni Xingqiao, he could see Qi Meiling not far away.

Yao Xu felt that maybe he had hallucinations, and before Qi Meiling went crazy, he was already going crazy.

Such a Yao Xu could no longer bear any accidents, and he didn't even dare to approach Ni Xingqiao anymore.

He was afraid that it was not an illusion, and he was also afraid that Ni Xingqiao had really betrayed him.Yao Xu struggles with such emotions every day, almost reaching an untouchable critical point.

He also knew that even if Ni Xingqiao had never betrayed him, there was nothing he could do or should not appear in front of Ni Xingqiao now.Yao Xu is in a nightmare, which doesn't necessarily happen at any moment, like hysteria, surrounded by Qi Meiling who wants him to die.

It's not impossible to die, but Yao Xu doesn't want to die in Qi Meiling's hands.When he was awake, he felt terrible and scared, unable to face himself like this, let alone let Ni Xingqiao see him.He can only escape.

He would have no home, no friends, let alone a lover.

He didn't know how to face it, and realized that for him now, escape was the only way out.

Whether it's him, Ni Xingqiao, or even Qi Meiling, they all need time and space to put everything back in place.

Once everything was in place, the hallucinations that haunted him would be fine.Yao Xu, who made up his mind, wandered the streets and alleys with nothing, doing odd jobs everywhere to make ends meet.

There was no last meal, and he huddled in the part-time job to make do with every night. He was often awakened by nightmares, or his co-workers found out that something was wrong, and he had a scuffle, ending with him apologizing after waking up.Yao Xu knew that he still couldn't get rid of Qi Meiling.There is nothing more sad than death, Yao Xu understood this sentence firsthand.

Just like that, he spent several months, from autumn to winter, wearing thin cotton padded clothes, moving goods with those dark-skinned workers in their 40s and [-]s in the warehouse.

On a snowy day, his hands were frostbitten and his skin was chapped. The pain made him frown.Even so, Yao Xu doesn't want to go back.

He tries to erase the past from his mind every day. He even uses a fake name when he helps the workers. Anyway, the temporary workers don't even sign the labor contract. No one cares whether his name is Yao Xu or what.For a month, he forgot that he was the first in grade.For two months, he forgot his diary hidden in his schoolbag.For three months, he forgot the slap Qi Meiling slapped him on the face.For four months, he forgot what his original name was.

However, no matter how many months, he still remembers a boy named Ni Xingqiao who likes to eat double skin milk, likes to sleep late, and likes to lean on him and act like a baby.

This made Yao Xu extremely painful.

He wanted to find Ni Xingqiao countless times, but his inner demons were still difficult to overcome. Once, he even thought of Ni Xingqiao as Qi Meiling in a trance, and broke off the second-hand mobile phone he bought to secretly contact Ni Xingqiao.Yao Xu suddenly realized that he was also caught in the same whirlpool as Qi Meiling, he hated others as well as himself.With him like this, it was even more difficult for him to face Ni Xingqiao again.

Especially when he knew that Ni Xingqiao almost died at the hands of Qi Meiling.But he still had a glimmer of expectation. He felt that he was like this because Qi Meiling was still there. When they went to the mountain city, as long as Qi Meiling didn't follow, he would gradually get better.

When he recovers, he can return to Ni Xingqiao's side.In the mountain city at the end of August, the sunshine is more vicious than that in Ancheng.Yao Xu was dressed in black, wearing a black baseball cap and a black mask, standing at the gate of Shancheng University, as if attending a funeral.He mourned himself.

He stood like this for a long time, until the security guard at the door came over and asked him if there was anything wrong.

There are many students like this every year. They failed the college entrance examination and failed to enter the ideal school. They were unwilling, so they came here to have a look.It's just that the security guard didn't know that Yao Xu could have walked into this school easily—if those things hadn't happened before the college entrance examination.

But now, Yao Xu is standing here, but all he sees is Qi Meiling standing in front of the door, smiling like a deadly ghost.

He no longer knew whether it was real or his hallucination. Under the scorching heat, he only felt cold.

At this moment, Yao Xu's hope was shattered, whether it was true or not, it was a fatal blow to Yao Xu.

He took the switchblade out of his pocket, burst out, and rushed in that direction.

The security guard was startled when he saw this, and quickly called the Master to stop the mad young man.

If he didn't get into this school, he would lose his mind and go insane—that's what the security guard thought.

But for Yao Xu, he just confirmed once again that his illusion is still there.

He is a psychopath.

He checked the information, and the current self is a typical symptom of schizophrenia.

He laughed at himself, after all, he was driven crazy by Qi Meiling.

Under the watchful eyes of the security guards, Yao Xu left silently, his heart was empty and full of dust, and all the good things could not stay there for a while.

But when he walked away, he still couldn't help thinking that I had been here, so it was not a broken promise.

On the first day of Shancheng University's freshman registration, Ni Xingqiao stayed up all night.He was lying on the single bed in the dormitory, tired but unable to fall asleep.Because it was the freshman enrollment period, many students and parents from afar arrived at the school late at night. It was almost twelve o'clock, and the corridors of the dormitory were still noisy.

Qi Weining sat on the bed and read a book with the desk lamp on. One of the other two roommates lived with his parents at a relative's house, and the other was on the phone on the balcony.Ni Xingqiao turned over, and the more he lay down, the more anxious he got up, changed his shoes and prepared to go out.

Qi Weining asked him, "Where are you going so late?"

"Go out and blow some air." Ni Xingqiao felt annoyed, thinking maybe it would be better if he went for a walk.

Qi Weining thought for a while, and followed Ni Xingqiao out after he went out.There are people coming and going outside, even though it is late at night, it is still lively.Ni Xingqiao walked slowly on the campus, he had no destination, just wandering around randomly.

After walking for a while, he suddenly realized that there seemed to be someone following behind him, and when he looked back, he realized that it was Qi Weining.At night, Ni Xingqiao just turned around to look at Qi Weining.I haven't seen him for a year, and Qi Weining is not the same as before.

The guy who was always timid in the past has become a lot more magnanimous, so he doesn't look away timidly when they look at each other. "Why are you following me?" Ni Xingqiao asked. "I'm afraid something will happen to you."

Ni Xingqiao laughed "crazy"

Qi Weining thought that he would be discovered anyway, so he simply stepped forward.The two walked forward side by side, Qi Weining said, "I know about Yao Xu."

Ni Xingqiao gritted his molars hard, but did not speak.

"But I thought he would at least take the graduation exam, and he still had to go to university."

"He's in more pain than you think." Ni Xingqiao said, "If he really couldn't hold on anymore, Yao Xu wouldn't give up."

Ni Xingqiao was tired of hearing these words.

He has no energy, no strength, and he can't speak without talking.

"Your personality has changed a lot." Qi Weining said.Ni Xingqiao smiled softly, "You too."

He glanced at Qi Weining "Why are you talking so much now?" Qi Weining also smiled, he has indeed changed a lot.

"I met a man in my third year of high school." Qi Weining said, "He made me realize that it takes a little extravagance to be happy." Ni Xingqiao turned to look at him, not expecting that such a person as Qi Weining would be able to move people's hearts.

"It turned out to be a relationship."

"No." Qi Weining said, "I pursued him unilaterally." The two walked to the small square behind the theater, where there was no one around, and they sat on the big rock next to it.Qi Weining asked Ni Xingqiao, "Do you smoke?" Ni Xingqiao was taken aback, "You have learned to smoke?"

"I learned from that person." Qi Weining took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, and smoked it skillfully.

Ni Xingqiao felt strange looking at him puffing out the clouds. He found that in a year, many people's lives had undergone tremendous changes.

It turns out that this is life.So elusive.

Qi Weining said, "Smoking a cigarette when you are in a bad mood will make you feel much better."

Of course Ni Xingqiao tried it, the cigarette choked him so much that he burst into tears.He shook his head, expressing that he didn't want to smoke, but after a while, he still asked Qi Weining for one.

In the middle of the night, the two of them were sitting in a small empty square smoking a cigarette, and they didn't speak for a while.

This time, Ni Xingqiao was not choked to tears like last time, but smoking didn't make him feel better either.

"My grades in the college entrance examination are very poor." After smoking, Qi Weining spoke first.It was only then that Ni Xingqiao remembered that he and Yao Xu's strongest rivals seemed to have disappeared in the college entrance examination.

Ni Xingqiao looked at him without asking why, thinking that he would naturally say what he wanted to say.

"Because in the last half a year, I devoted myself to that man."

Ni Xingqiao was a little surprised, he didn't expect that Qi Weining also liked a man.

Qi Weining said, "He is much, much older than me." He paused, and continued, "I followed him, imitated him, and made myself into something he might like." Ni Xingqiao raised his head with a frown look at the night sky.

"But to him, I'm like a little toy." Qi Weining smiled, "But this feeling is quite interesting." Ni Xingqiao didn't understand: "Why do you say that?"

"Because I have found the meaning of my life." Qi Weining said, "Before, I lived a well-behaved life, with my hands tied, afraid of this and that. I was afraid that I was not good enough and would be laughed at. I was afraid that I would do something out of line. Things, causing trouble for my dad. I don't live for myself at all."

He took out another cigarette and lit it.

Ni Xingqiao listened quietly to what he said, and suddenly seemed to understand why Yao Xu left so decisively.

"I was originally a pet." Qi Weining said, "I was domesticated and controlled. Since I am the same to everyone, I might as well find a more interesting owner."

He smiled softly, "My new master doesn't love me either, but besides love, he can give me everything I want to experience. At least, I have also been satisfied."

Ni Xingqiao felt that this sounded weird, but he also knew that he was not qualified to dictate other people's lives.

"The college entrance examination was a mess, but fortunately, I was given a spot in the math competition, otherwise we would not have met here today." Ni Xingqiao disagreed with his outlook on life, but didn't say anything. "That's why I thought Yao Xu was just like me, he made a quick move, and at least left himself an extra way."

"Yao Xu won't do it." Ni Xingqiao said, "Yao Xu became so ruthless that he wouldn't even blink if he cut off his own bones."

"I really envy him." Qi Weining said, "Compared to this, I'm still very bad."

Ni Xingqiao lay down on the big rock, and the two of them didn't speak anymore, each looking at the starry sky and thinking about something.

The sky is full of stars, and I don't know if Yao Xu will also look up at this moment, and think about him by the way.