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When Ni Xingqiao woke up, it was already dark and the injections were finished.

His high fever has subsided, but he still feels a little uncomfortable. "I have to come later tomorrow." The nurse said, "Don't forget." Ni Xingqiao nodded, sitting beside the hospital bed, pressing the needle hole with his hand, a little dizzy.

After sitting like this for three to five minutes, Ni Xingqiao got up, got dressed and was about to go out.

Yao Xu followed behind him, Ni Xingqiao walked a few steps and looked back at him. "How much did it cost?" Ni Xingqiao asked hoarsely.Yao Xu took out the receipts and handed them to him. "You really want me." "It's not easy." Ni Xingqiao suddenly laughed.

It was interesting, not at all what he had imagined.Ni Xingqiao took the receipt, glanced at it, and then handed it to Yao Xu: "If you don't return it today, let's do it another day."

Yao Xu didn't say anything, he made up his mind and followed him out.It didn't know when it was snowing outside again, Ni Xingqiao muttered, "There has been a lot of snow these two days.

Yao Xu subconsciously wanted to light a cigarette, but just as he touched the cigarette case, he remembered that the person beside him was still sick, so he gave up. "You take me home." "No."

"No." Ni Xingqiao said, "I'm sick because of you." Yao Xu looked at him, and felt that this guy was hiding eight hundred things. "Hurry up." Ni Xingqiao walked out first, out of the hospital gate, turned right, and there was a bus stop. "Let's take a taxi." Yao Xu said.

Taking Ni Xingqiao's body into consideration, he took a taxi back home comfortably and quickly. "Take the bus."

Yao Xu couldn't resist him, so he had to wait for the bus with others.Ni Xingqiao stood there in a daze for a while, the snow fell on his head.Yao Xu stood half a meter away from him. After a while, he leaned over and put his hands on top of his head to help him block the snow.Ni Xingqiao was instantly moved by this, and he began to believe that no matter how long it had passed, no matter what had happened, Yao Xu still loved him without hesitation as before.

"I still love you very much." Ni Xingqiao's throat hurt when he spoke, but he still wanted to say it.

Yao Xu's eyes flickered for a moment, but he didn't respond.

"But I'm also very angry with you." Ni Xingqiao glared at Yao Xu, feeling depressed.

The bus slowly entered the station. There were a lot of people getting off the bus at the hospital, and there were also a lot of people getting on the bus.

The half-empty bus was filled with passengers in an instant, Yao Xu and Ni Xingqiao squeezed into the crowd, sticking very close.

Ni Xingqiao looked up at the pull ring of the bus, and instead of pulling it, he had to drag Yao Xu to keep his balance.

Yao Xu didn't push him away, didn't say anything, just let him go.The bus drove swayingly, stopping at every stop, and passengers got on and off.

When approaching the terminal, there were vacant seats, and the two finally sat down.

Yao Xu asked, "Where is the finish line?" Ni Xingqiao pretended not to hear.

They sat on the bus like this, looking at the snow and the street scene outside the window.Yao Xu occasionally glanced at Ni Xingqiao from the corner of his eye, but he didn't know what the other party was thinking.

Along the way, Yao Xu recalled certain times in the past.

When he was in school, he occasionally took the bus by himself, and occasionally with Ni Xingqiao.

But Ni Xingqiao is squeamish, he doesn't like public transport, it's crowded and slow, so most of the time they take taxis.

But what Yao Xu misses the most is the days when they went to school by bicycle. In the early morning, he waited downstairs at the other party's house, waiting happily for his sweetheart to appear.In a flash, it has been so many years.

Ni Xingqiao didn't know when he leaned against the window and fell asleep again. When the bus bumped, he frowned.

He woke up in a daze, leaned on Yao Xu's shoulder recklessly, and put his hand on Yao Xu's arm.

Yao Xu sat upright without moving, just quietly looking ahead.When he was about to reach the terminal, Yao Xu woke up Ni Xingqiao softly to make him refreshed, otherwise the cold wind would make his cold worse when he got off the bus.When Ni Xingqiao opened his eyes, he seemed to have returned to the past in a daze. He and Yao Xu were still innocent teenagers. The only trouble was that they failed to sit at the same table because of exam mistakes. "Old Cao has always missed you." Ni Xingqiao said, "He also misses you very much."

Yao Xu was stunned for a moment, then turned his head to look out the window on the other side.In fact, before the college entrance examination, Cao Jun found Yao Xu.

At that time, Yao Xu was working as a helper in a car wash shop. He didn't know how Cao Jun found him, but the man came.

Cao Jun invited him to a meal, and the head teacher who was always dignified in front of the students drank alcohol that day

Yao Xu looked at his red eyes, and listened to his persuasion, and knew in his heart that Cao Jun is a good teacher.But he is not a good student.

Yao Xu finally rejected Cao Jun's suggestion to let him go back to take the exam, because for Yao Xu, the college entrance examination could not change his fate.

The world has collapsed, and he cannot rebuild it.

"I heard that Lao Cao is still teaching students, and he will be in his third year of high school." Ni Xingqiao said, "Let's go and see him some other day." "Let's talk about it."

The bus announces the stop, the end has arrived.

It seems that everything will have an end, no matter the result is good or bad, people have to face it.

Ni Xingqiao and Yao Xu got up and got out of the car through the back door.Yao Xu asked, "Where is your home?"

Ni Xingqiao slapped his head, "Oh, I accidentally fell asleep." It was hard for Yao Xu not to believe that he did it on purpose.

So the two had no choice but to walk back slowly along the path through the snow.

Ni Xingqiao said: "I really like where I live now." Yao Xu didn't speak. "I think you will like it too." Yao Xu remained silent.

"By the way, you still owe me an apology." Yao Xu looked at him.

"You framed me." Ni Xingqiao said, "I can swear that I have never betrayed you since I was a child."

He stopped and looked at Yao Xu seriously: "From birth to now, I have said many harmless nonsense and lied, but I have always been sincere to you."

Ni Xingqiao said word by word, "Yao Xu, you have to believe me." Because Yao Xu didn't trust him, he was also a little sad.

Yao Xu looked into his eyes, the two of them finally calmed down and had a frank conversation.

"Why didn't you ask me for proof?" Ni Xingqiao said, "If someone provokes us, you will believe it."

Yao Xu stared at him for a while, then looked away.Of course it's not that simple.

"Are you disappointed?" Yao Xu said, "I am this kind of person." "Very disappointed." Ni Xingqiao said, "So you have to apologize to me." He looked at Yao Xu, "Now, immediately, apologize to me." Yao Xu looked at him.

"If you apologize, I will forgive you."

Ni Xingqiao didn't want to complain to Yao Xu, because he knew that compared with Yao Xu's experience over the years, his suffering was nothing worth mentioning.However, he cannot accept Yao Xu's misunderstanding of him, so he must apologize.

The two looked at each other, Yao Xu didn't speak for a long time.This made Ni Xingqiao feel that time passed very slowly, as if they were walking towards a dark road full of unknowns.Ni Xingqiao said, "Did you do it on purpose?" He deliberately didn't look for me, and deliberately made me suffer.

"Sometimes I really hate you." Ni Xingqiao said, "Don't you think that you are actually selfish and cruel?" Yao Xu gritted his molars, of course he knew.He has been like this from beginning to end, harming others and himself. "You made me fall in love with you at the beginning, and then ran away without a word." Ni Xingqiao took a deep breath, and said to Yao Xu, "I don't know where you are or how you are doing these years. Suffering, guessing every day. I guess if you will be hurt or bullied, I am afraid that you will have a bad life. But what about you? You actually know how to find me, even if you give me a little News, let me stop waiting so endlessly."

Ni Xingqiao felt wronged, he didn't want to complain at first, but when facing Yao Xu, he always couldn't hide any thoughts.

He couldn't help but want to say, couldn't help letting Yao Xu know how difficult he had been for so many years, and couldn't help letting Yao Xu know that he was really waiting for him all the time.

"You just want to see me suffer," Ni Xingqiao said, "You just want to prove how much I love you in this way. You are so bad, Yao Xu!" Yao Xu listened to him quietly and had to admit , Everything Ni Xingqiao said is true.He is that bad.So selfish.So cruel.

But at the same time, he really loves Ni Xingqiao, but he doesn't even know how to face his own life, nor how to love others.

Ni Xingqiao should hate him.

"I don't know how to face you." Yao Xu finally said it.He didn't know how to speak, and he didn't dare to confess to Ni Xingqiao.He was afraid that Ni Xingqiao would be afraid of him.

He didn't know how to tell Ni Xingqiao that he was no longer normal after that time, just like Qi Meiling back then.

He is now just a schizophrenic who relies on medication to maintain his condition. He will have hallucinations and auditory hallucinations. Although he has been relatively stable recently, this is a time bomb, and he does not know the moment of explosion.He always felt that being by Ni Xingqiao's side would only make his life worse.Cowardly.Desire.

Yao Xu became a person whom he was not ashamed of.

Selfish, evil, extreme.Yao Xu knew that this was himself now.

The person in front of him was terribly wronged, and he also had some resentment towards Yao Xu. "Yao Xu, why did you become so bad?" Ni Xingqiao repeated.Ni Xingqiao glared at him fiercely, and felt pain in the apex of his heart after speaking.Yao Xu had to be honest, "I've always been so bad." Back then, if it wasn't for Yao Xu, Ni Xingqiao wouldn't fall in love with boys in a daze, and he wouldn't suffer what happened later.

The teenage Yao Xu is not kind. He doesn't care about the other person's feelings and drags people into trouble. He has always been so bad.

Ni Xingqiao took a deep breath, spread his hands and said, "Give me a cigarette." Yao Xu kept his hands in the pockets of his cotton jacket and did not move. "Don't apologize to me, and don't give me a cigarette!"

Ni Xingqiao was upset, he went to touch Yao Xu's pocket and took out the pack of cigarettes.

He stood in front of Yao Xu and smoked one cigarette after another until the cigarette case was empty.

"I used to think that I was the person who knew you best." Ni Xingqiao said, "It was only later that I realized that you have many secrets that I don't know." Everyone has a dark side. "

"You hid it on purpose and didn't show it to me." Ni Xingqiao said, "But I'm really curious about what your dark side looks like." Yao Xu looked at him.

"Why didn't you talk?" Ni Xingqiao asked. "I'm afraid I'll scare you if I say it."

Ni Xingqiao sneered, "It's really interesting." He gritted his teeth with hatred, and really wanted to fight Yao Xu. "I've been frightened enough these days." Ni Xingqiao said, "Why haven't you apologized yet?"

Yao Xu said, "My dark side has already eaten you eight hundred times."

Ni Xingqiao looked at him in surprise. "Because of that bullshit misunderstanding" because I miss you and are afraid of you.

Yao Xu didn't want to admit it, but he had to admit it.In these years, he enjoyed freedom, but also suffered pain.He doesn't regret his original choice, but at the same time, he has to bear the shortcomings brought about by his original choice.

He looked at the person in front of him, but he didn't say that he had imagined countless times that this person was lying naked on the bed and being ravaged by him.All his emotions towards Ni Xingqiao turned into fantasies of sexual abuse.He knew it was wrong, but he did it.

Ni Xingqiao looked blankly at Yao Xu who kept silent, feeling that he was becoming more and more unfamiliar to him.

"We seem to have become strangers." Ni Xingqiao said, "Do you have this feeling?"

"It was originally." Yao Xu said, "We are all different from before."

Totally different.

Even the love that has been rooted in each other's hearts for many years has actually changed.They are no longer innocent and pure teenagers, and that love is no longer pure.Ni Xingqiao's cell phone suddenly received a message, he took it out to see that it was from Lin Yuzhou.

[Forgot to ask, did you sleep with Yao Xu] Ni Xingqiao rolled his eyes and ignored him.

"Yao Xu, do you want to turn back time?" Ni Xingqiao asked suddenly.Yao Xu didn't speak.

Ni Xingqiao had guesses about the answer in his mind, and he thought Yao Xu probably didn't want to.

"Then do you still love me?" Ni Xingqiao stared at Yao Xu.Of course love.

Yao Xu really wanted to tell him categorically, but is it really possible to love now?

Ni Xingqiao saw his hesitation, but he didn't understand what he was hesitating about.

The always frank Ni Xingqiao would not beat around the bush, he looked at Yao Xu calmly.

"I think, I will still love you." Ni Xingqiao said.

Yao Xu frowned slightly, not knowing how to respond to Ni Xingqiao for a while.

Over the past few years, how could he not know that Ni Xingqiao still loves him, and loves him so much that Yao Xu feels that he is not worthy of his love.Ni Xingqiao said: "But it is true that I am angry with you." He looked at Yao Xu firmly, "You rely on me to love you, torment me, torture me, and bully me. I will keep these accounts for you. Yao Xu Don't worry, I'm not such an easy person to fool, and I will get all these debts back from you one by one."

Yao Xu looked at the person in front of him, not knowing what to say.

What right does he have to defend himself now? Everything Ni Xingqiao said is true.

"Okay." Yao Xu said, "Then I'll wait for you to collect the debt." After he finished speaking, he raised his foot and continued walking.

Ni Xingqiao felt unhappy, bent down and rolled a snowball, hitting Yao Xu's back.

"You haven't apologized to me yet?" What kind of person is this!

Ni Xingqiao thought, this must not be the real Yao Xu.

However, when he quickly caught up with him, he had to admit that this was the real Yao Xu.

"I might be mad at you." Yao Xu fell silent again. "Okay, just be dumb"