After I divorced from chaos step

The first time Chuya Zhongya heard Yuan Qingxi's name was in a late spring afternoon.

He worked continuously for 86 days, and suppressed several waves of hostile forces in several countries. He was busy from winter to spring, and he did not even return to Japan during the Chinese New Year.

The leader of the port mafia finally took the initiative to grant him two days of annual leave to relax.Zhongyuan Zhong didn't feel tired, but he hadn't been idle for a long time.

He didn't go to the bar to drink with his subordinates, and he also declined the invitation of Ozaki's red leaves to enjoy the flowers. He came to Meizizi Duck Farm on the outskirts of Kamakura alone.

He formed an indissoluble bond with this duck farm very early on.At first, it was just because he happened to pass by on a mission and rescued a group of ducks and an old lady who were swept into the sky by the storm.

Although he is a member of the port mafia, he often encounters injustice and is helpful to others.

This is not the first old lady he has helped, but it is the most persistent one.He was so persistent that even if he went to hire a private detective, he still wanted to find out his whereabouts, so he sent a pennant.

This was the first and only pennant received in the history of the port mafia, which even alarmed the leader of the port mafia, Mori Ogai.

When he heard the news, he was also surprised and speechless.

The content of the pennant [Zhongyuanzhong is also a good person] is incompatible with the atmosphere of the mafia, more like satire, which made him laughed by his subordinates, which he was reluctant to do.

But when he heard that the old lady walked from Kamakura to Yokohama overnight, his heart was touched.

He went to see the old lady, an old man whose face he didn't quite remember.

really weird.

He clearly forgot the day he passed by the duck farm and how many ducks he had saved, but when the old lady spoke the first words to him, he suddenly felt a strange feeling.

She said: "Son, why do you seem to be thinner than last time? It's because you worked too hard and didn't rest, okay?"

Very familiar feeling, very strange feeling.

Is he thin?

he does not know.

He can manipulate gravity by himself, so why would he pay attention to things like weight?

But no one would ever tell him that he lost weight.

No one would hold his hand naturally and kindly, and tell him to eat well, go to bed early and get up early.

It was really strange that he didn't resist the feeling.

When the old lady Hanamaru came to the Port Mafia one evening, she brought a pennant and large bags of agricultural and sideline products.Zhong Yuan also accepted them all, and sent her on the train back to Kamakura.

"Nakaya-kun, I'll come to see you next time—"

Grandma Hanamaru stood on the train, smiling and waving at him.

The wind made her end sound very long, the train roared past, and the background was the setting sun. He stood on the platform for a long time, thinking to himself, where will there be a next time?

He is busy all day, always on business trips, and even absent from cadre meetings.This time it was just a coincidence, otherwise the old lady would not have seen him at all.

Wait, what did she mean by that, she would still walk to Yokohama like this?

Where did she get her contact information?He didn't give her a cell phone number.

Hey.

He was struggling with this matter, his eyes fell on the long road ahead, at the end of the road came a boy who looked like seven or eight years old.

He ran excitedly, shouting as he ran: "Dad, come and catch me."

Behind him, a middle-aged man ran exhaustingly, panting while running: "Kazuya, wait for me."

The boy stopped on purpose, and was picked up by the man on purpose.

"I caught Kazuya."

The boy burst out laughing: "Dad is amazing! On Boys' Day, I want two big carp banners!"

"You are too greedy, one is enough."

"not enough!"

……

Nakahara looked at the side of the road for a long time, until the figure of the father and son disappeared completely, and then left the Yokohama station.

Boys' Day, it really is a festival that children of this age will look forward to, carp flag, heck, tricks of the little devil, he thought in his heart.

When he was his age—he paused.

He was probably influenced by Hanamaru to compare himself with ordinary people.

His mood became very strange.

That night, on a whim, he asked Koye Ozaki a question.

"Sister, have you ever thought about living an ordinary life?"

Koyo Ozaki was drinking, and when she heard this, she put down her glass.

"Yes." She replied calmly, "I have worked hard for this."

"The results of it?"

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, he felt that he was asking too much.

"Do you think I would still be sitting here if there was a result?"

Koye Ozaki looked at him, those beautiful pupils seemed to be able to look into the deepest part of his heart.

"……Feel sorry."

"There's nothing to apologize for, Chuya, do you yearn for the life of ordinary people?"

He shook his head.

impossible.

It is impossible for him to yearn for the life of ordinary people. For him who is militant and vigorous, that kind of life is terribly boring, and he can see the end at a glance.

He was just curious.

Ordinary people are terribly safe in the world of ordinary people, and they can't be avoided, why would someone come to their door?

So the second time he saw Hanamaru wandering around the Port Mafia gate again, he entertained her again.

Last time it was a favor, what is it this time?

Hanamaru happily gave him a carp banner.

He turned a blind eye to the carp streamers hanging all over the street, but when he saw this carp streamer, he remembered that it was Boys' Day.

If Dazai or someone else gave him a carp streamer, he might understand that they said he was as short as a child and beat them up.

But what was taken out from an old lady was a hand-stitched carp streamer, and he was not angry at all.

His name is embroidered on the reverse side of the carp streamer, along with best wishes.

[Chuya Zhongyuan, thrive like a carp! 】

...to treat him like a child.

He didn't hang the carp banner, but received it in the cabinet. Later, many strange things appeared in the cabinet.

There are kendama for children to play with, medicinal wine with a secret Chinese recipe, and woolen long johns that would make your legs very thick... The old lady persevered in giving him all kinds of things that he didn't need. Finally, he couldn't help but ask her: "Mother-in-law, do you know my job?"

"From what you said, do something with the Port Mafia."

She remembered the name of the Port Mafia so well that it was impossible not to know what he was up to.

No matter how you look at it, the mafia cadre and the old lady in a duck farm have nothing to do with each other.

"Taste this snail."

"……Oh."

But later, he would find time to see her.

It was a duck farm on the outskirts of Kamakura, very remote.Because of the remoteness, it is extraordinarily quiet.

There is little wind here, there are no ripples on the surface of Crescent Lake, and time seems to stand still.

The ducks in the duck farm are not noisy, they bask lazily in the sun every day.

Each time he stays is very short, but the watermelon fields, grape trellises, and small farms here have left traces of his existence everywhere.

He had never met Granny Hanamaru's family until that day when he asked about it.

"Does mother-in-law give red envelopes to others besides me?"

He always saw her go about her business alone with a cane.The two workers hired by the duck farm were even more lazy than Dazai, and he only knew how to restrain himself after being dealt with severely by him.

He accepted the red envelope from Granny Hanamaru, which was supposed to be given to him on a dark day, but he has been busy abroad for 86 days and has not returned to Japan.

When I received the red envelope, it was already late spring, and the year had already passed.

"Yes." Granny Hanamaru said with a smile, "I made two red envelopes, one for Zhongya, and the other for Qingxi, my granddaughter."

Qingxi?

This was the first time he had heard a girl's name from Granny Hanamaru since he had known her for more than a year.

"Grandma has a family."

"Yes. Although the old man is gone, her daughter and son-in-law are here." Granny Hanamaru sighed and said, "Qingxi is studying in Russia and only comes back once every two years."

"...Hmm." Why did you have to go to Russia to study?

"Qingxi came to see me during Chinese New Year this year, but it's a pity that I couldn't see Zhongye."

"Huh?" Why did you see him?

Hanamaru signaled him to turn over the red envelope.

On the back of the paper, he saw the Q-version villain painted on it.

Orange hair, hat, black coat, it was clearly painted in his likeness.

The Q version villain is standing on the steps, waving his fists, looking full of energy, and there is a dialog box beside him.

[Come on, come on, get promoted to a senior cadre! 】

Hey, you can't scribble these words.If he is promoted again, where will Mori Ogai sit?

For the first time that day, he saw the girl Minamoto Kiyoshi from Granny Hanamaru's mobile phone.

She is more beautiful than he imagined, with black hair and black eyes, her hair is neatly combed, but there is a bunch of stupid hair on the top of her head.

She rested her chin on her hands, sat on the swing in the courtyard, and stared blankly at it.

It should be the moment when Grandma Hanamaru pressed the camera button, she just raised her head, so this visual effect was formed.

It's like looking at him through the screen.

"Qingxi seems to like Zhongye very much, and even brought purple leather candy for Zhongye."

"...Don't, don't talk nonsense."

He has not yet learned about relationships, and has never been in love. His subordinates are basically passionate young people. The women he often contacts are Ozaki Koyo, Higuchi Ichiyo and Alice.

Well, Granny Hanamaru is also one, but it would be wrong for Granny Hanamaru to joke with him like this.

"If Zhong also knew Qingxi, he would also like her very much."

"...Grandma, don't talk anymore."

He couldn't take it anymore.

Granny Hanamaru forcibly stuffed that bag of purple leather candy into him.

He ate a piece and stuffed it into the freezer.

Too sweet, too greasy.

What girl would like such sweet candy!

In addition to purple candy, Yuan Qingxi also bought him a Russian matryoshka.

Hmph, you're treating him like a child again.

He opened it to the end and saw a note.

[To Yuan Qingxi dies but also to live From Yuan Qingxi]

After seeing this note, he realized that this Russian nesting doll was accidentally put in a sugar bag, rather than being given to him on purpose.

The handwriting on it is the same as the handwriting written in the red envelope Q version villain dialog box.But it was so hard that the paper strips were made of cardboard, and they were all penetrated, and the ink seeped to the back.As if with a strong determination and hatred.

- To die is to live.

It reminded him of his partner who had defected, the guy who had been suicidal all day long.

To live is to want to die, and to live to die is really two completely opposite attitudes towards life.

But he couldn't figure it out.Why would an ordinary girl write such words?

She wrote it for herself, but she hid such words in layer after layer of nesting dolls, was she afraid of being seen by others?

He thought about giving this nesting doll to Granny Huamaru, but he was afraid that she would see the note inside.The words on the note are too heavy for an ordinary old lady.

In the future, when he went to the duck farm, he would always mention Yuan Qingxi's name intentionally or unintentionally.

It can be seen that Granny Hanamaru likes Yuanqingxi very much, and she can't stop talking about her:

Three-year-old Yuan Qingxi is a little devil in the world, full of energy, running on the coastline of southern Shonan all day long, even wild dogs can't catch up with him;

Seven-year-old Yuan Qingxi became famous in Shonan Beach, beating and tearing the pants of a bully boy;

……

At the age of 15, Yuan Qingxi left her familiar country and went to the cold Siberia alone in order to study.

After Grandma Hanamaru got a smartphone, she often took photos of her daily life and sent them over.

He has seen most of them.

Some sat quietly in the classroom and played the piano, and some read aloud with a book. They all smiled softly at the camera.

In his heart, the girl who was originally flat gradually became vivid.These things strung together into a clear line, connecting countless hers together.

At one end of the line is a mischievous girl, and at the other end is a gentle and happy girl.

Very harmonious, reassuring.

……wrong.

There must be some discrepancy in between.

Otherwise, how to explain the note hidden deep in the doll and the words on it?

If it's just for fun, why hide it there?And why did you specifically mark it as being sent to yourself?

But when he saw Granny Hanamaru's satisfied smile looking at the photo, he couldn't ask any more questions.

He was also on the phone and heard Yuan Qingxi's gentle voice.

She said to Granny Hanamaru, everything is fine, everything is fine.

Is everything all right?he thought.

But he was too busy after all to stop mentioning it soon.Until one day, when he drank red wine after taking a shower and was half asleep, he came across a Russian nesting doll on the bedside.

The nesting doll fell to the ground, fell apart layer by layer, and the note fell out again.

It's like falling out of a world's mind.

TO Yuan Qingxi...

Form Yuan Qingxi...

To die is to live...

I have to live to die, probably because I have experienced things that life is worse than death.

He was about to fall asleep, and saw the girl in a trance.

She was wearing a white dress, standing on an isolated island, with the dark night behind her, no road in front of her, and no road behind her.

[Zhong Ye, help me. 】

[Please help me——]

Amidst her wailing, the white skirt was gradually dyed black by the falling night from bottom to top.

He was about to reach out to her when he was woken up by a call from Mori Ogai.

It was a dream.

He stuffed the note back into the nesting doll, wrapping it up layer by layer.He thought to himself, maybe it was the troubles of the girl growing up, or the troubles of the exam?He has never been to school, but he heard that the children who go to school are under a lot of pressure, and there are also students who committed suicide by jumping off the building because of poor test scores.

Well, that's probably why.

But unconsciously, Yuan Qingxi had left a deep impression in his mind.

He doesn't have a bad impression of her, at least better than the Alice in the Mafia who was always clamoring for sweets, and Higuchi who was chasing Akutagawa all day.

He once accidentally saw Higuchi Ichiyo picking up a sunflower, picking sunflower seeds, and muttering: "Akutagawa-senpai likes me, Akutagawa-senpai doesn't like me."

When I got to the last one, it was "Senior Akutagawa doesn't like me".

Then Ichiyo Higuchi trampled the whole sunflower to pieces, looked up to the sky and sighed: "This is a lie!"

Zhongyuan Zhongye: "..."

When Granny Hanamaru wanted to introduce him to a blind date one day, he shook his head: "I... am not suitable for marriage."

"why?"

"My job is more dangerous and will cause trouble for the other party."

Granny Hanamaru said with a smile: "But if it's a child as good as Chuya, he should be able to protect him well."

"..."

"I want to introduce Qingxi to you. Because she has returned to China."

Later, things became logical, he dated Yuan Qingxi.

God knows how nervous he was before the date.

What color do you wear?What color are the pants?Is this hat okay?

It's annoying, is this a problem that a big man should consider?

Do you want to wear higher heels - the other party is seven centimeters taller than him!A full seven centimeters!

The location of the restaurant was chosen by Yuan Qingxi, and it wasn't the best place for a date in his mind, it wasn't a sky garden, he couldn't see the beautiful sea, and he couldn't see the interesting red brick warehouse.

Even a little noisy.

He arrives early, distracted by the kids at the next table.

Forget it, scolding is definitely not allowed, the child is not Dazai after all.

Using the method Granny Hanamaru taught him, he made a paper crane and gave it to the child.

"Uncle is amazing!"

The corner of his mouth twitched: "Call... brother."

Is he that old already?

The child leaned close to his ear with a mysterious face and said, "Brother, there is a sister who is watching you."

He turned his head and saw Yuan Qingxi standing outside the window, wearing the white dress he had seen in his dream.

The meal was eaten quietly, Yuan Qingxi only talked to him before the meal, during the meal, he didn't speak a word to him, and he didn't open his mouth either.

In fact, if you open your mouth, you don't know what to say.

He bought the ticket for the movie. He watched movies at home most of the time, and rarely had time to go to the cinema. Seeing Yuan Qingxi's quiet appearance, he chose "The Girl of King Power" directed by Hua Shengmi.

...This, such a girly name, girls should like it.

The movie is indeed wonderful, but he always pays attention to the actions of the people next to him.

She was extremely quiet and never took her eyes off the screen from beginning to end.

Does he want to say something?

Say what?

Wait, is it rude to talk loudly in a movie theater?

He has too many things to think about.

Until the end of the movie, he didn't think about what to say.

I didn't feel that my eloquence was poor before. I didn't know that I still needed to practice until it came in handy.

Osamu Dazai is so good at opening his mouth, how did he practice it?

On the way to send Yuan Qingxi home, she spoke first.

"The movie was great."

"……Um."

"Yaoyao's first guardian, Lan, is very similar to you."

"……Yes."

"Lan always protects Yaoyao, how brave."

"……Oh."

In fact, he didn't pay attention to Lan at all, and the chat became very awkward.

until--

"Someone fell over there!"

After Yuan Qingxi finished speaking, he ran towards the other end of the Harbor Bridge.

She hardly hesitated, the clear determination in her eyes was unmatched by anyone, she jumped and jumped down.

He caught up to her and used his ability to keep her in mid-air.

"At a time like this, women shouldn't come first." He took off his hat and threw it to her. "Before I come back, please help me hold the hat."

With a wave of his fingers, he sent her back to the Harbor Bridge, and then jumped down alone to save her.

The man who fell into the water was quickly lifted out of the water by him. He jumped down to find his important diamond ring.That is his most precious thing.

Zhong Yuan originally wanted to scold him, but when he heard him say, "That's what I'm planning to propose to my girlfriend this week", he sent him up and dived down to help him find the diamond ring.

Even with his powerful abilities, he had to grope for a long time before he found the diamond ring.

When he returned to the bridge, it was already dark, and there was a moderate rain on the ground.

He returned the diamond ring to the man, who wept and thanked him for a long time.Yuan Qingxi stood quietly at the back, her whole body was wet.

"Sorry for keeping you waiting." He felt a little guilty for causing her to get caught in the rain.

She shook, leaned closer suddenly, and took his hat from her bosom.

"Magic—"

She was soaked through, but the hat was not wet at all.She seems to know how to protect the most important things in others.

And play jokes on him childishly.

"Thank you."

He took the hat but didn't put it on.

"Zhongyuan Junchao is amazing." She gestured to him, with a relaxed smile on her face, "At the same time tomorrow, I'll treat you to a movie. Don't take up your day time, leave your night to me, okay? ?”

Leave night, night to her.Why does this sound so... embarrassing.

He hesitated and agreed, and as for what movie he was watching the next day, he didn't even know the content.

I just remember that on the way back, he queued up but couldn't buy her favorite bunny ice cream, and then she suddenly took his hand.

When the girl's soft and cold palm touched his skin, his mind went blank, he was startled, and his instinctive reaction was to shake off her hand.

He followed instinct and did it.

Stupid, stupid, shouldn't you hold her hand back?

After reacting, he scolded himself in his heart.

"I'm going back to sleep." She was calm, she withdrew her hand and yawned, "Let's make an appointment next time, Mr. Zhongyuan."

"……it is good."

He wanted to say, the same time tomorrow.But the leader, Mori Ogai, arranged for him to go on a business trip abroad again.

Later, he called Yuan Qingxi many times, but he couldn't get through.

Maybe it's because of the time difference.But his night and her daytime didn't connect.

The e-mails sent in the past also fell into the sea.

He couldn't help but wonder if his performance that night was too bad, and he hesitated a little because of embarrassment, which made her angry?

He thought about going back and apologizing to her after the matter was over, and telling her - he actually had a crush on her very early on.

He also thought of a good line, if she yearns for a guardian like Lan, he can do the same.

They can also change their address, she can call him "Zhongye" and he call her "Qingxi", instead of the awkward "Zhongyuan Jun" and "Yuan".

But when he finished his mission and returned home, he got a piece of news that he couldn't accept.

She's going to marry... someone else.

Only two months have passed.She was about to marry someone else.

Flash marriages also ruled him out.

The other party was still the damned detective who had defeated him before. That guy smiled like a villain: "Qingxixi likes me, and I like Qingxixi, so we got married. It's a match made in heaven."

Nothing like a match made in heaven!

Osamu Dazai seemed to see what he was thinking, patted him on the shoulder, and said earnestly: "Chuya, give Qingxi sauce a full set of lipstick."

"Why?" He was puzzled.

"In this way, when she is kissing others, you will have a sense of participation."

Listen, is this still what people say?He was so angry that he beat Dazai.

Dazai also said: "Chuya, normal people wouldn't choose a mafia, right? Ranpo-san's career is much better than yours."

This is where he is powerless to refute.

In the end he gave her a gun.

It's like a joke.

Maybe she didn't know that he was actually sober.

Although he was given a lot of alcohol by Dazai's plan, he didn't drink until he lost consciousness.

——If Ranpo Edogawa treats you badly, shoot him.

——If he treats you well, then, forget it... Since it is your own choice, I should respect you.

He didn't say these words.

everything is over.

The rehearsal of his heart is also good.

His girls are good too.

He didn't agree with her vision, but still chose to give her the most sincere blessing.

He hoped that she would never become what he had dreamed about.

Trapped alone on an isolated island, with no way forward or backward, the white dress turned into black.

After returning home that night, he slept for a long time.

I woke up thirsty in the middle of the night and poured water to drink, and saw the Russian nesting doll by the bed.

The matryoshka was broken by him, and he spent a lot of effort, but he couldn't fix it.

He picked up the note in the doll, as if he picked up all her hidden thoughts.