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On Sunday night, Jiang Yao returned to the dormitory anxiously, and saw the little bear sitting on the table.

The brown fluffy bear felt soft and smooth to the touch. Jiang Yao held the bear in his arms, rubbed his round ears, and wanted to send a text message to He Ming several times, but couldn't muster up the courage.

Because of He Ming's phone call, he had thought a lot these two days, even though he and He Ming were in love with each other, he was still full of guilt towards He Ming.

He Ming likes him with full satisfaction, but he can't respond 100% of his affection. Even if he is a friend, this kind of behavior is not correct.

Jiang Yao sat dumbfounded and buried his face in the chubby little bear's stomach. After a few minutes, he stood up suddenly and walked outside quickly.

He came all the way to the door of He Ming's dormitory and knocked on the door nervously.

When the person who opened the door saw him, he shouted inside, "He Ming, Jiang Yao is looking for you."

He Ming had just finished his part-time job on the weekend, and looked a little tired, but he still smiled when he saw Jiang Yao.

Jiang Yao thought of what he was about to say to He Ming, and his heart thumped hard: "Make ○" Ge Woci twitched.

He Ming's mood was obviously not too high today, and he and Jiang Yao walked to the corridor in silence before asking, "Did you see the little bear I put on your table?"

Jiang Yao nodded his head slowly, and replied, "I see, it's very cute."

He Ming smiled, as if guessing why Jiang Yao came here to look for him, put his hands on the railing, and said, "Just say anything, I'll listen."

Jiang Yao unconsciously curled up his hands hanging by his side, and opened his mouth, "I..."

He first looked at the hazy moonlight, and then at He Ming's smooth side face in the moonlight, his heart skipped a beat, he gritted his teeth, and whispered, "He Ming, don't like me anymore."

Jiang Yao thought, he is not worthy of He Ming's liking at all——

He Ming's gaze retracted from a distance, and slowly fell on Jiang Yao's face. Jiang Yao's expression was tense, and his bright black eyes were full of water. It could be seen how much effort he had put in to say this short sentence. .

He Ming changed his standing posture, supported the railing with one hand, looked at Jiang Yao face to face, and smiled softly, "Why?"

Jiang Yao couldn't tell.

He Ming asked himself and answered, "Because I overheard you making love with Xie Zhijin, or do you think you will never like me, so why don't you stop thinking about me earlier?"

He Ming's smile still hangs on his face, but there is no smile. Under the moonlight, it looks like a sharp knife with a cold light, which is surprisingly beautiful.

He had never talked to Jiang Yao so sharply before, Jiang Yao couldn't help it for a while, and stood there blankly.

He Ming didn't give Jiang Yao time to answer, he stared deeply at the other party with his long and narrow eyes, and said, "But why do you think liking can be controlled? If it is really possible, can you take back your liking for Xie Zhijin immediately now? Like me instead?" His smile faded completely, and he concluded, "You can't do that."

He Ming stepped forward and trapped Jiang Yao between the corridor and his arms. Jiang Yao's eyes were moist, and he was too scared to move by such an aggressive He Ming, so he murmured He Ming.

He Ming took a deep breath, his expression regained a little tenderness, he pressed his palm against Jiang Yao's face, and said, "I don't want to scare you, but I'm really angry..."

He put his forehead on Jiang Yao's shoulder, slowly hugged Jiang Yao, and asked softly, "Tell me not to like you, and then what?"

Jiang Yao's mind was in a mess, and he choked up, "We are still friends..."

"Friend?" He Ming laughed coldly, "If you treat me as a friend, you should slap me and kick me out of bed when I kiss you for the first time, instead of letting me kiss you one night."

He raised his head and looked at Jiang Yao, and asked, "What do you think friends are like, like you and Xie Zhijin, what he told you are friends?"

When Jiang Yao was questioned, he blinked blankly, as if he was about to cry or not.

"Find a bunch of high-sounding reasons to coax you, and you foolishly believe it's true." He Ming gritted his teeth a little bit, "Didn't someone tell you that friends have a sense of propriety? Even if you are hugging you like I am now. Crossing the line, those more intimate things are the privilege of lovers."

"You like Xie Zhijin, I don't want to push too hard, so even if you run to him every now and then, no matter how unbearable I can bear it, I have been waiting for the day when you change your mind, but now you even like me My rights are all deprived, don't you think it's too cruel to me?"

He Ming's heartfelt words made Jiang Yao extremely at a loss. He looked at the other party with a bewildered expression, his heart seemed to have been dug open, and something gradually invaded.

He stuck in his throat, "I'm sorry..."

He Ming let go of him slowly, and said in a deep voice, "Jiang Yao, I have only one purpose in doing so much. I want to take Xie Zhijin's place in your heart and become a legitimate lover with you, not just a friend. I Saying I don't care, I don't mind, it's because I'm afraid you'll be sad and lie to you."

Jiang Yao was stunned on the ground, and the words "friend" and "lover" repeatedly echoed in his mind.

He Ming lowered his eyes and hugged Jiang Yao into his arms again, "I'll give you ten seconds to think, if you're sure that you can't like me, you can only be friends with me, push me away, and I will abide by my friend's rules in the future." Sense of proportion, well-behaved, I will never touch you again."

Jiang Yao's arms were hanging on his sides, too heavy to lift.

He heard He Ming's beating heartbeat overlapping with his.

He Ming's soft countdown will bring their relationship to an end at any time, and the choice is in Jiang Yao's hands.

Jiang Yao remembered the conversation with Xie Zhijin.

"Can friends kiss and have sex too?"

Xie Zhijin said yes.

But He Ming told him that it was a lover's privilege.

He Ming's warm body fits his, as long as he moves, they can completely adjust their relationship.

No hugs, no kisses, nodding friends, ordinary friends who just say hello when they meet.

He Ming won't like him anymore, and he doesn't have to worry about being sorry for He Ming anymore.

Jiang Yao knew it should be like this, but he couldn't stop crying.

He was reluctant to part with He Ming.

"Three, two, one."

As soon as He Ming finished speaking, the arms around Jiang Yao suddenly lost strength.

When Jiang Yao was about to leave He Ming's embrace, he felt an indescribable panic in his heart, and reflexively raised his hand to hug him tightly.

He Ming breathed a sigh of relief, his fingers tightened on Jiang Yao's back, and sighed, "This is your own decision, even if you want to give up on me in the future, I will never let go."

The moonlight cast a hazy silver glow on the two people who embraced each other.

Jiang Yao raised his head slightly to meet He Ming's deep kiss.

Everyone needs the comfort of love, who loves me, kisses me, holds me tight, please don't go.

—

It was Xie Zhijin's birthday in a blink of an eye, and Jiang Yao gave Xie Zhijin the pen a few days in advance. The lake-blue body of the pen was just as deserted as Xie Zhijin.

The pen was placed on the desk of the outreach department, and anyone who went to the office could see it.

When Jiang Yao and He Ming went to the office to pick up things the next day, Xie Zhijin was drawing with a pen, Jiang Yao's heart pounded, and he opened the cabinet to get things.

He Ming's eyes fell on Xie Zhijin's hand holding the pen.

Xie Zhijin wrote down the strong word "Jiang Yao" on a clean piece of paper.

After picking up the things and going out, Jiang Yao was pushed into the grocery room next to the office by He Ming. Before he could figure out the situation, he was pushed against the wall and sucked kisses.

There was Xie Zhijin across the wall, Jiang Yao was so nervous that his whole body stiffened, He Ming pried his mouth open, sucked his tongue heavily, and said in a low voice, "I really want to kiss you like this in front of Xie Zhijin."

Strong jealousy filled the small grocery room, and Jiang Yao suddenly thought of the kiss between Xie Zhijin and Han Qing, and he didn't know what kind of mentality he had, but he no longer resisted the invasion of the tip of He Ming's tongue.

He Ming kissed him until his legs became weak, so he wiped off the crystals on his lips, and asked with a smile, "Do you think we are cheating?"

Jiang Yao blushed and shook his head for a while.

He Ming rubbed his head like a reward, and said, "Yes, he is just a friend, and he has no right to control you in whatever we do."

That night, Jiang Yao went to the apartment to find Xie Zhijin.

He didn't pester the other party as usual, and sat quietly thinking about He Ming's words. Maybe his absent-mindedness was too obvious, and he only came back to his senses when Xie Zhijin walked in front of him.

The convention is to do that.

Jiang Yao lay down spontaneously. Before he started, Xie Zhijin's face changed violently. He had never seen Xie Zhijin with such an obvious expression before, so he couldn't help but look down.

The indescribable place is slightly red and swollen, and it looks like it has been pinched and played hard.

Xie Zhijin's face was frosty, Jiang Yao panicked and stammered, "I miss you so much, I learned how to make videos myself..."

But the other party stared at him coldly, "How did you do it: make ○攉攉哥哥喀, show me."

Jiang Yao had no choice but to close his eyes to cover up his panic. He imagined the situation at that time, imitating He Ming's movements, his face was as red as a boiled shrimp.

In the past, in order to please Xie Zhijin, he also checked the information on the Internet and watched the video. Jiang Yao was shy and worked hard, and Xie Zhijin's face turned slightly.

Afterwards, Jiang Yao was buried in the quilt and fell asleep, but Xie Zhijin couldn't fall asleep. He quietly got up and lifted the quilt, staring at the place on Jiang Yao's body, frowning more and more tightly.

Something was going in a direction beyond his control.

Maybe he should re-examine his relationship with Jiang Yao.

—

Xie Zhijin's birthday party is set at the KTV that the department often goes to.

Jiang Yao was not from the External Relations Department, and he was not familiar with those officers, but because he knew Xie Zhijin and was accompanied by Li Wei, he was able to join in the fun.

After talking with He Ming that night, Jiang Yao finally got a little enlightened, but he has been around Xie Zhijin for so many years, and he can't change overnight. What's more, as He Ming said, liking is uncontrollable, and he still can't restrain his love for Xie Zhijin. thirsty.

It’s just that occasionally I can’t help but think that if he can be as free and easy as Xie Zhijin, maybe he won’t be able to let it go and suffer like this.

Jiang Yao sat in the corner, looking at Xie Zhijin's face in the candlelight.

When he was not in college, Xie Zhijin spent every birthday with Jiang Yao. Although it was just a very ordinary happy birthday, at least he was the only one who accompanied Xie Zhijin.

But now he was too scared to even go up to congratulate him.

Xie Zhijin was surrounded by so many people, and everyone was making fun of it. Jiang Yao seemed like a marginalized person, so he could only watch silently.

In the familiar melody of the birthday song, Xie Zhijin glanced up, passed through the crowd, and met Jiang Yao's gaze.

Jiang Yao opened his lips and said silently, "Xie Zhijin, happy birthday."

The candle went out with a whoosh, and a moment later the lights came on.

Xie Zhijin no longer looked at him.

He also didn't know if Xie Zhijin had heard his blessing.

Three ways

Happy birthday Xiaoxie!

Xiao Xie: You don’t have to.