[sherlock] It's mine, don't move!

Mrs. Howard's Private Counseling Room

"John, your current state doesn't seem to be much better than last time?" Amanda, John's psychiatrist, frowned slightly, leaning on a pastoral-style beige solid wood fabric sofa to observe him, without any setting between the two Sit in opposition to obstacles.Amanda is wearing a pure white shirt with a folded flower collar and black slim trousers today. The rustic African-style rough stone long necklace adds a touch of color to this serious outfit. I have to say that this outfit makes her look quite elegant Temperament.

"I haven't changed much, but Amanda, you seem to have changed a lot here." John casually glanced around the consultation room, patted the comfortable fabric sofa under his hands, and said in a joking tone.

John still remembered that when he came last time, the furniture in this consulting room was still a set of beige leather chairs, but now they have all been replaced with new pastoral style fabric sofas.The original lattice-framed windows of the consultation room have been replaced by large floor-to-ceiling glass windows. The entire row of camphor trees outside is so clear that it seems to grow right in front of you. The rare sunshine in London shines unscrupulously through the glass windows into the windows on both sides. The beautifully trimmed green leaves look even more green, and there is a large bouquet of lilies in full bloom in the crystal-clear long-necked square crystal bottle on the desk. John looked at the color from a distance and guessed it should be Fresh lilies from the florist this morning.Of course, he is not the great detective Sherlock, otherwise he would immediately know where such a beautiful lily was planted in that area of ​​the UK or where the florist bought it. He also wants to buy a large bouquet and put it in the living room as a decoration Ah... However, I have to say that being in Mrs. Howard's private psychological consultation room does make people feel more natural and relaxed.

"I'll just take you as a compliment on my decoration, John."

"What! Did you design it yourself?"

"Of course, doing it yourself will always make people feel more fulfilled, especially after getting your compliments."

"It's really amazing!" John sighed sincerely.

"Although I majored in a professional psychological counseling degree when I was studying in Oxford, I still took advantage of my free time to study an interior designer degree." Amanda winked at John and smiled humorously : "Also, I can save a lot of money this way"

"Student masters in the UK can be seen everywhere these days." John rubbed his chin, why did he always meet someone with a high degree of education after coming to the UK?Oxford, Cambridge, and the worst are also top students from the University of Manchester.The United Kingdom is really a world full of talents... Thinking about his undergraduate education in his previous life is really too backward, look at it now, he has become a doctor at any rate!

Or, he also chose to go to university to study for an extra degree and come back?As far as psychoanalysis topics such as high-functioning antisocial psychology research' are concerned, Fanzheng Sherlock is the best research object!John believes that as long as he continues to get along with Sherlock, it will be difficult for him not to get a doctorate on this subject!

"Okay, John, do you have any new problems this time? I thought that after Mr. Holmes returned from the resurrection, your psychological problems would naturally be cured." Amanda gracefully crossed her legs, her slender fingers He leisurely opened the consultation record book belonging to John Watson in his hand. The last consultation date was already at the end of last month.

"After Sherlock came back, my depression and post-traumatic disorder have indeed improved a lot." John's hands on his knees were habitually opened slightly, and then slowly clenched into fists. Frequent actions when facing Amanda's consultation.

"So..." Amanda picked up the black pen in her hand, raised her head and encouraged John to continue speaking with her eyes while writing the record.

"I told you last time, I like Sherlock, so when I didn't know that he was suspended animation, I decided to break up with Mary and move back to 221B Baker Street alone to guard the house with our common memories."

"Yes, you once mentioned to me that during the two years when Mr. Holmes left you, you discovered through painful experiences that you were gay and your deep feelings for Holmes." Amanda nodded, She still remembers the situation at that time until now. It was the first time she saw John let go of the suppressed burden in her heart, stopped escaping from reality, and really started to face her inner feelings. I am deeply relieved and happy that John, who is brave enough to face and admit it frankly, but... "Could it be that there are any new problems between you and Mr. Holmes? Or, do you find that your feelings are wrong?"

"No, no, no! I still like Sherlock. Things between us are actually going very smoothly, at a speed that surprised me." John pursed his lips and confided to Amanda.

"Ok?"

"In the restaurant where Mary and I proposed to break up, that is, the Chinese restaurant on Marylebone Road not far from Baker Street, he suddenly appeared in front of me like a hero, that scene... just like a Hollywood movie The picture is just as shocking! At that time, everything around me disappeared, and all I could see in my mind was the handsome man in a black wool trench coat and a blue scarf around his neck. Although, he was still wearing The ink pen draws two ridiculous black beards, but... that feeling is very strange and wonderful... even more incredible! Can you understand?" John only needs to recall the first time he met the detective after his return. The situation couldn't help but made him laugh from the bottom of his heart, those two black beards hanging on Sherlock's face are so classic!Why didn't he think of taking a photo with his mobile phone as a souvenir?what a shame!

"I think I should be able to understand your mood. After all, it is an old man who has died in your consciousness, and it is a man you have realized that you have a deep love for him. Reappearing in front of you without the circumstances, this feeling is indeed 'pretty wonderful'." Amanda deliberately emphasized the tone of the following words, and fortunately John, a former military doctor, has enough nerves, if ordinary people I guess I would have fainted from fright when I encountered this kind of thing. How could it be "unusual, wonderful and unbelievable"?The feeling of this reunion should be that 'scare' is much greater than 'surprise', right?

"The image of Sherlock falling to his death in front of me has always been my lingering nightmare for two years. I once begged in front of his tombstone that he could stand in front of me alive again for me and give me a miracle. .He did it, didn't he?" John just shuddered when he thought of the nightmares he had in the first few days, it was terrible!He really didn't want to relive the replay of Sherlock's death again, it felt too heavy, depressing and hopeless. "He stood in front of me alive like this. No one knew how much I wanted to hold him tightly and cry hysterically. Of course, I still held back under the watchful eyes of everyone. However, here Before, I beat and kicked him severely."

Seeing John sitting on a chair waving his fists, and speaking in an indignant tone about how he beat up the great detective, Amanda finally couldn't help laughing.John, who is so flamboyant and energetic, has really not seen it for more than two years. It seems that the "resurrection" of the great detective really succeeded in "resurrecting" John, who was once lifeless. There is only one in this world. That detective was able to exert such a powerful influence on John, and then induce the hidden vitality in his body. It is really a great thing that they can meet again.

"After that, he actually asked me to marry me! Amanda, Sherlock actually proposed to me with a ring and roses!!" Whenever John thought of the detective kneeling down to propose to him in public, it felt like a dream in his heart. Similarly, his face was always full of disbelief. He lowered his head and stretched out his left hand, habitually looking at the platinum ring on his finger.Well, he just still can't believe that he has been proposed to by that big detective with negative emotions and intelligence!It was when the two of them met for the first time after being separated for two years!

"Anyway, John, you finally got your wish, and I have to say 'congratulations' here."

"But, will the progress be too fast?" John asked uncertainly.It's not that he's too conservative, but who would propose marriage in public as soon as they meet again?

"Everyone's situation is different." Amanda could only persuade.

"That's right, if I want to wait until Sherlock really develops his emotional intelligence, I guess I have to wait until my hair turns white, my teeth fall out, and I step into a coffin, and I may not be able to wait to marry him. Well, I just want to marry him. Locke's 'normal' proposal expressed a certain degree of surprise. You know, based on my impression of Sherlock's personality, I thought he would drag me to the morgue to propose? Or give me a part of a human body The parts from the experiment were used as gifts for the proposal. He would never have thought of such romantic things as rings, roses, and red wine!" John once thought that Sherlock's ideal place to propose marriage was either a bloody murder scene or a gloomy autopsy room. How could it be possible to think of the Chinese restaurant on Marie Leburn Road, the holy place for marriage proposals?Moreover, those so-called romantic proposal items are not like the style of the big detective at all, you must know that in Sherlock's eyes, those so-called romantic things are meaningless at all!That Sherlock guy has always been a lazy person who is not willing to even step into the supermarket across the street, apart from being active in investigating cases.

Most importantly, judging by the size of the custom-made platinum ring on his finger, wouldn't it be that Mycroft planned all this behind his precious brother's back?

John suddenly had the illusion of stepping into a trap, and it seemed that he stepped into it willingly!

"Whether or not Mr. Holmes has 'normally' proposed to you, it is a cause for celebration."

"Of course it's worth celebrating, and we're getting married in the middle of next month. You're welcome to our wedding, Amanda." In fact, he just wanted to find someone to complain sweetly and pass it on to someone.The fact that Sherlock proposed to him made John want to make the whole world celebrate, how could it not be worth celebrating? !The wedding in John's mind is of course to get the blessings of as many relatives and friends as possible, so of course he will not forget the wedding invitation to this psychologist who is already like his close friend.In any case, Amanda has helped him a lot these years-especially in playing the role of the spiritual trash can!

"Of course no problem, I am honored to accept your invitation." Amanda smiled sincerely and happily agreed to the invitation.After all, she is also very curious to meet the legendary Sherlock Detective Sherlock Holmes, the only consulting detective in the world, and what kind of extraordinary charm does he have that can make this brave and loyal former military doctor Is it because of him that you dream and love deeply like the sea?

"But..." John tightened his palms on his knees, raised his head and took a deep breath, then turned his head to stare at the pot of figs with crystal green leaves bathed in the sun, his expression gradually became gloomy, and he tightened his grip The lips seemed to suddenly lose the interest to continue the unfinished words.

When Amanda heard John's sudden stop, she couldn't help but stop writing, looked up at John, and followed his gaze curiously at the potted plant that was closer to John. The consultation room became quiet, The atmosphere between the two became silent, but unexpectedly, it didn't make people feel any awkward discomfort.After a long time, John withdrew his eyes and looked at Amanda with a trace of apology, but the other party raised the corners of his mouth indifferently, and the atmosphere became more lively in an instant.

"Where did we just talk about?" John stretched out his hand and scratched his short brown head, asking embarrassedly.He just stared at the potted plant fascinated, and inexplicably remembered that bastard detective who hadn't returned all night. I really don't know where he went? !He brought out both mobile phones, but until now, none of them had rang.For God's sake, even if there is a kind guy who has seen his detective, even if he sends him a message to let him know that his detective is still alive and well!That guy rushed out last night in such a thin suit, and he didn't know where he rolled in the middle of the night. What if he was froze and hungry?In the end, isn't it his own distress? ! !

In short, Sherlock is a big bastard who is ignorant and uneasy! ! ! ! !

Well, after the consultation, he should call McCoff and ask him to help find Sherlock.

"Speaking of your wedding in the middle of next month, and you invited me to your wedding." Amanda shrugged and reminded.

"Ah, yes! We are already about to step into the marriage hall, but...but... Amanda, Sherlock doesn't seem to want to sleep with me, is it because I'm not attractive or he doesn't like me at all?" John stretched out his hand Touching his round face, he asked Amanda with some self-doubt.Speaking of marriage, John remembered that every time everyone mentioned that they were about to step into the wedding hall, Sherlock would always disdain and arbitrarily change it to "the feet that are viewed as monkeys step into the grave of marriage" .Oh for God's sake!John beat the ground silently in his heart, he was really hopeless! !

"What makes you feel this way?"

"When we were doing 'that' last night, he ran away from the house in a panic, and he hasn't seen anyone back until now." John lowered his eyes, and there was a trace of anger in his words.

"Maybe he's not ready yet?" Amanda tried to reassure.

"Then when will he be ready? Will it wait until after we get married? Or will he never be ready!" John stood up from his chair with a 'Teng' sound, and blurted out a rather aggressive tone. .After a while, he fell back on the fabric sofa in a decadent manner, put his hand on his forehead, sighed regretfully, and then smiled apologetically, "I'm sorry, Amanda."

"It's okay, John." Amanda has always been very patient and tolerant towards her patients, which is also the most basic professional ethics of a professional psychological counselor.What's more, when a man is doing that kind of thing, he can feel half of being abandoned by his partner abruptly. Needless to say, one can imagine that it is absolutely terrible. No wonder John is so angry. Amanda couldn't help but start to sympathize with this poor former military doctor in her heart.

"I'm just a little excited. Sherlock's resistance is very strong. I'm just afraid that he will leave me again. This kind of mood is very urgent." John looked out the window inadvertently, silently thinking about what happened just now. Those conversations should have been sent to Mycroft's desk, right?So what would he do?

"John, you should have a good talk with Mr. Holmes about the in-depth communication between you, which will be good for both of you in your future married life. Besides, your emotional state is too unstable, I hope he It can help you get rid of this anxious mood as soon as possible." Amanda knew that the only cure for John's mental symptoms was only one dose - Sherlock Holmes.

"But he doesn't understand." John shook his head in frustration.

"Holmes doesn't understand, can you teach him? I believe you can do it. You must know that you are a true soldier who has been on the battlefield in Afghanistan. Even death can't make you shrink back. What else can you be afraid of?"

Yes, the big detective Sherlock, the bastard, Sherlock Holmes is more troublesome than death!

"I see, thank you!" John felt that he had finished what he should have said, and he didn't need to say what he shouldn't have said.The consultation should be over here, he just needs to go back to 221B and wait for the result with peace of mind.

"I wish you and Mr. Holmes a happy relationship. It is a great fortune for you to know each other, meet and love each other!"

"I join Sherlock in thanking you for your well wishes, Amanda."

"However, John, your blog has been stopped for a few months, so you really don't plan to write about it?" Amanda stood up and shook hands with John to bid farewell, and raised the notebook in her other hand, looking at it with disapproval. to John.In Amanda's view, although Dr. Watson's blog has recently become popular again because of the return of Sherlock Holmes, piles of comments and bookmarks cannot erase the fact that the last update date of his blog is still in May !

After Shan Shanran let go of his hand, John could only find an excuse that he hoped could be prevaricated, "Well, there is nothing to write recently...well, I will write, I promise!" Seeing Amanda Staring at his half-smiling eyes, John silently shed a handful of tears of sympathy in his heart. Is it too late for him to go online and post the recruitment information for ghostwriting to help update the blog?Or just ask Mycroft on the phone to help find one?