Can it be made public?

A few seconds seemed like a century had passed.

It wasn't until the other party retreated and the sound of footsteps gradually faded away that Ji Li opened his eyes and stared at the corner where the other party disappeared.

This area is specially set up for patients, and the stainless steel benches have been stretched far away. Most of the time, the surrounding area is quiet, only occasionally someone whispers in a low voice.

No one noticed the movement here, and even the surveillance was unwilling to give their eyes to this corner.

There is no need to think about what kiss means.

Ji Li sat motionless for a while, his heartbeat calmed down, and then he waited for the other party to come back.

Seeing him, Ying Yunsheng subconsciously paused before walking over: "When did you wake up?"

Ji Li: "Just woke up."

Ying Yunsheng didn't hear any other meaning from this sentence, so he was relieved: "It's just right to wake up, let's drink the medicine." He handed over the prepared medicine, "I asked the doctor, these medicines are suitable for patients with congenital heart disease. You can drink."

Ji Li raised his hand to accept it: "Thank you."

Ying Yunsheng: "Be careful it's hot."

Ji Li held the cup with both hands, and the temperature penetrated through the wall of the cup, scalding his hands to blood.

He drank the medicine in the cup slowly, and handed back the empty cup.

Ying Yunsheng: "Do you still want to drink water?"

Ji Li nodded: "Okay."

When the other party went to fetch the water, Ji Li still sat there motionless, waiting for the other party to come back and give him the cup.

He took two sips, stared at the water for a while, and then suddenly asked, "Do you have any sugar?"

Ying Yunsheng was taken aback: "No." Then he asked, "Is the medicine very bitter?"

"A bit."

In fact, because of his illness, his mouth was always bitter, and he didn't even taste what the medicine was like.

Ying Yunsheng got up: "You wait here, I will buy it for you."

He said he was buying candy, but Ying Yunsheng finally brought back a plastic bag and took out a packing box from it.

As soon as the cover was lifted, a steaming steam came out in an instant, quickly moistening people's eyebrows and eyes.

"It's almost noon, you should eat something to fill your stomach first," Ying Yunsheng handed him the disposable spoon.

I ordered barley and pumpkin porridge. The LOGO on the plastic bag is familiar. It is a well-known porridge shop nearby. The food is sweet and soft, and it will drip slowly when scooped up.

Ji Li didn't have much appetite, and he couldn't finish it after drinking only half a bowl.

Ying Yunsheng took it over and finished the rest, then took out a sugar bowl and handed it over: "Don't eat too much."

The sugar bowl is very beautiful, and the sugar inside is wrapped in oiled paper, with fruit doodles printed on the paper.

Ji Li uncorked the cork, took out one from inside, peeled off the candy wrapper and put it in his mouth.

It is orange flavor, sweet and sour.

It was already afternoon when all four bottles of potions were finished, and Ji Li's condition was obviously not suitable for continuing classes, so Ying Yunsheng took him home with an umbrella.

The rain and fog were so dense that no one spoke actively along the way.

Ji Li unlocked the lock with his fingerprints, opened the door, changed his shoes, and turned around to see Ying Yunsheng still standing outside the door.

Ying Yunsheng said: "You take a good rest, I will first..."

Ji Li: "Don't want to come in and take a look?"

Ying Yunsheng was taken aback.

Ji Li had already pulled on his slippers and entered the living room, but the door was still open to people outside.

Ying Yunsheng hesitated for a while, but he didn't resist his curiosity and went in.

The layout inside is similar to that of Lin Chengshuang's house. The same apartment building has the exact same layout, but the direction of the mirror is turned off, and the atmosphere of life in Lin Chengshuang's house is missing.

Ying Yunsheng felt more at ease.

Probably because the atmosphere here is too similar to when he first stepped into the other party's house in Tingfeng Lane.

Things were placed neatly against the wall, and the objects on the coffee table were also tidied up. There was a huge bookcase in the room, and the books were arranged in a regular order from large to small, and the chairs were pushed under the table.

The whole place is clean and tidy, which is incompatible with the dirty and discarded him.

But now the feeling is even heavier.

Ying Yunsheng looked around and realized the difference: "Aren't you growing flowers now?"

Ji Li shook his head: "It's too easy to die."

"What about the animals?"

"With no one to take care of them, it's easy to get sick."

"What about silkworms?"

"Uh..." Although he was the only one in the house where Ji Li used to live, there was no shortage of life atmosphere. The balcony was always filled with flowers and plants, there was a Newton pendulum on the table, there were resin workpieces on the cabinet, beside the TV There are brass statues, and there is a special water dish outside the bay window. Occasionally, pigeons or sparrows settle on it. He usually tears a piece of bread and sprinkles it out. Hearing the chirping of the birds outside, he turns his head and says yes to him with a smile. Not very cute.

The only animal that has been raised in the true sense is the silkworm.

It was spring at that time, and there was a craze for raising silkworms in the school. The students tore a piece of white paper and folded it into an open-air carton, with a layer of mulberry leaves inside and two silkworm babies on it. They competed with their classmates after class. capital.

Naturally, Ying Yunsheng didn't have pocket money to buy these, but after school, Ji Li dragged him around to the canteen outside the school, and finally brought out four small silkworm babies, and put them in the old shoebox he found.

The two changed mulberry leaves every day like clocking in at work, cleaned the shoebox, and watched the little creatures inside grow up day by day, shedding their skins and spinning their silk until the moths broke out of their cocoons.

It's a pity that because they can't fly, and there are no other moths to interact with each other, the animals that can't swallow the mulberry leaves can only persist for a few days, and then all die in the silk net.

Ji Li said, "But didn't they all die in the end?"

Ying Yunsheng was silent for a while: "Have you noticed that you are not the same as before?"

Ji Li: "No one remains the same forever."

"You've never been like this before," Ying Yunsheng looked at him, paused before continuing, "It makes people feel like living is a burden when they see it."

Ji Li didn't speak.

However, Ying Yunsheng said to himself: "You used to count your days positively. Every day that passes, you add one day to your living counter, and you already have more things; but now you are Completely reverse, looking at the end point to count the days, every day that passes, you will be alive one day less, every minute and every second of time means that you are one step closer to death, and you still have a little less. "

Ji Li seemed shocked by his description, and blinked after a while: "Do you know why I chose liberal arts?"

Ying Yunsheng was taken aback: "Why?"

"My mother used to be a cultural relic appraiser." Ji Li looked at the heavy rain outside the window, "Before I went to Tingfeng Lane, I followed her to many other places. I know that she was the leader and others went to the ancient tomb and cracked the ancient tomb. Mechanisms that no one else can crack, have been to the auction house where the world's attention is focused, pointed out the authenticity of deceitful calligraphy and paintings, and even took over severely damaged stone statues. Newspapers used to have special pages about her, state officials praised her talent, and museum administrators would mention her name when introducing exhibits to tourists. Even if her people left, many people still remembered that she existed. "

Ji Li looked at him: "I choose liberal arts, one is that I am interested in cultural relics because of her influence, and the other is that I also want to try to see if I can leave something in this world, at least not to live for more than ten years , but no one remembers it after death.”

Ying Yunsheng's heart beat faster and faster, but he never said a word.

"But she doesn't want me like this." Ji Li said softly, "She wants me to live a long life, even if I do nothing all my life. This kind of life-burning way of living is not within the scope of her permission at all."

Ying Yunsheng looked at him standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows. The sound insulation in the room was so good that the sound of rain hitting the glass could not be heard. Drop by drop gathered into an unsupportable weight, and when it slid down, it dragged out long and winding tear trails.

Even the person in front of the window was trapped in a strong self-loathing that seemed to overflow.

Ying Yunsheng suddenly said: "But you want to learn archaeology, and it doesn't conflict with you living according to her wish."

Ji Li was taken aback.

"Future and health never mean that you have to give up the other if you choose one. You can have both." Ying Yunsheng said, "If you restrain yourself from touching any irritating food, don't you just want to stick to yourself? While taking care of her wishes?"

Ji Li suddenly smiled: "Don't normal people at this time even if they don't persuade me to put filial piety first, they should comfort me with a few words that children should not be accessories of their parents. Why don't you follow the routine."

There was a lot of wind blowing along the way, and now the sequelae came up belatedly. Ji Li was not energetic, because his throat hurt when he spoke, and he couldn't help tilting his head and coughing a few times.

Ying Yunsheng subconsciously stepped forward and patted him on the back until he caught the other person's line of sight, he paused for a moment, suddenly felt guilty for some reason, and withdrew his hand after a while: "I'll get you a glass of water."

The sound of porcelain cups colliding and water flowing could be heard outside the room, and Ying Yunsheng came in with the cup: "Here."

Ji Li touched the wall of the cup, it was warm.

He drank half a cup and raised his head: "Ying Yunsheng."

"Ok?"

"You know I have a heart attack, right?"

Ying Yunsheng was stunned for a moment, then nodded.

Ji Li put down his glass: "I know you're still here?"

Ying Yunsheng always felt that the "coming" in this sentence did not refer to the distance from the living room to the room.

Ji Li suddenly raised his hand to cover his eyes with his palm: "Do you know why I just told you that?"

Ying Yunsheng's field of vision suddenly went dark, but the surrounding movement was magnified thousands of times in an instant, subconsciously followed his words and asked, "Why?"

"I didn't ask you to serve as a psychological counselor." Ji Li's fingertips silently landed on his eyelids, lightly tapped, and then moved to the end of his eyes, "I want to tell you that my essence is actually He's a very selfish person."

Because the fever has not subsided, Ji Li's body temperature is now higher than Ying Yunsheng's. The place he touched is like a fire, and even the surrounding air begins to heat up, like a tempting hotbed, and like a beautiful and illusory place. dream.

Ying Yunsheng heard the other party's voice said very softly: "Fool."

Otherwise how can you like him.

The author says:

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