[Yuzuru Hanyu] Under the clear sky, above the ice

Time flies, and the phenomenal web drama "Double Realms", which has been on the air for more than two months, has finally come to an end. For the 2-episode web drama, the period from the broadcast to the end has aroused the urging of the whole people.The Naihe video platform completely ignored the voices of the audience, and just followed the original plan to broadcast six episodes a week in a leisurely manner.

Fans of the main actors and supporting roles in the play have increased.The main creators left for business one after another, adding another wave of fans.

Shu Anzhi, as the original writer and screenwriter, has also increased her fans a lot, but she doesn't have the concept of doing business for fans and popularity in her heart.Maybe there are, but I didn't take it to heart, and I didn't update it even once after the last live broadcast.Of course, she is not a star, and there should be no fans expecting her to open.

Yes, those who look forward to her business on her Weibo are not necessarily her fans.

But the flag set during the live broadcast before will be destroyed.The welfare task of fan voting is a 12-hour live broadcast of daily life.There are already a bunch of people cheering under her Weibo.

Shu Anzhi had the feeling that all the voters were fans of Yuzuru Hanyu, so she told him the result that night.

He raised his hand happily and positively: "Yuzuru Hanyu applied to appear in the scene!"

Shu Anzhi clapped his hand dumbfounded: "The application is rejected!"

He sighed in disappointment.

"My side is trying hard not to let you be exposed, but your side is actively trying to expose it. What do you think? Aren't you always keeping a low profile as private as you can? Don't I give you a sense of security? I That’s all, what else do you want?”

"Stupid! I want the whole world to know that you are so good!"

"You're stupid, the whole world knows it, so someone came to snatch it?" Then suddenly realized: "After a long time, the sense of security I gave you is so strong, you want to show me off! You Are you childish!"

"Didn't you keep calling me naive?"

"So you plan to sit still and not struggle?"

"Yeah, I also think that sometimes I'm quite naive, but I'm mature when I should be? And they already know that you are my girlfriend, so there's nothing to hide!"

Shu Anzhi nodded without denying it: "So I was too high-key at the beginning, and I should keep a low profile."

"I want to be high-profile. You just followed my wishes. Because at the beginning, I only felt your love, but not your possessiveness. It was too selfless, which made me feel a little illusory. But I can't change your mind, and I didn't feel a little more at ease until it was made public." He patted her head and explained.

"Then you want to go out and show off now that you're more at ease?" Shu Anzhi didn't understand.

"Later your identity was discovered by netizens. At that time, I was a little more at ease. I don't know why, it seems that everyone knows, so that I can increase my sense of security. You cried before returning home, you asked I, you have done so many things for me that are beyond the life plan, and what do you get from me? While feeling guilty and helpless, it made me feel at ease. It’s not that you want nothing, but I can’t give it for the time being. This kind of thinking is very selfish, right?"

"I've been wronged like that, and you still feel at ease? What kind of psychology?!"

"I was really guilty and blamed myself at the time, but I was helpless. I thought about what I could give you. I couldn't give you more time and energy. You don't need material things. I love you more and more. It is even more natural. Even now, I still have this kind of thinking. But that day, I bought you a car and you accepted it happily. It’s like opening it. Suddenly, I feel at ease.”

"You may not like to hear the reason, do you want to know?" Shu Anzhi asked him with a serious expression.

He nodded and fell silent, waiting for her answer.

"When I was waiting for the results in the hospital, I thought about it. At that time, I suddenly realized that I had paid these things, and it didn't matter if I didn't get the corresponding rewards. Because I didn't fall in love with you for the rewards. And these things I completely lost."

He listened to her answer, no smile on his face anymore.

Shu Anzhi didn't change what he wanted to say this time because of his mood change, and continued: "I still love you, so I can afford to spend it like this. But I will also have negative emotions, and I will also collapse and feel uncomfortable for a long time. Giving without return consumes my love for you. When one day I find that love is exhausted, I will choose to leave. I have been with you for a long time, and I forgot that I was ready for this from the beginning ready to be with you."

"If you have such a pessimistic attitude, why are you still with me?" His voice became unsteady.

Shu Anzhi raised the corner of his mouth: "Because you looked so beautiful when you appeared, I couldn't refuse at all. Before I met you, I had never been attracted to a boy, and I hardly even had a crush on him. But the few days you appeared This image is too perfect, which made me curious about you. Curiosity is probably the beginning of my heart. So I thought and thought, and finally told myself, since I met the person who was attracted to me, and he happened to like me, then I Just talk about a good relationship. So knowing that figure skating is the focus of your life, I also jumped into the fire. I knew from the beginning that I would not get the corresponding rewards, so I told myself from the beginning , if you feel that you can't take it anymore, then choose to leave decisively."

"That's why I've always felt uneasy." He had put down the bowls and chopsticks in his hand and listened to her quietly.

"Yes, you are really sensitive." Shu Anzhi also put down the chopsticks in his hand, and continued: "To be honest, I didn't expect the matter to develop to this extent. Since last year, I have developed a sense of responsibility towards you. .So I put down everything in my hands and started to take care of you wholeheartedly. I didn't expect things to develop like this, so I was wronged and I flinched. I also started to be afraid. I participated too much. If one day I If you are leaving, will it affect you?"

"I can't live without you!" He said seriously and firmly.

Shu Anzhi smiled wryly: "I found out, I found out after that time I lost contact. It was too late when I clearly realized the problem, not to mention that I still love you. So after the unblocking, I flew over again, In fact, I should be more rational and choose not to come here. After being separated for a long time, maybe you will get used to it. However, if you can be so rational about emotional matters, it probably isn't emotional!"

"An'an, you are really calm and scary!" He sighed.

"I just have a habit of analyzing rationally when I encounter problems, and I am not rational at all when I make this decision." Shu Anzhi smiled, accepted his description, and after a while she said: "Forget it, I can't eat anymore , do you still eat?"

"I can't eat anymore." He smiled wryly.

"Then clean it up." She got up and started to clean it up.

Seeing her uncharacteristic appearance, Yuzuru Hanyu was at a loss.She made him feel helpless again and again.

After Shu Anzhi packed up his things, he went back to his room to take a shower.

After taking a shower, I knew that I probably couldn't write any words in this state, so I just took my iPad and lay on the bed to watch the drama, but I didn't watch the plot.

Hanyu Yuzuru took a shower, went into the study, and never came out.

When it was 12 o'clock, seeing that he still hadn't come back, Shu Anzhi habitually left him a night light, put the iPad on the bedside table, closed his eyes and got ready to sleep.

Maybe it's a habit, sleeping alone on this big bed, she tossed and turned, and couldn't sleep.So he opened his eyes, stared at the dim ceiling, in a daze.Probably no one would like to fall in love with a girl who is extremely calm and likes to weigh the pros and cons, especially a girl who is ready to retreat at any time!

But these words have really been held in her heart for a long time.No matter what the result is, she can actually bear it. After all, no one can't live if he really leaves.She has always been a person who can live well alone, isn't she?Since she was a child, her mother told her to be independent and not to rely on others to live. This is how she grew up, and she also grew up to be what she wanted.With a sense of security, she can give herself enough.Love is the icing on the cake.

She reached out and turned off the night light, and the room was plunged into darkness without any light.This was the environment she was used to falling asleep in, and she closed her eyes.

Before she could fully fall asleep, she suddenly heard the sound of the door opening, and the sound of footsteps seemed to stop at the door for a while before the door closed.Then there was the sound of his groping footsteps into the room, the other side of the bed sank and he slipped under the covers.She is wide awake.

He knew she wasn't asleep yet, and she didn't take the initiative to talk.

After a long time, his voice came faintly in the darkness: "An'an, why didn't you leave a light for me."

"Because I like to fall asleep in an environment without a little light."

"Then why did you leave the light on for me every time you went to bed first?"

"Because I'm afraid that if you are worried that turning on the light will affect my sleep, if you walk in in the dark, you will knock or fall."

"Then why don't you leave a lamp for me today?"

"Because I think you probably won't come in."

There was another long silence, when she thought he would never speak again, he asked, "Then why were you so happy when I gave you the car?"

"Probably the epidemic made me realize that no one knows which one will come first, tomorrow or the accident. I know you have done your best, so I won't demand anything from you. I will accept what you give, and cherish what I have now. enough."

"Are you saying this because you know I can't live without you?"

"Yes."

"Do you kind of wish I didn't come in?"

After a long pause, Shu Anzhi replied: "Yes."

"An'an, do you know that you just completely destroyed my emotional confidence."

"Feel sorry."

"Why is it obviously a happy topic at the beginning, but now it has become like this?"

"Feel sorry."

Hearing her apology, he was a little angry, not at her, but at himself.It was he himself who caused this result, wasn't he?

Shu Anzhi and Yuzuru Hanyu are alike to some extent, but when something goes wrong, they always find the reason for themselves habitually.

Yuzuru Hanyu pulled Shu Anzhi, who was lying with his back to her, into his arms, and felt wet, touched her face only to find that she was silently tearing down under the cover of the night.

"You speak so heartlessly, why are you crying so sadly?" He reached out to help her wipe the tears off her face, but he wiped more and more.This kind of silent crying caused him far more pain than those few loud cries.

He pulled her into his arms, buried her face in his chest, and comforted her by stroking her back: "Since you know that I can't live without you, why are you crying! You are so confident and proud of being favored! "

"If I don't come back tonight, will you pack up and leave tomorrow?" he asked.

Shu Anzhi didn't answer, and acquiesced.

"I knew it! So how could I not come back, I can't let you run away, what should I do if I can't find you if you run away! If I can't find you, I can't chase you back, so I won't let you run away. As I said, I will tie you by my side as well."

"I know, I'm actually to blame for making you think this way. It's because I didn't give you enough sense of security. I'm really not a competent boyfriend. In a way, I'm the one who is proud of you. Enjoy it Your love, your dedication, and the sense of security you gave cannot be reciprocated to you equally. Although you said that this is not what you want from me, but this is what I should give you. "

"I always say that if I love you, I should give you the best, but in the end, I can't give you the best except for material things. And material things happen to be what you and I care the least about. An'an, I also It’s so difficult! You are too independent, even if you rely on me sometimes, it’s okay, but you never seem to be weak, and the only time is before your menstrual period.”

"No." Shu Anzhi said: "You have tried your best, I know. Japanese houses are bought with fine decoration, and this house is completely decorated according to my wishes. You should dismantle the original decoration. Reinstalled it? I think you only bought the car once in a while and you remembered it. You obviously like playing games so much. When I’m here, you should be the most free time, but I rarely see you playing games. When you are free, you are always by my side. Except for figure skating, you have already spent the rest of your time and energy on me, and I know it all.”

"So, don't you not love me, okay? Don't leave me, okay?" Yuzuru Hanyu asked, holding her tightly.

"Didn't I say, I love you, as long as I still love you, I will not leave you unless you let me go."

"I love you too, so I won't let you go."

Shu Anzhi was embraced by him, slowly calmed down his emotions, and then complained: "Then you just said that I was a bit scary in my calmness!"

"At that moment, I felt a little bit hurt, and my emotional self-confidence was completely destroyed by you in an instant."

"Then I don't care, you actually said that I'm horrible!" Shu Anzhi sniffed and touched his neckline which was soaked by her crying: "Pull me some tissues, your chest is wet from my crying, Do you want to change clothes?"

In the dark, he took two tissues from the tissue box, touched her face and dried her bit by bit.He took off his shirt and threw it aside: "That's all right."

Shu Anzhi touched his face, because he had shed too many tears just now, his face was tense and uncomfortable.She broke away from him and wanted to wash her face, but instead of breaking away, she hugged him even tighter.

"Let go, I'm going to wash my face!" She had to speak.

"I'm really not reconciled. It's obviously a problem between the two of us, but you figured it out entirely on your own, and this is the result. I'm very reconciled."

"That's your problem, you solve it yourself! And isn't it good? As long as I love you, I won't leave you, you just make sure I love you. Simplify all the complex issues, deal with The most fundamental question, concise and clear."

"Damn! You've already thought this way, and you couldn't see it at all a while ago!"

"Haha, because having such a thought does not delay my love for you at all, I still love you very much now, I will not let my behavior in the process get closer to this result because of such psychological preparation. I love you That is, I love you, and I will try my best to love you."

"I'm still so unhappy!"

"Then you can struggle alone, I'll go wash my face, I'm so uncomfortable." She pushed him again, and he finally let go.

Turn on the light, get up, and go to the bathroom.

Looking at himself with red eyes in the mirror, Shu Anzhi heaved a sigh of relief.It's actually good to be able to say it, it's like throwing the problem to him.This is her last shield.

She turned on the faucet, bent down, took the water and patted her face.

At this time Yuzuru Hanyu also walked in.

Shu Anzhi straightened up, forced his eyes to reach for the towel, he grabbed his hand, and then gently covered her face with the dry towel, taking away the moisture.

She opened her eyes and saw the man in front of her who also had red eyes.She took another towel, soaked it, wrung it out, and wiped his face too.

He looked at her, and she looked at him.

After a long time, Shu Anzhi couldn't help but burst out laughing with a "puchi" and said, "Yuzu, if my love score is 100 points, then my love for you now has 120 points."

"Did it increase instead of decrease?" There was light in his eyes again.

Shu Anzhi nodded: "Yes, that's right! Also, after looking at me for so long just now, don't you know how to kiss me?"

Hearing her answer, he first smiled with satisfaction, and then said a little angrily, "Oh, I'm so angry! Obviously I took the initiative at the beginning, but later the initiative was completely in your hands! Obviously I was the one who took the initiative." The one with the stronger desire to control, isn't it? How did you get to this point!"

"I conspired nakedly from the very beginning!" Shu Anzhi smiled triumphantly, then wrapped his arms around his neck, pulled him over, and kissed his lips.

After the kiss, he wiped the corner of her mouth with his thumb, and said meaningfully: "But at this time, the control and initiative are usually in my hands!" He picked her up and walked to the bed.

"It seems that we just broke out the biggest conflict since we were together. Isn't it inappropriate to do this at this time?" Shu Anzhi asked in his ear, wrapping his arms around his neck.

He put her on the bed and started to untie her pajamas: "Husbands and wives always quarrel at the head of the bed and end at the end of the bed! In the future, we will use this ending to our conflicts! And only at this time, your possessiveness is the most important thing." obviously!"

Shu Anzhi couldn't laugh or cry again, but he let his actions go, and said helplessly: "Obviously, at this time, your desire to possess and control is the most obvious, and it's completely different from usual!"

"What you feel is mine, what I feel is yours!" After finishing speaking, she no longer gave her a chance to speak.

That night, she never uttered a complete sentence, only fragmented expressions.

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The author has something to say:

After this conflict is resolved, the two of them will have no other problems.

So, this article is coming to an end~~~~