such as Yue Linyuan

According to Si Yuanting's intention, it was to save Chu Yuelei's life.

So from the very beginning, Lu Tai used chronic medicine.

When Physician Lu started to do it, Si Yuanting kept watching coldly, his hair was messed up, so Chu Yuezhi asked him to sit down and re-tied his long hair.

Si Yuanting's state was not right, and Chu Yuezhi had noticed it since entering the hall.

Hatred spread across Si Yuanting's body, and that gloomy and cold aura enveloped Si Yuanting's whole body again. Even when Chu Yuezhi helped him tie his hair, his face was still as cold as frost, and his eyes were full of cruelty. gas.

Physician Lu was stopping Chu Yuelei's bleeding, and the severed limb was placed on a low table aside. Chu Yuezhi turned to Si Yuanting to block his view, and said, "Si Jiu, don't look."

"Get out of the way." Si Yuanting held the jade pendant tightly in his hand, but he didn't look at Chu Yuezhi, his voice was as cold and piercing as if it could drop ice slag.

"Si Jiu, that's enough." Chu Yuezhi didn't back down, he bent down to shake Si Yuanting's hand, but was swung away violently.

Si Yuanting stood up again, took a big step back, and said sharply, "Don't touch me!"

Don't touch me, don't let me kneel on your crotch to do that disgusting thing.

Don't look at me either, no one is allowed to look at me with that kind of obscene eyes again, and defile me with that kind of insulting, mocking and violating gaze.

I am not a castrate, not a courtier and eunuch, even if I cannot inherit the incense for the Si family, I am still a descendant of the Si family, and I have always abided by the family discipline of the Si family.

I'm about to kill them all. It took me so many years to pay those people who killed my father and the Si family, but my father can't come back, my mother can't come back, and my body will never come back. I can't get better. I will always be their excuse to frame my father and the Si family. I am a sinner of the Si family. My life has been completely ruined.

What's the use of grief and indignation, nothing can change, what's the use of heart-burning hatred day and night, revenge and hatred can't bring back loved ones and lost years, I have to let the people I love see me in embarrassment and shame again and again Look, when you are with someone like me, you have to bear the unbearable things with me, and listen to those swear words about me, but the person I love is clearly a person who is honest and kind, so why should I suffer because of me? And stained with dust.

"Don't touch me, don't touch me." Si Yuanting repeated, took another two steps back, and said, "Prince An, please wait outside the hall, and this slave has to send His Majesty back to the bedroom. When His Majesty wakes up, this slave will Then ask His Majesty what Prince An asked for."

Chu Yuezhi froze, looking at Si Yuanting incomprehensibly and at a loss.

He didn't know what happened before he came, but he knew that Si Yuanting didn't want to see him now.

The Imperial Physician Lu behind him had already tidied things up and wiped his hands with a wet towel. He bowed to Si Yuanting, and then said to Chu Yuezhi: "Prince An, the old minister has something to say to Prince An. Please ask Prince An to accompany the veterans to the outside of the palace, so that Mr. Si can also call the palace people to send His Majesty back to the bedroom."

Chu Yuezhi half turned to look at Imperial Physician Lu, he had no friendship with Imperial Physician Lu, so he didn't know what Imperial Physician Lu would say to him, but when he turned back to look at Si Yuanting, he saw Si Yuanting standing by the candlelight. In the dark place where he could not reach, his complexion was gloomy and unclear, as if all the warmth and love he had given these days had been swallowed up by the darkness of claws and claws.

The hand that had been half-stretched towards Si Yuanting was still frozen in mid-air, and his fingers were slightly curled up. Chu Yuezhi seemed to see the past that he couldn't grasp passing through his fingers, and the dust in the dim light was like the leftovers of the years. , It is also like a chronic illness that has been ups and downs for years, seemingly weightless, but in fact it has unknowingly crushed people and has become an unbearable weight.

Chu Yuezhi took a step towards Si Yuanting, he put down his hand, and said softly: "It's okay, Si Jiu, I'm not going anywhere, I'll just wait for you where you can see, Chu Qi will not abandon Si Jiu .”

The same sentence is said after a few years, the person who said it has not changed, and the person who listens can no longer respond.

Physician Lu took Chu Yuezhi out.

Si Yuanting stood there for a long time, until the candle was extinguished and the hall became darker, then he slowly approached the unconscious person.

Why did he suffer so much after accepting his fate?

He has lived up to his father's last words, why is he still so restless day and night?

Chu Yuezhi never abandoned him, everything was involuntary, and Chu Yuezhi never disliked him, but regarded him as precious, but why, he still felt ashamed all the time, when he believed in Chu Yuezhi At the same time, he was dragged back into the abyss again and again, unable to let go of the idea of ​​begging for death in exchange for liberation?

Raising his hand, Si Yuanting swept down the short table and the wooden plate on which the stump was placed, and then raised his foot to crush the bloody stump into pieces.

The unspeakable tarsal pain spread from the deepest part of his body, gnawing at every nerve. He bent down little by little, grasped his chest tightly, and opened his mouth with a heart-piercing sound like a wounded beast. The wail that pierced the entire hall.

When Si Yuanting's shrill cry came from the hall, Chu Yuezhi, who had just come out not long ago, almost rushed into the hall again.

However, Physician Lu stopped him.

"Prince An, sorry for the offence, but no matter how worried you are about Mr. Si, please hold back and don't provoke him again at this time. After the death of the late emperor, Mr. Si executed the former Hanlin scholar, and he was also mourning at that time Serious injury, causing internal injury, but for the company, it is also a kind of release, which is not necessarily a bad thing." Lu Taiyi's voice is gentle, with the unique kindness of an old man.

However, Chu Yuezhi yelled at him angrily without thinking: "Don't call him Mr. Si, he is not!"

Imperial Physician Lu did not feel any displeasure because of Chu Yuezhi's attitude, but just changed his title in a polite manner: "Mr. Si has a stubborn illness in his heart, and it will not be cured overnight. The old minister dare not speculate on the relationship between Prince An and Mr. Si. Prince An values ​​Mr. Si very much, so this old minister hopes that Prince An will listen to what this old minister has to say."

Hearing this, Chu Yuezhi quickly put away his angry expression, and glanced into the dark hall again, struggling a little, then nodded to Imperial Physician Lu and said: "This king was impatient and lost his etiquette. I hope Doctor Lu will forgive me."

Physician Lu shook his head and said with understanding: "If you care about it, you will be chaotic. This is human nature. Prince An is a person who values ​​affection, so it is normal for him to behave like this."

Probably because he knew that Chu Yuezhi was anxious, Physician Lu didn't wait for him to ask any more questions, and continued: "Because the first emperor wanted to save the envoys first, so in the end, the old minister healed the son of Si. Later, the old minister was reprimanded by the late emperor and sent to Huimin. Department, goodbye to Mr. Si, it has been several years. Doctors should not harm people. However, when the old minister's wife and daughter went to the street, they were knocked down by His Majesty who was out of the palace and had not yet ascended the throne. His wife died on the spot. As a result, the daughter became disabled. If Mr. Si hadn't helped him at that time, the old official might not even be able to save his beloved daughter's life. Mr. Si said that this was the kindness that saved his life back then, but what kind of kindness was that back then? So later, when Mr. Si needed someone of his own in the Taiyuan Hospital, the veteran and Mr. Si expressed their willingness to do the same.

"Over the years, Mr. Si occasionally asked the old minister to recuperate him. However, even if the old minister could prescribe a tranquilizer that would not hurt his body, the old minister was still powerless to heal the stubborn illness in Mr. Si's heart. Mr. Si was seriously injured back then, and he died before he could recuperate. Encountered great changes, Prince An must not know that when the Si family was beheaded, Mr. Si was still taken to the execution ground to watch the punishment. All the loyal people were beheaded like this. The royal family treated the Si family like this, and Mr. Si could still keep it. With the faith and justice in my heart, I remember that I want to strengthen the Daheng Kingdom and bring prosperity to the people. It is not easy. Over the years, Mr. Si has endured everything that ordinary people can't bear, and he can't tell others. Among them, Mr. Si himself His self-esteem, the pain that could not be released for many years, and the low self-esteem accumulated over the years.

"Prince An, Mr. Si's heart disease cannot be healed by words, nor can it be cured simply by giving and receiving. The emperor's family is ruthless. If Prince An has no determination to gamble the rest of his life, he should not provoke Mr. Si. Mr. Si is already At the end of the arrow, struggling to support the seemingly cold and ruthless solid shell, in fact, the inside has long been broken and dilapidated. The old minister did not question Prince An's love for Mr. Si, but just wanted to tell Prince An that Mr. Si has regrets and his heart disease is hard to heal , and Prince An ascends to the summit in the future, even if he is slightly shaken, Mr. Si is afraid that he will take the lead and share his worries at the cost of his life. What can protect Mr. Si is not power, not decoction, not useless compensation, Rather, Prince An's love, people and life. Prince An needs to truly become one with Mr. Si, never give up, and use his own flesh and blood to make up for Mr. Si's incompleteness, so that Mr. Si can live in the sun and never give up on the world."

Chu Yuezhi kept listening to Lu Taiyi's words without interrupting, but when he heard half of it, he turned his head and looked into the palace where Si Yuanting was invisible. There will be suppressed low cries from inside, just like holding him that day and finally shedding tears that have been suppressed for many years, and now Si Yuanting is also inside alone, yelling out the painful screams that have been unable to utter for many years out.

It wasn't until Physician Lu finished speaking that Chu Yuezhi looked back with red eyes. He raised his hand to cover his face and tried to suppress the choked sobs. After calming down his emotions, he looked at Physician Lu with a forced calm appearance, and said in a low voice: "During the battle on the frontier, this king once got a prescription called Dujun. It was a voodoo medicine from a tribe. The couple who had made a promise of life and death took this medicine and they would live together. If one party died, the other It will also go away in the near future. I have heard that Imperial Physician Lu is highly skilled in medicine and is even an expert in pharmacy. My subordinates do not want to make this medicine. Refining this medicine?"

Physician Lu originally thought that Chu Yuezhi would be somewhat hesitant after listening to him, but he didn't expect that Chu Yuezhi would directly make such a request. Even though he had seen all kinds of life for many years, he couldn't help being surprised With a strange look, he thought about it for a while before replying: "The old minister has also heard of this Gu medicine. Yaoyin is a twin Gu worm. After taking it, there is no medicine to cure it. If there is Yaoyin and the prescription, the old minister can naturally use it Made from Gu medicine, but, Prince An really thought it through? If you use this medicine, there will be no turning back."

"Emperor Lu, don't worry, I have all the medicines and prescriptions. As for the way back..." Chu Yuezhi curled his lips into a smile, his face was full of tenderness, he pressed his hand on the heartbeat on his chest, and said firmly : "Si Yuanting is the only antidote in my life. From the moment I fell in love with him, I never thought of turning back."

Hearing this, Imperial Physician Lu had no doubts, and respectfully said: "Old minister understands, then please ask Prince An to give the medicine guide and prescription to the veteran, and the veteran will make Gu medicine for Prince An and Mr. Si in the shortest possible time. "

"I'm sorry, Imperial Physician Lu." Hearing the shouts in the hall gradually weaken until silence returned, Chu Yuezhi said, "There is one more thing. Imperial Physician Lu also knows that my king's Si Jiu always thinks a lot. If you let him know , I will definitely not want to take medicine, so please don't tell him about this matter for the time being."

After crossing the threshold, Chu Yuezhi walked into the hall where all the candles were extinguished, and said to the figure shaking in the darkness: "Si Jiu, Chu Qi is here to accompany you."

To cross the king, to cross the king, all the people in the world, life is like sending, but Chu Qi only wishes to cross the ninety-one people.