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In the study room, no one spoke for a long time after Huanyan's voice fell.

What could be heard was Chu Yuezhi's rapid breathing, which was heavier than usual.

Si Yuanting was still sitting on the chair, showing no emotion on his face, his eyes were lowered, the jade pendant tied around his waist was turned back and forth in his hand, and the other forearm rested on the arm of the chair to support his body , palms and fingertips drooping, the whole person looked extremely calm.

Chu Yuezhi half-raised his face, the sudden truth made him unbelievable for a moment, his reason made him quickly recall all the past with Chu Yuelei, those pictures of brothers and friends flashed in his mind one by one, shocked and angry Mixed with sorrow, it was difficult for him to maintain his composure.

The golden needle seal did not have no effect on him. After the golden needle was removed, although he did recover most of the memories of the past, in fact those memories were not complete, and there were many places that could not be connected intermittently.But even in those intermittent clips, there are memories of Chu Yuelei's existence, and they are all tender. He always thought that Chu Yuelei was gradually corrupted by the imperial power after he ascended the throne, and he began to guard against him. He became suspicious, but never thought that Chu Yuelei's brotherly love for him was always fake, and he concealed murderous intentions from beginning to end.

It took a whole stick of incense before Si Yuanting finally broke the silence and asked, "You know so much, why are you still alive today?" I know, according to Chu Yuelei's suspicious character, it is impossible for her to live for so long.Not to mention Chu Yuelei, even Si Yuanting, if he finds out that there is a witness who knows a lot but is not his confidant, he will never let people live to see the sun the next day.

Huanyan straightened up, she stroked the strands of white hair from her temples, and said with a wry smile: "His Royal Highness and Mr. Si both know that the lover of this servant is a eunuch, but this servant is not perfect. Back then, it was the servant who tried every means to climb up She took the third prince's bed and offered her life to him, so she saved her life and was able to stay by His Highness's side to continue to serve her." She was just a court lady, and in the palace, it was never a big deal for an ordinary court lady or eunuch to lose her life. No one will care.She didn't want to die, in order to survive, she had to make sacrifices in exchange.

"The third prince is suspicious by nature. He doesn't trust anyone except himself. Such a person is also extremely arrogant. He believes that if he is lucky enough to pass by him, his servants will definitely give up on him. In addition, every time he asks his servants to report back about His Highness's situation. At that time, the slaves also told the truth, so he temporarily let the slaves live until the day they left the palace. We fled to a small village to rest for a while, but instead of thinking about it, we encountered a plague, and the whole village died. The servant girl and his wife survived by relying on the life-saving elixir bestowed by His Royal Highness before leaving the palace, so they took the opportunity to change their identities and continue. She fled far away and finally hid in the deep mountains." Huanyan is the daughter of Chu Yuezhi's wet nurse, her age is almost the same as Chu Yuezhi's, but she looks like a 40-year-old woman, not only has white hair, but also around her eyes and lips There are obvious fine lines on the corners, engraving the vicissitudes she has experienced on the skin.

Si Yuanting didn't question Huanyan's words anymore.

As Huanyan said, Chu Yuelei looked down on everyone, and even believed that everyone in the world should submit to him. If he could be favored by him, it would be a great gift from heaven, and it was impossible for him to betray him.Just like how Chu Yuelei treated the eunuch Sigong in these years, served him in bed, and was repeatedly humiliated, Sigong should naturally submit to His Majesty physically and mentally.

Chu Yuezhi hadn't been so angry for a long time. He turned around and looked at Si Yuanting, as if he was asking Si Yuanting and himself: "Why? Why did the emperor treat me like this? I am the youngest prince, and I have no chance of becoming the throne. , The concubine mother was born as a dancing girl, no more than Concubine Hui has a mother's family to rely on, I will not pose any threat to the emperor, why does he want to kill me?! And why does he want you to be a eunuch and trample on you like this?!"

"Huanyan, you go out first. We have something to say to Prince An alone." Si Yuanting got up and walked in front of Chu Yuezhi, stretched out his hand and gently embraced him in his arms. He looked at Chu Yuezhi with gentle eyes Sad, but the voice of talking with Huanyan is a little cold, with an irresistible coercion.

How could Huanyan dare to look at the two of them again, let alone explore the relationship between them, stood up from the ground and exited the study with her head down.

Compared with Chu Yuezhi's excitement, Si Yuanting was much calmer. He had been with Chu Yuelei for many years, and he knew exactly what kind of person Chu Yuelei was. Everything Huanyan said was related to his memory of Chu Yuezhi After being forcibly sealed, the guesses are almost the same, but now it is just that Huanyan confirmed his guesses in person.

"The seven sons of the first emperor, the sixth prince died early, the fifth prince became a monk, the second prince was demoted, the former prince of the Eastern Palace and the fourth prince are dead, Chu Qi, His Majesty wanted to win the throne from the beginning, and eradicated him. Someone who is a threat is expected. You think you are not a threat to His Majesty, but it does not mean that His Majesty thinks the same way. You cannot deny that you are talented, intelligent, and kind-hearted. This is recognized by even the late Emperor. Otherwise, the late Emperor I will not be assigned to you as an attendant." Si Yuanting said, it is true that assigning his son of a minister to a prince who is unlikely to be enthroned as an attendant is more or less a warning to suppress his father, and it is also the same for him to enter the palace. To make his father understand that imperial power cannot be challenged, it is undeniable that the first emperor did love himself, the youngest emperor, otherwise he would not be obsessed with Chu Yuezhi's mother and concubine who was obsessed with dancing and did not want to compete for favor, which made the first emperor unhappy and sent her away. When he was left out in the cold, he asked Shaofu to give lectures to Chu Yuezhi and designated him as his attendant.

Although people who were born in the palace know that the emperor's favor does not mean that he can be appointed as a heir, sometimes the emperor's favor is the most useless.Just as there can be many favored concubines, but only one empress, the rules handed down from the ancestors cannot be broken, each concubine with a background represents the ministers' party feathers, the emperor is not only restrained by ministers of various factions in the court, It is necessary to balance the forces of all parties, and also to guard against the concubine in the harem. In the palace, feelings are the most useless, and only profit calculations are true.

As far as Chu Yuelei is concerned, it is the safest way to kill all small possibilities in the cradle.

"What about you?! You are innocent!! At that time you suffered such a serious injury, he actually asked your father to ask you to enter the palace as a eunuch!!" Chu Yuezhi couldn't restrain himself from raising his voice, he couldn't even imagine , When Si Yuanting was sent to the palace, what was his mood and what was his situation.

Si Yuanting let go of Chu Yuezhi, an indescribable sense of resignation appeared on his face, he spoke plainly, but what he said made Chu Yuezhi feel desolate, ironic and even desperate.

"Chu Qi, I don't want to be a eunuch, but maybe for me who is already crippled, becoming a eunuch is the best choice and the only destiny. If I were exiled with other Si family members, I might have died in half a year. On the way. And the son of a criminal minister cannot be an official in the court. As far as I am concerned, I want to avenge my father and the Si family, want to gain power and enter the court, and want to fulfill my father's last wish to prevent the decline of the Daheng Kingdom. , becoming a eunuch to climb up is my only choice."

He recognized this fact early on and accepted his fate.

"As for why Your Majesty wants me to be a eunuch, don't you understand? What did the envoys want to do to me back then, and how many people wanted to do the same to me with my face... Chu Qi, I am the one who served the bed , not once, not twice, but for more than a month, I was called to bed every day. During those nights, he made me take off my clothes one by one in front of him, and then knelt in front of him to serve him. Mouth attendant. Your Majesty does not easily become suspicious of me, and it is also based on the fact that he thinks that he has completely defiled me and trampled on my self-esteem."

He has also been proud and arrogant, how important is self-esteem and innocence to a person like him.However, becoming a eunuch in the palace fundamentally destroys his dignity. For him who was once the son of a minister, who was famous for his talent, learning and conduct, and was awarded the title of emperor in the capital, being castrated and reduced to an eunuch is more humiliating than killing him thing.He didn't know when Chu Yuelei had evil thoughts towards him, but Chu Yuelei would make such a suggestion to the late emperor, no doubt to make him accept his fate and make him choose to give in when faced with the same thing Instead of fighting again.

He didn't want to hide what Chu Yuelei had done to him, and he didn't want Chu Yuezhi to learn from Chu Yuelei in the future that if Chu Yuezhi firmly chose to want him, there would always be some pain. Insist on bearing and accepting with him.

Cursing the corners of his lips, Si Yuanting showed a faint but no-smile smile, and said: "Do you understand, one day in the future, His Majesty will definitely use these to humiliate me again, to show you that he has done so long before you?" You have touched me before, you have to think clearly whether you can really accept it, if you dislike it, you can let me go now. I will still send you to the throne of God, I promise you, I will never break my promise. "

Chu Yuezhi only felt the bone-chilling cold, just like what he felt when he was submerged in the glaciers in the frontier, and the malice almost swallowed him whole.

He touched Si Yuanting's robes, which were always more formal and strict than anyone else, and the collar that almost covered his neck, and thought that Si Yuanting had to wear a handkerchief to wipe his hands at all times, so he couldn't easily The cleanliness of having skin-to-skin contact with people.

"I never, never had those nasty thoughts about you." Regarding Si Yuanting's acceptance of fate, Chu Yuezhi couldn't think of any refutation. There are many things he will not do, but there is one thing he is sure of, "My feelings for you have never included destroying you first in order to get you."

"Si Jiu, I am willing to be possessed by you in any way, but I will never choose to hurt you just because I love you." Chu Yuezhi wanted to smile at Si Yuanting, but he couldn't make himself calmly comfort Si Yuanting. After showing him the wound, he took a step back, and Chu Yuezhi covered his face and said, "Si Jiu, I will never dislike you, never will. But on the last day, I must kill Chu Yuelei myself, His deceitful use of me, and what he has done to you, I will return these to him tenfold, and then execute him in a hurry."

He didn't want to show his cold-blooded and fierce side in front of Si Yuanting, just like Si Yuanting didn't want him to see his distorted brutality hidden in the darkness, but at this moment, he couldn't be like Si Yuanting Restraining his violent emotions like this, he wanted to kill Chu Yuelei, just like he wanted to kill the envoy back then.

People who have experienced war will always carry the cruelty left after fighting with their lives, as well as the admiration for extreme force, or violence, which is a kind of animal nature left in people who have been baptized by war.

He had become red-eyed on the battlefield more than once, and because of this, when he was seized by hatred, the killing intent bursting out in his heart was unprecedented and ferocious.

Before today, he still had a little bit of brotherly affection for Chu Yuelei, and thought about keeping Chu Yuelei alive after the success of usurping the throne, but now, he just wanted to tear Chu Yuelei into pieces, even if he didn't I also want to avenge Si Yuanting.

Si Yuanting did not let Chu Yuezhi indulge in such distorted hatred.

Stepping forward to pull down Chu Yuezhi's hand that covered his face, Si Yuanting put his palm on his cheek that was tense and stiff due to clenched teeth, and said to him in a warm and forceful voice: "Chu Yuezhi, remember, I want to push you to the throne of God, not because I want you to avenge me, but because you have the heart of all people, so I believe that you will become a kind and wise king. Don’t be like me, be eroded by hatred, and don’t Live in the darkness like me, you have to be born in the light, grow in the light, stand in the light, and then bring me and people like me out of the darkness."

Chu Yuezhi, I don’t need you to avenge me, and I don’t want you to become a ruthless and inhuman villain in order to seize the throne. I, Si Yuanting, will do all the dirty, despicable and cruel things for you Do it, as long as you stick to our original ideals and beliefs, rule the world with benevolence and love in the future, correct injustice, and restore peace and prosperity to Daheng Kingdom, that is what I want to see in this world, and it is also for me true salvation.