such as Yue Linyuan

Si Zhuxi kept looking at the outside of the hall where Yu Yu was hidden, and did not speak for a long time.

The weather in the middle of the first month was still very cold, when she walked to the gate of the hall last night, Yu Yin whispered to her that she should not go out when it was cold outside, lest she catch a cold.

Looking away, Si Zhuxi shook his head with a light smile, and said to Chu Yuezhi: "The girls' school has just started, and Shixi is unwilling to take risks. Cousin Chu doesn't have to worry about Shixi, Shixi chose the path himself. , no matter what you have to bear, Shixi will never regret it."

Chu Yuezhi paused, and said, "What about Yu Yin, do you really want him to wait like this? Don't forget, we are not young anymore, and Yu Yin is already 42. As your family, I am I hope you will be happy from the bottom of my heart; and Yu Yin, as my subordinate, he has worked hard for me for many years, and now he is guarding you like this; whether it is you or him, I can't bear to see you continue to be so close .”

Obviously it was a hug that could be obtained by just taking a step forward, but the two never crossed it.

"Brother Chu, even if we don't talk about the women's school, if Shixi is with Yu Yin now, how should I explain to Yuanyuan? You are his father and I am his mother." Si Zhuxi asked, She is not only a queen who strives to change the status of women and criticizes the existing secular prejudice, but also a mother. No matter what she does, she always has to worry about her children's feelings in the end.

"About Yuanyuan, Si Jiu has already mentioned it to me before." Chu Yuezhi stretched out his hand to hold Si Yuanting's hand sitting beside him, turned his head to meet Si Yuanting's gaze, and said, "I I have decided to confess to Yuanyuan the relationship between the three of us during this period of time. Si Jiu is right, although Yuanyuan is young, but she grew up in the palace, she already understands everything she needs to know, let alone the previous paragraph There are so many rumors and gossips, even if he believes that I am his biological father, I have never slept with you, but it is a fact that I sleep with Si Jiu every day. After this time, he will soon notice the weirdness in it place."

"Confess to Yuanyuan, what if he doesn't understand?" Si Zhuxi didn't think it was a good idea. For such a young child, if he thinks wrong, his heart will be hurt, let alone Chu Yue. The relationship between Zhi Zhi and Si Yuanting was originally unusual, "How will Cousin Chu explain to Yuanyuan that you and Cousin are a couple, yet you have him with me? If Yuanyuan I thought it was you who betrayed me, so how could I feel resentment and hatred towards you? You love him so much, Shixi doesn't want Yuanyuan to have trouble with you or his cousin in the future."

"Yuanyuan is already the crown prince. He not only has the blood of the Chu family, but also the blood of the Si family. He should know about some past events." Si Yuanting took over the conversation, how to explain to Chu Shendu, Chu Yue insisted I had discussed with him two days ago, both he and Chu Yuezhi believed that Chu Shen should also know about those past events, "You are Yuanyuan's mother, and as your cousin, I also hope that Yuanyuan can Knowing how his mother endured humiliation, I hope Yuanyuan can understand what a heavy burden he will bear on his shoulders if he can really ascend to the throne of God after knowing those past events, and he should learn how to distinguish between good officials and villains .”

Since they intend to train Chu Shendu to be the next emperor, what should be taught to Chu Shendu is not only literary and martial arts, but also how to govern the country, how to discern people's hearts, how to choose and reject, how to control people, etc., these will be Chu Shendu needs to learn.

Moreover, Chu Shendu will also understand that if one wants to become an emperor, no matter who he is, he must sacrifice something.

"Frankly speaking, Yuanyuan has grown better than I imagined." Si Yuanting took Chu Yuezhi's hand into his palm with his backhand, and pondered what he had never said to Si Zhuxi with his eyes downcast, tightening his fingers and grasping Chu Yuezhi's hand. Yue Zhi's guardian grabbed him, and he was silent for a while before continuing: "You can definitely see that at the beginning, I didn't like Yuanyuan that much. Unlike Chu Qi, I can treat Yuanyuan as my child, and I don't like Yuanyuan. Like you are his biological mother and have a natural maternal love for him. I can't, I have no grievances against Yuanyuan from the beginning. So at the beginning, I was worried that he would be like Chu Yuelei, who would always be on guard and pay attention to the family members. Is there any other child worthy of training? Fortunately, you and Chu Qi have taught him well, and it is because of you that I can slowly accept Yuanyuan."

Chu Shendu liked his uncle very much, but in fact, in the first few years, he was not close to this child, and even somewhat resisted.It was Chu Yuezhi who told him that Chu Shendu looked like the child of the two of them, and praised that the child was talented and obedient. Chu Shendu did indeed look more like Chu Yuezhi the longer he grew, and let him see from Chu Shendu that he was once a child. The shadow of Chu Yuezhi at that time, coupled with Chu Shendu's good personality and love to get close to him and act like a baby to him, he was able to let go of his grudges and accept Chu Shendu little by little.

In the final analysis, he is just an ordinary person. For the son of an enemy who ruined most of his life, even if half of it is the blood of his Si family, he can't accept it calmly, at most he just doesn't vent his anger.

"Zhuxi, Yuanyuan is your child, but if he easily got into a dead end, and even had resentment towards me or Chu Qi because of the relationship between the three of us, then in my opinion, he might not be suitable." Ascension to the throne of God. I have always advocated benevolent government. If a person is impure and unable to understand others, how can he rule the world with benevolence and love? The old saying of three years old is not unreasonable." Si Yuanting said bluntly.

"When is the best time for you to let go of your status as a queen? I can't give any guarantees or promises yet. Ideals, responsibilities, and children are important, but isn't your happiness important?" Chu Yue In order to convince Si Zhuxi, Zhi played with Si Yuanting's husband and husband to the extreme, taking turns to relay without giving Si Zhuxi a chance to intervene, "Shixi, you have suffered for many years in your life, not for Si Zhuxi's sake." Nine sacrifices are sacrifices for the sake of the people. Cousin Chu hopes that you will be more selfish and treat yourself better in the future. Besides, even if Yu Yin understands willingness to give without expecting anything in return, you really have the heart to treat him as cruelly as you are to yourself Is it?"

Si Zhuxi kept listening to what they said, and after Chu Yuezhi finished speaking, she lowered her head and thought for a long time quietly, then covered her mouth with a chuckle, and said: "It's really a joy to make the two cousins ​​worry so much, isn't it?" Yes. Although the two cousins ​​have talked about this point, Shixi should not be so hesitant, but Shixi was originally determined that he would never set foot on it until he saw the world that Shixi wanted to see. After taking that step, it is really difficult for Shixi to change his mind suddenly. Please give Shixi a little more time for Shixi to think about it. As for Yuanyuan, the two cousins ​​have a point, frankly As for the relationship, just follow the wishes of the two cousins."

Seeing Si Zhuxi's attitude softened, Chu Yuezhi's eyes lit up with joy. Over the past few years, he always felt guilty towards Si Zhuxi. He and Si Yuanting had a good life. The stream has been delayed.In addition, there are other people, Huangfu Liangyu has married Ruan Xing and has a child, even Wang Zhong beside him was abducted by Zhou Ji, and Si Zhuxi has been suffering so much for himself and Yu Hiding that kind of infatuation, he even regretted it a little. In order to usurp the throne, he accepted the imperial decree of marriage and asked Si Zhuxi to marry him, wasting many years.

It belongs to the best years of a woman, and Si Zhuxi has been exhausted by these personnel matters, which he can never make up for Si Zhuxi.

If he hadn't known that Si Zhuxi had his own pursuits and ideals when it came to raising women's status, and that as a mother, Si Zhuxi would definitely not be able to let go of the young Chu Shendu. Wei Yirong took the appearance of Si Zhuxi to guard the palace on his behalf, so that Si Zhuxi could get away early and leave with Yu Yin.

"If you can figure it out, it's naturally good. Chu Qi and I won't continue to disturb your cleanliness here. It's not too early, and it's time to go to the East Palace to accompany Yuanyuan for lunch. He just met Chu Qi yesterday. Acting like a baby, saying that Chu Qi is too busy to care about him recently, only I often supervise his homework." Si Yuanting knew that Si Zhuxi should be left alone, and thought it through carefully, so he simply used Chu Shen as an excuse. Take Chu Yuezhi and leave for the East Palace.

In the evening, heavy snow fell again in the capital.

Si Zhuxi sat alone in the hall all afternoon, even dinner was useless.

She thought about it a lot. She remembered the days when she was still in the Sifu when she was a child, the days when she was sent to the Jiaofang Division, and the time when she didn't want to see Si Yuanting humiliated and chose to serve Chu Yuelei In the end, it was the years when she married Chu Yuezhi and became Chu Yuezhi's nominal concubine and even queen.

In fact, what Si Yuanting and Chu Yuezhi said was right, in her life till now, she has never lived for herself for a single moment.

Although most of the choices she made herself, she doesn't regret, but she also did, never really think of them for herself.

Besides, if it is said that the choice is made by herself, in fact, she has never had much choice.

So she never thought about what she wanted.

Yu Yin, is that what she wants?This question made her confused for a moment, because she thought that she would never get involved in love in her life.

She never despises herself, but she also knows that there are very few men in this world who can accept her past.

But Yu Yin was the one who not only accepted but also chose to wait.

The sound of footsteps on the snow came from outside the hall.

Si Zhuxi supported the edge of the table and stood up. The palace people had already been pushed back by her. She put on a cloak and walked to the entrance of the hall. In the flakes of falling goose feather snow, she saw the man's resolute figure.

"You're here." She said lightly.

Yu Yin raised her eyes, stopped and stood under the steps, looking at Si Zhuxi standing above the steps, her whole body was as cold as a cloud.He felt the familiar heartache, but he didn't show it, he just nodded silently.

Knowing that he would not move forward, Si Zhuxi took a step forward, walked down the steps slowly and came to Yu Yin, then raised his hand and patted the snow on his shoulder, saying: "Cousin Chu and cousin They came here and talked to me a lot. Later, I thought about it for a long time and thought maybe what they said was right, I should be more selfish, and I shouldn’t let you down.”

Yu Yin's pupils, which had always been as calm as Gu Jing's, suddenly shrank, and Yu Yin's whole body froze for an instant, unconsciously clenched the saber in his left hand, but clenched his teeth tightly.

Si Zhuxi looked at his dark eyes that showed bewilderment and shock, and continued: "You know my past, so I won't talk about it. Next, I want to be a queen, and I don't want to Yuanyuan knows that you will not be able to have a status for a long time. Moreover, I am over forty years old, and I was injured when I gave birth to Yuanyuan. I am afraid that I will not be able to give you a child. If you can accept all these... ..."

"Niang Niang." Yu Yin interrupted her words. After exhaling that statement, he seemed to feel that something was wrong and he didn't know what to say. He frowned and his forehead was covered with blue veins. Under his gaze, he said, "Yu Yin never thought about getting a response or asking for anything. Yu Yin just hoped that Si Zhuxi could get what she wanted."

"I want you, will you give it?" Si Zhuxi asked, she was actually envious of Si Yuanting and Chu Yuezhi, half her life had passed, she could always be willful for herself once.

Without hesitation, Yu Yin replied firmly, "Yes."

Exhaling a mouthful of white mist, Si Zhuxi smiled lightly, then stretched out his own hands to hold Yu Yin's right hand that was hanging by his side and unable to exert strength.

Under the moonlight, it was snowing all over the sky, and on a cold winter night, the long-lonely heart finally found its own warmth.

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The author says:

Chu Qi: I, a male protagonist who broke his heart because of the deputy CP.

Si Jiu: Not only do you have to arrange for me, but you also have to arrange for other people clearly. It's really hard work, Madam.

Zhuxi and Yu Yin will not write additional episodes.