After breaking up, I accidentally counterattacked [E-sports]

in the emergency room,

"The patient is bleeding too much!"

The doctor walked in quickly, turned around and directed: "Test the blood type immediately, and check whether the corresponding blood bank has enough stock."

A nurse stared at the instrument, suddenly her eyes trembled, and shouted: "Doctor! The patient's cardiac arrest——"

The doctor immediately turned around, "Perform cardiopulmonary resuscitation immediately!"

......

'tick, tick, tick...'

......

Xie Qingqi seemed... as if he had a dream... a long, long dream.

In the dream...he returned to the tender moments that he rarely felt in his life...

It was the second week after the funeral of his parents, and Xie Qingqi saw his grandparents for the first time.

It's also the first time I know,

It turned out that in order to pursue true love, my mother stole the family's money and eloped to Huadu City with my father.

If it wasn't for this 'accident', they wouldn't even know that Xie Qingqi existed.

For more than ten years, my mother has never been back, and she has never said that she is homesick.

But maybe, it was because she really already had a new home.

Knowing this, Xie Qingqi didn't know what kind of mentality he should use to look at his mother.

What kind of person is she...?

Xie Qingqi seems to have never really seen through her...

In this way, he lived with his grandparents and studied in the nearby junior high school.

He lives an ordinary life every day. In the morning, there is hot noodle soup cooked by his grandmother. At noon, he has two meat dishes and one vegetarian meal. His grandmother always adds half a bowl of rice to him.After eating and drinking in the evening, he accompanied his grandfather to enjoy the cool outside the courtyard...

At that time, did he really think about whether he could still become a normal person?

It's a pity that God never seemed to really take care of him.

In less than three years, the grandparents, who had always been in good health, passed away one after another within half a month...

That year, Xie Qingqi was less than 16 years old...

at the funeral,

For the first time, he cried like a child.

Compared to when I was a child, being thrown out of the house by my mother was a thousand times more sad...

Xiao Ran once hoped that Xie Qingqi could live in his house, but he was still rejected.

In fact, Xie Qingqi has always known that the relationship between my aunt and uncle has never been good, and they often quarrel.

Now he is not big, but he is not small either.

It's like a burden that doesn't seem to do anything but cause trouble.

Besides, my aunt has already given him enough living expenses, and the rest is not something he can extravagantly ask for...

Perhaps, he shouldn't have a family at all.

Xie Qingqi stayed in the town, and was admitted to the newly established No. [-] Middle School with excellent grades, exempting all tuition fees for three years.

In less than a year, Xiao Ran ran away from home.

At that time, my aunt was divorcing my uncle, so I had no time to take care of him.

And Xie Qingqi has always been stubborn, even if he has no money to eat, he is unwilling to ask for money.

A 17-year-old boy survived for more than half a month by saving 20 yuan every day, and directly lost his appearance.

Fortunately, Xiao Ran had a delicate mind and cared about him every now and then, only then did he realize something was wrong.

Xiao Ran silently gave him living expenses, and carefully maintained Xie Qingqi's poor self-esteem, so as not to let Xie Qingqi, a high school student who studied hard, starve to death on the street.

But even if food and clothing are solved,

He has no friends, except for Xiao Ran's occasional text messages, he hardly communicates with anyone.

With a withdrawn personality, he is like a monster who can only read.

He finished high school for three years alone, but when he was in college, he chose the relatively unpopular psychology to learn how to understand human nature.

It is quite sad to say, what will a person become?

It is necessary to be like him, through such systematic learning and training, to barely learn how to communicate with others.

until three years ago,

The principal of No. [-] Middle School personally called to invite him to attend the anniversary celebration of No. [-] Middle School.

He didn't want to go.

I just thought that in the past, my grandparents also left a dowry for my mother.

According to the law, it all belongs to Xie Qingqi now, but in these years, no matter how poor or hungry, he never moved half a cent.

Now, it is also time to go back and organize these properties......

After learning how to pretend, Xie Qingqi is very familiar with this kind of large-scale speech scene.

Because all his life, he tried his best to separate himself from the past, and kept telling himself: "Xie Qingqi, you are no longer the Xie Qingqi who lived in the unfinished building in the past, you are Dr. Xie now." '

Even if it's just a disguise, he still wants to bring his poor self-esteem and force himself to blend into this absurd world...

As long as you don't think about it,

For him, it's like eating, and it's easy to handle.

It was his memory that was deeply rooted in his bone marrow.

But when his gaze passed through the crowd and he saw Yi Chuyang at a glance.

He knew it was over...

Yi Chuyang, who is so popular, looks like a sun, smiling so brightly.

Obviously, Yi Chuyang, like Xiao Ran, lived like a warm sun in winter.

always warm,

always enthusiastic,

I have never personally experienced such a dark day.

He still remembered that when he was young, he hated the rainy season in Huadu City very much.

The rainy weather lasted for one or two months, and everything in the house was wet and couldn't be dried.

In such a slum, even in the scorching July, the sun would not enter his room for a few hours.

And they have an innate brilliance that Xie Qingqi can't touch in his entire life.

So, every day with Yi Chuyang.

Xie Qingqi felt as if he was exposed to the sun, warm, as if he had regained a new life...

.....

Huadu City,

The day the photo was exposed.

On the mountainside in the south city of Huadu, a major accident happened. A car was hit by a mudslide...

Two dead and one wounded.

"..."

The small mobile phone screen shone brightly in the dark corridor of the hospital.

Xie Qingqi lowered his head, making it hard for people to see his emotions clearly.

Just whispering in my mouth, reading the breakup letter in my hand over and over again...

'After you went back, I thought about it carefully.When I was with you at the beginning, it was just out of curiosity and I thought it was quite fun.Now that I think about it, it's actually quite disgusting and embarrassing.Let it be like this, just treat it as me being young and ignorant, and we should not contact each other in the future.If you meet someone on the road, pretend not to know each other, after all, I still have to face. '

Xie Qingqi's last bit of self-esteem kept telling him, 'Xie Qingqi, you have to pick it up and let it go. '

'No need to stalk, right? '

Xie Qingqi's fingertips trembled slightly, but he still made the call after all.

'Beep-beep-beep-'

'Click——'

hung up.....

When Xie Qingqi called again, he was already blocked.

just this moment,

His heart seemed to have fallen into a boundless ice cellar...

How he wished that the bone-piercing cold could freeze his heart pulse instantly.

That way, he won't be in pain anymore....

Suddenly he stood up—

That was the first time in his life, the first time he had such a crazy idea!

He wants, he wants to go back!

I want to question Yi Chuyang face to face!

He wanted to... fight for himself one more time.

Just then, the operating room opened——

Xie Qingqi's mind froze for a moment, and he immediately regained his senses, "Doctor, how is my brother?!"

The doctor glanced at him, flipped through the medical records, and said in a flat tone: "The patient Xiao Ran suffered a comminuted fracture in his right hand, and the rest is basically fine."

Xie Qingqi's eyes froze, "Bone, fracture?!"

The doctor collected the medical records and said: "This accident was very serious. The other two victims at the scene died immediately on the spot. It is already a miracle that he behaved like this."

But Xiao Ran...will die.

Xie Qingqi lowered his head and only asked, "Can you still raise it?"

The doctor reassured, "Take care carefully and wait for the bones to heal on their own. It will not affect daily life. It's just that the pain is irreversible, so I can't do too detailed work in the future."

"Is there any way to save it?" Xie Qingqi still did not give up.

"This..." The doctor looked at him carefully, and suddenly opened his eyes, "Are you... Doctor Xie Qingqi from the psychology department?"

Xie Qingqi paused, "How do you know?"

The doctor turned to a gentle smile, "You are very famous. Professor Jiang will mention you when you go back to scientific research conferences. He said that you are very talented. It would be a waste if you don't study orthopedics."

"So, what else can I do?"

"I can only tell you that Mr. Jiang is an expert in this area."

Xie Qingqi lowered his eyes slightly, "Then I understand, thank you."

The doctor patted Xie Qingqi on the shoulder, sighed, left without saying anything.

"..."

Xie Qingqi stood alone in the corridor of the hospital,

night,

almost enveloped him...

He...decided to give up.....

Under such a choice, he gave up the chance to go back and find Yi Chuyang.

Think of it as a love affair.....

From the moment they separated, perhaps, it was doomed to miss them...

Now, he only has Xiao Ran.

Even though he had no interest in orthopedics, Xie Qingqi finally changed his major for Xiao Ran.

......

The day when the results came out was probably the only happy thing for Xie Qingqi in the past three years.

At that time, he also wrote in his diary:

The professor said that this technology has made a great breakthrough and can completely solve the problems that Xiao Ran had.I am very happy, this is the first time in three years that I am so happy, it seems that I made the right choice at the beginning.That's right...'

But...he really has nothing...

In the past three years, Xie Qingqi never made that phone call again, but he hoped so much that he could get through that one time.

He once wanted to embrace the sun, but was burned by it unexpectedly...

So much so that he began to fear all the ways that could give him warmth.

Because, in his eyes, all warmth is related to the sun.

But he still longed for a moment of sunshine to pass through that dilapidated hut...

.....

But the long-term restraint has gradually made Xie Qingqi numb and calm...

He didn't dare to stop, and he didn't dare to think about the past, because he was afraid that he would become obsessed because of this, would go crazy to find him, and would not be able to stop thinking about the temperature on that person's body.

But God, but still want to play all kinds of humorous jokes on him,

When Yi Chuyang reappeared, Xie Qingqi turned back without hesitation for him, even though he was at the risk of being humiliated...

Even if it was the southern wall, Xie Qingqi willingly bumped into it.

Therefore, when he knew that the breakup letter was not Yi Chuyang's original intention, Xie Qingqi's first reaction was not to collapse, but to be happy.

After all, from the very beginning, Xie Qingqi didn't expect to have the sun, but just hoped that he could stay under the sun for a little longer.

But the sun is too warm...

As a result, he became more and more greedy.

He didn't want to leave anymore, and developed an inevitable hostility towards all possible enemies who would contend for the sun.

He thought that he could disguise himself well, but he never thought of throwing his armor down again and again for Yi Chuyang.

But once a person wears the mask for too long, it will not be easy no matter whether he tears it off or sticks it back.

Therefore, when faced with Yi Chuyang's questioning,

Xie Qingqi is like a child who has been in a panic.

He didn't dare to tell the truth, he could only use countless new lies to fill those old lies, but he never thought about filling this gap bigger and bigger...

For him, he discarded the self-esteem that he had carefully guarded for many years, but in return he was scorned again and again.

look.....

What he loves is the proud, decent and confident Dr. Xie that he pretended to be.

Instead of the selfish, embarrassed, and inferior Xie Qingqi who showed his true colors now.

'Mom, I have exhausted all the means you have used to keep Dad.But it's useless, why is it useless at all? '

'He doesn't want money, he doesn't beg, and he doesn't want me. '

' After all, I really am not likable at all. '

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