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Walking at the bottom of the spiral wooden ladder, Ling Muchen felt a little special in his heart.

How to say, the feeling of almost cheering is absolutely unprecedented for him.That kind of joy and care is just like... like a child who got his favorite toy.

Of course, Ling Muchen is not a child.Qi Yan is not a toy either.If you ask him what Qiyan is to him.He would say: That is my beloved.

Ling Muchen went to the room but didn't see Qi Yan, so he asked the housekeeper and finally went to the third floor.

I didn't want to meet Ling Yi who had just come out at the door.

Ling Yi glanced at Ling Muchen from the corner of his eye.

What, you actually look so happy?

Even Ling Yi felt a little strange seeing Ling Muchen like this.But just smiled: "You look very happy."

Ling Muchen was stunned for a moment.

How obvious is he?

"But..." Ling Yi paused, smiled, and glanced at Ling Muchen: "But you should go and see your sweetheart. It should be impossible now." He said, slightly aroused A mocking smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

The phrase "heart-heart baby" was even more serious, making it clear that it was just mocking his own brother.

What sweetheart?It's just a toy, right?

"What are you talking about?" Ling Muchen glanced at Ling Yi in astonishment.

Ling Yi smiled coldly at him: "Instead of spending time with me here, why don't you go in and see him. I'm afraid he won't be able to stand looking for death inside." After speaking, he gave Ling Muchen a provocative look, but it was very Let Ling Muchen hold him back.

"What's wrong?" Ling Yi's voice was extremely calm.

Ling Muchen lost his usual composure, but instead had the impulsiveness of a young man. He looked at Ling Yi coldly: "What do you mean by that?"

Ling Yi just smiled and said nothing.

Ling Muchen frowned, seemed to think for a while, and then rushed into the bathroom.He rushed in, and when he saw Qi Yan, he was taken aback for a moment.

Qi Yan wrapped his body in a bath towel, half knelt on the ground, and when he looked up, he saw Ling Muchen walking towards him.But at that moment, he hesitated for a moment, and his body involuntarily backed away.

"Qi Yan, what are you afraid of?" Ling Muchen found that Qi Yan seemed a little scared when he looked at him, so he was taken aback for a moment.He slowed down and walked up to Qi Yan, but even if he moved forward a little, Qi Yan would back away in shock.But Qi Yan covered his face with his hands.He seemed to be trying hard not to let others see his appearance and expression clearly.It's just that the body keeps shaking, and it looks like something terrible has just happened.

Ling Muchen's expression suddenly became extremely gentle.

"Yan, come here"

Qi Yan shook his head, but he didn't walk towards Ling Muchen, let alone speak.

He still looked panic-stricken, and he seemed extremely afraid of Ling Muchen standing in front of him.

How is this going?

Ling Muchen stood there in a daze for a long time, and suddenly remembered what Ling Yi said to him just now.He walked up to Qi Yan in two or three steps, even though the other party was not happy, he still lifted Qi Yan up.

Qi Yan lost to Ling Muchen's strength, and was dragged to stand up. Half of his body was covered with a piece of rag, which couldn't cover him at all.Therefore, the red mark with vertical and horizontal stripes all over his body was undoubtedly revealed in front of Ling Muchen.

Through the rag-like bath towel, he saw it with his own eyes.There were easily visible scars everywhere on the originally fair skin, and it was obvious at a glance that they were left just now.There was even blood stains on her white chest.

...What the hell is going on here?This is the umpteenth time Ling Muchen has asked this question in his mind this day.

Qi Yan just shook his head and said nothing.He lowered his head in fear, but used his hands to protect his chest and lower body.

Ling Muchen didn't look carefully before, and saw Qi Yan's movements, so he grabbed his hand, only to see that the two slightly protruding spots on his chest were swollen and bleeding... Ling Muchen couldn't help but widen his eyes, and with the other hand, He wanted to grab Qi Yan's hand covering his lower body, but Qi Yan spoke at this moment, making an extremely weak voice: "...don't look..."

He tried his best to keep his tone calm, but he still trembled helplessly.

"It's Ling Yi?" Ling Muchen immediately realized. ...I just felt my palms tremble.

Qi Yan just looked frightened, but didn't say a word, and stepped back in fear.

"What did he do to you?..." Looking at the marks left on Qi Yan's body, anyone with a discerning eye could tell exactly what happened.

Ling Muchen almost lost his mind, but he didn't dare to get close to Qi Yan, he was afraid of scaring him, because if he got a little closer, Qi Yan would back away, no matter what was behind him, he didn't even look at it.It seems that even if he is at the end of the cliff now, he will never hesitate.

Qi Yan looked at Ling Muchen's reaction and was stunned for a moment. He was a little scared at first.Because Ling Yi and Ling Muchen are so similar.Just now he confirmed that the person in front of him was indeed Ling Muchen.That's why he opened his mouth and read a few words slowly with a weak voice: "...Ling, Ling Muchen?"

"Qi Yan, tell me? What's going on?..." Ling Muchen's heart was on fire, but Qi Yan didn't say a single word. He felt like a villain in his heart It's like beating a drum.At this time, Qi Yan stretched out a hand towards him, and Ling Muchen immediately stretched out his own hand.Pull Qi Yan into his arms.But Qi Yan still didn't speak, but stretched out his hand to touch Ling Muchen.Ling Muchen felt that his appearance was very strange, and felt even more uncomfortable in his heart, but he didn't say a word.

Qi Yan touched the corner of Ling Muchen's mouth, then his cheek, and finally touched Ling Muchen's eyes, and finally buried his face in his arms.

Qi Yan grabbed Ling Muchen's shoulder with his hand, and finally let out a bitter cry.

"What's wrong? What the hell..." Ling Muchen's usually cold voice was trembling, thinking of what Ling Yi said just now, he felt inexplicably sad. ——If that's true, the person Ling Muchen likes was actually done by his own brother?

He subconsciously hugged Qi Yan's thin body.The person in front of him was trembling unceasingly.

He knew that the person in front of him was suffering ten thousand times more than himself.

he can't accept...

But I have to ask...

"Qi Yan, what happened? Tell me." Ling Muchen spoke to Qi Yan as gently as possible, but the other party just buried his face in his chest and didn't even say a word.

"Can you tell me?"

A cold voice sounded above Qi Yan's head, and he was so frightened that he wanted to get rid of Ling Muchen's body.

"I'm sorry...it's my fault." Ling Muchen immediately stepped forward and embraced Qi Yan's body, and said cautiously: "I'm sorry, I just..."

Ling Muchen couldn't continue to ask, if it was true, the person who was hurt the most now is none other than Qi Yan.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Ling Muchen hugged the person in his arms tightly, lowered his head slightly, couldn't see Qi Yan's face, just hugged his shoulder, "I'm sorry, I clearly said that I would not let you suffer even a little bit of harm .”

But he did nothing. ...and the person who made him hurt happened to be none other than his own biological brother. …

……

The small body in Ling Muchen's arms began to tremble, following his voice, it just became stronger and stronger, Ling Muchen felt terrified at this moment, and forced Qi Yan to look at him, only a picture full of It is the face of tears.

"You will stand by my side, right?...Ling Muchen, will you stand by my side, right?..."

Qi Yan looked up at Ling Muchen, all his grievances turned into tears at that moment.And the question in Ling Muchen's mind also had an answer, he looked at Qi Yan in astonishment, but subconsciously took two steps back.

Qi Yan was also stunned, stretched out a trembling hand to wipe away his tears, and stared straight at Ling Muchen.Those eyes were so powerless, so pitiful.

"Ling...Muchen..."

He didn't understand why this person backed away suddenly, why this person suddenly stood so far away from him, it was obviously when he needed this person the most. ——He, Qi Yan, such an inconspicuous person, a person who can only crawl in the middle and lower classes of society, lives a life of submissiveness most of the time, and is born with a weak nature.He, Ling Muchen, this young, haughty, wealthy and extremely powerful person said how much he liked her.But at this moment, he was standing a few steps away from him but untouchable.

Qi Yan looked at Ling Muchen in astonishment, meeting a pair of extremely indifferent eyes.He knew that the other party must be laughing in his heart at this time.Laughing coldly, mockingly. — Who does Qi Yan think he is?Who did he think was that just now?One is a person whom he just loves, and the other is a biological brother who is so similar because blood is thicker than water.A discerning person can tell at a glance who is light and who is heavy, right?

He Qi Yan really doesn't understand anything?He Qi Yan is really a fool?Is he that naive? ...

"Ling, Ling Muchen...Why are you standing there? Why aren't you standing by my side...Is everything you can do for me a lie?...Why don't you stand by my side?"

He seemed to be speaking these words with all his strength, his body trembling faintly, as if he would fall to the ground in the next second.

But no one answered him.

"Ling Muchen." Qi Yan heard himself calling out to the other party, the voice was extremely calm, with a kind of despair, and hoarse.But at that moment, no one responded to him.He then stood up by himself, and he felt his legs were shaking constantly, as if he couldn't walk at all.

It was a long time before he tried to stand up.He is ready to leave now. ...

He should have known earlier that everything was false.

It's him Qi Yan who doesn't know the heights of heaven and earth, it's him Qi Yan who thinks that there will be someone in this world who really likes him.

How can it be?How could she be desperate for him?

He is just a plaything of the person in front of him, an incompetent and cautious person, so he can be thrown away after playing with it.

In fact, he was really careful enough.But in the end, he still fell... and fell at the feet of the person in front of him.Became his slave/slave, his captive, his prisoner.

... why love?Why do you think you are entitled to love?He was just a person who was not expected by anyone since he was born, a person who was ignored and rejected by others since he was a child. ...everyone is just lying to him.

No one will love him.He already knew this...

So he has to go, he has to go.

Should he cut everything off now so that he can return to his previous life?

He used to think how much he loved Mo Hanqi.In fact, no, - as early as he knew all the things behind Mo Hanqi, he didn't love that person.

Because he is actually an extremely selfish person. For an incompetent and weak person like him, unless his heart is extremely cruel and his heart is extremely cold, how can he survive in this world?

Because he knew everything from the beginning.

He knew that Qi Yan had no friends, and that no one would give his heart to him.

And his sincerity?Do you think he has such a thing?How could he have...

If he had, he would have been hurt a thousand times or ten thousand times, would have been riddled with holes and bruises all over his body. ... If not, why would he live a so-called quiet or even lonely life with only himself? ...and now?Can he go back?

He knew his feelings for the man in front of him.

He knows how much he loves the person in front of him.This feeling may have been there from the beginning.

He knew it was love.It was also love at first sight.

I also know that he shouldn't have the so-called affection, and he doesn't need the so-called love.

But I still like it.Still got hurt in the end.Not a thousand times or ten thousand times, just one time, already riddled with holes, and already covered with cuts and bruises.

Is he in love wrong?

Was it wrong from the start?

He's trying so hard not to fall in love with anyone?

The reason why he continued to be with Mo Hanqi was only because he already knew that he didn't love Mo Hanqi.

Because he knows that he doesn't love that person, that's why he can stay by his side with such peace of mind. ...But in the end, I still fell in love with the person in front of me.

This is the person he shouldn't fall in love with.

……

He wants to go, to leave.

While it is still possible, escape far away...

But for some reason, just as he stood up, he staggered and couldn't walk at all. When he took a step, he had already fallen backwards.

Will it die?

Isn't that great?Anyway, a person like him has no reason to live...

Die here, at least it won't hurt to the extreme.

If someone has to open his wound, even if he leaves, it will still hurt for a lifetime...

Qi Yan felt that he had been caught by someone, and he knew it was Ling Muchen without thinking about it.Just looking at each other, I found that there were some inexplicable emotions in the eyes of the other party.Qi Yan subconsciously held Ling Muchen's sleeve tightly, and looked at him with a frown, but still couldn't say a word.

"You...you did it with him?"

After a while, Ling Muchen's cold voice fell into the air first.

Looking at the other person's face, Qi Yan suddenly smiled.

"How can it be like this?" Qi Yan looked at Ling Muchen coldly, with an extremely calm expression.

And Ling Muchen's proud eyes immediately showed a trace of panic, he frowned, his expression was extremely complicated, and then he hugged Qi Yan horizontally.

"Please let me go," Qi Yan said to him calmly, "If you feel that I have been touched by other people, so it is unacceptable. Then please let me go.... I don't need anyone's so-called sympathy. Stronger self-esteem than anyone else....So, please let me go." His face and eyes no longer showed any emotion, on the contrary, his tone was indifferent.

"What are you talking about?" Ling Muchen lowered his head to face Qi Yan, but Qi Yan didn't want to look at him anymore.Ling Muchen suddenly realized: "Qi Yan, what are you thinking?"

Qi Yan turned his face away: "No matter what you think, Young Master Ling, it doesn't have much to do with people like me, does it?"

"...Master Ling?" Ling Muchen repeated the title in a deep voice, and smiled: "It's really a good title....Qi Yan,...what do you want me to do?" Although he smiled, There was an emotion that could be called pain in the eyes.

Ling Muchen held back the thoughts in his heart, and looked down at Qi Yan: "Qi Yan, shall I take you down?" Qi Yan didn't speak, and Ling Muchen took it as a default.

In fact, Qi Yan's heart is just as dead ashes.He thought he loved and did wrong.

What you get is not what you want. ...So he would rather not be bothered to think about anything now.But he also knew that he couldn't go back.Even if he thought that as long as he left now, he might be able to return to his previous life, it was just deceiving himself.

"Ling Muchen, I'm in so much pain... so painful."

Ling Muchen just hugged Qi Yan with no expression on his face, and when he heard him bury his face in his arms, his voice trembled in mid-air.

"Qi Yan, I suffer more than you." Ling Muchen said.

But he knew that Qi Yan couldn't hear what he said at this time.

……

Ling Muchen carried him to the second floor, put him on the bed, and Qi Yan crawled into the bed by himself, as if he didn't want Ling Muchen to touch him again, Qi Yan had already buried his whole body with the quilt.

Ling Muchen stood there in a daze for a long time, then walked to his side, and said softly, "Is there anything uncomfortable?...Senior,...tell me."

No one answered him.

Ling Muchen stood there all the time, and only walked over when he saw that Qi Yan might be asleep. He pulled down the quilt on Qi Yan, and touched Qi Yan's forehead with one hand.

He didn't know what to say.It seems that nothing is right, and everything seems to be superfluous...

Is it his fault?

Is it because he, Ling Muchen, shouldn't like the person in front of him?You thought you could love the other person completely and protect him...but in the end you just hurt him?

Ling Muchen recalled what he had done. He used to think that he could get what he wanted only if the person in front of him fell in love with him.

But it seems all wrong...