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"Let's go back." Ling Muchen reached out and touched Qi Yan's head.

Qi Yan dodged subconsciously and looked at him with a frown: "What are you doing?"

"What's the matter, can't you just touch your head?" Ling Muchen smiled like a big boy.

"...I, I am your senior." Qi Yan glanced at him and said.

"Senior," Ling Muchen said in a flattering tone, smiled, and restlessly touched Qi Yan's head with his hands, he lowered his head and pressed Qi Yan's ear: "Senior, I am because I think you are cute, so I want to pet your head."

Qi Yan was stunned for a moment, then turned around blankly: "What's so cute about me?" He said and strode forward.

"Senior, wait a minute." Ling Muchen chased in Qi Yan's direction, walking with him in a few steps.Ling Muchen reached out and grabbed Qi Yan's hand.

"Senior, you are the cutest." Ling Muchen smiled at Qi Yan while following Qi Yan's pace.

"...You are sick." Qi Yan said in an extremely calm tone. To be honest, he really didn't understand how a 23-year-old man could still be described as "cute". ...Unless Ling Muchen's IQ is now 0.

Ling Muchen seemed to see Qi Yan's thoughts at a glance, and smiled: "Senior, you guessed it right." He smiled happily with the corners of his mouth curled up.

"...Why do you act like I know everything I'm thinking about." Qi Yan was taken aback for a moment.This feeling has really been there before.

"Of course.... No matter what you are thinking, senior, I know it." Ling Muchen's peach blossom eyes, which were bent with a smile, showed a look that could be regarded as doting. He looked at Qi Yan with this kind of look, even if it was Qi Yan, I can't stand it at a glance.

Qi Yan was stunned for a moment, he lost his mind for a while, but when he came back to his senses, he found that he stretched out his hand and pushed the person in front of him away.

Ling Muchen froze for a moment, a look of disappointment suddenly appeared on his face, but soon he just smiled.

Qi Yan subconsciously looked at his hands, and suddenly felt that he had just done something excessive in this world. ...He obviously always thought he was a weak person, but he did that kind of thing just now.

Qi Yan subconsciously recognized the face, and looked into the distance.

The white lights illuminated the entire shopping mall as if it were daylight, and all the people passing by were clearly illuminated, but Qu Yan still felt that all the people passing by around him had black, white and gray faces.

Until a face suddenly jumped out in front of him.Ling Muchen's dazzling blond hair and those extremely pale pupils seemed to be the only color in this world that he could see clearly.

"Senior?" Ling Muchen smiled flatteringly, looking straight at Qi Yan in front of him, "Senior, do you have anything else to buy?"

"No..." Qi Yan said in a daze, subconsciously turning in the other direction.But he found that his hand was still being held by someone, so he turned his head to look at the person behind him, and he was still met with a flattering smile.

... He really didn't understand why he would do this.If one day everything goes back to the way it was, it will only make people more sad, right?

Ling Muchen smiled slightly at Qi Yan.There seemed to be a smile on the whole face, but there was a trace of extremely strong and dazzling loss in the depths of his eyes.

——Qi Yan, when will you believe that I love you.

"I, let's go back." Qi Yan looked at Ling Muchen.But almost at the same time, he was stunned.

A man and a woman passed by almost himself, and one of them was the person he was most familiar with.

...The person who kept talking about how he loved him until the final breakup, is not walking with someone else now.

At the moment Qi Yan was stunned, that person suddenly stopped in his tracks.

"Let's go." Qi Yan frowned subconsciously, grabbed Ling Muchen's hand, and prepared to walk away without looking back.

"Qi Yan!"

At this moment, a familiar voice sounded.

Even Ling Muchen could recognize the owner of this voice. Ling Muchen, who had his back to everything and knew nothing, turned his head subconsciously, and met a pair of eyes with complicated emotions.

"Qi Yan, wait a minute." Mo Hanqi said, walking towards the two people quickly.

"Ling Muchen, let's go back quickly." Qi Yan just pretended not to hear everything, and said softly to the person beside him.

"Okay, senior." Ling Muchen replied casually in a cold voice, but subconsciously glanced at the person behind him in the distance.

Mo Hanqi stood there in a daze, knowing that even if he chased after him, there would be no good results in the end.

He raised his head, and met Ling Muchen's gaze when he turned his head to look at him, but at that time, he had no idea what kind of gaze would be in those eyes.

He just felt extremely heavy.He originally thought that he had gotten better these days...but,...

"Mo Hanqi, even if you catch up, it will be the same now." The woman standing beside Mo Hanqi finally spoke with a sarcastic smile: "Mo Hanqi, didn't you say that he only loves you? ——The kind that I love to death, but why didn't I see it?...Do you know who the person next to him is?"

"...Don't talk, okay?" Mo Han used his hands to cover his face and eyes, stopped looking at the people and scenes around him, and said to the people beside him coldly.

"...how long do you want to escape?" The other party didn't seem to intend to stop there, but continued to speak, with a tone of mockery.

"Actually, you don't like that person much, do you? Qi Yan, right?...It's just a man?" The woman's voice caught the eyes of passers-by.

"Shut up." Mo Hanqi looked at the person in front of him coldly, "What is he like, is it your turn to tell?"

"What about you? Mo Hanqi, what about yourself? Let me tell you...you can't compare to that person at all, right?" A slight voice fell, but when he uttered these words, he was also hesitant.Saying this is like mocking my eyes, but I smiled, "Do you think there is anyone else in this world who is as obsessed as I am?"

"...Stop talking, okay?" Mo Hanqi opened his eyes suddenly, and shouted at the person in front of him.

His mood is already messed up enough, why are you saying these things to him?

He never thought that he, Mo Hanqi, would be inferior to anyone.But why did Qi Yan leave with someone else in the end? ...

He closed his eyes, a little weak, but pretended to be casual and walked towards the distance.

"Mo Hanqi,...at least in my heart, you are the best." Someone behind him said loudly to him.

Mo Hanqi sneered in his heart, turned his head, ignored the people passing by, and smiled at the person who said this to him: "Then why, he left me in the end? Why, he But choose someone else?"

"...That's because." She paused, unable to utter a word, and finally uttered a few words, "That's because you are not suitable."

...Not suitable, this is really the most appropriate reason in this world.It's not because you're not good enough, not because you don't love enough, not because you don't give enough, not even because of your family background, your conditions, your thinking and cognition are different, it's just because you are not suitable...

Mo Hanqi suddenly felt that the corners of his eyes were moist, and when he opened them, his eyes were already blurred by tears. ...

……

"senior."

Ling Muchen walked behind, and Qi Yan walked in front alone.After leaving the gate of the mall, they have maintained this situation.

Qi Yan didn't listen to him, but continued to walk forward alone.

But suddenly a hand grabbed his hand tightly.

He originally wanted to walk for a while alone.

Not because of sadness, or pain, or sadness.It's loneliness, it's loneliness, ... There is also a feeling that even I can't express.Because he didn't know when, he himself couldn't figure out what his feelings for Mo Hanqi were all about.

Qi Yan was stunned for a moment, and when that hand grabbed his own, he turned around without hesitation.

The next moment, his body fell into a big embrace.

"Senior,...if you are really sad, just say it." Ling Muchen said in his cool voice.

"I...I didn't." Qi Yan closed his eyes and didn't say a word.

At that moment, he felt that the world was very quiet.

But so lonely. ...

"Senior, you still have me." Ling Muchen said softly.

He hugged Qi Yan with one hand, but still grabbed his hand with the other.

"Qi Yan, from now on, as long as you have me alone in your world... I said, I will love you completely and give you everything I have... As long as it is what you want, I will give it all You." Ling Muchen said, suddenly felt his voice tremble.

"Senior, I really, really love you."

...Even he himself didn't know when this relationship started. Sometimes when he thought about it, he even felt that it was actually the first time he had met by accident. …Otherwise, why would you care so much about this person when you first met?

...

"Senior,...I, love you completely."

After a long time, Qi Yan raised his head.

He found that his vision seemed to have been extremely blurred by tears.He heard his trembling voice.

"Ling Muchen? What do you like about me?" He heard his own voice seem to be mocking coldly: "I like that I am weak, so I won't resist? I like that I am cautious, so I will never betray anyone first? Like it My seriousness? In fact, it’s just a kind of stubbornness.…Even I don’t know what you like about a person like me.…I’m also a man, and I have almost nothing.…I have nothing Comparable to you, worthy of you."

He paused for a while.

Qi Yan stretched out his hand and pushed the person in front of him away.Smiling, "Ling Muchen, let's not continue. This kind of game... is it over?"

"What are you talking about?" Ling Muchen froze for a moment.

"I don't want to play anymore. This kind of game is completely meaningless... Please, don't get close to me anymore, okay?" Qi Yan looked at the person in front of him seriously with no expression on his face.He took a few steps back.

"...I'm different from you, I have nothing. I can't afford it." He said in an extremely flat tone, but quickly smiled again.

"You said that you are also a serious person. Then you should find someone who suits you. Not someone like me. ... As I said, I can't give you anything. I... have no ability, no qualifications. Yes The kind of person you look down on and despise the most, right?"

"...Senior?" Ling Muchen took a few steps forward, but didn't say a word.

"...Please don't call me that." Qi Yan then took a few steps back.

"Then what do you want to do?" Ling Muchen heard his own cold and mocking voice, "Do you really not believe how much I love you? I look... just so unserious, so inappropriate? Even Not even a chance for you to try."

"Stop talking." Qi Yan said in an extremely cold voice, and he was already running in an unknown direction.

In fact, it's because you seem to love me too much, and it's because you seem to be too serious. ...it doesn't matter if it fits or not. ...just because I am too weak.

I have no courage to believe in the so-called love.But I was afraid that I would fall into it again... Maybe what I got was a more painful ending.

If I once loved someone and he didn't love me that much, when I leave, I can still tell myself that my self-esteem does not allow myself to be played by love.But if I fall in love with someone, and he loves me too much, how should I tell myself when I leave?

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