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At that moment, Mo Hanqi seemed to hear that even time stood still.

"Xiaoyan, what are you talking about?" Mo Hanqi couldn't believe it, he had worked so hard and even chased him to downtown S.Who is all this for?But now the person in front of him actually said something like this to him, "Are you kidding me?"

What made him even more unbelievable was that someone who never thought he would leave him voluntarily said such a thing?

"Mo Hanqi, I said, stop here, we will go our separate ways in the future." He just said with a blank face.

Qi Yan probably had a choice long ago, he couldn't choose how to forcefully live with a person.Maybe he can endure all injustice and humiliation, but he can't accept lies without love.

"What does it mean to go their own way? What does it mean to stop here?"

"That's right... let's break up." There was no hesitation, and no extra emotion.

"Break up? Us? Qi Yan, you, you want to break up with me?" Mo Hanqi repeated this sentence word by word, "Qi Yan, repeat it again, you? You want to break up with me?" Always He, Mo Hanqi, said to break up with others, but now someone dares to take the initiative to break up with him?And how long did he think they had known each other, how long did he think they had been dating?How much thought and time did he think he had put into him?

——What the hell is he thinking?

Qi Yan just stood there in a daze, without saying a word.In Mo Hanqi's eyes, he is such a weak person!

"I didn't say anything wrong, and you didn't hear me wrong," Qi Yan repeated his own words, speaking in an emotionless voice.Probably because he has been tossing and tossing in his heart for a long time, since he doesn't know when, Qi Yan always has this image in his mind, he knows, if he knew, he would eventually come to this point, "Mo Hanqi, let's break up. "

separate?

——This is completely impossible, it is impossible for Qi Yan to break up with him.

But Qi Yan who was standing in front of him suddenly turned around to leave.

Mo Hanqi hurried forward and pressed Qi Yan's shoulder, he was very excited: "What are you talking about? Qi Yan, it has been five or six years since we met, didn't you say it yourself? We have always loved each other deeply, why did you suddenly say you want to break up with me?" He didn't believe this at all!

But he didn't see Qi Yan's cold smile and inexplicable tears when he was standing beside him...

Are we really in love with each other?

So we love each other deeply?

So we actually love each other deeply?

So why betray, why?Why lie to me?Why……

Is it Qi Yan's own fault?He shouldn't be so serious. He already knew how difficult it is for two people of the same sex to get along with each other. He knew how difficult it is for a man to love a man... He already knew how difficult it is to get to where he is today. Should he? If you give in, should you choose to turn a blind eye, should you just pretend that you didn't see or hear anything?

...but he couldn't do it!

"Qi Yan!" Mo Hanqi grabbed Qi Yan's shoulder tightly, roaring heartbreakingly, revealing a side he had never had before.Where did that gentle and princely Mo Hanqi go?Why not keep pretending?

But no matter what he is doing now, Qi Yan just has no expression on his face, and uses those empty eyes to look boredly at the bright red carpet under his feet.How would he answer?Tell Mo Hanqi, because I can't stand you having sex with other people?Because I know the truth of the matter - know that you never care, know that all you like is the process of hunting, know that everything is just a game for you?Know that nothing lasts forever?Or was it because he never acknowledged their relationship in front of anyone he knew?Or just because it's been a long time and I'm tired of...

Or, why not just find a reason? ——It's unacceptable anyway, it's all separation anyway, so let's just pretend that everything is actually his fault? !

"Qi Yan, tell me that you are not serious, what you just said was a joke, right?" Mo Hanqi forced a smile and showed his usual gentle smile.

His eyes are the best that Qi Yan has ever seen, his personality is the best that Qi Yan has ever met, and even the word "Mo Hanqi" is the most precious to him.

But at this moment, Qi Yan only felt disgusted.

All the things he did before, even if he smiled again, Qi Yan felt romantic, but now, he just felt disgusted.

"Sorry……"

"I'm serious." Qi Yan looked up at Mo Hanqi expressionlessly, and showed him the last faint, innocent smile, "Mo Hanqi, I'm serious. Every word just now , from beginning to end."

"Including me saying I love you, and now I say I don't love you."

He hesitated for a long time but failed to say these words to the person in front of him, but now, he is so smooth, so nostalgic.Not even time to remember—because looking back, those memories are so cheap.

It's just a memory of being teased by others, and the so-called love is just an adjustment to other people's boring lives.The things he guarded so carefully, and the things he pretended to be, were all fake. ——In the eyes of others, it is just a ridiculous joke.

"But, why is that?" Mo Hanqi finally settled down. He was indulging in an inexplicable sense of frustration before, but now he thinks he is more awake.

"Yan, why is it between us? - Is it because I haven't been in touch with you recently? But I call and text you every day, but you just don't answer, just ignore me...why?" He I believe it's just a misunderstanding, it must be a misunderstanding, it's just because I used to care too much about the person in front of me, and he couldn't bear even a momentary negligence.He actually loves himself, it must be!

Seeing that Qi Yan didn't speak, he looked elsewhere.

"Qi Yan, tell me a reason!" Mo Hanqi pressed Qi Yan tightly with both hands, "Tell me why, otherwise I will just think you are joking."

"Yes, you were joking, right?" Among them, he was the only one who let go of Qi Yan first... How could it be the other party's turn to let go of himself first?It can't be...it shouldn't be!

"Are you kidding?" After about a long time, Qi Yan raised his head in a daze, and looked straight at Mo Hanqi, "Do you really want to know?"

"Yan! Don't do this, don't do this..." This is not the Qi Yan he knows.But what kind of Qi Yan did he know?

"Yan, you know how much I love you, right?"

"Oh?" Qi Yan smiled, "Mo Hanqi, then, how much do you love me? Can you really admit my eternity?"

"Yan... don't you believe me?" Mo Hanqi was stunned for a moment, and his frowning brows were tightly knit together.

"Believe? What do you believe in?"

"...Didn't we agree?" Mo Hanqi forced Qi Yan to look at him, "Did you forget that we promised each other."

Yes, I agreed, but one person left first.

Mo Hanqi, or, you've never been here... It's just me, the so-called love I think I'm self-righteous, right?

None of these words came out.

"Because, I fell in love with someone else." He raised his head and looked at the other person.

"What did you say?"

"Like someone else?" Mo Hanqi almost collapsed, the fingers holding Qi Yan's shoulder seemed to be inserted straight into the gaps in his bones.

"Who is it? Who is it...? Why, why?" He smiled softly, and suddenly realized after a long time, "Is it... that person named Ling Muchen?"

Mo Hanqi felt a little strange earlier! ... He had long felt that something was wrong.

"Qi Yan, you actually fell in love with someone else? I've been chasing you for so long, and I've waited for you for so long, but...you fell in love with someone else?"

"I like you so much, but you... like someone else?"

"Qi Yan, I have paid so much for you and sacrificed so much for you. I like you so much, but you... fell in love with someone else?"

"...How can you, how can you like others?"

It is completely unbelievable that the person he thought he held tightly in his hand all this time, even though he looks indifferent on the surface, the person he can't get rid of... would actually tell him one day that he doesn't love him up? !And, is it because you like someone else?

Qi Yan didn't say anything, just stood in the distance, watching Mo Hanqi as he was about to collapse.

"Yan, those are all fake, right? Have you forgotten how much we like each other?"

"Have you forgotten the lifetime we promised..."

"Did you forget...I like you all the time?"

like me…

Like me, ah.

It turns out that you like me?

Then why, do things that make me sad-why have you been cheating me for so many years with other people, why all you want is my body, why come to me in the morning, and in the afternoon, you are surrounded by other people ?Why—clearly promised to be a lifetime, but turned out to be nothing?

"Qi Yan? Why, what's the reason, I don't believe it's because you fell in love with someone else." Obviously he was the first person to meet him, and he was the one who made an appointment with him.

Qi Yan didn't say a word, just continued to stand where he was, listening to Mo Hanqi's words without moving.

"how come?"

"And, you actually like that 'Ling Muchen'?!" Mo Hanqi probably couldn't accept it, he didn't understand what was better about that person than himself, "What do you like more about him? Or is it just because you think I'm not suitable for you? Yet?"

"Ling Muchen,...Ling Muchen? Why? Am I not good enough? Am I not as good as him?" Mo Hanqi put those three words in his mouth and repeated, his eyes became more and more terrifying, "I Can't compare to Ling Muchen?..."

Qi Yan was obviously taken aback when he heard the name, but in the end he just nodded slightly in mid-air: "That's right, it's him."

His words completely broke Mo Hanqi, and he knelt down on the ground in pain.

"How can you like other people?"

"You like, like him?"

But Qi Yan said blankly, "That's right. I fell in love with him."

As soon as the voice fell, there was a loud "pop", and Qi Yan felt a burning pain on the right side of his face. At the same time, tears fell down his face. He looked up and saw Mo Hanqi's smiling face, and Ling Muchen who happened to come over not far away. .

Mo Hanqi slapped him with his good left hand.Mo Hanqi was born left-handed, and his left hand was extremely strong. He used to be reluctant to touch Qi Yan with that hand, for fear that his hand would be a little heavier.Now, he slapped him with this hand.

"Qi Yan! You actually like...like him?!"

Qi Yan was stunned, he hadn't recovered from the disappointment and utter pain, but he said expressionlessly: "Yes, I like him." The next moment, another slap came down, overlapping the red as before. The same imprint.

Qi Yan smiled: "Mo Hanqi, you hit me?" And he slapped me twice.

"Yan..." Mo Hanqi glanced at his hand blankly, "Yan, I didn't do it on purpose... Yan, I was just too excited!"

"Word!…"

Qi Yan said with a smile: "Mo Hanqi... Thank you, this time, we are really over." It's not because of anything else, just because I see how cheap your love is.

He stretched out his hand and touched his cheek: "Mo Hanqi, hit him if you want!" He just needed to wake up - he who was still obsessed until now should really be beaten so hard by the other party slap.He took advantage of Mo Hanqi's hand and said, "Mo Hanqi, how much do you hate me? Is it because you hate me?——or because of your unwilling frustration? It doesn't matter, just hit me—but you remember Wait, I dumped you today, not you dumped me. ——I gave you all the most embarrassing things in your life, whether it's now or in the future, everything will be!"

"Mo Hanqi, remember me well. But remember, I don't love you!"

The person who looked at the other person with a blank face and said such words coldly, was he himself?

Even Qi Yan himself was stunned.Until a figure walked up to him.

"Are you okay? Qi Yan?..." Ling Muchen saw the scene just now, the moment Mo Hanqi's slap landed on Qi Yan's face, and he felt that he was going crazy.Looking coldly at Mo Hanqi, he clenched his palms into fists without leaving a single gap.Then he rushed forward and punched Mo Hanqi on the body.Mo Hanqi didn't fight back, he didn't seem to have reacted from Qi Yan's last sentence.Ling Muchen punched Mo Hanqi on the right side of the cheek again, and his two punches were not weak at all.

Mo Hanqi felt a burst of severe pain, and smiled in his heart: Qi Yan, that's right, you gave me the most embarrassing thing in my life, and, just now...

"That's enough!" Qi Yan realized that he had lost consciousness now, as if he could not see or hear at all...but he could see and hear.Dang Mo Hanqi slapped himself without hesitation, and Dang Ling Muchen slapped Mo Hanqi without hesitation.He was standing there motionless, how incompetent and useless he seemed?

"It's just about me and him...Master Ling Muchen, please don't interfere, please?" He said with a blank expression, and walked slowly in front of Mo Hanqi.

"Xiaoyan..." Mo Hanqi felt that his left hand was trembling violently. He looked up at Qi Yan pitifully, "I was just too excited just now...Xiaoyan, I really didn't mean it just now. You let him continue to call Me, as long as you are happy, keep hitting me?"

It was the first time Mo Hanqi cried hysterically in front of others, like a bereaved dog: "Yan, you need to know how much I love you!"

He continued to talk, but it was a pity that no one could tell whether it was true or false.Qi Yan stretched out his hand to touch Mo Hanqi's face, while tears were already streaming down his face.He thought his tears had dried up, but unexpectedly they still flowed out.

"Mo Hanqi, you don't love me. What you love is yourself."

Love only yourself?

Mo Hanqi looked at Qi Yan in a daze: "Yan, is it me who I love?! Is it me? So, you never believed that I loved you? - So, from the beginning to the end, you never Believe it?" But Qi Yan glanced at him again: "...it doesn't really matter. Who you love...it doesn't matter anymore."

Such a decision is not made in a day.But very early after learning the truth... that is already a thing of the past.

"In a performance that has ended, there is no good show I want to see. What's more-I'm not an actor, and I can't act." Qi Yan said without a trace of emotion: "Just do it, just because I like it Someone else."

"How is it possible? We can't just end like this." Mo Hanqi was still unable to act, and reached out to grab Qi Yan's hand forcefully.

"Please let go."

Qi Yan didn't speak, but Ling Muchen reached out to grab Qi Yan's other hand, and then pulled him away from the corridor.And Qi Yan still didn't speak, but was dragged away obediently by him. —that was his choice.

Mo Hanqi wanted to catch up, but soon disappeared. He saw Qi Yan beside him, but was snatched away...

The last sight was Qi Yan's hand unable to break free from his own.

What I remembered was that I held his hand many years ago and made an appointment to be together for the rest of my life...

After so many years, what happened between them?Why can't we go on?Why...is it because a lifetime is too long?

So they can't go that far?

The author has something to say: Tomorrow, double updates may resume, depending on the situation

Anyway, the day is certain~(≧▽≦)/~ la la la