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According to Ling Muchen's arrangement, they will return to downtown C in two days.

In the end, Ling Muchen finally gave Qi Yan some private time, but his own people ran away without a trace, and Qi Yan was happy to relax.

It's just that Mo Hanqi called him again that day, and Qi Yan scanned the phone screen as usual, but didn't answer.

Now he still doesn't know how to face Mo Hanqi, because the only thing Qi Yan can't accept in his life is a person who plays with his feelings... Sometimes he even thinks that he would rather never meet him in the first place, so that it is better to live through such a long pain .

He sometimes thinks that he has gradually forgotten about Mo Hanqi, especially in the S city where too many things that Qi Yan as an ordinary person can't afford have happened.

He thought he had figured it out, and he only thought about living a normal life.But that afternoon, Qi Yan almost cried himself into a fool again.

That afternoon Mo Hanqi suddenly frantically called him and texted him frantically.Then someone started knocking on the door.The moment the door knocked, Qi Yan subconsciously stood further away from the door, but saw Mo Hanqi's text message saying: Xiaoyan, I'm standing at the door.

……

At that moment, Qi Yan was completely stunned, and after half a second, Mo Hanqi sent another text message: Xiaoyan, if you don't open the door, I will stand here forever.If in the end I am suspected by the security as a suspicious person, I hope you can come and release me on bail.

It is simply hopeless.

Because of Mo Hanqi's last self-deprecating words, Qi Yan relented and opened the door.

It's just that at that moment, he didn't know how to face Mo Hanqi, the other party probably didn't know anything, right?You thought he was the same Qi Yan as before?

However, he couldn't tell that I wasn't.

He was afraid of telling the truth, not because he was afraid of hurting each other, but because he was afraid of ruining a good memory.If that's all, and just turn around silently, at least a few years later, he can still lie to himself that he once loved and was loved...

Who knows that in the future, it will not last forever.If it is possible, at least there will be a short-lived happiness...

"Yan, I finally see you."

The moment he opened the door, Mo Hanqi walked forward and hugged Qi Yan tightly.He has the faint, very sunny and warm smell on his body.It's just that Qi Yan at this time already knew that this was just the beauty of others, he subconsciously pushed Mo Hanqi away and looked at Mo Hanqi's astonished face.

He probably thought he would have been praised.

Mo Hanqi looked at Qi Yan in astonishment, for a moment he let go of his usual tenderness, and pulled Qi Yan into his arms forcefully.Qi Yan struggled, but finally there was no movement.

"... Xiaoyan... aren't you happy to see me?" Mo Hanqi smiled.

"I don't have anything very busy now. I haven't seen you for a long time. I want to accompany you well."

"Yan, I deliberately chased you to downtown S for you!"

"Yan? What's wrong with you?"

He said so much, but Qi Yan looked at his face, listened to his words, and asked blankly: "Mo Hanqi, how did you come here."

"Why, are you unhappy?" Hearing Qi Yan's voice sound a bit strange, Mo Hanqi was stunned, and smiled happily: "I asked your boss to get the address."

"My boss?"

"It's - Ling Muchen."

"Yan, I miss you so much. How are you doing? Why didn't you tell me when you were on a business trip? I was so worried. I was really scared in downtown C. You ignored me and didn't answer my calls and text messages. You I don't care about anything..."

"Yan? What's wrong with you? Why don't you speak?

Is it Ling Muchen?It was Ling Muchen.

Qi Yan just stood there in a daze, letting Mo Hanqi hug him.I was thinking of someone else entirely...

It was the first time that Qi Yan hated someone a little bit, but it was not Mo Hanqi, but Ling Muchen who betrayed himself to the other party.

"Words? Would you like to say something?"

"Xiaoyan, what's wrong with you? Are you unhappy?" Mo Hanqi pretended to smile and looked at Qi Yan, "Xiaoyan, don't scare me?"

Probably after a long time, Qi Yan kept his face expressionless but with a faint and scary smile. This expression really didn't look like the baby-faced Qi Yan who was always expressionless but cute and stupid.

This expression is the protagonist of the story in Qi Yan's dream.

"I'm fine...you..." Qi Yan came back to his senses and said every word.At this time, he saw a familiar figure approaching in the distance. The man had golden short hair that seemed to have no impurities, was tall, had a very outstanding appearance, and had a cold temperament.

"Mo Hanqi, where do you live now? Take me there." Qi Yan looked at Mo Hanqi seriously with no expression on his face.

"Yan, do you want to live with me?"

Qi Yan nodded expressionlessly.

"That's great!" Mo Hanqi smiled happily.

"Yan, we haven't seen each other for a long time, can I hug you later?"

"Okay." Qi Yan answered him blankly.

At this time, someone said "no" coldly.

That person was Ling Muchen, who was striding over, looking at Qi Yan coldly.And Qi Yan didn't back up, but stood there without moving, not even the slightest change in his expressionless expression.

"Master Ling, let me introduce you formally. This is...my boyfriend." Qi Yan looked at Ling Muchen with a smile on his face, and continued, "That's right, as you can see, I'm gay, and I only like men. , man—and I have the best boyfriend in the world now..."

"Do you know how much I love him?" Qi Yan smiled, with a blank expression on his face: "I never knew what sex is. This person is my first love. I met him when I was a sophomore. Couple relationship, isn’t it ridiculous to have a first love at the age of 19? What’s even more ridiculous is... He obviously likes me very much, but I have never had a relationship with him... I feel that I have failed too much.”

But they looked at Ling Muchen, and when they said the words "I didn't have sex with him", there were subtle changes in each other's eyes.

"Do you know? I haven't been in touch with him during this period of time. After so long, I thought he had given up on me. ...But he came and stood in front of me—he came to other places specially for me. The city...I just remembered that he was going abroad, but he stayed in the hopeless T University for me,...He did so many things for me." The intermittent voice continued: "You know I... Do you like him?"

Under Mo Hanqi's complacent but gradually astonished expression, Qi Yan continued to speak, at first with a smile on his face, but soon changed back to that expressionless expression.

He stared blankly at Qi Yan, always feeling that his eyes were not looking at him: "Yan, you talk too much."

And Qi Yan continued: "I met him when I was 18 years old, about the age of your current director, and it has been five or six years since then. It's probably like the two of us. The age difference between them... Who can compare to such a long-term relationship? You know, I was fostered by my uncle and aunt since I was a child, but I have never stayed at home since I was a child. In the dormitory of the school, but no close friends...no relatives, nothing...for me, he is the person who changed my life." Looking at Mo Hanqi's already pale face, Qi Yan continued : "He didn't seem to admit his relationship with me when he first met you?" There was a hint of self-mockery in his tone.

"But... how much do you like this person?"

Qi Yan suddenly covered his face with his hands. It turned out that he had already started to cry at this time, but there was a cold gaze in his eyes that were exposed through his fingers.

"Do you know how much I should love him... I don't think you do..."

As Qi Yan spoke, he thought in his heart: These words are full of ridicule and sarcasm, but who exactly do you want to tell them to?

Tell the person you say how much you like? ——Is it really worth it for someone who doesn't love himself at all and just treats himself as a plaything?Of course he knew it wasn't worth it.

So who is it for?

"Don't talk..." Ling Muchen suddenly said coldly, "Qi Yan...don't say any more." Such a painful expression made him feel inexplicably depressed.

"do not talk!"

Even Mo Hanqi, who was looking at him, trembled, and put his arm around Qi Yan's shoulder: "Yan... I'm here, I'm already here. I know that some of my actions have hurt you. That's just because I want to To protect you...I'm afraid that you will lose your head in front of others because of our relationship." Looking seriously at Qi Yan, he found that the other party didn't care about him at all.

All kinds of feelings came to his heart at once, Mo Hanqi only felt that the atmosphere was too heavy - this really didn't look like Qi Yan, who has always been calm.Because Qi Yan never tells others how happy he is, nor how sad he is.He always looks like a cold-eyed bystander, but his character is weaker and more indifferent than anyone else...

"Why? Why can't you say it?" Qi Yan smiled, but looked at Mo Hanqi again, "Let me introduce this to you, he is Ling Muchen, a new colleague who came to our company not long ago, only 19 At the age of [-], he is the head of the room. I originally thought that he was probably just a second generation ancestor, but later I found out that he is probably...a genius."

"How smart is he? He can set a trap that I can't think of... if he wants to, but until now I'm not sure if he really set such a trap for me-because I didn't even notice it To the slightest clue."

"No, that's because he's too smart...so he likes to play with others in the palm of his hand...but he doesn't just seem to be smart, he's too good at disguising—I don't know when he He is gentle, when was he actually dangerous..."

"Enough!" Ling Muchen frowned more and more, he grabbed Qi Yan's hand with one hand: "Qi Yan, stop talking!"

"Why! Why not?"

Does it have to be obscured and manipulated by others?There was even hatred in his eyes, and he looked coldly at this person who had always been the only one who looked at others coldly.

Although Mo Hanqi sensed that something was wrong, it was difficult to understand what happened. He saw Ling Muchen holding Qi Yan's hand, so he quickly pushed Ling Muchen forward, but his hand happened to rest on Ling Muchen's injured On the shoulder, I pushed it up with all my strength.

Ling Muchen felt a stabbing pain, as if a knife cut straight down in an instant, the open wound was tearing open, and blood flowed out along the gap... the pain made it hard to breathe.He looked at Mo Hanqi coldly, with a terrifying murderous look in his cold arrogance, and Mo Hanqi also looked at him.

"Master Ling, please let him go." Mo Hanqi's usual gentle demeanor had probably been forgotten long ago, and he looked at Ling Muchen fiercely, "He's mine!"

Ling Muchen didn't answer Mo Hanqi's words at all, but turned his gaze to Qi Yan, and just asked him: "Qi Yan, are you sure you want to go with him?"

After learning that he was deceived by this person, still want to be so stupidly stubborn?

But Qi Yan just smiled: "Master Ling, do you think that I should be with you?... But have you forgotten? We are nothing." He repeated the last sentence again and again, "What? Neither of us...will we be closer than lovers?

Sneeringly: "Are you close? ——It's not a relationship in the world."

At that moment, Ling Muchen let go of his hand, he felt his whole arm began to tremble, and every time he trembled, he would always think of something.

"Han, let's go." Qi Yan expressionlessly glanced at Mo Hanqi beside him.

"Okay..." He hesitated in reply, but Mo Hanqi, who just wanted to leave early, naturally had no nostalgia.

Then, he watched Qi Yan and Mo Hanqi walking together, gradually drifting away until they disappeared.

It was a very long corridor, but the figure in the field of vision disappeared very quickly.Lin Muchen remembered a sentence, no matter how long it is, it will not last a lifetime.

Qi Yan is probably the kind of person who only wants to live forever.

Because, he doesn't really know nothing and doesn't care about anything - on the contrary, he knows too much and cares more.And, more conscientious and results-oriented than anyone...

When he reached the end of the corridor, Qi Yan suddenly stopped, and Mo Hanqi also stopped, looking at Qi Yan with some doubts.

"Xiaoyan, what's the matter?"

Qi Yan hesitated for a long time. During that time, he stood there in a daze, with his head downcast, without saying a word, and without looking at Mo Hanqi.It took a long time before he opened his mouth, but what he said was: "Mo Hanqi... I've thought about it for a long time, so let's go here. We... each go our own way."

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