After the rebirth, the scumbag went crazy for me

No one will love you at all.

"Sleep in separate rooms?"

While tidying up his quilt and pillow, Yuhuai Xing replied, "Well, I'll sleep in the guest room, so that I won't touch Brother Nian's wound when I sleep at night."

Gu Cinian's chest was bulging with the pent-up air in his heart, and he quickly grabbed Yu Huaixing's hand to stop him from packing up.

"Xing Xing, do you really have the heart to let me sleep by myself?" He hooked Yuhuai Xing's little finger, and said miserably, "I can't sleep without holding you."

These words are actually not bad, he really can't sleep without hugging Yuhuai Xing, the nightmarish past makes him feel uneasy if he doesn't look at Yuhuai Xing for a moment.

Yuhuai star looked down at Gu Cinian holding her hand, pursed her lips and said softly, "Brother Nian, I know you have endured so much. When you are well, I will depend on you, okay?"

Gu Cinian didn't correct Yuhuai star's words, and now he still can't change the image he remembered in Yuhuai star for more than a year.

He was such an asshole before, he couldn't refute it, and he didn't intend to refute it.

"Okay," Gu Cinian knew that Yuhuai Xing was doing this because he was worried about himself, so he didn't continue the topic, but lowered his head and kissed his soft lips, and said softly, "Xing Xing, I will give you a gift later." Let's make a cake."

cake?Yu Huaixing was startled, he remembered that Gu Cinian never went into the kitchen, let alone make cakes.

Now he is a little confused about Gu Cinian's personality change, and everything seems to have changed a lot during his coma...

In the past, Gu Cinian would not be like this at all, and would only be intimate with him time and time again.

I don't know if it's his illusion, the current Gu Cinian seems... very clingy to himself?

Is it because of accumulating too much?

Looking up at Gu Cinian, he happened to meet Gu Cinian's dark eyes, those sharp eyes were as deep as the trench of the deep sea, able to suck people in.

Looking into these eyes, Yu Huaixing could see the seriousness and firmness in his eyes.

Gu Cinian hugged him in his arms, and gently rubbed the tip of his nose against his face. For some reason, he felt that Gu Cinian was sad at this moment.

The sadness in his eyes flashed, and he hugged himself tighter: "Xingxing..."

In his ear, Gu Cinian whispered his name softly, as if afraid that he would disappear in the next moment.

"Brother Nian..." Yu Huaixing hugged Gu Cinian back, patted him on the back lightly as if to comfort him, and said softly, "I'm here."

Gu Cinian smiled, the sad lake in his eyes swayed, and there was a gentle smile.

He is here, and his star is still there.

Although it was only temporary...although it was just a dream that would wake up sooner or later, but he responded to himself, he said...he was here.

"Brother Nian..." Rubbing against Gu Cinian's arms, his eyes were hot, "It's great to meet you..."

Gu Cinian's body suddenly froze.

Yu Huai Xing said it was great to meet him...

At this time, Yuhuai Xing was ignorant and innocent, he treated himself wholeheartedly, gave him everything he had, even split his heart and gave it to him with both hands.

He never thought about whether he had any purpose in approaching him, nor would he try to figure him out like that. He just gave him a candy occasionally on a whim, but he would give back everything he had.

Yu Huai Xing gave him his heart, but he was the one who hurt Yu Huai Xing the most.

"Xing Xing, I'm sorry..." Gu Cinian's eyes were flushed, and the hand holding Yuhuai Xing trembled. He said "I'm sorry" over and over again, wishing to take out his heart and give it to Yuhuai Xing at this moment.

"Brother Nian, what's the matter with you?" Yuhuai Xing looked at him puzzled, feeling a little uneasy, why did Gu Cinian apologize to him, why did he say "I'm sorry" to him?

Looking up at Gu Cinian slightly, he asked in an uneasy and apprehensive voice, "Brother Nian, are you planning to let me go?"

He had never seen Gu Cinian like this before, Gu Cinian had never said "I'm sorry" to himself, and Gu Cinian, who had never lowered his head, suddenly bowed his head to him...

The uneasiness in his heart continued to spread, he twisted his fingertips nervously and fearfully, he hung his head and did not dare to lift it up, he was afraid that Gu Cinian would find him even more annoying when he saw his red eye sockets.

"Xing Xing, what are you talking about?" Gu Cinian hurriedly interrupted Yu Huai Xing, looking at his reddened eyes, his distressed heart had a hole in it.

"I did a lot of wrong things before, hurt you deeply, when I realized how much I love you, it was too late...

Gu Cinian choked up, his heart ached.

He still remembered that the doctor said that Yuhuai Xing could not be forcibly restored to memory, and he should not say things that might cause him a stress reaction. If he said those things, it might cause Yuhuai Xing to suffer double harm.

It is impossible for him to do something that will hurt Yuhuai Xing, let alone do it, it is because he is selfish and wants to stay in this beautiful dream for a longer time.

Yu Huaixing didn't understand what Gu Cinian meant when he said "did a lot of wrong things" and "had hurt you deeply". During the ten years he was bullied and tortured, only when Gu Cinian appeared in his life That moment is bliss.

In those ten years, his existence seemed to be a mistake. No matter what he did, even if he didn't do anything, he would still be bullied.

It's like... he's breathing all wrong.

Gu Cinian is different from other people, he will not abuse and bully him like others, and he will not feel that he is dirty, he will send himself to the hospital when he is helpless, and he can see that he is afraid of suffering and feed him candy .

These are all warmth that he has never experienced before.

To him, Gu Cinian is like a ray of sunshine in his dark life, bringing a glimmer of light to his cold and dark life.

Such a person would be with him, which was a happiness he never dared to ask for before.

People who are used to the darkness will instinctively chase after the sun once they see the light. He has always been afraid that Gu Cinian will leave him, just like now...

Gu Cinian said "I'm sorry" to him...

Holding the corner of Gu Cinian's clothes, he lowered his head to restrain his emotions, bit his lip and tried to make his voice sound normal.

"Brother Nian...Did I do something wrong? I will change, I will change...Brother Nian, I'm sorry..."

He didn't dare to raise his head, afraid of meeting Gu Cinian's eyes and hearing Gu Cinian's cold voice.

In fact, he should be content. It is an extravagant wish for someone like him to be with Gu Cinian. If Gu Cinian meets someone he likes more, he should bless him.

Wen Biyu's ferocious face suddenly flashed in his mind, Wen Biyu threw the leftovers to him, and looked at him with condescending hands crossed over his chest in disgust.

"You are an evil breed. You should be treated like this in this life. No one will love you at all, and you will never be happy."

His eyes were hot, his eyes were blurred, he reluctantly pulled the corners of his mouth, and he thought to himself: Mom, what you said is wrong, there are still people who love me, but only for a very short time, but even if it is just a I am also very happy in the short sweet dream.

I shouldn't be so selfish...

After meeting Gu Cinian, his life has been changed. He passed the third year of high school safely and felt the warmth.

This wonderful happiness is enough to support him to live the rest of his life.

Slowly letting go of the hand holding the corner of Gu Ci Nian's clothes, he sucked his nose, blinked hard, trying to swallow back the mist that blurred his vision.

Taking a deep breath, he raised his head, and when he was about to show Gu Cinian a smile and bless him, he was suddenly hugged tightly by Gu Cinian.

"Xingxing, what are you talking about!"

Gu Cinian hugged him harder than usual, her voice trembled slightly, as if she was afraid of something.

"How could I not want you? I'm afraid you don't want me." Holding Yuhuai Xing's face, he gently kissed the corners of his reddened eyes with distress, and then kissed his misty eyes , said hoarsely, "Xing Xing, I love you, I love you very much."

Facing Gu Cinian's determined eyes, Yu Huaixing couldn't help but shed the tears in his eyes for a moment.

The fear just now poured out like a flood, and it couldn't be stopped.

"It was my mistake. I should have let you know earlier. I love you very much." Gu Cinian looked at Yuhuai Xing's heart-wrenching appearance. The ice slag was slowly grinding on the tender meat, the pain was so painful that he almost suffocated.

Hot tears fell down the tear stains, dripping on the back of Gu Cinian's hand, and he suddenly felt a scorching, stinging pain from the back of his hand to his heart, a heart-rending pain.

"Xing Xing, I love you." Gu Cinian kissed away Yuhuai Xing's tears, gently wiped away his tears, and said softly, "Don't cry, okay, I will feel bad."

Yu Huai Xing nodded in response, but the tears still couldn't be stopped, Gu Cinian hugged Yu Huai Xing patiently and coaxed him over and over again with distress and self-blame.

It was because he was too much of an asshole, if he gave Yu Huai Xing enough security, he would not be like this at all, let alone cry so that his heart trembled.

After a long time, Yuhuai Xing's already weak body just woke up after being in a coma for so long, and fell asleep soon after crying a lot.

Gu Cinian hugged him and gently placed him on the bed, adjusted a posture that Yu Huai Xing would be comfortable with, letting him lean in his arms.

Yuhuai Xing's skin is fair, and the red eye ends are very eye-catching, and the thick and curled eyelashes are wet with tears and hang down naturally.

He shrank subconsciously in Gu Ci Nian's arms, like an insecure kitten, curled up and subconsciously burrowed into the heat source.

"Xingxing..." Gu Cinian felt a pain in his heart, he hugged Yuhuai Xing even tighter, lowered his head and kissed the corners of his reddened eyes, self-blame and bitterness spread in his heart, and passed To the limbs and bones.

When Yuhuai Xing cried, those tears scalded his heart drop by drop, leaving hot marks one by one.

In the past, Yuhuai Xing would never cry in front of him, just like before, he endured it, as if he was afraid that he would find him annoying, no matter how sad he was, he was secretly sad, and he always had a soft smile when facing him .

soft smile...

Gu Ci Nian's eyes darkened slightly, and the memory in his heart emerged, and his hand holding Yu Huai Xing tightened slightly.

……

The weak sunlight sprinkled in the garden, casting dappled light and shadow through the dense leaves.

In the small garden of the campus, a boy in a school uniform walked towards him, his slender figure could not be hidden even in a baggy school uniform.

The sun fell on the young man's delicate face, making his delicate and transparent skin more and more translucent. When he smiled, those watery eyes seemed to be filled with a clear spring. You just can't help but take a second look. fall.

"Brother Nian." The boy walked to him, and when he looked at him, there seemed to be stars hidden in his eyes, which were more dazzling than the sun.

There was a slight cry from somewhere around, the young Gu Cinian frowned subconsciously, Yu Huaixing saw it and asked in a low voice: "Brother Nian, do you hate crying?"

"I hate seeing others cry the most, it's annoying."

Gu Cinian reached out and touched Yu Huaixing's exquisite face, looked at his beautiful eyes, and smiled lightly, "Xing Xing's smile is the prettiest."

After that, Yu Huai Xing remembered this sentence.

In front of Gu Cinian, no matter how sad he is, he will only try his best to suppress it, and will only smile at him.

Memories emerged clearly in his mind, and Gu Ci's thoughts were buried on Yuhuai Xing's neck, but his eye sockets became more red.

How much wronged did Yuhuai star suffer, how much pain and sorrow he endured in those years in his previous life?

Those memories flashed slowly frame by frame, like needles piercing his heart one by one, slowly piercing towards the most fragile and soft place in his heart.

Blood oozes from the densely packed needles, and the fragile tender flesh is gouged out bit by bit by the sharp needle point, just like Ling Chi.

"Hmm..." Yu Huaixing frowned, curled up, and seemed to be having a nightmare again, Gu Cinian hurriedly stroked his back gently, coaxing him patiently.

Seeing the eyebrows of the person in his arms gradually unfolding, Gu Ci Nian still couldn't let go of his mind, all the factors that would make Yu Huai Xing afraid and sad shouldn't exist.

But he couldn't find the source, what had Yuhuai star experienced before?

Thinking of the rumors about Yuhuai Xing at school, his sharp brows tightened, and a cold light flashed in his dark eyes.

-

After Gu Cinian explained that day, Yu Huaixing moved to the guest room the next day.

The dark night sky is full of stars, the desk lamp in the room is turned on to the brightest, the door is opened, a shadow cautiously enters through the crack of the door, and the door is slowly and carefully closed.

The tall shadow was reflected on the wall above the bed, gradually approaching Yuhuai Xing who was sleeping peacefully on the bed.

Lying in the soft quilt, Yu Huaixing curled himself up into a ball, every night the nightmare seemed to haunt him, making his warm brows tightly frowned.

"Xing Xing..." Gu Cinian hurriedly hugged Yuhuai Xing in his arms carefully and gently, for fear of waking him up.

After being held in his arms and coaxed for a while, Yuhuai Xing's breathing gradually became shallow and long again.

Yu Huai Xing rested on Gu Cinian's arm, and Gu Cinian's hand passed through his slender waist to hold his hand.

Feeling the temperature of Yuhuai Xing's body, his restless heart relaxed a little.

Waking up the next day, Yuhuai Xing opened his hazy eyes, rubbed his face on the pillow and waited for a while before getting up.

He seemed to be dreaming again last night, but he still couldn't see the content of the dream clearly, he only knew that the dream was scary and cold.

He ran as desperately as if he wanted to escape, but there was an endless abyss under the cliff in front of him.

On the edge of the cliff, when he was about to fall, suddenly two hands hugged him, the hot embrace hugged him tightly, and the surrounding cold also quietly faded away.

"What a strange dream."

Not only last night, since the night he woke up, he has been having dreams that scare him but can't remember the content.

Fortunately, every time he is afraid of fear, he will always be hugged into a hot embrace.

"Xing Xing?" There was a knock on the door, "Are you awake?"

Yu Huaixing hurriedly threw off the quilt and got out of bed to open the door.

At the door, the man wearing the same style of pajamas as his was holding a glass of milk in his hand. Seeing his face just waking up, his sharp eyes softened subconsciously.

He stretched out his hand to help Yuhuai Xing smooth out a strand of sleepy hair, and said with a light smile, "Are you still sleepy? Have breakfast before going to sleep."

Yuhuai Xing has a bad stomach, he has to eat three meals a day on time, and he has to take medicine later.

"Not sleepy anymore." Yuhuai Xing shook his head and looked at him, "Why did Brother Nian wake up so early?"

Gu Cinian stepped forward and entered the guest room, holding the milk in one hand and wrapping Yuhuai Xing into his arms with the other, he lowered his head and pressed his forehead against his forehead, and said softly, "I'm afraid my Xingxing will be hungry."

Yu Huaixing's small face was slightly hot, he looked away, and the words "my family" kept playing in his mind.

"Drink some milk." Feed the milk to Yu Huai Xing's mouth, Yu Huai Xing glanced at him, took a few sips with his hand, and the smile in Gu Cinian's eyes deepened a bit.

Helping Yuhuaixing wipe off the milk stains on the corners of his mouth, Gu Cinian stroked Yuhuaixing's soft hair, leaned down and kissed the corners of his lips.

"The weather is much warmer today, will you go out for a walk later?"

Yuhuai Xing hadn't gone out for a long time. Although the weather had improved a while ago, the wind was still strong and it was still cold. Gu Cinian didn't dare to let him go out because he was afraid that his health would be unbearable.

Today's weather is much warmer, even the wind is gentle and soft, Gu Cinian saw Yu Huai Xing with a smile in his eyes, couldn't help but kissed him again on the lips.

"Brother Nian, I haven't brushed my teeth yet!" Pushing Gu Cinian away, Yu Huaixing ran into the bathroom covering her mouth with red ears.

After breakfast, Gu Cinian took Yuhuai Xing to go shopping around, Yuhuai Xing looked at the waves rippling on the lake, turned to look at Gu Cinian, hesitated and asked: "Brother Nian, have you seen the sun? out?"

"Want to see the stars?" Gu Cinian approached Yuhuai Xing, held his hand in his own, and said, "If the stars want to go, then we will go. Is there any place or something you want to play in the future?" Just tell me, don't hesitate, I want to be with the stars."

"Okay?" Warm palms caressed his face, and as the sound of tearing the candy paper stopped, a sweet candy was fed into his mouth.

The peach-flavored candy melts in the mouth, and the sweetness lingers on the tip of the tongue, slowly seeping into the heart, covering the whole heart.

At this moment, he couldn't help but think of the day when he and Gu Cinian met for the first time, that day Gu Cinian did the same, feeding him a candy after he finished taking the very bitter medicine.

The twilight shone from the gaps in the leaves and reflected on Gu Cinian's face, just overlapping with the figure of the boy in the afternoon in his memory.

That day they talked for the first time, looked at each other for the first time, and he also felt for the first time that winter would be so warm.

That beam of light shone into his heart like that.

The tip of his tongue curled up the candy and licked it. He put his arms around Gu Cinian's neck and raised his head on tiptoe, and said softly, "Okay."

There was a soft touch on Gu Cinian's lips, and the warm breath smelled of peaches, so sweet that he couldn't help but chase after it.

The breeze blows, blowing Yuhuaixing's hair, Gu Cinian protects the back of Yuhuaixing's head, hugs his waist, bows his head and kisses him intimately.

The sweet candy rolled on the tip of their tongues, with a lingering sweetness, and the enticing peach fragrance wafted in the air.

……

Yuhuai Xing wanted to watch the sunrise, so Gu Cinian took him to the nearby seaside that day.

The night was flickering, and the silver moonlight sprinkled down on the vast sea.

The surface of the surging sea is shrouded in moonlight, reflecting silver-blue light, as if thousands of stars have fallen into the entire sea, shining charmingly.

It is very comfortable to be blown by the cool sea breeze and the sea breeze with the smell of the sea.

"It's cool at night." Gu Cinian put his coat on Yuhuai Xing, touched his face that was still slightly cooled by the blowing, "Is the star cold?"

Yu Huaixing smiled softly at him, shook his head and said, "It's not cold."

Even though Yu Huai Xing said so, Gu Cinian still wrapped the thick coat tightly around him, and held Yu Huai Xing's hand in his palm to warm it up.

They walked together on the beach, where the soft sand dented their footprints as they were trodden on.

The seaside at night is quiet and beautiful, the moonlight shines on the sea and the stars are shining, and the waves coming up are churning.

Looking at the crashing waves, Yu Huai Xing really wanted to walk barefoot on the beach. The slightly cool sea water covered his feet and receded again. It must be very cool.

But before he could say what he wanted, Gu Cinian vetoed it first: "Xing Xing, you are still very weak now, so you can play in water later, okay?"

Although Yu Huai Xing really wanted to play in the water, he was even more excited when he heard Gu Cinian's voice.

The person he loves, the light in his life treats him so tenderly and thinks of him everywhere, there is no happiest thing in the world than this.

"When you recover, we will step on the waves barefoot, and I will accompany you, okay Xingxing?"

Yuhuai Xing's heart was warm, he nodded vigorously: "Okay!"

Gu Cinian's gaze fell on Yu Huaixing's face, and he stared at his beautiful pupils with tenderness.

There are stars shining in the night sky, and the light of the stars is reflected on the sea, but it is still not as good as the eyes of the Yuhuai star.

In this moonlight, he could only see the Yuhuai star in his eyes.

-

In the morning, Gu Ci read the alarm clock, Yu Huaixing looked at him with sleepy eyes when he woke him up, and his long and thick eyelashes fluttered gently.

"The stars are sleepy? Then shall we watch next time?"

It took several seconds for Yuhuai Xing to react, and shook his head softly: "I, I'll get up soon, I want to watch it with Brother Nian."

Gu Cinian smiled lightly, and hugged him in his arms even with the quilt.

In the morning, there was white mist in the air, and the wind was colder than usual. Gu Cinian was concerned about Yuhuai Xing's body and brought a blanket.

It was lit up late this morning, and the white belly of the sky was not as bright as before. It was covered with a layer of white mist, and the sun slowly rose above the sea level, wrapped in a beautiful fiery red.

The slowly rising sun reflected on the sea level, the blue sea water was surging with waves, and the clouds in the sky were dyed orange-pink, which was very beautiful.

Yu Huaixing was held in Gu Cinian's arms, and the blanket was draped over his body to cover half of his face, only showing a pair of beautiful eyes.

Yuhuai Xing seemed to be finally able to wake up from sleepiness, fanning his long eyelashes lightly, he blinked a few times in a daze, his eyes slowly regained consciousness under the fiery red sun.

"so beautiful."

"If you like it, let's all watch it, okay?" Gu Cinian immediately regretted it after saying this.

He cherishes every minute and every second spent with Yuhuai star too much, but what about the agreement he made now?

But even though he knew it was useless, he still couldn't help but want to ask Yuhuai Xing.

In the past, he never knew what happiness is, but now he feels happy and romantic in everything he and Yuhuai Xing do, whether it is the beauty of the snowy land or the trivial things like watching the sunrise together .

Gu Cinian wrapped Lin Qingran's slender body with a blanket, his sharp eyes drooped slightly, and while happiness ignited in his heart, a layer of fear gradually surged involuntarily.

He knows this better than anyone else, and he knows that his current happiness is just a dream he had after Yuhuai Xing lost his memory.

But it is precisely because of this that he will be more afraid and worry about gains and losses.

Happiness is too ethereal for him now and has no sense of reality, even if he is holding Yuhuai Xing's hand tightly now, he will feel uneasy and fearful.

Once Meng woke up, he had nothing.

Gu Cinian's long and narrow eyes drooped, and an invisible bitterness flashed in his eyes.

This extravagant happiness made him dizzy, and it made him feel that this happiness is like a bubble, which he must carefully guard.

Guard this short dream.

Otherwise, once the bubble bursts, he will lose his only happiness that he can't expect forever.