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"I only have you."

Feeling a little wet on his fingertips, Lu Ge lowered his eyelashes and wiped a line on Chi Chao's face.

"Are you in love with me?"

Chi Chao pressed his eyes on Lu Ge's palm and didn't speak.

"You want me to love you."

Chi Chao paused, grabbed Lu Ge's hand and raised his head: "I'm not..."

"What's so sad about you? Didn't you cause this situation? Why should you cry to me from the standpoint of a victim?"

"Even if you have a hundred reasons to be silent, you also have a hundred reasons to speak out. Between the two, you chose the former. You gave up voluntarily, but I was forced to accept it. Do it the moment you make a decision. Well, prepare to face the follow-up incident, but what about me? Have you thought about me a little bit?"

"Brother, I'm sorry."

Chi Chao went to grab Lu Ge's hand, but the other party withdrew it and refused to touch it.

"You can confess to me all your decisions after enlisting in the army. Things have happened irreversibly. Even if you blame them, it will only be a matter of a while. But you ignore it and let the conflict intensify, just for, just for me to remember you? "

How desperate the endless longing is, like fetching water from the foot of a mountain, picking it all the way to the top of the mountain, and then pouring it into a dry well.

Bucket after bucket, efforts never to be answered.

Chi Chao wouldn't know, because Lu Ge couldn't bear to let him suffer this kind of grievance, but he was able to make up his mind so that he would be silent for two years.

"You can clearly make me remember you in a gentler and more correct way, but you chose such an extreme method. Chi Chao, as an adult, don't you have any judgment?"

"I've thought about it, thought about it carefully," Chi Chaoding said, "but there are so many people chasing you, you only remember one Xu Tao."

Lu Ge was stunned, at that moment he was speechless for a moment.

"You'll be able to remember her..." Chi Chao's gaze faltered around, his words became weak, "There are so many people, you only remember her..."

"I remember her," Lu Ge interrupted Chi Chao, "I also rejected her."

Chi Chao's body froze suddenly, and his lips trembled when he looked at Lu Ge again: "Brother..."

"I can remember you, Chi Chao, I can remember you forever," Lu Ge raised his hand and touched Chi Chao's face, forcing himself to say the following words, "but I refuse you."

"You are my family, my brother, and I will always remember you."

"Brother," Chi Chao grabbed his wrist in a panic, "Brother, I was wrong."

Lu Ge didn't evade, just watched: "Everyone should be responsible for their actions, isn't this the result you want?"

"I don't want this kind of result," Chi Chao held Lu Ge's hand tightly, his whole body trembling, "Brother, I know I was wrong, you can beat me and scold me, don't refuse me."

He looked up at the other party slightly, but couldn't wait for a response. Chi Chao was completely panicked, and he put his arms around Lu Ge's waist and hugged him tightly: "Brother, I'm sorry, I was wrong."

This should be their first hug after their reunion, Chi Chao knelt on the carpet and buried his face in his chest.

"I shouldn't be like this, I should reply to you, I'm sorry bro, I'm just too scared, can you stop treating me like this..."

He choked up and repeated over and over again, apologizing endlessly.

Lu Ge's heart ached as if he had been stabbed, and his body couldn't bear the pain, so he bowed slightly and hugged Chi Chao.

He always thought that he raised Chi Chao very well, so handsome, and so outstanding.

But now he realizes that he hasn't even taught his puppy how to love.

Chi Chao loves him, in his own way.

Proving care by biting, declaring possession with fierceness, this love will only make others suffer, and the bloody wounds are all wounds.

"I told you, don't cause misunderstandings, don't make decisions unilaterally, don't think I'd be better off without you, don't back down. Did you just ignore it all?"

"I'm sorry, I still remember it now," Chi Chaoshun said with a choked voice after landing on Lu Ge's words, "I will never do this again in the future."

Lu Ge closed his eyes: "When will you listen to my words?"

"Don't want me," Chi Chao stretched his arms so hard that Lu Ge was almost out of breath, "Brother, I only have you."

-

Lu Ge let Chi Chao hug him like this for more than half an hour. When the other party calmed down a little, he turned around and took off the fingers clasped on his lower back, and finally took his arm away.

"Brother..." Chi Chao's eyes were red, and he tightly grasped Lu Ge's clothes, "I was wrong."

After saying the apology [-] times, Lu Ge could almost hear the cocoons in his ears.

He reached out and took out a few pieces of paper, paste them on Chi Chao's face, and wiped off the sticky eyelashes.

"How old is he, still crying."

Chi Chao wiped his face vigorously with his hands a few times, suppressed his emotions, and made his voice normal: "Brother, I'm sorry."

"Aren't you tired?" Lu Ge threw the tissue into the trash can, "I'm tired of listening."

"I should have texted you back as soon as I got the phone, I shouldn't have made you worry in the cold, I shouldn't have made you uncomfortable in that way, I shouldn't have called grandma, I know I was wrong, I won't be like this in the future. Brother , I'm sorry, don't reject me."

Chi Chao finished speaking word by word in a buzzing voice, and Lu Ge stopped for a long time without moving.

"Are you simply denying everything you have done, or do you know where you went wrong?"

Chi Chao raised his eyes: "What should I do?"

"You don't have to do anything," Lu Ge said, "You don't understand."

"Tell me," Chi Chao went to pull Lu Ge's hand, just like his ignorant self at the beginning, "brother, you teach me."

Lu Ge thought that when he brought Chi Chao home, the kid couldn't even read 26 letters, and the other party shrugged his shoulders at the table in frustration. Lu Ge comforted him and said, "I will teach you everything."

Chi Chao's growth in the past ten years was too barbaric, and he didn't know how to love others correctly.

Maybe when he was around Lu Ge, he subconsciously imitated, half-heard and half-expressed, in the final analysis, he still possessed.

No, Lu Ge frowned.

Why did Chi Chao think about taking possession?

The little dog who said "you can give up on me" has always put himself in the most humble position. He didn't think about it at first, but he changed his mind later——

It's because of Lu Ge.

It was Lu Ge who told him about possessiveness and dominance in love, and told him that he, like everyone else, can pursue these things.

So Chi Chao originally curled up and dared not show his feelings, but with Lu Ge's indulgence, they gradually began to overflow and out of control.

It was he who told Chi Chao it was okay, but in the end he told Chi Chao no.

He only wanted to let Chi Chao not be wronged and be happy, but he didn't think that everyone was an independent individual. Human hearts were not branches after all, and they could be cut off directly if they didn't like it.

"Our team has girlfriends, and they were almost separated in those two years. In many cases, it was a month or two late to receive the news of the breakup."

"I'm very afraid that you will send me one too, so I just ignore you. Even if you want to send it to me, I won't see it after thinking about it, so maybe you won't send it to me."

"Brother, I know this is ridiculous, but I was really scared at that time. I was afraid that I would lose everything after I came out. You gave me everything. If you don't want me, I will have nothing."

"Brother, I love you. I will always be your puppy, don't want me."

Chi Chao put his face on Lu Ge's knee, closed his eyes and stopped talking.

Lu Ge's fingers went around the other's ear, trembling slightly unconsciously.

He suddenly sighed: "I always thought that you have grown up, but you are actually still a child."

Childish, reckless, regardless of consequences.

"I will work hard to grow up," Chi Chao tilted his head, and put his face on Lu Ge's palm, "Brother, wait for me."

But Lu Ge waited too long.

His fingers touched the other's eyebrows and wiped away the wetness.

Chi Chao held his wrist, lowered his eyes and kissed his fingertips.

"If I make you angry again, you don't want me, okay?"

"Brother, just this time, I know I was wrong."

-

In the end, Lu Ge didn't know whether Chi Chao was coaxing him, but this kind of thing hidden in his heart couldn't be clear for a while.

Maybe it's because he loves Chi Chao so much, and when the puppy wipes his tears, he can't bear to say harsh words.

However, after this conversation, the two did not immediately return to the way they were before.

Lu Ge still went to his work, but he no longer avoided Chi Chao after get off work. The two of them went to the supermarket occasionally, and then went home to watch a movie.

Chi Chao also cherishes this opportunity very much, and usually keeps a good distance from Lu Ge, and does not cross the boundary without force.

I usually cook and wash clothes at home, but I still feel sad when I see Yang Yang climbing the cat rack.

In September, Chi Chao went back to school.

The night before he left, Lu Ge watched a small fresh movie about love with him.

They were shoulder to shoulder and covered with the same blanket.

When Lu Ge saw that he was almost falling asleep at the end, he leaned his head on Chi Chao's shoulder.

"Go back to school and study hard, and you can't miss professional courses."

Chi Chao responded softly, tilted his head and kissed Lu Ge's hair.

-

After Chi Chao left, life seemed to return to its original state.

Facing the empty house, Lu Ge began to miss again.

Chi Chao is sending him messages every day, good morning and good night, as well as bits and pieces of daily life.

Lu Ge basically didn't reply when he saw it. Sometimes he saved it for a day, and then he would reply one or two when he was lying in bed at night.

One morning in winter, Lu Gechen ran back, turned on his phone and saw several messages.

Chi Chao said that the two in their dormitory had won the struggle and are now accepted by the family.

Very good, Lu Ge smiled when he saw the message.

Then, Chi Chao said that he missed him.

In fact, after Chi Chao left, he didn't get tired of him very much, maybe because he felt that Lu Ge would not respond, so he usually restrained his words.

Today was the first time, probably because of the influence of his roommate.

To be honest, Lu Ge was also a little affected, so I told Chi Chao to come back.

So rushing to the first heavy snow this winter, Chi Chao trotted all the way from the intersection outside the community to Lu Ge.

"Brother," his voice was very close, panting after running, with sporadic snowflakes on his eyelashes, making his eyes sparkle, "I miss you."

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