blowing clouds

When he came to the unit, the atmosphere was not different from what Chen Xiyang expected. Ding Zhaoyan's seat was indeed vacant, and even though he didn't show up, the faces of the rest of the colleagues were not very good-looking. With a sad face.

Ding Zhaoyan's popularity is not bad, they almost all know what happened, no one can work calmly.

After Chen Xiyang sat down, Xu Donghai said weakly: "Why did you run away suddenly yesterday?"

Chen Xiyang didn't answer directly, but instead asked: "Then what happened to him...?"

"What else can I do?" Xu Donghai wiped his face wearily, "He ignored me all the way when I sent him home. When I got home, he locked me out and refused to open the door. I waited for a long time, and finally had no choice but to leave."

Chen Xiyang nodded and remained silent, but Xu Donghai, who seemed to have no strength at all, couldn't hold back his words: "If something unexpected happened, it would be impossible for Gao Peng to leave no traces, he obviously knew what was going to happen and left silently Ding Zhaoyan... Fuck, will this kind of plot happen in reality?"

Chen Xiyang then said slowly: "So, fate is very impermanent, and Ding Zhaoyan's spirit of living in the moment is the best."

Xu Donghai glanced at him with a little surprise: "I didn't expect that your evaluation of him was okay, but what's the use of that, a person dies like a lamp goes out, what do you think he should do..."

"Yeah, it's useless no matter what we do, it's useless for us to worry about him, he has to come out on his own, and I think..." Chen Xiyang seemed to think of something, "No matter how much he loves Gaopeng, He will not sink into the bottom because of his departure, he is not that kind of person."

On the surface, Ding Zhaoyan has a better relationship with Xu Donghai, but Chen Xiyang is his kind. Even though they don't communicate much, Chen Xiyang understands Ding Zhaoyan's heart better to a certain extent.

So Xu Donghai didn't understand what he meant, and said with a wry smile: "I hope, even if Xiao Ding becomes as cynical as before, dealing with different men every day, it's better than hiding alone in grief."

Chen Xiyang thought that this would not be the case, Ding Zhaoyan would only cherish this love more than before.

"It's so fucking annoying. Two such good people ended up in such a hasty way..." Smoking is not allowed in the office, Xu Donghai can only bite the filter back and forth, "I didn't expect that life and death are not far away from us. Cherish the people around you."

If Chen Xiyang in the past would either sneer at such a simple realization, or put on a dead face and keep silent, but today he is very different, nodding with a serious expression, approving Xu Donghai's emotion.

Before Chen Xiyang came, he planned to find Ding Zhaoyan to comfort him and persuade him, but when he talked to Xu Donghai just now, he realized that the other party didn't need him to do anything. After all, he was a much stronger and braver person than him. The only thing he has to do is to firmly hold on to his lover, not to be washed away by the world or by time.

The depressive atmosphere throughout the day has not faded. Although Chen Xiyang is as inefficient as most of his colleagues and has almost done nothing, he did not leave overtime. .

"I'm worried, I'm going to visit Ding Zhaoyan's house, do you want to come with me?"

Chen Xiyang heard the footsteps and words of Xu Donghai catching up behind him.

Chen Xiyang shook his head, then stood still on the spot, turned around and said: "I suggest that you don't take the initiative to find him. The most important thing for him now is to accept the reality silently and stand up silently. The concern of outsiders will only make him wallow in pain. .”

Xu Donghai sighed with his hips on his hips, frowned and couldn't refute, so he could only talk nonsense: "This kind of crap should never happen again. After a few more times, I'm going to become a fucking philosopher who can't see through life and death."

"Even if you put yourself into it and bear the same pain as him, it is meaningless to him," Chen Xiyang looked at Xu Donghai, who rarely saw such a bright look in his eyes, "even if this kind of Things happen a thousand times and ten thousand times around us, all we have to do is cherish our lover more.”

Xu Donghai silently took two steps back to make way for the people who were leaving work, but the people passing by couldn't stop them from looking at each other. Finally, after the surrounding area became quiet for a while, Xu Donghai said, "My brother, how do I feel about you?" It was different overnight, did Gao Peng get through your Ren and Du secondary channels before he died?"

"It can be understood in this way," Chen Xiyang lowered his head and lit a cigarette, his voice was a little trembling, it was out of nervousness and excitement, "Xu Donghai, I have a date."

Some of the depression in Xu Donghai's heart was finally replaced by curiosity, but no matter how much he kept asking, Chen Xiyang just gave him a secretive smile, and finally threw him an inexplicable sentence.

"I should thank you and Ding Zhaoyan."

Back home, the bright and clean hall and the smile on Lin Ji's face gave Chen Xiyang the illusion that his whole body was going to float. He hugged Lin Ji tightly, looking back and forth at the spotless ground and the almost transparent window glass : "You did it all?"

"Well," Lin Ji seemed to like rubbing his neck very much, and this time was no exception, "Anyway, I have nothing to do at home, I'm in a good mood, and I don't feel tired when I work."

Chen Xiyang hugged his lover and sat down on the sofa, his eyes wandered between the other's eyebrows and lips, he didn't say a word of thanks, but suddenly said seriously: "Ah Ji, believe me, we will never leave each other of."

"I believe in you." Lin Ji also hugged him, unless they tore each other up and rubbed them into their own bodies, otherwise it would be impossible to get closer.

Chen Xiyang closed his eyes, and gently stroked Lin Ji's back. Fortunately, life at home has improved a lot these years, at least the other party's back did not hurt his hands.

"Actually, I don't really want to do this. I confessed my love to you suddenly yesterday, and today I'm emphasizing it for no reason. I don't know if doing so will backfire and make you feel uneasy, but A Ji, I Can't help it, can't control myself, these are not my sweet words, but my promises."

"Brother..." Lin Ji sat directly on his lap, as if blowing into his face when he spoke, "I can read your mind, so I won't be disturbed, you can say whatever you want , anyway, I like to hear it."

"A mouth is sweeter than a tongue."

After finishing speaking, Chen Xiyang tasted these two things at the same time.

After the kiss, Lin Ji hugged his neck: "Brother, let me tell you something you like to hear, okay?"

"What?" Chen Xiyang greedily inhaled the breath in his arms.

Lin Ji blushed and coughed dryly: "Didn't I take a look at yours this morning... Then what, I thought of a poem."

When this matter was mentioned, Chen Xiyang also smiled half nervously and half helplessly: "What poem, I don't see anything in front of my eyes?"

"No!" Lin Ji laughed angrily, and then turned a little embarrassed, "Yes...the roc rises with the same wind in one day, and it soars up to [-] li..."

"..." Chen Xiyang's face was indescribable, "Ah Ji, although a man should be happy to hear this, but is your brother such a low-down person in your eyes?"

Lin Ji immediately changed his words: "I'm obscene, you were forced to show it to me."

"Ah Ji..." Chen Xiyang smiled helplessly. Although his reason told him that it was not a good time to do something, he still instinctively rubbed Lin Ji's tight waist back and forth.

And this action undoubtedly made Lin Ji think a lot.

"Brother," Lin Ji lowered his head, and slowly moved his hands to Chen Xiyang's waist, "Can I touch you?"

"Is it just touching?" Chen Xiyang felt that his breathing was half a beat wrong.

"I don't know." Lin Ji's face is like a ripe apple. This is a metaphor that Chen Xiyang subconsciously recalled in his heart. Although it is vulgar, the word "apple" seems to have been endowed with a deeper meaning, "Touch and see." , maybe... Let nature take its course, I can't help it..."

Chen Xiyang felt that the test he was facing now was even more difficult than last night, but he had to praise himself as a real saint, he resisted the urge to take off Lin Ji's clothes: "Go and wash your face, there is no time for parents to come back. Sure."

This time Lin Ji clearly felt that the loss in his heart was far greater than the joy. He couldn't help but smiled wryly, and said it lightly, but he was still worried about gain and loss in his heart.

"Don't look like you're fading and wanting to relax," Chen Xiyang raised his hand and gently pinched Lin Ji's small face, "It's not like you can't feel how excited I am... Let's go out on your birthday."

Lin Ji's eyes lit up all of a sudden, and he kissed Chen Xiyang hard on the face.

Chen Xiyang breathed the smell of happiness, and kept scolding his former self for being stupid in his heart. This kind of happiness is enough to make people have the courage to fight against everything. What is there to be afraid of?

The two of them officially started the days after their relationship was established. Even though they could only carry their parents behind their backs, even though they just hugged Qingqing and I didn't cross the threshold, but at the end of Lin Ji's winter vacation, every air in the house seemed to be filled with sweetness.While some people enjoy happiness, some people endure loneliness. Just when Lin Ji's vacation is coming to an end, Ding Zhaoyan finally appeared in the company, but he came to formally submit his resignation.

Due to the overcrowding, the hot station hall is actually a bit hot and noisy, and the chatter and jokes in various accents are mixed together, creating chapters of parting or reunion. Xu Donghai should have the worst face in the entire station. People, why is the farewell episode staged for them?

As the protagonist, Du Ding Zhaoyan was wearing a very non-distinctive outfit, his chin was hidden in the high collar, and he only carried a small bag with extremely limited capacity, which couldn't even hold a tenth of his longing for the guest. one.

Xu Donghai was irritable, and lit up a cigarette like a small number of people who did not talk about public morality, and the white mist that spewed out was a little more anxious than usual: "Why are you walking away? You have a background locally, and you are loved by others." You are very popular, so there is no need to go out of town to relax, right?"

The expression in Ding Zhaoyan's beautiful eyes is not energetic, but there is no one who has just experienced the despair and numbness of parting with his lover: "I want to do something, but the place to do it is not here."

Just looking at the other party's indifferent look, Xu Donghai knew that he couldn't persuade the other party. Although he said from the bottom of his heart that going out for a walk might not be a bad thing, but Xu Donghai had a premonition that the other party would never come back after leaving , and worried that he would do something stupid on the spur of the moment, so he tried his best to dissuade the other party.Seeing that he couldn't do it, Xu Donghai pinned his hopes on the silent Chen Xiyang and Lin Ji who followed him here for some reason.

Chen Xiyang took out a lighter, served it to Ding Zhaoyan who was about to light a cigarette, and then accompanied him with one.Three-pronged approach, a large cloud of thick and turbulent smoke entangled their heads, and even the old inspector in the distance who never cared about passengers smoking couldn't help but look sideways frequently.

It wasn't until the cigarette in his hand was burnt out that Chen Xiyang stepped on the cigarette butt and said, "A lot of words are obviously deep in my heart, but once I say them, they become light and light. I won't say thank you too much. I won't do anything to worry us, just one thing... shall we meet again by fate, or will you let me take the initiative to find you someday in the future?"

There was a lot of voices around, but Ding Zhaoyan's light words fell into the ears of the three of them verbatim.

"You don't need to look for me. There are different levels of emotion in the world. We should all pursue what is most important to us. At least I am such a pure person."

"Xiao Ding..." Xu Donghai looked at Ding Zhaoyan's calm face, never finding it so difficult to speak.

"What's more, you are all very well, I don't need to worry about you anymore..." Ding Zhaoyan smiled palely, looked at the silent Lin Ji, and then turned his eyes back to Chen Xiyang, "It seems that you are not As for the hopelessness, after tasting the sweetness, you should not be able to tolerate losing it again, right?"

"Yes," Chen Xiyang nodded cautiously, "I still should say thank you to you."

The conversation between them made Xu Donghai confused, but he didn't open his mouth to write, he just sat aside frowning, until Ding Zhaoyan looked at the time and got up from the dilapidated bench, he also stood up Get up, as if trying to prevent him from leaving.

Ding Zhaoyan glanced at Chen Xiyang, then stretched out his fist and thumped Xu Donghai's chest lightly: "Let's go, I won't forget you."

Back then, it was still a small place to get on the bus to buy tickets, the three of them followed Ding Zhaoyan out of the waiting hall in silence, watching him get on a long-distance bus to the provincial capital without looking back.

This is apparently just the beginning of his journey.

The light punch just now seemed to have caused internal injuries to Xu Donghai. He wished he could squat down to ease the pain in his heart, but he resisted and stood still.His attention was all on the car that was about to take Ding Zhaoyan away, and he didn't notice the two people beside him.For Chen Xiyang and Lin Ji, everything was unspoken, and their hands were involuntarily held together.

When the car started, Chen Xiyang saw Ding Zhaoyan behind the glass and waved his hands, but he always felt that the other party was not saying goodbye, at least not saying goodbye to the past.