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▍This is my first love.

When Lin Zimo heard that Luo Xi was going out for a week, his expression suddenly became a little gloomy.

Just now that he expressed his intention to be separated for such a long time, Lin Zimo felt depressed when he thought about it, and all the sweetness before had turned into a touch of bitterness.

Of course Luo Xi felt uncomfortable, he took Lin Zimo into his arms, and said very worriedly: "I'm not at home, you are alone at night, is that okay?"

Dark phobia reacts most violently to unfamiliar environments. Lin Zimo has just moved in, and Luo Xi is particularly worried about him being at home alone at night.

He thought for a while, and then said: "How about this, you'd better go back to the dormitory next week. As for the little fairy, I'll let the housekeeper take care of it."

Lin Zimo smiled, and pinched Luo Xi's curled fingers: "What are you doing so nervous? My...my symptom is not as serious as you imagined. I'll turn on the light and everything will be fine." The little fairy just came to our house, and you left him alone at home, he doesn't look like a good brother at all."

When Luo Xi heard the word "our family", her heart felt warm, and she felt more and more guilty: "I'm sorry, I just said that I wouldn't let you face the night alone, but it turned out so soon...it's my fault."

Lin Zimo shook his head: "I'm really fine."

As long as there is no power outage, there will be no trouble for him. Even if something happens, it will be over if he bears it. He doesn't want Luo Xi to worry and cause trouble for the other party.

He is such an adult, and he is always afraid of the dark at night. Lin Zimo feels ashamed when he thinks about it. Even if Luo Xi himself said that he likes him, he is still reluctant to discuss this topic with Luo Xi in depth.He was afraid that such a self would lose points in Luo Xi's mind.

Luo Xi looked at Lin Zimo's lowered eyes, biting his lip and not speaking, knowing that this person was still very shy about related matters, so he didn't force him anymore.

He raised his hand to turn off the headlight, leaving only a small night light with a warm orange light, stroked Lin Zimo's hair, and said softly, "Go to sleep."

Lin Zimo pillowed on Luo Xi's arm, hugging the other's waist, feeling sore in his heart, and fell asleep slowly after a while.

The next day was Sunday, Lin Zimo was so clingy that he pestered Luo Xi all day long.In the evening, the two went out for a trip. At Luo Xi's insistence, they bought a lot of emergency lights and came back just in case.

Luo Xi explained some precautions in the apartment to Lin Zimo, then dragged the suitcase and left.

The house suddenly became deserted.

Soon it was late at night, Lin Zimo took a bath, picked up the little fairy boy, and obediently lay down on his side of the quilt, ready to try to sleep.

He put several small night lights in the room, and the warm orange light filled the room, making Lin Zimo's heart a little more at ease.

He couldn't help thinking about his illness again.

Lin Zimo's dark phobia was at its worst when he encountered a crime of burglary at the age of five.He used to be unable to sleep all night and all night, and only dared to close his eyes during the day when the sky was bright.During those days, his spirit was always poor, and he often fell into lethargy due to lack of energy.

When Lin Zimo grows up a bit, he can gradually put on the blindfold and barely fall asleep in the room with the light on.But he was still terribly scared, wrapped himself tightly in the quilt, and shivered into a ball.

Later, the appearance of Le Ran made the situation a little better.Lin Zimo always sneaked into the other party's room in the middle of the night, and lay down quietly beside Le Ran, feeling his heartbeat calm down little by little in the dark night.

He found that he just needed to be with someone late at night.He wants to hear other people's breathing.

Lin Zimo always simulated the scene of the gangster walking in the door and killing him in his mind again and again. His subconscious told himself that as long as someone stayed with him, he would still be alive, at least he would not die alone Be quiet.

This is where his crux lies.Although many years had passed, Lin Zimo had also been killed many times by gangsters in his subconscious, and he couldn't completely remove this demon from his heart.

Therefore, he can fall asleep with his own night light on in a dormitory full of people, but it is difficult for him to fall asleep alone in a spacious and comfortable quiet room.

When sleeping with Luo Xi in his arms, Lin Zimo is like an ordinary person who sleeps well, because he subconsciously trusts Luo Xi very much, he subconsciously thinks that as long as Luo Xi is around, he doesn't have to worry about anything .

Luo Xi gave him an unprecedented sense of security.

Lin Zimo lowered his eyes and suddenly realized something.

It seems that he... can't leave Luo Xi anymore.

At this moment, Lin Zimo suddenly wanted to tell Luo Xi how afraid he was of the dark.He even wanted to cut open all the most vulnerable and fearful things in his heart all these years for the other party to see.

When Luo Xi was not by his side, Lin Zimo finally realized that he was afraid that the person he liked would see his fragile side, but deep down in his heart, he actually longed for Luo Xi to know everything about him.

He was suddenly very eager, longing for the other party to hug him after listening to him, pat him on the back, and say, Momo is so pitiful.

Nothing else, just this sentence is fine.

But...if he really told everything, would Luo Xi still like him?

Lin Zimo was thinking wildly when his cell phone rang suddenly.He looked up and saw the caller ID, and picked it up immediately.

Lin Zimo's tone was full of joy that he didn't even notice: "Brother Xi, have you arrived in Wu City?"

Luo Xi's voice was very gentle: "Well, I just checked in."

Lin Zimo's home is in Wu City. He asked the address of Luo Xi's hotel and found that it was quite close to his home.

Luo Xi said again: "It's getting late, Momo is going to sleep already."

Lin Zimo thought that Luo Xi was going to hang up the phone, so he hurriedly said, "Not yet, brother Xi, stay with me for a while."

Luo Xi smiled softly: "Well, I'll be with you. It doesn't matter if you're going to sleep, we can keep talking, and I'll watch over you."

Lin Zimo said pleasantly, "Is it possible?"

Luo Xi wished she could rub his head through the phone screen: "What's wrong."

Luo Xi thought helplessly in her heart, she should also rely on him a little bit.

Lin Zimo finally wrapped himself in Luo Xi's half of the quilt, leaned on Luo Xi's pillow, and put his phone next to his face.

He and Luo Xi were talking intermittently, listening to each other's clear breathing, he felt a restless heart calm down little by little.

Lin Zimo didn't know when he fell asleep, he suddenly woke up in the middle of the night, and subconsciously called out "Brother Xi" in a daze.

Who knew Luo Xi's deep voice came from the other end of the phone: "What's wrong? I'm here, don't be afraid."

Luo Xi's voice sounded slightly hoarse, as if very sleepy.Lin Zimo realized immediately that he had woken up the other party.Or Luo Xi didn't sleep soundly at all, otherwise why would the other party wake up as soon as he opened his mouth.

Lin Zimo felt very guilty, and gave a soft "um" and said that he was fine, so he didn't dare to say anything more.

Later, it was dawn, and at seven o'clock in the morning, the alarm clock rang. Luo Xi was going to participate in the pre-match training camp, and Lin Zimo was also going to school, so the two hung up the phone.

Without Luo Xi by his side, Lin Zimo was a little depressed all day long, and somehow felt that everything around him was boring.

He kept guarding his cell phone, chatting with Luo Xi uninterruptedly, reporting his daily life, what he ate, what class he took, and he missed Brother Xi again, like a high school student who just fell in love.

But Luo Xi is very busy and will reply to him after a long time, but he will reply to every one, and will also tell Lin Zimo, what to eat, what is the schedule, and I miss my baby very much.

Lin Zimo picked up the phone happily, but put it down as lonely as snow.The classmates and friends who usually fight with him are not good anymore.

What's wrong with me, Lin Zimo thought a little confused.

Never been like this before.Did he suffer from Luoxi dependence?

There was no class in the afternoon, so Lin Zimo wandered to the school hospital.

It happened that Yuan Ji was on duty today, Lin Zimo walked into the consulting room and sat down, staring at him and said: "Doctor, I want to see a doctor."

Seeing Lin Zimo, Yan Ji raised his hand and brushed his slightly long hair behind his ears, combing it into a simple apple head, then blinked a pair of beautiful peach blossom eyes at Lin Zimo, and laughed all of a sudden: "What's the matter, baby, no Comfortable? Why didn't your boyfriend come with you?"

Lin Zimo pursed his lips: "He's out for a competition, and we won't see each other for a week." When he said this, he stared at Yuan Ji with his round eyes very seriously, and said anxiously: "Aifei, what do you think is wrong with me? I...wouldn't be so dependent on one person."

Then he told Yuan Ji in 360 degrees about his love and dependence on Luo Xi, and a lot of strong emotions with pink bubbles.

Yuan Ji, whose face was shown off: "..."

He poked Lin Zimo's forehead with his finger, hating iron and steel: "Have you never been in a relationship? This is a normal reaction of you to be in a relationship."

Lin Zimo was aggrieved: "This is my first love."

Yuan Ji sighed, and patted Lin Zimo's head with a bit of distress: "It's a good thing that someone hurts. Luo Xi is fine. In the future, don't always carry everything alone, rely on him more, it's okay He must also like that you care about him like this."

Lin Zimo nodded and said, "...can you prescribe me some sleeping pills. I can't sleep at night."

Yuan Ji was stunned, and immediately refused: "No. Your fear of the dark is a psychological problem. I suggest you go to the physical and mental department for psychological counseling. You are still so young, and taking sleeping pills will cause drug dependence. I don't think so. Will open it for you."

Lin Zimo opened his eyes slightly: "I don't seem to have told you about my... that problem at night."

Yuan Ji was also taken aback for a moment, thinking that he was careless: "Oh, a few weeks ago, there was a grandson in your department who caused you to be locked up in a small dark room. At that time, Luo Xi called me and told me I talked about your stress response and asked about your condition."

Lin Zimo's face suddenly turned pale: "Then you told him everything about me?"

Yuan Ji nodded: "I don't know much about your fear of the dark. You hide so deeply that I don't even tell you. But I guess it must have something to do with your father, that pervert. I have told Luo Xi about the situation, as well as the reason for your fear of the dark and the conjecture of your illness."

After hearing this, Lin Zimo suddenly became a little angry.He stood up from his chair and stared at Yuan Ji: "What are you talking to him about! I don't want him to know such a shameful thing."

"I just want to be an ordinary person in front of Luo Xi. If you tell him all those things, what will he think of me?"

When Lin Zimo said this, his eyes were red.

Yuan Ji looked at Lin Zimo's appearance, and felt a little annoyed.He knocked on the table with his knuckles, and his voice sank: "Lin Zimo, look at me."

Lin Zimo looked up at Yuan Ji angrily.

Yuan Ji stared at him fixedly: "Tell me, after Luo Xi knew about your family's affairs, did she show any slightest contempt for you or any other attitude that she shouldn't have?"

Lin Zimo thought for a while, lowered his eyes, and whispered, "...No."

Luo Xi pretended not to know these things at all, and never mentioned them to him.When she met Le Feng later, Luo Xi didn't show any abnormality, and... even comforted him in turn.

Yuan Ji said again: "Your boyfriend won't dislike you just because you have a scumbag father, let alone think of you because of those messy things in your family. Luo Xi is dating you, and Not falling in love with your poor father! What he likes is you, not those other messy things! Baby Mo, what kind of rubbish are you thinking about all day long in your little head?"

The more Yan Ji talked, the more angry he was, he couldn't help but raised his hand and slapped Lin Zimo's forehead heavily: "If you want to be a normal person, you must first affirm yourself, and think that you are a normal person! Besides, normal What is the definition of a person? Where is the normal standard? You think you are a good Lin Zimo, you live happily, that’s enough, what do you always have to deny yourself and hate yourself?"

Lin Zimo was in pain, and covered his forehead with his hands, looking so wronged that he was about to cry: "...Really?"

Yuan Ji knew that this person's paranoia was deeply rooted, and he didn't expect to be able to influence him for a while, so he waved his hands helplessly: "Taste what I just said every day, it's best to copy it down, stick it on the bedside, and then Read it once and record it, and play it on a loop every day as the background sound, you know? You were poisoned too deeply by Lin Hai back then, so I can only fight poison with poison and brainwash you."

"Also, I'll contact you with an expert in the city's physical and mental department later, and ask your husband to accompany you for psychological counseling. It's not a big problem to be afraid of the dark, you just keep repeating in your heart what you did when you were in danger. Situation, as long as the counseling is on, it’s fine. And Lin Hai’s persuasive matter, the doctor will help you, and everything will be fine, understand.”

When Yan Ji said this, he almost gritted his teeth: "If you dare to avoid it again, I will tell Luo Xi about your family's situation every day. You can choose for yourself, you tell him or I tell him."

Lin Zimo curled up his fingers, stood there thinking for a long time, finally made up his mind, and whispered: "Then I... I'll try to talk to Luo Xi."

Yuan Ji said this, although he was a little anxious, but it was indeed a possibility that Lin Zimo had never thought about.

Luo Xi is very good to him, there is no doubt about it, then... can he make a little more progress and let Luo Xi really know everything about him.

Yuan Ji was finally satisfied, and rubbed Lin Zimo's hair into a mess, and his tone softened: "Good boy."

He said, and took out a big gift box from the drawer, and stuffed it into Lin Zimo's arms: "I was so angry that I forgot. This is for you, a gift that is off the list. I will open it when I go back, and I promise you I like it, and so does your husband."

Lin Zimo tilted his head curiously: "What is it? Make it so mysterious."

Yuan Ji's smile gradually turned yellow: "Luo Xi is not at home this week, this gift is too suitable, I am such a genius. You can try it tonight, there is an instruction manual in it, and ask me if there is anything you don't know."

Lin Zimo narrowed his eyes, feeling that there was nothing good in the box.

What Yan Ji thought was that Lin Zimo's eyes were red, like a wronged little rabbit, as if he had bullied him just now.

If the other party goes back and files a complaint with Luo Xi, wouldn't he be in danger.

However, Luo Xi will definitely thank him for this gift, hehe.

The author says:

Unscrupulous Little Theater

Mo Baobao: I was aggrieved by the training with my head down

Concubine Ai (cursing): Some people (referring to Luo Xi) still love their wives too much, they are reluctant to say a harsh word, such a disobedient child should be disciplined blablabla

Luo Xi: (Riding a motorcycle overnight) Let me be healthy, who is bullying my wife?

Baby Mo (hides into Luo Xi's arms, pointing at Yuan Ji): Husband, this is 0, help me hit him

Concubine Ai (takes out a gift box with great desire to survive): Have fun, don’t thank me

That night

Brother Xi: Listen to me, thank you (oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh my wife is so crazy)

Baby Mo (crying badly):?

Next chapter video call () hehe

Fundamentally speaking, Momo’s psychological problems belong to thinking obsessive-compulsive disorder and spiritual obsessive-compulsive disorder. Reasonable counseling is the most effective method. I asked friends who study medicine about the relevant plot. If there are any areas where the profession is not rigorous, please forgive me. )

感谢在2022-07-0718:19:57~2022-07-0914:45:56期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the mine: LR1;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!