deliberately provoke

▍ Want to ask for love all the time.

Seeing Xia Jingcheng's strange state, Lin Zimo asked hesitantly, "...Xiao Cheng, what's wrong with you? Are you alright?"

Xia Jingcheng didn't seem to expect that there would be someone in the dormitory, so he quickly raised his hand and quickly wiped his eyes, and said without silver 300 taels, "You mistook the person, I'm my brother...No, I mean, I'm Xia Jingming."

Lin Zimo: ...that silly boy.

Luo Xi still had classes in the afternoon, Lin Zimo thought about it, and decided to let him go to the classroom first, and then stay in the dormitory to take care of his roommates.

Luo Xi nodded, then looked at Lin Zimo solemnly and said, "Are there any interesting books among yours? Lend me two, and I'll take them back to read."

Lin Zimo was stunned for a moment, then picked out a few books with a blushing face, and handed them to Luo Xi: "Read it when there is no one else."

...I always feel that he seems to have opened the door to some new world for Luo Xi.And they look so astringent.

After Luo Xi took the book and left, Lin Zimo turned to look at Xia Jingcheng, and asked softly, "Where's your brother? Why don't you act together recently?"

Xia Jingcheng bit his lip: "My brother is angry with me, he said he doesn't want to see me recently." Lin Zimo observed that Xia Jingcheng's expression was quite natural when he mentioned his brother, and guessed that Xia Jingming should have little to do with the whole incident .

So he tentatively opened his mouth again: "Is it you and your Song Jun... something happened?"

After hearing this, Xia Jingcheng's face changed suddenly.He raised his head uneasily, glanced at Lin Zimo, and immediately looked away: "Do you know what happened between me and him?"

Lin Zimo smiled helplessly: "I was by the river last week, and I happened to see you. At first I thought I was wrong, but then... I found out that you know how to make up, so I guessed that person should be you."

After a long time, Xia Jingcheng asked in a very soft voice, "Baby Mo, do you think I'm disgusting?"

Lin Zimo was stunned for a moment, and immediately said: "How could it be. This is your freedom, how could I have such an idea."

Xia Jingcheng stood up, took out a skirt and a wig with double ponytails from the closet, and after some operations, stood in front of Lin Zimo: "How about this? Do you still stick to the idea just now?"

Xia Jingcheng wore a pure white dress, with long white and slender legs, she really looked like a pure and lovely girl, very flattering.

Lin Zimo coughed lightly, and commented sincerely: "It's quite suitable for you."

Xia Jingcheng stared blankly at Lin Zimo for two seconds, then rushed over with red eyes: "Woooooooooo baby!"

Lin Zimo patted his head, comforted him for a while, and finally figured out what happened to Xia Jingcheng recently.

Things go back a long way.

Song Jun is from the Conservatory of Music, and he was invited to perform outside the school, and Xia Jingming happened to get two free tickets, so he took his younger brother to see it.

Although Song Jun is usually a poor person, the way he plays the piano can be said to be human-like, which is very exciting.

Song Jun's hands are well-articulated, with slender and strong fingers. When he plays a musical instrument, his eyelashes are as black as crow feathers. A pair of very energetic eyes are focused on the keys, and there is a faint light in his eyes. He is very handsome. .

Anyway, it grew on Xia Jingcheng's aesthetics.

After that, Xia Jingcheng would buy a ticket for each of Song Jun's performances, and sit in the first row to watch quietly.

Later, it developed to the point that he would secretly go to the music academy and watch Song Jun from afar.

Song Jun looks very refined. He usually wears white clothes and black trousers, which looks easy-going and simple.He often practices in the music classroom, sometimes playing the piano, sometimes playing the violin, as if he is proficient in any instrument.

Xia Jingcheng pissed off his brother again and again, and stood guard outside the door of the music classroom, watching Song Jun practice his musical instrument, and it lasted the whole afternoon.He realizes that he likes each other.There are many same-sex couples around him, Xia Jingcheng didn't panic too much, and his family usually dotes on him, so he thought, how about confessing.

But then something happened.

One afternoon, Xia Jingcheng was lying outside the classroom window listening to Song Jun playing the piano as usual, but at this moment, a boy suddenly broke in.The boy was cute and playful, holding a large bouquet of roses in his hands. Before Xia Jingcheng could react, the boy stuffed the flowers into Song Jun's arms and said loudly, Song Jun, I have liked you for a long time ,let's be together.

Looking at this scene, Xia Jingcheng tightened his fingers all of a sudden.That boy was born fair and white, and his brows and eyes were full of coquettish smiles, which made Xia Jingcheng feel a sense of crisis all of a sudden.

But what people didn't expect was that Song Jun just shook his head, politely returned the bunch of flowers to the boy, and said coldly, sorry, I'm heterosexual and don't like boys.

The boy grabbed Song Jun's hand, tears welled up in the corners of his eyes, and wanted to say something more, but Song Jun finally couldn't help but shake off his hand in disgust, and said, "Please stay away from me. Unless you change Be a girl, or don't come near me."

The moment Xia Jingcheng heard these words, his heart fell into an ice cave.His first reaction at the time was why he wasn't a girl.

Song Jun was the first person he liked. When Xia Jingcheng came back to his senses, he had already bought a wig, a small skirt, and all kinds of cosmetics.He felt almost mad.Later his brother discovered these things, Xia Jingming thought he had a girlfriend without telling him, and the two had a big fight.

After everything was ready, Xia Jingcheng dressed herself up beautifully and approached Song Jun like an ordinary girl.Under the disguise of the girl's appearance, he seemed to be much bolder and more cheerful than before, because he knew that Song Jun probably wouldn't hate him very much even if he expressed his heart.

The two got along for a while, and in the end it was Song Jun who confessed his love to Xia Jingcheng first.After the two dated, Song Jun really treated him very well.The other party would hold him on his lap, hug him behind him, teach him to play the piano hand in hand, and would take out a rose from his sleeve pocket like a magic trick to make him happy.

They also kiss, but Sung-joon doesn’t do anything further to him.This made Xia Jingcheng heave a sigh of relief, but he became more and more anxious every day, and sometimes he couldn't help but hide and cry secretly.

He felt as if he had made an irreparable mistake, and he was terribly afraid of the day when his mistake would be exposed.

He was afraid of seeing Song Jun's disgusted and disgusted eyes.

Lin Zimo also fell silent for a while after listening to Xia Jingcheng's narration.

After all, Xia Jingcheng had a similar illness to him.

Xia Jingcheng was afraid that Song Jun would discover his side as a boy, and that the other party would know that he was not as cuddly and lively as he appeared.Xia Jingcheng was afraid of showing her true self in front of Song Jun.

The same is true for Lin Zimo.Lin Zimo concealed his deformed family from Luo Xi, concealed his strange illness of being afraid of the dark night, and those unbearable experiences of being raped.Most importantly, he concealed from Luo Xi his strange psychology of wanting to get love all the time.

He tried his best to hide all the truth about himself, and tried to present Luo Xi with a positive, optimistic, and capable attitude in the game world.He also hid his endless love and dependence on Luo Xi, because he was afraid of Luo Xi's surprised eyes on him when he found out the truth.

Lin Zimo didn't want to bring trouble to Luo Xi, he didn't want his love to become a burden and burden.

After a while, Lin Zimo said softly: "Xiao Cheng, if you want to continue walking with Song Jun, maybe you should tell him that you are a boy. Rather than being discovered by him when you can't hide it , why don’t you take the initiative to tell him now.”

Lin Zimo thought with some self-mockery in his heart, he couldn't summon up courage in his own affairs, but he had the courage to persuade others.

Xia Jingcheng lowered his head, nervously pinching the hem of his clothes.Just at this time, Lin Zimo's cell phone rang.He unlocked it and took a look. It was Xu Zijing who asked him to go to the conservatory to discuss the selection of the song and the accompaniment.

Seeing Xia Jingcheng's troubled face, Lin Zimo was about to cry with red eyes, knowing that he had no position to say anything else, so he informed the other party and said that he had to leave beforehand.

Before going out, Xia Jingcheng suddenly called Lin Zimo hastily.He stood up, took a deep breath, paused for a long time, and then said: "... Baby Mo, I want to confess, you can accompany me."

As he spoke, he looked at himself in the mirror very unconfidently.The boy in the mirror was wearing a clean white T-shirt and white sneakers, and had short, cool hair. He was actually pretty good-looking.

Xia Jingcheng didn't make any more modifications, turned around and opened the door, his hands trembling slightly: "Let's go."

The two went to the Conservatory of Music together, only then did Lin Zimo discover that the music instructor Xu Zijing had found for him was Song Jun.

Song Jun saw Lin Zimo and waved to him enthusiastically: "Sister-in-law!"

Lin Zimo glanced at Xia Jingcheng calmly from the corner of his eye, and his heart sank slightly.Obviously, Song Jun would not notice the boyish Xia Jingcheng at a glance.

Perhaps it was because of the similarity between his and Xia Jingcheng's mental states, Lin Zimo unknowingly produced a sense of substitution and a projection effect, as if, if Song Jun could accept the real Xia Jingcheng, would he be able to be with Luo Xi... …

Lin Zimo took a deep breath, stopped his wild thoughts, walked forward, greeted Song Jun with a smile, then pretended to turn sideways casually, and introduced to the other party: "This is my roommate Xia Jingcheng. Come and play together."

Xia Jingcheng followed behind Lin Zimo anxiously, finally mustered up the courage, looked up at Song Jun, and called him in a low voice.

Lin Zimo saw Song Jun perform a pupil quake on the spot.

About 2 minutes later, Song Jun came to his senses, his voice was a little fluttering: "...You, you are Xia Jingcheng's twin brother?" Why does this person look exactly like his girlfriend? ...It seems that even the name is the same?

Xia Jingcheng's face became paler and paler: "No, I am Xia Jingcheng himself." He said, took out a shiny women's bracelet from his pants pocket, and handed it to Song Jun, trying to prove his identity: "This is you Sent it to me, do you remember?"

Song Jun didn't reach out to pick it up, but just stared at Xia Jingcheng hard in disbelief, and after a long time, he finally uttered two words: "You, are you a boy?"

Xia Jingcheng nodded tremblingly, with cold sweat on his hands: "Yes. I'm sorry..." Song Jun didn't wait for him to finish, and interrupted directly: "Why did you lie to me like this?" His voice suddenly became cold Yes, it seems that he is trying to suppress his anger.

"You've been dating me for so long, and now you suddenly tell me that you're a boy?... Isn't it funny, Xia Jingcheng?"

The tip of Xia Jingcheng's nose was red, and tears were already rolling in his eyes: "I'm sorry..." He took a step forward and stretched out his hand, as if habitually wanting to hold Song Jun's hand, but Song Jun took a step back with an attitude visibly dodged.

He turned his face away, avoiding Xia Jingcheng's gaze, and said in a low voice, "Sorry, I don't think I can accept it for a while. Let's stop contacting."

After Song Jun finished speaking, he nodded slightly to Lin Zimo, then grabbed the music score with trembling hands, turned and left quickly.

With red eyes, Xia Jingcheng was stunned for two seconds, then ran away crying.

Seeing such a result, Lin Zimo's heart, which was still expecting, gradually cooled down.

He lowered his eyes, thinking lonely and helplessly, sure enough, the real self, this kind of thing, should be hidden.Even if you are in a passionate relationship, if you choose to show your most vulnerable and unbearable side to the person you like, you will only end up with nothing left.

He actually understands everything.

Even if you don't want to, it's time to let go.Sending a grand and sincere farewell to the other party is what he should do most now.

Song Jun left in a hurry, but left behind a sheet of music.Those sheet music are the repertoire to be selected this time, a gust of wind blows, and the lonely paper is blown to Lin Zimo's feet.

Lin Zimo picked it up silently, and saw that the song printed on it was the famous "Nada".

Nada, nothing.

Lin Zimo thought to himself, just choose it.

This Friday, he will draw a decent and complete ending between himself and Luo Xi.

The author says:

The transitional chapter is almost over, and the next chapter should be the big confession scene!finally!

Some people are concentrating on preparing to confess their love, but they don't know that the cat they raise is about to run away early

PS: Soon after, Song Jun belike: (chasing Xia Jingcheng) Wife, I was wrong, I found that I really love you, please give me a look, I will wear a skirt to show you, okay QAQ

感谢在2022-06-2723:12:58~2022-06-2918:23:28期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the mine: LR1;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 7 bottles of a big puppet;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!