unrequited love forbidden

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"The first time I saw him, he was sitting in a wheelchair and talking on the phone. I hadn't worked for a year and a half at the time, and I was so nervous that I was afraid that the job would be dirty, but although he watched no strangers enter, But he was soft-spoken and polite, and I became his personal driver."

Jiang Xiao looked at Fu Qingzhou, and the breath that came out of his mouth when he spoke made his smile look vague and distant under the street lamp.

"Fu Qingzhou is really a good boss, very nice." Jiang Xiao looked at him, as if trying to find another person's shadow from him, "Maybe in the eyes of others, he just gave me a Work, but I know, he pulled me out of that muddy life."

Jiang Xiao was laughing, but it looked like he was crying, "I have never seen such a brave and strong person like him. He was in a car accident, lost his legs, and had no parents or other relatives to rely on. But he has been working hard to live, even if there is no light ahead, he will continue to move forward."

"I can't go on until I find that job." Jiang Xiao looked at Fu Qingzhou in front of him, showing a smile that was uglier than crying, "I sat on the roof of the 20-storey building all night. I can't find a reason to continue living, and I can't figure out the meaning of living, but that building is really high, it's too high, I, I dare not jump."

Jiang Xiao choked out a sob. The moment when those dark past and the despair and cowardice that had been hidden for many years were re-opened by himself, he was relieved, but what came up was more grievances, "Fu Qingzhou , I can't live anymore, no one can save me, I can't save myself, I miss my mother, my grandma, my grandpa, and even more my dad, I want to know what he was thinking when he jumped down , I want to know why they want me to stay alone in the world, I can't figure it out, Fu Qingzhou, I can't figure it out."

"But I'm too scared, I'm afraid of heights." Jiang Xiao wanted to laugh, "Then I told myself that if I can pass the interview at nine o'clock tomorrow, I will live. When the boss fires me, I will Just jump from here again."

"I don't dare to die, but I'm not that scared." Jiang Xiao's nose was a little blocked, "I went down from the roof, and then I ran into Fu Qingzhou."

"You know, I always thought that Fu Qingzhou was sent by God to save me." Jiang Xiao couldn't help laughing when he recalled, but his voice was crying, "I drove him to the suburbs on the first day I went to work. I couldn't find my way in the middle of the night and thought I had encountered a ghost hitting the wall. I was scared to death. I told him, but Fu Qingzhou sat behind and laughed.

He thought I didn't see it, but I saw it clearly in the rearview mirror, and finally turned on the navigation to send him home, so he didn't fire me. "

"I didn't know how to push a wheelchair at the beginning. I accidentally threw him into the sea when I went to the beach, and he was hospitalized for more than half a month. He didn't fire me..." Jiang Xiao said: "He just refused to fire me. Me, let me work as his driver for ten years. I pick him up and drop him off every day, go on business trips with him, and fly around for meetings. Others say he is a workaholic without emotion, a workaholic who only squeezes employees , but I know he's not."

"He is afraid of the cold, likes to wear thick sweaters, hates listening to traffic radio, likes to eat spicy and sweet food, but he has to avoid taking medicine, so he sulks with himself and refuses to eat properly.

When he is angry, he will frown his left eyebrow, hang up the phone and swear at others, always stay up late because the medicine he takes makes him hyperactive and insomnia, he likes traveling and basketball, but he is stuck in a wheelchair and can't do whatever he wants... He is not good at accepting other people's kindness, but as long as someone treats him a little better, he would like to give it back ten times. Sometimes he looks ruthless, but if someone begs him, he can't help but soften his heart... ..."

Jiang Xiao spoke without logic or order, but the sadness in his heart was like a shadow. He looked at Fu Qingzhou in front of him, and the tears in his eyes couldn't be controlled, "He is a very good, very good person, I I like him, I like Fu Qingzhou, but I dare not say, I am a person who can't even live by myself, a person who has to find others as an excuse to live, I dare not tell him—"

"I'm afraid that once I speak out, I won't have the courage to live on after being rejected."

"Fu Qingzhou is the only reason for me to live in this world." Jiang Xiao looked sadly and somewhat desperately at Fu Qingzhou in front of him, "I thought it could be the same, obviously we are all alone, obviously You are also Fu Qingzhou, you are still fine now, but it is different, brother Zhou, it is different, I can't convince myself, I can't lie to you... Every time I see you treat me well, you smile at me, I feel I feel guilty and uncomfortable. I feel that I am using you. I obviously want to protect you.

But it's still the same as before, it's a mess, everything is handled in a mess, it still makes you unhappy, I'm sorry, Brother Zhou...I'm sorry, but I really, "

Jiang Xiao's words were a little uncoherent, his voice choked up and he couldn't make a sentence, "But I really want to pay Qingzhou, every time I see you, I miss him like crazy, but I just can't control it I like you, I really don't know what to do..."

Jiang Xiao wiped his face with his hand, and hung his head, not daring to look at the expression on Fu Qingzhou's face. Maybe he will be regarded as a crazy man talking nonsense, maybe Fu Qingzhou will only think that this is something he came up with. A poor excuse, but he didn't want to hide it anymore.

He had already entered a dead end and was caught in a dilemma, and in the end he repeated the same mistakes and returned to the old road. He handed over the choice to Fu Qingzhou—just like when he stood on the roof of the building and handed over his life and death to a boss he hadn't met yet.

Cowardly and stupid.

"You said, you were reborn 20 years later." Fu Qingzhou's voice sounded a little trembling, but seemed surprisingly calm, "You like Fu Qingzhou 20 years later, but you can't help yourself liking the current one." Pay the boat."

Jiang Xiao was deeply impressed by his ability to focus on the key points, sobbed with his head down, but still didn't dare to look up at him.

"Jiang Xiao likes Fu Qingzhou, right?" Fu Qingzhou's voice was deep and gentle, with a kind of reassuring power.

"Yes." Jiang Xiao muffled: "Jiang Xiao likes to pay Qingzhou."

"Your name is Jiang Xiao, and I'm Fu Qingzhou." Fu Qingzhou said firmly, "So you like me, right?"

"Yes...but—" Jiang Xiao wanted to raise his head, but someone held his head with one hand, and he was embraced in a cold and familiar embrace. The whole person is wrapped up.

Fu Qingzhou rubbed his curly hair, "There's nothing wrong with it. At this time, you just need to tell me, Fu Qingzhou, I like you, and that's it."

Jiang Xiao wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, and buried his face on his shoulder, but when he uttered a cry, he was crying, as if an illusory wish that had been unfulfilled for years had finally been realized, and it was also like the shackles imprisoned on his heart had finally come true. Untied, the love that dared not speak out in the face of death finally no longer has to be hidden:

"Fu Qingzhou, I like you."

Every single word fell to the ground with a bang.

Under the light that he couldn't see, the people who hugged him tightly had already burst into tears.

"I know, I've known for a long time."

The inexplicable and complicated love finally falls heavily in the palm of the hand that can untie them.