Wang Zhijing

I handed him the letter and turned around to arrange for the Beijing envoy to go to Lucheng.

If anyone in this world understands my state of mind, that person is Yuchen.

I slept more and more, and gradually became a little fuzzy.Waking up again, the queen mother, the queen and several concubines were all on the side of the bed, suppressing crying with red and swollen eyes.

I tried my best to sit up and comfort them, but I was too tired to rest.The queen mother looked at me and burst into tears.

I made a decree to appoint the eldest son of the king as the crown prince. After doing these things, I feel at ease, and I don't have much to worry about.

I used to call his name when I was asleep, but now I wake up and know that I didn't see that person in my dream.

How many tears have been shed, how much blood has been dripped, it seems that it is nothing now.

I smiled and watched the maple leaves fall outside the window, and the cold winter came, and I didn't feel so sad.

The kiss on the forehead was already cold, and I caressed the place that was once warm, and there were fine lines there, making people old.

The thick and soft brocade quilt can also bring the warmth of a hug, and the fingerprints on the arms have long since disappeared.

I guess I'm not waiting.It's just that if it has become a habit, it doesn't matter what kind of method is used.

The longer I waited, the colder my heart became. The pain had long been numb, and later on, I didn't feel cold.

If you lose your heart and soul, you will not hesitate.

I've said it before, and I don't regret it.

301 Su Yun – Missing

The moon is full on an autumn night, and the whole family enjoys the moon in the backyard.

I received a reply from the capital, read it, and put it in my sleeve.

When everyone is gone, take a walk to the back garden alone.

Yue Niang came over with a robe, and I put it on, but she hesitated to speak under the moonlight.

"Brother," she finally said, "some things, Yueniang let go, and today is what I am today. After so many days, Yueniang can see clearly that there are people in my heart that I can't let go of. In front of my parents, my eldest brother always hides it. Very good, but Yueniang sincerely hopes that big brother can smile sincerely."

She is very careful, and I don't want to hide it from her. Sometimes she is more caring for my parents than I am, and can help me comfort my parents.

I said: "Don't worry, seeing the Su family today, it's already very good."

Yueniang sighed softly, "Tonight, people and moon are reunited. Eldest brother misses the dead, but he still wants to smile happily. How could parents not know."

I nodded and said, "It's only today. In the past, Qing'er liked the Mid-Autumn Festival the most, and the mooncakes he made were also delicious. I saw it just now, so I feel sad."

Yueniang smiled and said: "Brother is a sensible person, there is no need for Yueniang to talk too much. It is late at night and the dew is heavy, so elder brother should rest earlier."

I nodded in agreement and watched her leave.

Set up an incense table in the garden, pick up an incense and light it, and wish to the moon.If the soul of the dead knows, it will be like a dream to reunite with me and be bleak after saying goodbye.

Back in the house, put the letterhead in the sleeve into the drawer.

I don't know how to enjoy the moon in the palace today?Probably the children circled their knees, and the garden was full of laughter and laughter.

Suddenly feel at ease.The sadness and sorrow just now seemed to be blown away by the autumn wind passing through the window.

He's doing well, really well.

I remembered that kiss again.

Sleeping soundly in the pharmacy, but disturbed by the softness between the lips.

He whispered softly, calling my name, like a feather scratching the softest part of my heart.

I deliberately endured it so that I didn't open my eyes.Knowing that he watched for a long time, my hands were sweating and my heart was beating when he left.

This unknown strange feeling is frightening.I also know that I am cruel, so I have no intention of picking up the Qushui Liushang.

I know that I love Qing'er, our childhood sweetheart, our childhood sweetheart.

I didn't know to have the same feelings for a man.

It's just a momentary illusion, maybe the me before I lost my memory did say affectionate words and express my love.

That's something I can't imagine right now.

Yueniang was actually very brave, let go of her knot and started again.

I am not as good as her. After so many years, I am still entangled in chaos and confusion, not knowing where to go.

I think I was cowardly, leaving, avoiding, there is always a good excuse.

Just thinking about it sometimes makes my heart ache.

Knowing that feeling is called longing.

302 Su Yun – Bad News

The last letter was only one sentence, and then the news was cut off. I wrote back and never heard back.

It was the ninth year of Xunqin, and another good news came from Beijing, the third prince, the fourth prince and the fifth princess were born.

Then I felt relieved, probably because of the heavy national affairs, or the love of my children, I have no time to socialize with Lucheng Feihong, isn't it just what I expected?

One day in October of the ninth year of Xunqin, there was a brutal knock on the door of the Su residence.

Uncle Zhong didn't have time to pass the message, someone rushed into the backyard, and I was sitting up with my clothes on.

This was the first time that the envoy of Beijing showed his official title. He was the deputy commander of the Jinwu Guard. He led a team of guards into my bedroom like a storm.

When they saw me, they all knelt down on their knees, and only the deputy commander stood up and announced the decree: "Master Su, Your Majesty has called you urgently, please follow me into the capital immediately."

Before I could say goodbye to my parents, I was almost hijacked into the carriage.

"Master Su, what an offense."

The deputy commander also knelt down in the car to make amends, "Director Qi issued a death order, and he must bring Mr. Su to Beijing tomorrow morning, that's why he was so reckless."

I don't mind, if I don't want to go with them, I won't let them hang up to go out, slowly fasten the belt, my heart is getting tighter and tighter.

The deputy commander said in a deep voice: "Your Majesty is dying and wants to see Mr. Su for the last time."

There was a crisp sound in my heart, something cracked open.

I was still very calm, and my voice was as steady as before: "There is no rumor in Beijing that Your Majesty is critically ill. I will go with you, you don't have to lie to me."

The deputy commander didn't argue, and fell on the ground with a sad expression: "Your Majesty has always been in good health, and I don't know the details."

I didn't ask any more questions, and let him choose the best horse, abandon the cart and get on the horse, and gallop on the road.

When entering the capital city, there was a white flag hanging from the top of the city, mourning was heard everywhere in the city, news had spread from the palace that the king had passed away in the middle of the night.

At that time, the sky was very bright, and after a three-day journey, I rushed back overnight and entered the palace before sunrise, but only heard the sound of wailing everywhere, and the bad news was like a thunderbolt from the blue sky, which plunged the newly enlightened world into darkness again.

The palace was in a state of turmoil, and the envoy from Beijing led me to wait in the corridor outside the palace. People were coming and going inside and outside the palace, and the palace was covered in white, and wailing came and went.

I waited patiently. Qi Yuchen, dressed in plain clothes, saw me in the courtyard. There were no tears in his red eyes. He gave me a cold look, then turned around and continued to work.

I saw Feng Yi retreat from the sleeping hall, knelt in the court and returned his filial piety.I walked over and knelt beside him, white clothes were all over the floor, my green shirt was very obtrusive.

But no one from the palace came to inquire or stop him, so I asked Feng Yi, "What is your Majesty's illness and why did you go away so suddenly?"

Feng Yi sobbed, and said in a hoarse voice: "It's not a disease, so there is no medicine to cure it. I searched all the medical books, and only one ancient book has a similar record. The symptoms are drowsiness and drowsiness, and the diet is getting thinner. It is heart failure. , the disease of shortness of breath. In short, it is death from exhaustion of the heart.”

"Death from exhaustion?"

I don't know medical theory, but I also know that people who have just passed their [-]th birthday are full of youth, and only the elderly will die of heart exhaustion if their lamps are exhausted.

Feng Yi was called in again, and the queen mother was so sad that she fainted from crying.

I knelt in front of the temple gate, unaware of the shadow of the sun and the passing of time.

The eyes gradually darkened, and it seemed that it was already night again.

Someone came close, I raised my head, Qi Yuchen looked at me and even smiled.

"I let you enter the capital, he has no intention."

I nodded blankly, but I didn't know what he was talking about.

"Follow me." Qi Yuchen turned around, and I stood up staggeringly, but I followed him not to the bedroom hall, but to the upper study room through the imperial garden.

Qi Yuchen put a brocade box on the case, I opened it, and saw a lot of juan paper, stacked neatly.

He took one and read it, and recognized that it was Qi Xuan's handwriting.

I read the letter, put it close by, picked up another, read it, folded it, and took another.

Qi Yuchen looked at me coldly.

After reading the last letter, I raised my head, feeling a little dizzy in front of my eyes. I supported the case, and asked in a steady voice, "Why did he die?"

Qi Yuchen expected this question from me, or he was waiting for my question.

He stopped looking at me and looked out the window.

A few maple trees were planted in the courtyard of the upper study room. The maple leaves withered in winter, and the withered and yellow leaves made people unable to distinguish the original color of the burning mountain.

"Flowers and plants will wither without sunshine and rain. The process of withering is very slow and does not need to be destroyed by diseases. Su Yun, do you understand?"

I think I get it.

That envelope was a letter that had never been sent.

Each one is writing the same mood.

Lovesickness, lovesickness, lovesickness...

Full of lovesickness, dare not send.It's just a cool autumn.

I said I hope he will live well, and he will live well.

Pretending to be happy, everything is as usual.

So everyone is at ease, including me.

But behind everything as usual, the heart is slowly withering.

Waiting for no results, longing becomes poison.

Yes, he never stopped thinking, missing without response, like red leaves without sunshine and rain, gradually withering and withering, showing no signs of aging.

Yes, during the long wait, his struggling heart finally stopped beating.So, stop breathing and sleep peacefully.

I thought of the last letter he sent, and understood that he knew that his time was coming, and it was his last words to me.

He said: If you are well, it will be sunny.

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Description of the double ending

Originally planned to be two volumes, "Debt" in the previous life and "Fate" in the present life.

The ending of debt is be, fate is he.

But as I was writing, I found that the first volume was too long, and many parents requested he's ending.

So I wrote two.

A be follows the original design and echoes the fate, which can be regarded as the beginning and origin of the fate.

Another he, can be seen as this volume