Wang Zhijing

If we touch each other, he will covertly avoid it, as if he doesn't want me to notice his concern and nostalgia.

After an interrogation, the queen mother screened everyone away. That day when the king was coming, the queen mother asked me if I still remembered the past with the king.

I answered truthfully.

The queen mother nodded, and then asked: "Did no one tell you?"

I shook my head and said: "My family and my colleagues in the court seem to be very taboo about this matter. I have an old illness and I don't want my parents to worry, so I dare not think about it."

The queen mother sighed, and said after a while: "Su Yun, you must know that male concubines are also accepted in the imperial court, if the Ai family orders you to enter the palace, would you be willing?"

I was taken aback, and fell to my knees with a plop: "Mother... Queen Mother..."

The Empress Dowager sighed again, and interrupted me: "I know you, an upright gentleman like you, would definitely not agree. Then do you know what Pang'er thinks of you?"

Everyone seems to know about this matter, but no one mentioned it in front of me.If anyone confessed this matter so frankly, it would only be the Empress Dowager.

I understood her painstaking efforts, and also understood her intention of arranging me to enter the imperial hospital and palace.

After a long silence, I asked: "Queen Mother, can you tell me that this is the relationship between the humble minister and the emperor before?"

The queen mother seemed to hear the panic and fear in my tone, and there was a long silence in the curtain.

"Su Yun, are you still unwilling to believe it?"

My heart was beating violently, and cold sweat rolled down my forehead.

"Empress Dowager Mingjian, Su Yun has a childhood sweetheart and fiancée. Although she has passed away, the love of my life should only be given to her. I want to know what happened in the past four years, between me and... and Your Majesty , how could there be such entanglement?"

"Entanglement?" The queen mother coughed several times, her voice became hoarse, "Su Yun, you really haven't changed at all. If Pang'er hears this, I don't know how sad it will be."

Her sighs seemed to come from an endless abyss, filled with despairing sorrow.

"Unexpectedly, in the end, it's still back to the beginning..."

She waved her hand inside the curtain, she couldn't see clearly, only heard the trembling voice.

"Su Yun, don't tell anyone what you said today, only you and I know. Letting you enter the palace is also the meaning of Aijia, and he...he doesn't want you to be difficult."

I kowtowed and said: "I understand, my minister... will persuade the king."

"Persuasion?" The Queen Mother was taken aback for a moment, then smiled, "That's fine. You are the only one in this world who can persuade him."

Su Qi___

297 Qi Xuan – Wish

I struggled between letting go and being obsessed. Only by not thinking about it or seeing it can I deceive myself that nothing happened.But when we met again, I realized that it was impossible to forget this person.When I saw him, I realized how empty the past days were, and my longing grew every time I met him. If I didn't see him, I just closed my heart and became a walking dead.

I don't know what the queen mother said to Su Yun.

When he saw me today, he was no longer as cautious and respectful as in the past, with careful consideration, avoiding every casual glance.In fact, why don't I avoid his eyes, but those eyes have already been engraved in my mind, even if I don't look at him, I know every expression of him, as familiar as looking at myself in the mirror.

He knelt down and saluted as usual, and looked up after I spoke.

"Is something wrong?"

I see what he means.He was not surprised either, nodded and said: "I have something to answer, can I ask you to move?"

I must have said something from the empress mother, probably wanting him to persuade me, so I shook my head and said in a cold voice, "If you want to talk about state affairs, you need to be in the court. If you talk about other things, I don't want to listen."

He was taken aback for a moment, he probably didn't expect me to be so decisive, he was quite embarrassed, but he still said: "Your Majesty, loyal words are harsh..."

I interrupted indifferently: "If you're not in your position, you don't want to seek political success. What qualifications do you have to say honest advice?"

There is no one in the harem who is favored, and I have been on the throne for six years, but no concubine has given birth to a dragon to inherit the country.This matter has become the target of public criticism. Every month in the imperial court, there must be a letter of advice from the imperial censor, urging me to take charge of the imperial court after the establishment of the country, so that the dragon's veins will be expanded and the society will be safe.

Thinking about it, the empress mother's worries are nothing more than this matter, and Su Yun's advice is nothing more than that.

Su Yun knelt down on the ground again, as straightforward as him, he would never give up admonishing me because of my harsh words, even if he was heartbroken because of this, probably it was what a loyal minister should do, and he would not hesitate to do so.

I was quite impatient and didn't want to talk to him anymore, so I bypassed him and walked straight away. Su Yun said in a deep voice: "Your Majesty, I am a medical officer of the Imperial Hospital. The matter I'm admonishing is related to the dragon's body, why not?" qualifications?"

I was taken aback when I heard that, and my steps paused. He knelt and walked a few steps in front of me, kowtowed and said: "Your angina and hematemesis have occurred frequently recently. This disease is very dangerous. You should work hard and take the medicine on time. Not to mention drinking at night with a hangover. Your upper body is the welfare of the country, and it is for the sake of all people. You should cherish your body, this is a matter of admonishment by humble ministers."

"you……"

I was dumbfounded, looked at his back kneeling on the ground for a while, frowned and walked away.

Sometimes I still go to Ci'an Palace to accompany my mother to have dinner, and my mother always has to tell me for a long time before letting me go back.

The dormitory was bleak and cold, so I took a look at it and ordered the servants in the study, sent the wordy Lian Fang back to the dormitory, and brought a newly transferred young eunuch to the Nuan Pavilion to review the memorials.

It doesn't take much time for those trivial matters, but some things are better than sitting awake all night.

I make people spring when they come.I didn't like to drink it at first, but I always felt it was too strong and difficult to drink. Now that I am used to drinking it, I don't feel like it. I just drink it as thirst quenching water.Drink it until you feel dizzy, and then you can fall asleep, and when you wake up, it will be morning time.

Although the days are long, they are easy to pass, and the nights are spent like this, and the days are always safe.

After drinking the third glass of wine, the papers were mostly approved, and the eunuch Yuan Yu came in trembling and knelt down.

"What's the matter?" I raised an eyebrow.Yuan Yu is not someone trained by Lian Fang, nor has he ever worked in front of Bai Yuyan, nor learned to be noisy and annoying, so I let him take charge of the errands in the study, but tonight he will be troublesome too.

Yuan Yu's face turned pale, he kowtowed in a panic, and tremblingly said: "Your Majesty, the people from the Imperial Hospital have sent you a decoction, and now I am asking to see you outside the door."

"I don't see it." I reprimanded, how many times have I said, Feng Yi's bitter juices are not allowed to enter this door, if the queen mother is not watching, even I don't bother to perfuse the daily pulse check.

"Yes." Yuan Yu went out backwards.

I picked up a Nanguan Military News, read the bookstore, and took a pen to annotate it.A figure walked past the door.

"Jun...Your Majesty..." Yuan Yu's voice was almost crying with fright.

"Huh?" I responded lightly, wrote a few lines, and put the memorial aside.It seems that there is going to be another change in the study room, if the person is handed over to Feng Yi, I don't know what his expression will be.

Yuan Yu said in a trembling voice: "People in the Tai Hospital said that if Your Majesty does not take medicine, he will always kneel outside the door."

"Then let him kneel." I almost laughed, this Feng Yi, where did he find such a stubborn medical officer?Suddenly the pen paused, and I looked up to the door, "Is that the medical officer delivering the medicine?"

Yuan Yu's figure was already retreating, and when he heard the questioner, he fell to his knees again: "It's Doctor Su Yunsu."

I threw the pen on the table, stroked my forehead and frowned for a moment, then said coldly: "Got it. You go."

After approving the memorial, it was late at night.After drinking the last glass of cold wine, I got up and went back to the palace.

When passing the palace garden, under the shadow of the moon and trees, there seemed to be a long body kneeling on the left side of the palace gate.I didn't even look at him and walked away.

For three nights like this, Su Yun knelt outside the door of the upper study room. After I returned to the palace late at night, he still knelt on the spot until dawn.

I finally couldn't bear it anymore, and called Feng Yi to scold him, and asked him to replace the medical officer who was on duty overnight.

Feng Yi lay on the ground and couldn't lift his head up. After I finished cursing, he said in a moaning voice: "Your Majesty, Su Yun's errand is appointed by the Queen Mother."

I snorted coldly: "What? You also learned to use the queen mother to suppress the widow?"

My voice was cold and unfriendly, Feng Yi shrank his neck subconsciously, his face was completely drained of blood.

"I... I... Jun... Your Majesty..."

"roll."

I lightly raised my hand.

In the past, I would have killed this person, but... now, I also know that it is too willful and reckless.

Who taught me what forgiveness and compassion are?

In the middle of the night, I stared at the tree shadows outside the window in a daze, holding the jade jue in my hand but forgot to drink the strong wine in the glass.

When paying my respects to my mother, my mother pretended to mention Su Yun's matter casually. She told me that the prescription was prepared by Su Yun himself, and besides the decoction, there were also pills.

Once upon a time, someone spread his palm under my lips, saying that he knew that I was afraid of suffering and refused to take medicine.He said that the pill is not bitter, you will know after trying it.

I got up irritably and paced around the hall.Finally, he pushed open the palace door with one hand, and walked towards the figure kneeling in the corridor.

Even if no one was watching, Su Yun's spine was still straight when he knelt, and he was not surprised when he saw me coming, and bowed and kowtowed politely.

"Come in." I said coldly, then turned around and left.

He sat back in the imperial case but waited for a while, only to see Su Yun come in supporting Yuan Yu's shoulder.His face was haggard, and his knees were wrapped in bandages.

Pharmacy during the day, begging at night.I don't know that these three days have consumed so much of his energy.The pain in my heart was unbearable, so I just turned my face away and stopped looking.

"What about the medicine?" I asked calmly.

Su Yun hurriedly took out a medicine bottle from his hand, and Yuan Yu took it and handed it to the dragon case.

"Two pills at a time, take it in the morning and evening." Su Yun knelt on the ground and said.

I poured out two sandalwood purple pills, took the warm water handed by Yuan Yu, and swallowed it with the water.

"Back off." I waved.

Yuan Yu bowed and walked back out the door, but Su Yun was still kneeling.

I knew he had something to say, so I asked impatiently, "What else is there?"

Su Yun raised his head slowly, looking up with calm eyes, I wanted to avoid but forced myself to accept his gaze.

"Your Majesty." Su Yun said, looking at me