[Yuanshen] After full favorability, the dimension wall is broken

Chapter of Abedo's Invitation to Cinnabar

act six out of frame

"When I can't comfort you,"

"Or you can no longer care for me;"

"Please remember—"

"In our meager fleeting years,"

"Twelve egrets once flew over a lake in autumn."

……

"—I admit, its fire is livelier, fiercer, hotter."

"But it's wild and impulsive, it's fickle, it's crazy, it's unstable."

"...That's why it's worth observing."

After Abedo said "thank you" that day, something seemed to have changed unconsciously.

Although aware of this change, it is simply too difficult to describe.Just like the crystal clear snowflakes that fell yesterday, they just fell on the palm of your hand and melted away without a trace before you closed your hands.

Let’s not talk about these for the time being, since the staged materials have been collected almost, you plunge into the room and start a social animal life dedicated to the boss diligently.

Actually, in winter, it’s almost the Spring Festival, you’re alone in a cold rented house, working desperately in front of a bunch of screens that light up in vain... Well, it does sound a bit miserable——

——But when you have an Abedo teacher in your house, even the most boring and miserable days can become more interesting.

In the sunshine of falling dust in the morning, someone reluctantly pressed the alarm clock that rang three times for you. When you opened your sleepy eyes, you found that it was a bird made by alchemy gently pecking at your skin. finger; he in the smell of breakfast in the kitchen, in the sound of running water.His eyes are the first blue color you see all day, and he smiles and says good morning to you.

He is in the living room, turning the pages of the book quietly in the sunlight; he is outside the window, occasionally seeing him gently pressing the picture book through the window, depicting this strange world.He is the warmth of 02:30 in the afternoon, the silent painting on paper, and the collection of poems without beginning and end.

but……

Only not "he".

You lean on the window sill and look out.Abedo stood outside the window, seeming to be drawing something.

The snow that fell last night continued into this morning.In the vast snow field, except for Abedo, there are only pedestrians and occasional vehicles passing by in a hurry.

There was nothing unusual about him, he just stood quietly like that, as if he had been used to being alone in such a snow field since he was born, and existed quietly.

"Phew - it's done!"

After struggling for a few days in the document data software, at [-] o'clock in the evening, you finally finished the first draft.After stretching, you slumped on the chair.

Abedo turned sideways with a smile: "Congratulations. How do you feel?"

"The basic framework is almost built," you replied while checking the effect, "but it's only the first version, and I feel that there are still a few places that are not perfect—" After moving the mouse to mark the corresponding place with a red circle, You stood up with a smile and looked at Abedo, "Well... Abedo, would you like to accompany me to a few more places?"

Abedo just paused, then smiled at you gently: "Very happy."

At eight o'clock the next morning, before the little bird came to call you, you got up, dressed excitedly and rushed into the bathroom.

——I don’t need to squat at home to work today, oh yeah!

When he walked into the living room, Abedo was relaxing on the sofa, holding the pages of the book with his left hand, and slightly raised his right hand, and the little bird was resting on the fingertips of his right hand.He raised his fingertips lightly, and the bird flapped its wings deftly and flew across the air. When the feathers brushed the winter air, it seemed like a real bird, flying to the world with a truly "free" attitude. Sky.

...Unfortunately, that's just the "freedom" that was set.

"I got up early today." Abedo raised his eyes and smiled at you, "Is the arrangement urgent?"

You scratched your somewhat messy hair in embarrassment: "No, I feel very happy thinking of being able to go out, hehe."

Abedo didn't ask any more questions, but carefully handed you a scarf: "Wear this when you go out, it will be warmer."

You put on the mask, looked at Abedo who was still wearing a windbreaker, and frowned. Through the mask, the somewhat muffled voice was extremely firm: "No, Abedo also wears a scarf!"

...Well, looking at this outfit that can be called "nondescript", you always have a feeling that you put it on a work of art"

Just when you said tremblingly, "I'm sorry, Mr. Abedo, I really took it off", but he seemed to be in a good mood:

"Well, it's really warm." He even tightened the scarf slightly, and smiled at you gently, "Thank you."

At Abedo's insistence, you stood in front of the mall wearing the "59.9 buy one get one free winter super warm scarf" from a certain treasure.

... To be honest, you have never thought this scarf was a big deal, and you still think it is very festive.

When you are self-examining whether the aesthetics in your daily life are a bit outrageous as a "barely regarded as an art worker", Abedo raised his head and looked around with interest: "This is..."

You hurriedly pulled yourself out of the infinite inner complaints, and dutifully popularized science: "This is a shopping mall, where most entertainment activities gather."

"So that's it, no wonder it's so lively." Abedo smiled gently, "Do you want to film something about people's shopping under the epidemic?"

You held your forehead and sighed secretly——

——Sure enough, Abedo still habitually combines life with "work" and "research".

But, if you say it like this...I'm afraid, there's still nothing you can do, right?

You secretly squeezed your fist——

--good!In any case, let Mr. Abedo have a real vacation in the shopping mall battle, let's start!

Abedo looked at the girl who was whispering to him for some reason, and couldn't help laughing.

He could more or less guess why she brought him here... However, he was looking forward to it.

after all……

"Monsieur Abedo—delicious muffins and puffs here—"

He looked at the girl who was waving happily at him not far away, and concealed his complicated eyes.

…after all, he was looking for the same answer.

This is also his ultimate purpose of coming here.

"Hey... I remember Abedo likes desserts, right?" You held a bag of puffs and handed it to Abedo with a smile, "If you don't mind, try it? The desserts here are delicious! "

"Yes, when the physical strength and energy are exhausted at the same time, high-energy substances will provide primitive and efficient support." Abedo gently opened the packaging bag, and elegantly and calmly picked up a piece of puff and put it in his mouth. "Hmm...it's really a wonderful taste, and I haven't tasted it in Mond before."

You stared closely at the expression changes on Abedo's face, and then held the "First Congress of Analyzing Teacher Abedo's Micro-expressions" in your brain while continuing to walk.

Representative No. 1: "Hey, how about the feedback data of the dessert experiment just now?"

Representative No. 2 pushed his glasses: "According to the analysis, Mr. Abedo has some emotional fluctuations when he gets the puffs, eats the puffs, and expresses his gratitude!"

Representative No. 1: "Heh heh heh, that's great! Next, please explain and compare which conditions trigger it?"

Representative No. 3: "The data shows that the fluctuation is most obvious when you hear 'I remember Abedo likes dessert very much' and 'Thank you'."

Representative number 1: "..."

Representative number 2: "..."

Representative number 3: "..."

——That is to say, even though he exaggerated the taste of the puffs with great care on the surface, he actually didn't care about the puffs at all, right Mr. Abedo? !

"No, no, no, maybe, maybe, maybe..."

Abedo looked at the traveler not far away who was gnawing on the puff with a stiff expression: "...?"

After the big failure of the Puff Project, the brain congress conducted "rigorous and realistic" field investigations in claw machines, clothes, dolls, bookstores and other places.Finally, after a movie...

...your CPU is completely dead.

Abedo helped you sit on the bench resting in the shopping mall, and touched your forehead worriedly: "Are you okay?"

You are dizzy: "...no...it's okay..." It's just...the brain CPU...is overloaded...

Abedo frowned slightly, leaned down and said in a gentle, negotiating tone: "Traveler, it's better to take a rest today, and we can come out tomorrow."

You suddenly woke up, shaking your head like a slime whose sword was crushed by the head of Qin.

——Your plan has not been completed yet, how can you give up halfway? !

and also……

You looked at Abedo resentfully: "Mr. Abedo, don't talk to me in such a coaxing tone!"

Abedo: "How come, I certainly don't think you are a child."

you:"……"

Seeing that you don't want to go back, Abedo sighed: "I should be tired from watching just now. Then, I'll go to that store to buy a cold drink, and then..." He pointed to a nearby milk tea shop, "This How about home?"

You stick your frail and tired head out and look in that direction.

"Huh?!" You were a little surprised, "This, this is...!"

It's my favorite milk tea shop...

How was Abedo selected?After all, there are several milk tea shops very close together.You are still a little surprised that you can accurately choose this one.

Abedo smiled slightly: "When you passed by just now, you paid special attention to this store and took a few glances at their signature drinks. Well, you should have a good rest first, and I'll be right back."

You lean on the bench.

On behalf of number 2: "...number 1, you..."

Representative No. 1: "...shut up."

Rest for a while, if Abedo wants to use your mobile phone, you just stare at the metal decorations hanging from the ceiling of the shopping mall in a daze.

They are made into the shape of wisteria flowers, and strings hang down from the ceiling, linking and entangled with each other, as if they are really like a sea of ​​wisteria flowers.

You think back to when you were in elementary school, you saw wisteria flowers for the first time.It is planted in front of the primary school, and it firmly clings to the pavilion with its powerful trunk.Around April, the wisteria flowers flow down like a waterfall, like an illusory dream.

Later, after you graduated, the campus was refurbished, and the entire pavilion and wisteria flowers were gone, and you also left your homeland, never seeing wisteria flowers again.

You can't help but think of the almost imperceptible but real presence of confusion and helplessness in Abedo's seemingly eternally calm and gentle eyes when he talked about the "meaning of life".

These metals are indeed dead, but they bring back fond memories from long ago.

How to define the meaning of existence like this...

Just when you felt a little headache again, suddenly a coolness hit the side of your face.When you automatically turn your head to look, you bump into smiling eyes that are as blue as cornflower petals.

"Wow——" you quickly covered your mouth, looked around and found that no one was paying attention, and then said in a low voice, "A——be—do! Oh my god, I was almost scared to death."

"I'm sorry, I just think you're thinking about something..." Abedo paused, "...cute."

You: "..." Mr. Abedo, even if you praised me for being cute, I couldn't let me ignore your suspicious pause just now.

"Okay, let's have some drinks and take a break." Abedo handed you the milk tea that was just pasted on your face, "It's better not to drink it too cold in winter, so I asked for less ice on my own initiative, I don't mind it ?”

You drank the milk tea with a happy expression on your face: "Never mind or not-wow, this new product is really amazing, I have to send a message to tell my friend..."

Abedo looked at you with his chin resting on his back, a smile that even he himself may not have noticed emerged from the corner of his mouth.

When you are madly sending Amway messages to your good friends in your hometown, the alarm bell suddenly goes off in your brain.

On behalf of No. 2 and No. 3, tears filled their eyes: "No. 1, you finally woke up!"

On behalf of No. 1: "That's natural... Cough, now is not the time to talk about this! No. 2, immediately report Abedo's current state of mind!"

Representative No. 2: "Abedo's mood has obviously improved now. You see, the corner of his mouth has even risen by nearly 200 pixels!"

Representative No. 1: "...Don't use the term pixel point in the real world. No. 3, compare and analyze!"

Representative No. 3: "Yes, reliable data show that Abedo's mood index has increased by seven points year-on-year."

Representative No. 1: "... May I ask where did you get this reliable data and the seven points?"

Representative No. 3: "It's just a wild guess."

you:"……"

You decide to ditch the 'meeting' that's raging in your head and start on your own.

Abedo's sudden improvement in mood is definitely not accidental!The real variable definitely happened on the road from the milk tea shop to the bench where I was!

Sure enough, the hard work paid off, and you pulled Abedo to stand confidently at the door of a... er... a "Parent-child Hands-on Experience Hall".

... You didn't mean it either, but apart from women's clothing stores and children's toys from milk tea shops to benches, this is the only shop.

You would rather believe that Mr. Abedo is interested in parent-child handicraft experience...

At this time, Abedo's hesitant voice shattered all your fantasies: "...Traveler, is this also a necessary part of the experience?"

... Well you admit it, your guess was wrong again.

When you put on a smiling face and wanted to take Abedo and run away quickly without the clerk noticing, the petite waiter moved as quickly as a flash, and opened the door forcefully with a smile:

"Oh, my little sister and little brother, do you need anything?"

You: "..." It's over, I can't run away now.

Sure enough, 5 minutes later, you were sitting in a corner of the store, surrounded by the smiles of the staff, basking in the ignorant and curious sunlight of the children.

Of course, you are the only one who is "stiff", and Abedo is still calm, always keeping curiosity and an appropriate distance from the surrounding things.

"Which hand-made process do you two want to experience here?" The staff handed you a brochure with a smile on their faces.

You took the booklet with a pale face.

Epoxy, clay, ceramics, plaster statues...

There are so many products, but you can't choose one, what do you know? !

Yes.Although you can secretly draw clothes design drawings in private, but when it comes to handicraft production and DIY in reality, you are completely abolished.

To what extent?

Anyway, even if you are a friend who likes DIY the most, after making a DIY cake with you, the only thing that greets you every time is the ready-made cake from the store.

Just when you were forced to choose one of them to embarrass yourself in front of Mr. Abedo, you heard him say in a gentle voice, "...Is it okay to choose oil painting?"

The staff did not seem to expect that he would choose such an unremarkable item, but they did not hinder consumers from choosing their own consumption items. They just smiled and introduced: "Of course. Brushes, drawing paper, paints, and reference statues are in the It’s all provided there, you can choose it yourself.”

After the staff left, you followed Abedo with some embarrassment: "Well, if you want to experience other projects, you can also change directly..."

Abedo pressed his slender fingers to his lips, and smiled at you: "It's okay. Painting is one of the things I am most willing to spend time doing besides studying. Besides, the painting I promised to paint for you last time was too much It’s scribbled, and this time I just happened to draw a more complete one.”

"Huh?" You approached the drawing paper in Abedo's hands curiously, "What is Abedo planning to draw?"

Abedo's hand paused.

……yes.

He has painted so many paintings, thinking that he wants to understand the world and stop happiness...

...It's just a "record" of observing the world.

Even the seemingly freest "painting" is nothing more than the "freedom" that he, as an alchemy creation, has been set for a long time.

"What do you want a painting about?" After a pause for a few seconds, Abedo asked with a gentle smile.

You thought for a moment, and suddenly remembered the scene when Abedo showed you the alchemy that day.

In order to prove this miraculous statement, Abedo held up the ashes from the flowers on the top of the slime's head.A few seconds later, a Cecilia flower bloomed from the ashes in his hand.

——"This is a new life."

"Hmm... Cecilia Flower, how about it?" you suggested.

Abedo was startled, as if he didn't expect such a proposal from you.But soon he reacted and smiled gently: "Of course."

"Can I watch?" You are curious about how Abedo paints, but you are a little worried about disturbing Abedo.

Abedo pulled out the chair for you and smiled slightly: "My honor."

His paintings are elegant.You know this from the very beginning.

When we met for the first time, it was in the snow mountain. He seriously drew a group of Qiuqiu people and sketched from life.

But no matter whether it was the Qiuqiu man who was carefully drawn by him or the Qiuqiu man who was perfunctory with a brushstroke, the outline was drawn with standard and rigorous lines, and then filled in with color.

This is true of every painting by Abedo.

Today's painting is no exception.He lowered his eyes slightly, and carefully and confidently traced lines on the paper.With his superb painting skills, a standard and beautiful Cecilia flower emerged on the screen with just a few strokes.

Next is coloring.He used the paintbrush to accurately touch the required color, and that movement was too skillful, as if he had done this countless times.The selection of pigments and color matching ratio, the layered presentation of colors...

Soon, the flower seemed to be alive again in the drawing paper, as if a drop of morning dew could be wiped off by sticking the drawing paper.

This is an unquestionable, perfect painting.

Abedo gently closed his eyes.

Without any blemishes, it can be given to her——

But when he turned sideways, he saw the girl's serious expression.

"Abedo, this painting is really good." She praised sincerely, but then changed the subject, "But how many times have you painted the same flower?"

——“How many times have you drawn this flower?”

Leaning against the ruined stone wall, while she was repairing, she turned her head to look at him who was painting again, and asked indifferently.

He froze, and said with some difficulty: "... 43 times."

"Why draw it so many times? It's pointless."

"The previous 42 times, there were all kinds of flaws." With the support of the data, he calmed down again, "It took many attempts to create a "perfect" finished product——"

He looked up at her figure.

"—Master, that's exactly what you taught me, isn't it?"

"The creation of man, the ultimate fusion of supreme alchemy and supreme knowledge."

She stood up, her voice cold and calm.

"And sometimes, when you are too eager for 'perfection', you will forget the real life, which is vivid because of 'imperfection'."

Many years ago, he did not understand this sentence.Many years later, he has fully understood the meaning of Master's words, but facing the girl in front of him, he seems to have returned to the beginning——

He who has just come into contact with the world, is childishly curious about everything, and is delighted to be born in this world.

Abedo gritted his back molars lightly.

Because it is trembling slightly.

The last time I trembled was too long ago.Not because of fear - if it was fear, then he had experienced it many times when he almost failed to complete the project; not because of anger - he hadn't tasted anger for a long time.

It was the first time when he saw the grand and noisy world through the cold petri dish...

...Mixed with the "future", that complex and indescribable expectation and fear.

"Abedo, can I add something to the painting?" Her expression was so serious and earnest.

He felt a little strange.It has been so long, and no one has ever wanted to "add another stroke" to his painting, even if it is only a two-stroke outline——

——Because he is confident that his paintings have shown all the possibilities of the objects he paints.

Until, he saw the girl in front of him directly took the paintbrush, dipped it in a mixture of purple and white paint, and made heavy strokes on the large blank space.

"I hope," she held up the screen showing the pictures of wisteria flowers, and the eyes that were staring at him seriously reflected his azure blue eyes that were slightly widened due to shock, "you can draw the wisteria flower sea in your heart .Or anything else is fine, whether it is the sky, research materials, Qiuqiu people, or slimes..."

She closed her eyes, and when she opened them again, he saw a shining light in those eyes.

"—Anyway, it's not just Cecilia Flower."

……

— "This is the Warlock Notes of one of the greatest alchemists."

She carefully swept the dust off it.

"He is the earliest 'gold'."

She acquiesced to his curious inspection.

And in this notebook, for the first time, he clearly understood how long the road he had to go was.

——"The final stage of alchemy can only be achieved by truly getting rid of the deep logic hidden in the "alchemy creation"."

He used to dismiss the matter.

Alchemy is alchemy, creation is creation, and heterogeneous is just heterogeneous after all.

The "will" that is being proclaimed is just a hypocritical "freedom" under a perfect, pre-set program.

But he picked up the pen.

That heavy stroke finally smashed the last piece of ice that imprisoned the frozen lake.

Since then, the lake water has melted into a dense purple.

He is the blurred and silent sea of ​​wisteria flowers, and she smiles standing in the shadow of his flowers.She bent down, the last gardener of the thin Cecilia flower, the sun and the flower in the infinite white.

When Abedo woke up, the originally blank drawing paper had been submerged by a large sea of ​​wisteria flowers.Surrounded by a sea of ​​flowers, the girl bent down gently, showing a faint smile to Cecilia Hua——

——Besides the picture frame, this Cecilia flower is finally no longer alone.

The author says:

References and related instructions:

①"When I can't comfort you, or you can no longer care about me, please always remember that in our meager years, there were twelve egrets flying over the lake in autumn." - Jian Yu "April Liebo

②Using self "I admit that the fire of love is more active, more intense, and hotter, but love is a capricious and changeable emotion. More than a shot." - Montaigne

③Description of the conception of the two paintings: In the painting in the last chapter, a large area of ​​white is used to cover the colorful background, that is, Abedo’s world is still covered by a large area of ​​blank space.

This chapter refers to Abedo breaking through the so-called "program" of self-limitation, gaining real freedom, and starting to find his own meaning.

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