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231, the night sky of Jingang, the spectacular Milky Way, my sister found the brown box

On the 29th day in Linda, on Monday, it was raining lightly.

Sha Ying was no longer just sent to the door of the room, but directly sent downstairs to the door of the guest house.

Before each operation, Lan Tian had to call Sha Ying first, and after the operation, she also called Sha Ying first. She had to always hear Sha Ying's voice in order to feel at ease.

At noon, on the way to the guest house, Lan Tian called her sister.

"Xiao Tian?"

"Sister, are you busy?"

"Not busy, just returned to my office after dinner, how are you?"

"Heh... I'm fine. Sister, there is something you can do for me."

"What's the matter? Tell me."

"It's best if you go to my house today or tomorrow and help me find a box in my room. I'll tell you the exact location in a text message. It's a brown paper box. You help me send the whole box by EMS." Go to the address I will send you in the short message, remember to write Sha Ying to receive it, and don't tell Sha Ying about this matter."

"Oh, what's in the box?"

"It's all letters. I wrote them to Sha Ying while I was abroad, but I never sent them. Help me send them to her in the next two days. Calculate the time like this, and she should receive them this weekend. Heh... Maybe I was a little anxious, but I promise to tell her everything I want to say in seven years this weekend."

Lan Fang was sad, but also too surprised.

"...Okay, then I'll go there at night and try to mail it out tomorrow, and you will send me the location of the box and the mailing address immediately."

"Okay. Sister, how are you? Are you busy? Are you living with Xiaoyu all the time?"

"Oh...not busy, I'm fine, Xiaoyu will always feel a little uncomfortable when you leave, don't worry, my sister will comfort her, and my sister will take care of her own affairs, don't worry Xiaotian, just work there with peace of mind good."

"Well. By the way, after going to my house, talk to my mother for a while. Although I talk to my mother on the phone every day, it's different. She can't see me for a long time, so she must be missing me."

"Well, okay, don't worry."

"Then sister hasten to rest. Xiaotian hung up the phone. Shasha made lunch. I'm rushing back to eat. It's almost here."

"Oh... good. Bye."

"bye."

Jingang, what a magnificent Milky Way in the clear night sky, and the evening wind at the end of summer, blowing people's minds to many years ago, Lan Fang found the brown box in Lantian's room according to Lantian's text message, and counted I don't know how many letters...

Each letter has a date written directly on the envelope, and Lan Fang couldn't bear the boundless guessing. After opening each letter, Zhang Yang sat beside Lan Fang to accompany her...

On the envelope is written January 1997, 1

rustle:

Are you OK?

Today is the weekend, and I planned to stop writing to you like this, but I still couldn’t hold back, I thought... I, can I always hold back... I’m sorry... It’s you when I close my eyes... I’m sorry ...I still miss you...

I have arrived at a school in the UK, and I have settled everything. Fortunately, my English is not bad, and my communication with people is smooth. I met my professor and treated me very well. Don’t worry, Rusha, the students here are very friendly to Chinese people. friendly.

There are only two people living in the dormitory, and the other is a French girl who is studious and friendly.She is now on a date with her boyfriend and said she would bring me supper.

There has just been a heavy snowfall here, huh... I think of the days when I walked on the snow with Shasha... I checked the weather in Beijing, it hasn't snowed there yet, Shasha should remember to wear more clothes to protect his body, Shasha Your body... Xiaotian has always been very distressed, but I think he will take care of you in the same way, you should listen to him more...

It’s okay, don’t worry about whether I can stand you marrying someone else, I can’t stand it and I’ve come to England, I can’t let you let go so hard for nothing, I will be strong, very strong, I will definitely not want me because of Rusha, it’s true I'm devastated, although I'm really...really...very sad...

Of course, if this is the case, I hope that my rustle can fall in love with that person...I know that person loves you very much, he will treat you well...well, I will definitely learn to stop missing, in this world where no one knows me and The place you used to be is so strange that I need to spend some time to get familiar with it, and start to find some of myself again, rustle...my rustle...Xiaotian will be a person who makes you...never regret deeply loved, But please rustle and be happy too.

Xiaotian has read a book, and it is still the old habit of going to bed at 12 o'clock. There are some things that Xiaotian can't change, and he doesn't want to change. Rusha will understand.

your little boy

1997. 1, 25

On the envelope is written February 1997, 2

rustle:

Are you OK?

Miss you again.

I just finished reading a book recommended by a classmate, which is all in English, but it helps me learn English better. Everyone said that I speak English well.

I also played a game of tennis with my classmates, huh... Rusha must be looking forward to the result, right?Of course Xiaotian won, and also won a dinner, steak, they are very enthusiastic about me, maybe it has something to do with this tennis game.

But Shasha likes watching Xiaotian play tennis the most... Xiaotian is also getting better at playing tennis because of Shasha, do you remember?Because Xiaotian likes Shasha, he used to show too much to Shasha, so he played with all his heart. In the end, Xiaotian didn't know how good he was at playing, hehe...it seems useless to say these things...Shusha... ...it's useless, isn't it?No matter how good the fight is, Shasha doesn't want to watch it anymore...

I didn't want to write at first, why, late at night, silent, closed eyes, it's all about you...

I don't know what you are doing at this time, Xiaotian knows that you don't love that person...but you just accepted that person, right?How do you get to accept someone you don't love?At the wedding, how did you hold that person's hand? How did you turn your back on me? ?What kind of wine did you drink for me... What did you let me swallow... You suddenly became someone else's person... My future... How should I bear the happiness that is so important to you!

Night after night... when I close my eyes... see you desperately with another person...

I was the one who let my rustle fall...

I actually fell in love with you to the point of desperation...

I'm crazy... I can't go on like this... I'm going to read a book, I have to read a book...

stop.Let me learn another language, there is a French girl in the dormitory, I will learn French, do more things, maybe it will be better.

your little boy

1997. 2, 1

On the envelope is written February 1997, 2

rustle:

Happy New Year!

Are you back home?I don't know if the Yangtze River is frozen or not. Is it cold in Jingang?The same is true in the UK, huh... Today I wore the sweater that Shasha bought for Xiaotian in Beijing, and I have already called my mother, Xiaoyu and my sister also called Xiaotian, but... I can't hear the voice of Shasha... I miss you you……

Shasha, I still can't help but ask, let me ask, did you go home with that person?

Well, don't answer me, don't answer.

Today I have no strength. Mom, aunt, sister, Xiaoyu, Atu, especially you, especially you, miss me so much... I can't eat... You must be with him, right?

I just want to ask...forgive me...I still can't accept it...

Intuitively, that road seems to be longer... From then on, I will travel alone...

Thank you for trading my future with happiness...Thank you for letting me experience...a kind of loneliness...

Rusha... You should also thank me for giving you a free time... Isn't it...

rustle……

rustle……

rustle……

This letter...Should I send it to you? No, I don't have your address anymore. I can't send it. I really lost you...We got separated, but I am so unwilling...

Shasha, is it possible for Xiaotian to forget you?Can Xiaotian's future get out of the years of having you?Rustle... Rustle... You clearly said that only Xiaotian had hands... I believed it, how do you let me let it go now?

It's too late, it's coming soon, I hope that Shasha won't come into Xiaotian's dream again, Xiaotian is already afraid of waking up from the dream, Xiaotian's courage has become smaller, I don't know if he...will protect Shasha well... …

good night.

your little boy

1997. 2, 7

Too many letters, sad words, seeing her sister between the lines, and never getting over the grief of losing Sha Ying...She fell into Zhang Yang's arms...I felt powerless...

It can be seen from the letter that in foreign countries, Lantian established a martial arts team and a tennis team, learned French and Arabic, and followed the professor to the United States, Germany, Japan and other countries. In four years, she After studying courses for six years, she spent those four years abroad with extreme busyness and the spirit of seeking knowledge, but... But it is true that Sha Ying always thinks of her when she goes to bed late at night, almost a letter a week In the middle, there were two times when she survived for two months and tried not to write, but she failed in the end. She was tortured by longing and heartache, and even Sha Ying’s birthday, she had to buy cakes and gifts, and then eat alone Drop the cake, put the gift in the bottom of the box...

The last letter, depending on the date, was written a few days after she went to Sha Ying's house on the first weekend after returning to China.

rustle:

I don't know if this will be the last letter I write to you or... because I am back, there is no place I want to stay, only Jingang, we met in Jingang, we fell in love in Jingang, there are many roads in Jingang, We walked together, and it was only when I came back that I found out that due to the demolition of the house at home, my mother sold the bicycle we used to ride together, saying that it was too old, and everything should be new when I come back, so stop being nostalgic... My mother didn't know that I was actually very sad, and I was so impulsive that I wanted to get it back...

Rusha, four years have passed, and everything seems to have passed away. The scenery of Jingang has changed ever since. Any news... My rustle is far away, isn't it?

But I was still not reconciled, I still thought it might be a fake wedding, last weekend, I couldn't help but went to your house, grandma said why my rustle got married so early?I haven't seen grandma for too long, is it because Xiaotian doesn't want grandma anymore, and Sasha doesn't want grandma anymore?Even if Shasha wants to get married one day, she must be thinking about playing with Xiaotian for a few more years. She even hates that Xiaotian is not a young man. How could she think about getting married so soon?

Xiaotian held her grandma's hand and answered her sadly, Xiaotian and Shasha separated, grandma didn't understand, grandma must blame Xiaotian in her heart, why didn't she hold Shasha's hand properly?Shasha, how do you want me to answer grandma's question?Or how did you answer grandma?When you and Sun Qian went home together, did grandma ask you if you really liked this man?Swish... omg... what am I talking about?It's been four years, how can you say that you have lived with him for four years, even if you didn't fall in love then, you may start to like him now, right?But... I'm still in the same place, I always feel like I'm still holding you... I miss you and I can't wait to take a step forward... Can time go back? I'd rather we are still studying in school, it's better to go back to those three years... I The upper berth...your lower berth...you want me to sleep with you...you said the upper berth is far away...

In this future, where should I go... Do I want to marry someone like you?What is the difference between such a life and destroying me?Can you imagine me holding a man's arm one day?I miss your tenderness so much...

All the way to your house, there have been too many changes. In your house, a lot of furniture has been changed, and a fence has been built, but Xiaotian still found it after looking for it. Grandma’s hair is gray, her back is bent, and her words are bleak. No, Xiaoliang is not at home, your parents are not at home, Shasha... is not at home... Even the dog... is the son of Rhubarb... I still remember that year when I came back from Huangshan, I went to your house to look for you , you are leaning on the door frame in a white dress and looking at me with tears in your eyes...how beautiful...

Walking into your room, what else can I say...Your home has been renovated everywhere, but your room is still the same as when we were together...I'm lying on your bed...I feel so uncomfortable that I want to jump into the Yangtze River It's all over... You obviously miss it... You obviously can't forget it like me... Our first time, you still put it in the second drawer... I saw it, it hasn't changed at all, the pillow we slept together is still the same Suit... You obviously can't let go... Rustle... Rustle... Should I go to Beijing to chase you back?

Grandma took me to watch the dance CD you left for grandma, you named the CD "I Can't Forget You", Rusha, you know, I was afraid of this song because I fled back to Shanghai from your wedding Finally, in the torrential rain, I heard the video store play this song wildly, as if it was played for me, the sound of the rain and the singing merged into one, your back tore my heart apart, I was unable to walk, and cried bitterly in the rain...

Shasha, I really want to hate you for a while, just for a while, but I can't do it. I miss you, I want to hug you... I always want to kiss you... But... there is no such possibility anymore, is there?

Standing by the Yangtze River...Teach me...Teach me quickly how not to miss you...Back here...Sure enough, the ground is sad...I can no longer have you, and I am no longer sober...

I hope you are already very happy. Are you anxiously waiting for me to get you back, or are you calmly waiting for the news that I am also married to someone... Should I go to you or not?I can't give you blessings, I still feel that my blessings are hurting you at all, and I heard you crying in one place...

Am I crazy?What other facts are needed to explain that you and I have been forever parallel to September 1996, 9? ?

Let me wake up... Let me really wake up... Work hard, let me put you at ease, this job cannot be wrong, it happens to be something that must be done wholeheartedly, I hope that Shasha is really doing well in Beijing, That person loves you very much, I know, that person is still worthy of Rusha's life.

I'm going to prepare for tomorrow's work, Shasha, the director of the hospital thinks highly of me, and I will try my best to be a good doctor. For example, the original promise can't let Shasha let go in vain. Xiaotian will live a very dedicated and strong life so that Shasha can I feel that it is good to know once in this life, and it is worthwhile to love once.

Good night, Rusha... I don't know if you are smiling today... Good night.

your little boy

2000. 10, 22