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23. I am about to leave, who do you want to leave me with... who can love me more than you...

Less than two months before the college entrance examination, the results of the simulated college entrance examination were announced in the campus window.Without any suspense, Lan Tian's grades were far ahead and she was still the first in the whole grade, and Sha Ying entered the top [-] in the grade.

On April day, I haven't been home for more than a month. Everyone in the dormitory has prepared their backpacks and went home to spend the last weekend before the college entrance examination.

Sha Ying came back from the classroom and lay down with her eyes closed, motionless. In the classroom, she had told Lan Tian that she was not going home, the road was too far and she didn't want to bother on the road, and she didn't want to go to Lan Tian's house.

She fell asleep sideways in the bed, the gratifying top twenty couldn't bring her any happiness, and she listened to the sound of roommates walking out of the dormitory one by one.

She knew that Lan Tian had been sitting by her bed all the time, and Lan Tian hadn't made any preparations to go home, she seemed to have heard a certain voice in Lan Tian's heart, but she couldn't be sure, and she couldn't say whether she could not go home, it was the last one It's spring.

Lan Fang came to the dormitory and asked Lan Tian if she was ready, and she heard Lan Tian hesitantly reply: "...ready."

I heard Lan Fang say: "Since Shasha won't go back, you don't have to send it. Let's hurry up. Uncle and aunt know that we are going back. Maybe a table of meals is waiting for us. Hurry up."

Maybe he took Lan Tian's hand and walked out, the bed was heavy to leave, and he heard Lan Fang say: "Huh? You said you prepared it, why don't you have anything to take back?"

It seemed like a long time before he said, "...No."

"Then let's go."

"and many more."

Feeling that Lan Tian came back to the bed, it was Sha Ying who was addicted to the voice: "Shasha, then...you remember...you have dinner by yourself, and the cafeteria will open in half an hour. Xiaotian... went back, I will come early tomorrow, remember to read the homework."

A hand was placed on Sha Ying, a powerless hand, a hand that was about to leave... Sha Ying didn't want to speak, any words would be against her will.

I heard Lan Fang say again: "Is Sha Sha asleep? Don't disturb her, let's go."

That hand couldn't wait for Sha Ying's answer, and left, followed by the sound of the dormitory door being closed, the world was so quiet and lonely...Sha Ying covered herself with a quilt...crying hard...

All the way to the silent blue sky, it seems to have heard Sha Ying's cry, getting farther and farther away from Sha Ying, the heartache is getting weaker and weaker, and the bicycle is riding slower and slower...

It was already dark, and Priscilla Chan's "The Lost Promise" was played repeatedly in the empty meeting room. With sad music, Sha Ying danced as if venting, following the rhythm, the movements without choreography told the limit that she was incomprehensible sad...

There was a knock on the door, Sha Ying wiped away her tears and went to open the door, Lan Tian stood at the door holding two lunch boxes.

she is not alone...

Immediately stretched out his arms to put his arms around the person in front of him, and whispered next to her ear, "I guess you will come back."

"I brought the meals made by my mother, and guessed that Shasha would not want to go to the cafeteria to eat by herself."

"Come in." She walked back with her arms around Lan Tian...

They sat on the side together, opened the lunch box for Sha Ying, and handed the spoon to Sha Ying: "Eat quickly, I've already eaten."

Sha Ying watched Lan Tian refuse to pick up the spoon, and stretched out her arms around Lan Tian's waist.

Lan Tian smiled: "Then I...feed you."

A mouthful of food was sent into Sha Ying's mouth...

"This time, Shasha did very well in the exam. As long as she performs normally in the college entrance examination, she should be fine."

"Where are you going? Can you tell me?"

"Xiao Tian hasn't figured it out yet."

"I want to talk to—"

Lan Tian pressed the corner of Sha Ying's mouth with a handkerchief: "Follow Sha Sha's original ideal, Sha Sha's ideal is Xiao Tian's ideal."

Sadly chewing her meal...

Put a little rice in the spoon, add a piece of beef in the spoon... and a leaf of green vegetables... try to put it in... while talking...

"To teach you martial arts, you must practice it. In the future, when Xiaotian is not around, Shasha must buy food for herself, give herself a good mood, protect herself, don't be vulnerable, don't cry, don't... love home... and ...The most important thing...the person who will join hands with Shasha in the future... must be very sincere to Shasha... Shasha... can't... be hasty..."

The spoon shook a bit, like her heart, and brought it to Sha Ying's mouth with hazy eyes...

But... when she saw her rustle... she actually bit her lip and was bleeding...

Eyes wide open in horror at the wound...

The blood-stained teeth let go of their lips, seeing Lan Tian put down the bowl and spoon in panic, wanted to wipe it with a handkerchief, but dared not touch the wound...

Sha Ying kept looking at her, letting the bright red flow down...

The tears let loose quickly and silently...the handkerchief wiped off the flow, but dared not touch the bitten place...that was the lip that Lan Tian was about to fantasize about, it was a place that Lan Tian loved so much...

Sha Ying still looked at her...at her bewildered look at her distressed look at her...pain and weakness...

The blood continued to flow...

I don't dare to rub... I'm afraid it will hurt her... What should I do...

Shaking her lips, she moved closer to Sha Ying's wound...the four lips were about to touch... Sha Ying covered her eyes and waited...

But what she was waiting for... was still her handkerchief...

She opened her eyes and looked at Lan Tian's slightly opened mouth, her lips were full of tears and snot, her brows were connected together...

Why are the tears flowing?Why is my heart hurt?Who does she want to leave Rusha to?Who can treat Sasha like her?Why can't she ask for swish?

Gently rubbing the wound... very lightly, it still hurts her...

Hearing Lan Tian's fragile and hoarse voice: "From now on...it can't be like this again..." She hugged Sha Ying into her chest tightly...let Sha Ying's hand cover her chest and let Sha Ying... There are bloody bite marks on the clothes on the chest...

In this age, in this world, to love her is to destroy her, to let her fly completely, to have the happiness of the future perfectly, I would rather let her wait for this, and I would rather separate from her and end up with a lifeless future.

In early May, Lan Tian accompanied Sha Ying to Beijing to take the art test and passed it very smoothly.In mid-May, those who want to enter the military academy also need to register in advance and undergo various physical examinations, but Lan Tian did not go, she completely gave up, despite the urging of her family and the enlightenment of the teacher, she just said: "I want to be A doctor, I've already figured it out."

At noon, the restless Sha Ying put down a pile of test papers, dragged Lan Tian to the dormitory, and closed the door.

"Why? Answer me clearly." She pulled Lan Tian to sit on the bed.

"Shusha, I've said it many times. Doctors are also a very good profession. I have no choice but to practice martial arts since I was a child. Now, I just choose something I want to do more."

"Because of me, isn't it?" Sha Ying held Lan Tian's shoulder, trying to see through the man's internal organs.

Looking at Sha Ying, she replied firmly: "It has nothing to do with you."

"No!" Her crystal eyes resolutely denied that answer.

"It has nothing to do with you." He took Sha Ying's hand from his shoulder and put it on his palm.

Get used to...

The warmth from her palm came and Sha Ying was suddenly vulnerable...

"God...don't be like this...don't be like this, okay?"

Lan Tian's distressed eyes were full of infatuation and helplessness: "Shusha, this season is a little shorter than usual, and I'm a little busy. Xiaotian also knows that Shasha is very hard. After this busy month, Shasha will grow up completely, okay?"

Sha Ying's tears flowed down her jaw, and her voice trembled into an echo: "You may have changed me...just like I changed you...Maybe I grew up when I met you...Is it possible that I will experience it next time? Are you old..."

"rustle!"

"You too! I don't believe it, I don't believe it!!" She grabbed Lan Tian and shook her arms heavily... Such a beautiful face was crumpled by sadness...

"rustle……"

"I don't believe you can forget me..."

Lan Tian, ​​who couldn't sit still anymore, stood up...shaking Sha Ying's hands away, she turned her back...such a pretty face was crumbled by the facts...tears welled up...

Looking at this slender back, how should I wait... Why bother to shed those tears on Sha Ying's back...Even if Sha Ying closes her eyes and doesn't look... she can still feel her extreme heartache...

"Turn around, god...turn around quickly and let me look at you." Sha Ying's voice was already very nasal.

Turn around and squat in front of Sha Ying, looking up at Sha Ying: "Shasha..." He clenched Sha Ying's hand tightly with both hands, "Listen to Xiaotian, continue to do every next test paper, don't think about anything else , I want you to go to that university in Beijing smoothly, I only want you to realize your ideals, I only want you...happiness...really...knowing you...I am...happy...it also makes me feel too much...leave me alone What way are you going, walk your own way, okay? If I really change you, you can believe that there may be someone who will change you, he will be a thousand times better than me... ten thousand times... ..."

"God..." Sha Ying could not hold back her tears...

The squatting person stood up sadly, and hugged Sha Ying tightly...Looking at the old rough wooden beams above the dormitory...the place where they lived together for three years...

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