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107. He tried his best to want me, or maybe it was because he thought you were coming back soon, and I became more and more cold towards him

A few days later, he came to the sex shop, consulted, bought something, and came home.

Cheng Shaying didn't pay attention and put the medicine into the water she drank.

When Sha Ying woke up the next day, she remembered everything that happened last night. She was so sad that she couldn't help herself. She washed in the bathroom for a long time and didn't even go to work.

When Sun Qian came back in the evening, he saw that Sha Ying had prepared a meal. He happily sat down to eat. Sha Ying was watching TV in the living room: "Why don't you come over to eat together? Ah Ying?"

"I've already eaten." Sha Ying didn't even look at Sun Qian.

"Oh, why is it so early today?"

"I didn't go to work, I asked for leave."

"Tomorrow weekend, I have already booked a two-person travel package. How about we go to Hangzhou? It's a good season to go."

"Go by yourself, I don't want to go."

"It's for two people. We haven't gone out for a long time. How about going out for a walk?"

"I said no, I won't go anywhere, I'll stay here, and you don't have to worry about where I will go."

Sun Qian heard that there was something in Sha Ying's words, so he stopped talking and just ate, washed the bowl, cut the fruit and sat on the sofa, but when Sun Qian came, Sha Ying got up and left.

"Don't go."

"Let go." Sha Ying looked ahead, since Sun Qian came home, she never glanced at him.

"Aying, sit down, I know you are angry, but I want to tell you, even if you use some methods, as long as you can get used to it, what do you think?"

"I don't like the method you use."

"I don't like those methods either, but since it works, why not give it a try?"

"It's about principles, it's no different from coercion, Sun Qian, if I find you using this method again, I'll be really angry."

"Aying, we are a husband and wife, or a couple who have been married for four years. We should have a child. I think about it. If we want to improve our situation, we can only have a child. This is the only way, but you are too I can't help it when I'm sober, and I've broken my brain between us."

"If you use this method to impregnate me with a child, I will also abort him."

Sun Qian forced Sha Ying to sit on the sofa: "Well, I admit that my method is out of principle. Today, we don't use any method. I know that your menstrual cycle is also suitable. Let's try again today. Yesterday, I thought the chances of conceiving would be much higher."

Sha Ying turned her face away: "It seems that you have done a lot of homework, but the more you behave like this, the more disgusted I am, I feel very uncomfortable, and I'm going back to my room."

"Aying!"

Sun Qian pulled Sha Ying who stood up again into his arms, and looked at Sha Ying: "Why can't I help looking at you after so many years? It's just because you are so beautiful that I really can't control it."

Sha Ying broke away from Sun Qian's arms: "Don't say such things, if you feel cold and bored at home, you can go out and find friends for a drink or something."

"Other people's husband went out to drink, and his wife scolded him from head to toe, but you—"

"I don't want you to be so boring to me at home."

"We don't need to be bored, you can understand what I have to say? My affection is no shallower than anyone else's!"

Sha Ying ignored Sun and went to the room, but Sun Qian couldn't help but followed in: "Aying, let's sleep together, and I won't do anything, okay?"

Sha Ying didn't know whether she should trust him, but shouldn't she even give him some trust?No matter what method he used.

"Well, I hope I can sleep well until dawn."

Sun Qian kept his promise, but he found that Sha Ying couldn't sleep at all, and he couldn't sleep either.

He got up and went to his own room, but Sha Ying didn't lock the door behind her. She also believed that Sun Qian did it so that she could sleep well.

The next night, Sun Qian was not helped back by his colleagues until twelve o'clock, and he was very drunk.

Sha Ying wiped his body, face and hands, poured water for him, took off his shoes and quilt, sat on the chair and looked at Sun Qian. She remembered that after she drank too much that day, Sun Qian sat in front of the bed like this look at yourself.

Not long ago, Sun woke up and said indiscriminately that he needed to go to the bathroom. Sha Ying helped him to go to the bathroom. At this time, she didn't want to hide anything and just hoped that he wouldn't fall down.

Sun Qian returned to the room, staring at everything his wife had done for him in a daze, he knew it all, Sha Ying was actually very kind to him, but how to win her heart, let alone win her heart , even her body was hard for him to touch.

Jiu Jin made him irrational and fearless, he wanted to pull Sha Ying to the bed, this time he didn't want to be influenced by noble love, he just wanted to be a husband and a man, he tore Sha Ying's body Clothes... Sha Ying, who was struggling, never forgot the martial arts that Lan Tian taught her to defend herself. She restrained Sun Qian and slapped him when he was unconscious...

"If you are awake, I will go back to my room. If you are not awake, please remember that I am awake."

Sha Ying went back to her room and locked the door behind her.

In the night air, there is still the smell of salty tears and sighs...

Why is she so reluctant?Is it because... because Lan Tian is about to come back, she misses Sun Qian more and more intensely, and treats Sun Qian more and more coldly, she knows that she can't do this... how to change this state... so what if Lan Tian is back, she Now that she is married to Sun Qian, can she go back to Lan Tian? The responsibility on Lan Tian's shoulders makes Sha Ying unable to stop being selfish.

And her blue sky...does she still love her?The postcard said that she would never forget, so how much did she remember? Should Sha Ying ask? Is Sha Ying still qualified to do this? He is deeply in love with her like this. Could it be that his life is going to be so cold?

Turn on the desk lamp... Take a tissue to wipe the tears she couldn't stop since she grew up...

Opening this postcard with cracks that cannot be recovered, four years are about to pass. In these four years, as Lan Tian said, is she happy?She locked her husband out of her door. The fact is that she has locked her husband out for four years. She loves someone deeply and hurts someone deeply. No one here is happy.

The author has something to say:

Seeing that many people blame Sha Ying, one of the protagonists in the article, for letting go by marrying a man in the end, which ultimately harms others and herself. Today, let’s analyze how many paths Sha Ying could take at that time.

As for her letting go, it's better to say that her decision was just to break Lan Tian's idea of ​​continuing to love her, and at the same time stop her own idea of ​​continuing to love her. The word letting go is not particularly appropriate, after all, they are two people in love.

In the article, more than ten chapters were used to describe the breakup in detail. This result was not achieved in a hurry. The decision was hasty, but it was not hasty to believe that it must be the result of her deliberation.In the middle, there are many love stories written about Lan Tian, ​​and even some stubborn thoughts. In the middle, it is also written that Sha Ying rushed back from Jilin to Beijing to relieve her sweetheart's lovesickness. This is enough to reflect the precious instinct in this love. It should be in 97 Zhang Shaying wrote in her psychological monologue that maybe there was nothing wrong with coming back this time, but it would be very wrong to let the instinct of love run ahead of reason again and again.

Lan Tian knocked over the laboratory equipment, as a doctor, what a terrible mistake, Lan Tian is the heir of the Lan family's swordsmanship, what an inhumane rule, but it is by no means that Lan Tian, ​​a junior, just casually changed the ancestral system, how could she Let the sweetheart take on so many responsibilities alone.

Going abroad is just an introduction, but going abroad is as important as everything to the Lan family. Why does her sweetheart keep silent about so many important things? Sha Ying can't bear the heavy love, and she can't give it to her. Lan Tian has a child, which makes it impossible for her to go on with Lan Tian.

So what should she do?She first used the method of escaping to buy herself time to think about this matter. One can imagine Sun Qian's hard pursuit, and she agreed to him to associate with her, which was an expedient method.

But when Lan Tian knew that she was dating Sun Qian, Lan Tian didn't believe it at all.

There were two things written in those bland chapters before. One was that Sha Ying was ill and she asked Xiaoju to tell a lie, but Lan Tian soon saw through it. The bag moved a bit, and Lan Tian saw that she stuffed money for her. All these plots were laid out in a stylish manner. If friends didn't read carefully or forgot after reading it, they would naturally ignore it, but don't forget Sha Ying won't forget, so she can't lie to her, and if she cheats and delays, the time will pass.

The root of this matter is that she loves someone but really can't give this person what she must (please note that it is a must, not optional). She, she is the person Lan Tian loves deeply, yes, but how can she become the person who holds Lan Tian back, and the decision to let go came to this point.

How much she loves Lan Tian, ​​she can't even hear Lan Tian's voice, so once she lets go of this person, for Sha Ying, it will not be much different from death:

1. She may have thought about death, but she still has parents, mother, brother, and grandma. If she dies, how will Lan Tian bear it;

2. If she becomes a monk, her family will also not be able to accept it, and the damage caused by these methods is immeasurable;

3. She can still escape, but wherever she can escape, the blue sky will pursue her hard;

4. She has a boyfriend, but Lan Tian doesn't believe it. It's so serious that Lan Tian, ​​who has always been gentle, beat Sun Qian. She knows how much Lan Tian loves her.

Well, time is so tight, what else can she do?She decided not to fall in love anymore, and now she is just looking for a way to prevent both parties from retreating. If there is no such thing as going abroad, maybe Sha Ying will be consumed with her for the rest of her life, but since there is such a thing, she can only do it. Absolutely, just like her monologue, without Lan Tian, ​​it doesn't matter who she will fall in love with next, and she will try her best to put herself into this marriage, but, many things, you really have to try to know, Fortunately, Sun Qian really loved her.

The lesser of evils is the lesser, on the premise that it will hurt Lan Tian no matter what, she chooses to marry Sun Qian Lightning, the continuous damage is the least, she bets on Lan Tian's strength, and on the possibility that she will fall in love with the second person , she can't bring the harm to her parents again, she would rather hurt herself deeply, and wait for herself to discover more and more of her grandson's goodness, but, some things are really not that easy.

She fell in love with such a good person, because that Lan Tian was so good, Zhi Zhi couldn't find a little bit of wrong in her mind, isn't this the consequence of perfect marks?How can the later generations reach the blue sky?

People born in the 70s are different in temperament from those born in the [-]s and [-]s. Now most people will do their own way, but at that time, it was so important to follow a standardized path. How can we use our current eyes to accuse her of being a Self-made, self-inflicted, in the age without the Internet, many people can't tell how brave Sha Ying is, and so much love can let go, which is already the courage that many people look down upon.

Also, it is true that she hurt Lan Tian, ​​how sad she is, she does not want to do such a thing to Lan Tian, ​​her character and the degree to which she loves Lan Tian make her blame herself for that hurt all day long, she never thought that she would be so Can't let go.

A friend said that Sha Ying and Sun Qian were together not because she wanted to forget Lan Tian, ​​but to make Lan Tian stop thinking about it. Another friend said that no one is right or wrong, they are all wholehearted. It's really impossible to seek perfection...

Yes, I believe that after careful analysis, you will not be able to really blame Sha Ying, she is already a role model in same-sex love that should be emulated.

It's just that after taking this step, her whole life will change. Lan Fang is responsible for this step, and Lan Tian is also responsible. How could it be Sha Ying's fault alone?Is it true that her so many monologues are all empty words?

Look at her life, since she is one of the protagonists, she will not place the tragedy here. In the future, she will tell her friends more and more. She and Lan Tian still have a long way to go.