Like a swallow returning to its nest

The dozen or so missed calls on the phone were all from Aunt Jiang, and she clearly left a note before leaving.

It was dawn, and the whole family was still sleeping. Fang Jian got off the car and saw her from a distance. The anxious face was overjoyed after seeing her, and she hurriedly opened the door to greet her.

Aunt Jiang rubbed the goose bumps on Fang Jian's arms with hands as thick as tree bark, and asked a series of questions: "Did you sneak out to play? Why are you wearing so little? Is this my sister's skirt? When did you steal it?"

Fang Jian paid the car fare and took her home, "Don't tell her, I won't wear it anymore."

Aunt Jiang walked around her in circles, checking up and down, and after making sure she was not injured, she said, "I won't tell, I washed and ironed it for you and returned it to make it smooth, so I can't find it."

Fang Jian handed her the shoes in her hand, and Aunt Jiang laughed out loud, "He even stole the high heels!"

Passing through the small garden at the front door, the two of them went upstairs very lightly one after the other. Fang Jian went back to the room and went into the bathroom to run water to take a bath. Aunt Jiang stood at the door and did not leave. It’s so easy to get sick, and it’s been a long time since I got sick.”

It was because she was afraid that she would be stimulated by something outside. Seeing that she was not injured and her mood looked good, Aunt Jiang was relieved and asked her, "Have you had breakfast?"

"Eat." Fang Jian told her, "Noodles with peanut butter, steamed dumplings, and soy milk are all treats."

Aunt Jiang smiled, "Did you fall in love?"

"No—" Fang Jian lowered her head and threw a bath ball into the water, her face turned red.

Aunt Jiang stopped teasing her, "Then go to bed after taking a shower, the pajamas are here for you."

After the door closed, Fang Jian slid into the bathtub, covered her face with her hands and smiled, thinking of Jiang Xiaolai lying on her body, she was not convinced.

Obviously she is the one at the top, Jiang Xiaolai is so thin and small, how could she run to the top!Why should she!

——Also, why did she catch the bait at random? It's such a coincidence that she also likes girls.Is she new?It doesn't feel like it either, I was still shouting at the beginning, making it look like being raped by someone... In fact, the skills are average, and I pretend to be sophisticated.

——Her back and legs are so straight, and she is so upright. Did she learn to dance?Is it a summer job in the night market?

——likes to frown, a bit fierce, the boss has a straight face, extremely cold.Where did you offend her?Not impressed at all.

Fang Jian fell in love with Xiao Lai in just one night. Obviously before that, she had already lost her appetite for the whole world and decided to die before dawn.

But now...

Fang Jian looked up and looked at the gray-blue sky outside through the bathroom blinds. She was not dead yet, and the money in her bag hadn't been touched. She came back no matter what.

Smiling silly in the mirror while blowing hair after taking a shower, laying on the bed and still thinking, wondering if Xiao Lai misses her... It's making her miserable, isn't it not righteous enough?What do you think about?Do you want them to do that in the car, or have breakfast in Sha County?

Fang Jian remembered Xiao Lai when she was mixing noodles, and heard that she liked to eat green onions, so she took the noodle bowl and asked the boss to grab an extra handful of green onions, asked her if she would dip the steamed dumplings in vinegar, and asked her what sweetness she wanted for the soy milk, Paper towels are handed over after dinner.

Fang Jian covered her face with her hands and rolled on the bed—she is so considerate!

To sum up the reason for today's failure, it was that when I saw Jiang Xiaolai, I became dizzy and forgot everything. I wanted to kiss her passionately in the bathroom of Roman Holiday, and rolled into a ball in the car before going to the hotel.

Besides, Xiao Lai is so nice and gentle, how could she turn the person next to her pillow into a pale corpse to frighten her?Even if he was going to die against all odds, he should at least mess with her once, and then he would die without regret.

Covered in the quilt, her mind was full of Jiang Xiaolai, Fang Jian couldn't help touching herself.

The mind of a mental patient cannot be controlled by herself. Fang Jian is sometimes manic and sometimes depressed. She suffers from this. This pain has nothing to do with the outside world. Angry state.

Having been ill for many years, in addition to taking medicine, being hospitalized, and receiving psychological counseling on time, Fang Jian learned to release herself.

But this time it's not to divert attention, to make myself exhausted, and I don't have the energy to be sad or angry anymore, just to simply miss Xiao Lai.

Closing her eyes, Fang Jian missed her warm body and palms, curled eyelashes, unhappy eyebrows, small lips, everything about her...

The door has been locked, so don't worry about being discovered by anyone, Fang Jian shouted without any scruples, wishful thinking and infatuated with her.

……

Since Jane had a manic episode at her sister's company annual meeting three years ago and turned over the table, the whole family didn't take her out for dinner. She was overturned twice at home, and her parents didn't ask her to eat together. Aunt Jiang prepared her meals. Come and eat by yourself in your room.

Sometimes she was sad, sometimes disdainful, but later she got used to it, eating her own food and being happy at ease, so as not to be lectured all the time.

Aunt Jiang saw that it was rare for her to sleep well, and she didn't wake her up at noon. The alarm clock rang at four o'clock in the afternoon, and Fang Jian woke up. She had dinner and changed clothes at five thirty.

Xiao Lai asked her to dress warmer, not to make her wear a down jacket in July and August. Fang Jian knew that what Xiao Lai meant was to make her feel more comfortable and not to force herself.

Fang Jian was once again so moved by Xiao Lai's thoughtfulness, she found her favorite gray T-shirt co-branded with Prison Rabbit in the closet, and she couldn't hold back two crocodile tears.

Loose-fitting tops, straight-leg jeans, sneakers, and various hats are Fang Jian's most comfortable attire. Her thin frame can make this kind of clothes look good. Gray and black make her feel more secure. Not so conspicuous in the crowd.

It is inevitable to be the focus when a mental illness breaks down. Fang Jian hates being noticed, and Xiao Lai can also see her discomfort, just like watching those young girls who have just entered the industry clumsily deal with cunning and difficult guests in nightclubs.

At seven o'clock in the evening, Fang Jian arrived as scheduled, and was arranged by the welcome lady to wait in the front hall, and the official business began at eight o'clock.

I didn't see Xiao Lai. She might be cleaning inside. Fang Jian leaned on the sofa and closed her eyes to rest. After a while, she felt someone approaching her. She didn't rush to open her eyes. She smelled it with her nose first. It was hot and fragrant. It smells so good, I'm sure it's Xiao Lai who opened his eyes.

Sure enough, it was her, still the same as yesterday, but the two frowning eyebrows were stretched out, there was a smile on the corner of the mouth, and a few tangerine peel candies lay in the palm of her hand.

"How did you recognize me!" Fang Jian raised her upper body slightly.

Xiao Lai lifted the candy to her lips, Fang Jian opened her mouth to take it, bit the candy wrapper with her teeth, and pulled back hard, the candy grains squeezed out of the package and fell into her mouth.

This is how they ate tangerine peel candies when they were young, they couldn't help but smile at each other, Xiao Lai also ate one, and gave her the rest to watch her put it in her trouser pocket.

The sweet and sour taste of tangerine peel sugar spread in her mouth. She was careful not to touch it with her teeth, but to slowly melt it and taste it.

"If you don't recognize anything, you can easily recognize it."

"How can I recognize..." She lowered her eyes and rubbed her head with her right hand, "I'm still wearing a hat."

"It looks very comfortable." Afraid she might misunderstand, Xiao Lai explained, "It's not that I look comfortable, it's that you are comfortable in it."

The loose clothes cover up the overly thin body, so you don't have to worry about the indecent movements. The fisherman's hat covers the bangs that haven't been trimmed for a long time, and the shoulder-length hair bends gently against the neck.

Everywhere on the body can be accommodated, but the shoes cannot be accommodated. The feet are the most grievous. If you switch back to your own shoes, your feet don’t need to be high in the air, but they can be firmly on the ground, and you will feel at ease immediately.

"Are you busy?" Fang Jian said, "Will I delay you?"

The sweet and sour smell of tangerine peel sugar rushed over, and Xiao Lai shook his head lightly, "I came here half an hour earlier today, and the area I'm in charge of has been cleaned up."

Xiao Lai simply sat down beside her, "Besides, you are a customer, the head waiter won't say anything."

Because of her saying "Come half an hour earlier", Fang Jian's heart surged with honey. She missed her when she couldn't see her, and didn't know what to say when they met. The two sat side by side. Fang Jian sneaked a glance at her, and her eyes fell on her. Two hands resting on the dark purple flannel sofa.

"What is this?" Lai pointed to her rainbow bracelet.

It's just looking for something to talk about, it's just a bracelet, what else can it be.

The rainbow cloth chain was five or six centimeters wide, which was just enough to cover the scar on her wrist. Fang Jian felt a little nervous, and gestured with her hands randomly, as if deliberately not to be seen clearly.

Xiao Lai said, "It's beautiful."

Fang Jian said "hmm", and put her hands on her knees honestly, "...do you like it, I can give it to you, and I will buy another one."

"Okay." Xiao Lai smiled, "I look forward to it."

Her smile is beautiful and sunny, with crooked eyes and a row of small white teeth.It is a smile that goes straight to the heart, and every part of the affected facial muscles is so harmonious. Seeing her smile will make her feel better.

In contrast, Fang Jian felt that she looked a bit bitter, her eye sockets were too deep, she looked preoccupied, her face was thin and thin, and her lips were very pale.

She couldn't remember how many times she had been hospitalized. An old lady in the same room condemned her, saying that she had a typical short-lived appearance, especially the small mole on her nose, which was a sinister mole.

Now Jiang Xiaolai's little soft finger is touching her nose, "Your mole is very beautiful, it hasn't changed much."

Xiao Lai's sudden approach made her shrink back nervously, ignoring the more important message hidden in the words, and shook her head repeatedly, "No, it's a mole."

"Evil mole? I still have a bra, who told me it's superstitious."

Fang Jian bent over laughing, her spine protruding from her clothes, and Xiao Lai put her hands on her back, "You are too thin, you need to eat more."

Fang Jian didn't dare to raise her head, fearing that the pair of deep eye sockets would scare her, and estimated the position that the brim of the hat could cover, only showing her satisfied nose and mouth, "I invite you to dinner tonight, okay, eat your usual food , okay?"

"Okay, there's nothing wrong with that." Little Lay paused and said, "You don't have to be so careful, I'm not your elder or teacher, we just need to talk normally."

Fang Jian just shook her head, she didn't realize it yet.Most of the children who are often denied are timid like her.

She was so nervous, with hands on her back, she remained tense, motionless, like a kitten pinching the back of her neck.

Xiao Lai said: "You are different from yesterday. You were so bold yesterday, but you are so timid today."

Fang Jian put the back of her hand to her lips and smiled, "I'm afraid you don't like me... You are not the same as yesterday. You were a bit fierce yesterday... Well, it should be today." They met twice today.

Xiao Lai lowered her eyelids and said nothing, but she didn't let go of her hands on her back. It was not until the foreman in the hall blew his whistle to call for assembly that Fang Jian carefully looked up at her. She had to show her shy eyes and no longer hide the desire in her heart.

"Then we, tonight..."

Xiao Lai said, "Wait until I get off work."

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