Like a swallow returning to its nest

The sky outside the window was gray and it was raining again. Fortunately, Xiao Lai brought a thick coat, put on comfortable clothes, and put on socks. Fang Jian sat obediently by the bed and waited. Then pick up the wash water, everyone, you don’t let me, I don’t let you, laughing and making a fuss.

It doesn't matter, they will have their own home soon, and no one will have to compete with others, and no one will knock on the door to remind them to sit on the toilet.

Fang Jian also cherishes the days of living in the dormitory. It is fun to have a lot of people. It is the most interesting to listen to them swearing. Most of the targets are guests or male colleagues in the venue. that stupid guy...

The friendship between women is very simple. They have scolded others together and have a common enemy. Everyone is a good sister.

Fang Jian has learned a lot about swearing in the past two days, and it is much more wild than Xiao Lai taught. She can swear as much as she wants, whatever is ugly or vicious, unlike Xiao Lai who takes care of her as a "civilized person", who has to find someone to swear. Lots of excuses.

Dad can't scold, mom can't scold, vicious curses can only be used on ancestors who have died for many years and the second uncle who doesn't exist.

Fang Jian can understand them very well, it is necessary to vent their emotions, especially in such an environment.

Otherwise, people will be suffocated.

Wang Xia squatted beside the bed and sprinkled sequins on her upper eyelids. Fang Jian called out to her, but she didn't lift her head, "What are you doing?"

Fang Jian said: "I came to Roman Holiday for the first time, and I scared you that night."

Wang Xia didn't make a sound, blinked in the mirror, flipped eyeliner in her small bag, and said after a long time: "When you wanted to hit me with a wine bottle? That's a fart. Let me tell you, the mental illness I met was too Too much, you were considered light that time, and you greeted me, and gave me time to escape. Let me tell you, a person who really wants to do something bad will not greet you before he does it. How can he Maybe say hello to you! Just like before the police want to catch the villain, will they call to let him escape in advance?"

This analogy is very good. Fang Jian was whitened in an instant and turned into a piece of soft tofu. While holding up a knife to kill someone, she yelled, "I'm going to kill someone. Everyone, run and hide."

"But I'm really mentally ill."

Wang Xia shook her head, "You are not."

"Why not." Fang Jian was very curious. No one expressed doubts when she lied, but no one believed her when she told the truth.

Wang Xia gave her an expression of "I'm so speechless, don't you see that I'm busy?" "No, I'm not! Why are there so many...don't talk to me! I'm going to put on eyeliner!"

There is no reason, there is no need to present facts and reason, it was not important at that time, if I say you are not you, you are not.There is no bottom line for connivance between friends, even if they are only temporary friends.

"Then have you scolded me in private?" Fang Jian asked.

The eyeliner was crooked, and Wang Xia wiped it off with a cotton swab dipped in some saliva, "I scolded you, didn't I just scold you for being mentally ill that day."

Fang Jian: "Did you scold me later?"

Wang Xia: "Later? You came here, how could I scold you in front of you."

Fang Jian: "Before I come?"

She looked left and right in the mirror, then turned to Fang Jian and asked, "Does it look good?"

Fang Jian quickly said, "It's pretty", and insisted: "I'm asking you, did you scold me?"

Wang Xia became angry at once, "You said you look good without even looking carefully! I think you are mentally ill now, who do you think you are, and people think about you for so long about a little shit, why don't you go back with Xiao Lai?" Who remembers you in the dormitory...Forget it, I'll ask Xiao Lai, you'll only be perfunctory to me..."

"Xiaoxia." Fang Jian called her to stop, smiling silly, "I just want to apologize to you, I'm sorry."

The little girl, after graduating from high school, was admitted to the local teacher college, and she worked part-time during the summer vacation to earn a small amount of money. She couldn't stand it anymore and shivered with nausea, stuck out her tongue and let out a "vomit", and ran all the way before saying, "It's okay, I've already passed out." Can not remember."

Fang Jian smiled, and rubbed her knees habitually with the heels of her palms. The child must have come out early to be beaten by the society.

The cell phone made a ignorant "ding" sound in his trouser pocket, and Fang Jian pressed it subconsciously. She had a very bad premonition, but she still couldn't help taking it out to look at it.

Fang Chun is haunted.

——I know where your car is, you don't need to see the doctor, you come to see me.

"Fuck!" Fang Jian couldn't help but want to scold her.

——Have you fixed it on my car?

Fang Chun didn't answer, and directly sent the address of the coffee shop downstairs in the company, asking her to arrive before two o'clock.

Fang Jian came up angrily: Are you sick?If you tell me to go there, I have to leave all my affairs and go. Why do you have it?You are not my mother, why do you care about me?

——What can you do, as a waiter in that messy place?How much money you earn a month, and you are still mixing with those dubious people outside.

Fang Jian is powerless to defend her friend and Xiao Lai, telling Fang Chun that they are not dubious people.She has no ability to change anyone, change decades of deep-rooted arrogance and prejudice, disputes are useless, she has long understood this truth.

——You investigate me?

- I am your sister.

Fang Jian laughed back: Really, I thought you were my mother.

——The eldest brother is like a father, it is not too much to say that it is your mother, now that my parents don't care about you, I will take care of you.You clearly know what's going on with you, but you don't draw attention, do you know what you're doing?

Fang Jian sneered again and again, just look at her tone.

It's not good for sisters to quarrel, and the national curses that are usually blurted out are not suitable here. After a moment of hesitation, the momentum will be greatly weakened, but it doesn't matter, there are other things.

Fang Jian: I hate your uncle.

Fang Chun:? ?

——Very well, after going out for a few days, I have learned to swear.

Fang Jian: Today, you are a slap in the face, you bastard, the 22nd floor of Ruijin Building is on fire, why don't you run away?

Fang Chun on the other end of the phone was silent for a long time, Fang Jian was triumphant: be afraid.

After 2 minutes, the other side seemed to have calmed down, ignoring her disrespect, and continued to issue orders: Before two o'clock, go downstairs to the coffee shop, let's talk.

Talking about the mysterious words this time, Fang Jian thought, she really needs to talk about it, she can no longer be a remote control car, she must take back the right to operate the handle from Fang Chun, and she must be completely independent.

Xiao Lai came over with clothes to dry, took off the hangers one by one, and folded them into squares one by one. She talked about the group building arrangement with great interest, "They said that there is a large area under the mountain villa. The lake is called Hongye Lake, the lake is full of red maples, and it’s especially beautiful in autumn, it’s not autumn, but we can also fish and swim, can you swim?”

Fang Jian was absent-minded, "Yeah, ahhhh", Xiao Lai went to bed to change clothes, "Ask if you can swim."

Across the bed curtain, Fang Jian clenched her hands tightly, her fingertips almost digging into her flesh, and summoned up her courage, "Xiao Lai, I...something happened at home, I have to go back immediately."

The bed curtain was lifted, and an anxious little face was squeezed out, "What happened? Grandpa and grandma? Or someone else?"

Fang Jian's heart was beating wildly, Fang Jian's expression was distorted, she didn't need to look in the mirror to know that she looked ugly, "Just now, I answered my sister's call... I can't tell clearly on the phone, it's not good anyway, it's... Dad, fell fall down."

Dad is in good health and is as strong as a cow. If he really falls, he should be fine.Dad, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, my daughter is so unfilial.

"Then you go back quickly. You don't have to go to work anyway. I'll ask the foreman to help you take leave. It's okay." Xiao Lai quickly got dressed and came out, dragging and dragging her out the door, more anxious than she was, "Go back and have a look , don't delay."

Fang Jian held her hand, full of guilt, couldn't help blurting out the truth several times, and swallowed the words after a few twists and turns.

"But what do you do? What about team building?"

what to do?Shouldn't you ask yourself why you are throwing the question to others.

Xiao Lai pressed the elevator button madly, and quickly gave a solution: "I'm not going, I'll wait for you in the dormitory, if you come back early, we still have time to play, if you don't come, it's meaningless for me to go alone. "

Fang Jian stood in the elevator car, motionless, Xiao Lai thoughtfully helped her press the floor button, and waited for the elevator door to close for a few seconds, although it was so close, it seemed to be separated by mountains and seas.

"If only I could go with you."

The moment the elevator doors closed, Fang Jian heard Xiao Lai say this.

I want to accompany you, but we are gay, we haven't been together well yet, what if someone discovers our relationship when we go with you?I don't want to be separated from you yet... Even if we really want to separate in the future, at least we have to spend some time together.

How considerate and thoughtful, Xiao Lai has helped her think of these problems, the temporary separation is to spend more time together.

What about the facts?They are all lying to you, there is not a single truth in Fang Jian's mouth.

Lied since childhood, eager to get the favor of his parents, deliberately taking a cold bath to make himself sick; not wanting to be a soldier, playing a flashlight and reading comics under the bed and ruining his eyes; The fragile body of more concern...

From childhood to adulthood, there are too many such things, and the number is endless.

Fang Jian never thought about what would happen after the lie was exposed. She had considered all the details, and she would not be discovered. Lying is what she is best at.

Besides, if you find out, you will find out, anyway, you are a transparent person in the family, and no one cares.

The parents also gradually realized that she was just a child who lacked love, and they would forgive her in the end.

it's OK.

Stumbling and walking in the light rain in the early morning of midsummer, her body temperature gradually rose while walking, and she couldn't wear her coat anymore. Fang Jian took off her coat and ran wildly in the rain, and ran to the parking lot somehow.

The murder scene has been cleaned up, leaving only large mottled red patches on the ground, dead people, hatchets, and injured security guards have long since disappeared.

Unknown people walked across the bloody concrete road. If they hadn't seen it with their own eyes, who would believe that a person died here a few hours ago.

Four or 10 minutes later, Fang Jian parked his car in the parking lot downstairs of Ruijin Building, and took the elevator to the coffee shop that he had made an appointment with Fang Chun.

Through the glass door, she saw Fang Chun sitting on the sofa and smiling at her. This smile is a bit helpless and indulgent, and it is more self-satisfied—look, no matter how much you quarrel with me, you still have to come to see me , I am your sister.

"I ordered a cup of mocha for you. You seem to need to add some sugar. How about a small cake?"

Fang Jian nodded, she really needed to replenish her energy, otherwise she wouldn't have the strength to quarrel later.

"Why did you install the positioning system on my car?" Fang Jian said at the beginning after taking a seat.

"I don't worry about you, I'm thinking about your safety." Fang Chun clasped his hands and laid them flat on the table, full of leadership style.

Fang Jian relaxed and leaned on the sofa, "You are still so self-righteous."

Fang Chun shook her head, her face was her usual indifference, it was really helpless to have such a younger sister, she had to pay attention all the time, but she didn't appreciate it.That's right, it's just this kind of helplessness, it's not easy being a big sister.

When the cake was served, Fang Jian gnawed it with her mouth open, and the Black Forest ate three mouthfuls. Fang Chun took out a tissue from her purse. Fang Jian fought her by rolling the back of her hand over her mouth, and scraping the five fingers of her right hand across the top and bottom respectively. Lips, just took the tissue and slowly wiped off the chocolate sauce and cream stains on the back of the hand.

This is what she learned in the Roman Holiday staff cafeteria. The director of the beauty department wipes her mouth like this, and she has to blow her nose again in the full version. The thumb and forefinger of the blown nose are wiped on the rough wall of the self-built house behind her. One touch and everything is clean.

Oh, by the way, the chili flakes and oil stains on the back of the hand ended up rubbing directly on the pants, and the black pants couldn't be seen anyway.

Fang Jian thought, she still needs some time, pay attention next time, it is best to perform the full version in front of the whole family at the New Year's Eve dinner.

Fang Chun was dumbfounded, and so was the clerk who brought the coffee.

During the lunch break, the coffee shop was crowded with social animals in the office building. Several interns from the company trotted forward to greet the boss. Fang Chun smiled politely, called the waiter, and settled their bills together.

Fang Jian picked up the coffee cup and began to chatter, "Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" Quite save face.

"Be quieter." Fang Chun warned her in a low voice.

Fang Jian snorted with a meaningless meaning, stood up abruptly, approached her, almost nose to nose, and whispered sullenly like a devil, "You don't care about my affairs, if you meddle in other things, be careful and I'll show you to death. "

She untied the rainbow bracelet on her left wrist. There were different shades of white scars on her wrist. She had a total of fourteen incisions that time, leaving half of the scars. Except for the stitch doctor in the clinic, no one else had seen that scar. Desperate and crimson.

The wrist was in front of Fang Chun, and words were squeezed out from the roots of the teeth: "My friends are not dubious people, you should know that not all people are born with such good fortune as you, you can look down on them, what do you think? I don't think I really care about it, but I hope you have some respect in your mouth. Also, I don't want to be your puppet anymore. Don't call me, don't send me text messages, and don't feed cut apples to my mouth."

"The thing I hate the most is apples. My gums are bad, and every time I eat an apple, my mouth will bleed! Since you are my own sister, why don't you even know about this! You let me eat apples again and again, all the time Me, I never like apples, I hate apples! I hate apples! I hate your arrangement too!!"

She almost roared out the last sentence, she couldn't control herself, tears poured down her cheeks, after she shouted, she picked up the coffee on the table and drank it, and strode out, her thin figure gradually blurred in the gray rain and fog between the sky and the earth , blending with the coldness of the city.

The coffee shop was silent for five seconds in this reckless emotional catharsis, and time seemed to be suspended for five seconds. The clerks and customers looked sideways for two or three seconds, and everything returned to normal.

Fang Chun fell down on the sofa, tears unknowingly blurred her glasses, and several interns surrounded her, maintaining the movement of handing tissues, not even daring to breathe.

This was the first time that Fang Jian opposed her family and her arrangement so fiercely, and overturned her just like the company overturned the dinner table at the annual meeting.

Fang Chun was sure that there was no physical contact between them, but she still felt her face hurt, as if she had been slapped hard.

Her mind was in a mess, how could a person's gums be so fragile that even an apple would bleed out a mouth full of blood?She obviously cut the apple into very small pieces...

There are also soups stewed at home, imported fish oil supplements, and the meticulous love of the whole family. Why can't she be fat at all?

In the end is which part of the problem.

Fang Jian ran back to the parking lot with a detour covered in damp moisture, and lay down in the small nest in the back seat of the car that he left in a hurry that night and had no time to clean up.

The bedding and pillow still had the smell of Xiao Lai. This faint pleasant smell made her feel a little better, but the tears were still hard to stop. She gradually felt that it was difficult to breathe, and every time the veins in her temples throbbed, she felt a pang. Unbearable pain.

The matter is perfectly resolved, Fang Chun looks so hurt, I will definitely not ask her again for a long time, but it is still so sad, so sad...

Every time she hurts the people around her, she is in pain, but she obviously did nothing wrong, just trying to express her true inner feelings, why this has become a kind of sin.

I don't want to be controlled, I want to be free, and I want to support myself. Even Xiaoxia has done well. Why is it so difficult for 24-year-old Fang Jian?

At the age of 24, both men and women are over the legal age of marriage. Why do the family always treat her as a minor, cut off the climbing vines, and prevent her from growing up.

So tired, exhausted, this emotional catharsis almost exhausted all her strength, the fragment that flashed back and forth in her mind was the moment when the black hatchet fell on that head, the sticky hot blood flooded her, her head hurt...

Fang Jian cried out of breath in the car, her despair was wrapped in black sea water, she tried her best to go upstream, finally broke through the water, but in the extreme, she had nothing to rely on, only sinking.

She warned herself, don't cry anymore, don't get sick again, there are still many things waiting for you to do.

Take a deep breath, exhale slowly, calm your mind, don't think about anything, let go... She laid her body flat, pulled the quilt to cover herself, her body temperature gradually warmed up, and she repaired fragments of herself in her sleep.

The parking lot does not distinguish between day and night. This sleep was very deep and very deep. It is rare to have no dreams. When she woke up, she hurriedly took out her mobile phone from under the pillow and checked that it was already six in the afternoon.

Fang Jian climbed to the front seat, rubbed her swollen and sore face with the palm of her hand, started the car and drove onto the main road, the rain hadn't stopped, and it was completely dark, but it wasn't completely dark, and the street lights didn't turn on. As far as the eyes could see, it was cold and gray, just like the desolation in her heart.

She walked through this lush steel forest, looking for a small nest made of thatch and river mud hidden on one of the branches, which was her home.

During the evening rush hour, it took two hours to get to the dormitory downstairs. During the period, Fang Jian went to the auto repair shop to pay someone to dismantle the GPS. She finally threw the black rectangular gadget on the garbage truck of the sanitation workers on the side of the road. .

She washed the drool and tears off her face in the bathroom of the repair shop, used popsicles to reduce the puffiness of her eyes, and she didn't even need to make up lies--Dad fell down, but he was in good health and nothing serious, so I hurried came back.

Taking the elevator upstairs, the door at the end of the passage was half open, waiting silently, Fang Jian walked over slowly with light steps, pushed the door open, everyone was taken away by the bus, the room was dark and quiet, only Yu's square glass door is dark blue.

A thin, small silhouette, sitting alone on the edge of the bed.

Xiao Lai hugged the pillow, his limbs relaxed and drooped, and fell asleep.

She changed her clothes and shoes, combed her hair neatly, and didn't dare to lie down on the bed to sleep when she was tired, so that when Fang Jian came back, she didn't have to spend time waiting for her to get dressed, and they could leave right away and chase after her. Go to the big team to have fun.

Just wait and wait, sit and sit, until it gets dark.

The author has something to say:

Fang Jian is a liar since he was a child, let me see what you will do in the future!snort!

There is one more update at nine o'clock.

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