love you, in time

Yan Qing left on the third day after I was hospitalized with a high fever.

My life began to slowly return to the right track, but when I was free, I would occasionally see that familiar figure dangling around me, as if she had never left, reminding me of how much I miss her.

In the end, I stayed in University A, working as a counselor for freshmen, and at the same time studying as a graduate student with my supervisor.The days are flat and busy.

But that's good too, at least I don't have so much free time, and the daily dizziness has actually improved my sleep quality, so that I no longer suffer from insomnia and nightmares because of Yan Qing's departure.

In the past three years, I have deliberately reduced the number of times I go home, not because I don’t want to be with my parents, but because there are too many memories of Yan Qing near my home.

What used to be sweet and greasy has now become a forbidden area that I don't want to touch. Now it's okay to look at them in a daze, but I just can't touch and recall them, otherwise there will be bursts of tingling pain in my heart.

While busy studying and working, my parents successfully transformed their small family business into interior design and decoration. I know it was for my future consideration.

It would be a lie to say that I am not moved, and I also know in my heart that I have owed my parents more or less for Yan Qing these years, but even after Yan Qing left for a long time, I still couldn't move my mind away from her.

Even if I refrain myself from inquiring any news about her, stop thinking about everything about her, and even dare not click on the WeChat avatar that has been on the top for many years......

Maybe, it's really like what Zi Sangyu and the others said, I was secretly under the spell of love, that's why I was so obsessed, even if I hit the south wall, I refused to turn back.

It was indeed a curse, a love curse called Yan Qing.Don't want to go back, don't want to go back... can't go back.

Why do you say I can't wait?Chu Mian waited for Su Xue for five years, isn't she also together now?I often look in the direction of Country Y, and fall into deep thought for a long time without returning to my senses.

In the second year after Yan Qing went abroad, I took advantage of the summer vacation to go back to Yingcai, and met Su Xue, who was already teaching at Yingcai, and Chu Mian, who came to pick her up.

The state of the two of them getting along now is more and more like Zisangyu Wenrenqing, they are like glue all day long, sweet and cloying.

"Little Sunshine, long time no see." Holding Su Xue's arm, Chu Mian came out talking and laughing with her. Chu Mian saw me standing on the steps in a daze, and greeted me with a smile.

"Sister Chu Mian? Sister Su Xue? Why are you here?"

"Because I am now Yingcai's English teacher." Su Xue explained to me with a smile, "As for this beautiful prosecutor~ she is here to pick up her girlfriend."

This explanation made me dumbfounded. If I didn't know that the two were lovers and hadn't separated, it might be really easy to think that Chu Mian had cheated.

"Hehe..." I smiled awkwardly, "Sister Su Xue, it's not funny at all, you're talking about Sister Chu Mian as if she cheated on you."

"Where is that?" Su Xue stretched out her hand and rubbed her nose, she smiled lightly but was caught by Chu Mian's ears beside her, "Hey, hey, Mianmian...Mianmian...I Wrong~ It hurts~"

"Let you talk nonsense in front of Little Sunshine" withdrew her hand, Chu Mian walked in front of me and hugged my shoulder "Let's go, we haven't talked for a long time"

"it is good"

I called Zi Sangyu and Wen Renqing together, and the five of us went to the bar, watching the little girl who sang on the stage playing the guitar, and Yan Qing, after the college entrance examination, appeared in front of me, holding me in his arms and teaching me how to play. In the scene of the guitar, the fog in the eye sockets rose and instantly blurred the vision.

Ayan, I miss you so much, you...do you know?

Ayan, will you....... miss me?Will you not get used to it because I am not by your side?

I'm... really going crazy

After the song on the stage was over, the little girl held the microphone and said, "This song is for the boy I like, Ache, I like you!" A boy in blue under the stage scratched the back of his head embarrassingly, Then nodded shyly.

The girl rushed off the stage and ran into the boy's arms. Looking at the two people who were embracing each other, and then at the four people who had already paired up, I drank the wine in my hand with a wry smile.

Ayan, you are right, wine is really not good at all.

Ayan, there are two of them now, only me... only me...

Ayan, don't you always take care of me and don't let me touch alcohol?Look, I've already drank a bottle, why...don't show up in front of me and control me?Even if it's just to scold me, it's fine...

Ah Yan...

In a daze, I walked up to the girl, "Can I borrow your guitar?"

"Of course." The girl readily took the guitar off her shoulder and handed it to me. "Does my sister also want to sing to the person she likes?"

"Yes." After replying with a smile, I lowered my head a little lonely again, "Unfortunately, she is far away now."

With the guitar on my back, I went on stage and held the microphone, "I just want to say, I miss her very much, from now until the second before she comes back"

I closed my eyes silently, recalling the familiar melody in my mind, and my fingers began to pluck the strings lightly.

".........

i can follow you

Sleepwalking like a shadow chasing the light

I can wait at this intersection

whether you will pass

Whenever I lift my head up for you

Even tears feel free

Some love is like rain

But still believe in the rainbow"

Ayan, this is the first art festival I sang "The Light Chaser" to you, and now, I'm singing it again.

Ayan, after so many years, the lyrics of this song are still what I want to say to you, do you... know?

Ayan, if you are destined to shine brightly, then please leave a small world for me in the shadow behind you.

Let me be an existence that lives with you, even if you are always in the dark...it is good.

But I didn't know that Chu Mian and the others recorded the scene of me singing on stage and sent it to Yan Qing who was far away on the other side of the Asian continent.

Standing on the top floor of Fengluan's headquarters, Yan Qing watched the video in a daze for a long time, then held his mobile phone and looked at the starry sky outside the window with complicated eyes.Picking up the photo frame on the desktop and putting it on his chest, Yan Qing silently said in his heart:

I seem to have found the answer, but it seems, a little late.

Hee Hee, I miss you, I'm sorry, I... seem to really like you.

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