love you, in time

Orange rainstorm warning on July 2023, 7

This is a day I will never forget. On this day, Yan Qing and I had our first quarrel.

July 7th is the day for our department to take graduation photos, and it also means that I will officially graduate from University A.But... I don't feel any joy in my mood.

After taking the graduation photo, I stared at the red word 'failed' on the screen of my phone for a long time and couldn't get back to my senses.

In the end, I still didn't pass it, but Yan Qing must have passed it.

So.... will she go?Or will you stay for me?

Suddenly there was a shadow behind him, tall and slender, it belonged to Yan Qing.

After years of companionship, I already know Yan Qing better than I know myself.Even if it's just a shadow, a... peripheral vision

Facing the sun was a bit dazzling, I lowered my head to suppress the fear in my eyes, I turned my head to look at Yan Qing behind me, with a bright and bright smile on my face.

Perhaps the sun was too strong, Yan Qing in front of him narrowed his eyes slightly, and there was a complexity in his eyes that I couldn't understand.

"Ayan? Why are you here?" I walked over and stood less than two steps away from Yan Qing, "I have good news for you. I have been admitted to the graduate school of University A. How can I... .”

"Hee Hee, my application to go abroad has been finalized and I will leave next week"

"Isn't it........too bad" I was stunned, I didn't expect Yan Qing to be so direct "What?"

"I...go abroad next week." The cold voice came again, like a thunderbolt that exploded in my head, and before I answered the myth, I blurted out "So you still decide to go?"

"Didn't you already know it, why...?" Yan Qing lowered his head slightly, looking at me with puzzled eyes, "Let's go, while I'm still in the country, I'll celebrate your successful landing."

It seemed that it was inconvenient to wear a bachelor's hat. I saw Yan Qing's hand that was about to rub my head dropped down and squeezed my face instead, and then took my hand and walked towards the dormitory.

"Xixi?" Seeing that I didn't move, Yan Qing was a little puzzled, and turned around to see my disappointed look, "What's wrong?"

"Ayan, do you have to go abroad?" I lowered my head and let Yan Qing hold my body but now I refused to move, my voice was so muffled that it was already stained with tears, "Do you have to leave?"

"This has been decided a long time ago, and I went out to prepare for taking over Fengluan in the future." Yan Qing who came back stretched out his hand to lift my chin, forcing me to look at her, and then sighed lightly with his empty hand Gently wiped away the tears that had already flowed down my face, "I'll be back in three years, darling, don't cry Hee Hee"

"Is it okay if I don't go?" Obviously, the current scene has been rehearsed countless times in my mind, but when I actually face it, all the feelings seem to be doubled, and I just throw away my armor and armor without a trace of resistance. strength.

Loss, despair, collapse and exhaustion firmly occupy my heart. This is the first time in seven years that they completely overwhelm my liking for Yan Qing, and make it impossible for him to turn around.

"Xixi, don't make trouble." Yan Qing frowned and emphasized his tone.

So I want to keep your heart. In your eyes, is it the waywardness of a child?Ayan

I just want to stay by your side, Ayan

Ayan, I really can't catch up with you, stop and wait for me, okay?

"Ayan, don't go... can't you?" I stubbornly and stubbornly asked her again, looking at the helplessness and impatience in her eyes, my heart felt as if it had been pierced by countless needles. Slowly spread to the whole body.

But then Yan Qing's words instantly collapsed the inner wall that had been built so hard to pretend to be strong, and the tears that had been trying so hard to restrain burst instantly.

"Hee Hee, don't be so childish, okay?"

Childish... Ha ha... Ah Yan... I am indeed childish and outrageous.

I was naive so I believed you can always rely on your 'lie'

I'm naive, so believe me I can really act like a child in front of you

I'm naive... so I believe that just give you a little more time, I can exist in your future

I raised my head and looked at the person in front of me who I had loved for seven years. For some reason, I suddenly realized that the Yan Qing in front of me had long since lost the youthful shadow of his youth, and his every move had completely changed into the appearance of an adult. The appearance made me feel a little strange.

"Ayan, we've known each other for seven years." Looking through Yan Qing's face, I looked at the distant sky, feeling a little powerless.

"Why all of a sudden..." Brows twisted into Chuanzi, Yan Qing froze for a moment, then softened his voice, "Xixi, this is my plan for more than ten years, so... ..”

"Ayan, it's been seven years." I ignored Yan Qing, and I interrupted her with empty eyes, "So I never appeared in your future, right?"

"Xixi" Yan Qing let go of the hand on my shoulder and turned to leave, "I think we all need to calm down."

calm downI don't think I can be calm anymore.

After all, I still want to watch you leave.

I wanted to catch up and hug Yan Qing, but I don't know whether it was God's will or why, my steps suddenly softened, and I knelt and sat on the ground.

I don't know when the sky turned cloudy, dispelling the surrounding light, and also made my surroundings suddenly dark, just like...my heart at this time.

The raindrops fell on me one after another, and soon it became a heavy rain.

I sat in the rain and let the rain blur my vision, and the tears that covered my face also cooled my heart that was no longer hot.My mind was blank, I just knew that my Ayan was leaving.

I don't know how long I stayed in the rain, I started to feel cold all over, and my eyes turned black.But I don't want to move, what was I thinking at that time?It was still Yan Qing.I'm betting, betting on myself.Bet that Yan Qing will turn around, bet that she will come back to me like before, rubbing my head with a smile and saying, "Why is little sun disobedient again?"

But....... no.

In the end, the only thing I waited for was the figures of Qin Si and the others running towards me with umbrellas, and then my eyes went dark... I fell into endless darkness.

"Ayan"

These are the last two words before I lose consciousness.

After waking up and opening my eyes, I was a little confused looking at the snow-white ceiling and the drip above my head, and felt like crying for a while.Am I...in the hospital?It seems so.

It’s really similar, the color of the ceiling is like the scene of Yan Qing and I standing by the Jingsi Lake that day when it was snowing heavily. That day, there was also a vast expanse of whiteness around us.

"Xiaoxi? You're awake, you scared us to death." The door of the ward was pushed open, and then Wen Renqing and Zi Sangyu walked in, holding a white lunch box in their hands.

"Fu Xiaoxi! You said you were for her..." Zi Sangyu, who was about to scold me, was pulled by the corner of her clothes by Wen Renqing, and abruptly changed her words, "She How can your own body be so important, what the hell are you doing?"

"Does she know?" I stared blankly at the ceiling with blank eyes, a little lifeless, "If you don't know, don't tell her."

"That will disappoint you." Zi Sangyu sat on the edge of my bed with his chest folded, annoyed, "Not only did we tell her, but I even slapped your sweetheart."

"Xiao Yu!" Hearing that she hit Yan Qing, I sat up subconsciously, but I quickly fell back on the bed without any strength in my body, "Forget it, you shouldn't hit hard."

"Tsk~ I still feel distressed after it's like this." The door was pushed open again, and Lan Gum's voice came from the door, followed by Yang Yu, "What did Yan Qing do with this piece of ice in his life? She can't"

Because Lan Yu and Yang Yu are also a few years older than us, and they have some relationship with Qin Si's girlfriend Yu Yang, so later we changed our name and stopped calling them teachers, but sisters.

"Miss Blue Eucalyptus..." I was a little speechless, she was right, her eyes turned red again in an instant, "But I have liked her for seven years."

Seven years, more than 500 days and nights, that was all my youth when I was a teenager.

How do I force myself to let go?How can I let myself let go?

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Don't worry, I will let Fuxi keep the clouds open and see the moonlight

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