freedom of rebirth

Xu Jie couldn't see Xu Guanhao's expression at this time, but he heard Xu Guanhao's voice full of surprise and shivering. "Xiaojie...what's the matter with you?"

Holding Xu Guanhao's hand tightly, Xu Jie suppressed the emotions in his heart, and after a long time, he said in a hoarse voice: "I'm afraid, I'm afraid I won't be able to see it in the future."

Xu Jie's words made Xu Guanhao's heart ache, he hurriedly bent down, after hesitating for a while, he pulled out his hand to gently wrap around Xu Jie, and at the same time touched Xu Jie's face with the other hand.

Being hugged by Xu Guanhao, Xu Jie closed his eyes, stretched out his arms and wrapped his arms around Xu Guanhao, and now he is very eager for this warm embrace that can give him.

"It's okay, the doctor said, your eyes will see it, don't worry, I won't let anything happen to you, I will find the best doctor to treat you, and you will definitely see it." Feeling extremely distressed, Xu Guanhao watched Looking at Xu Jie's fragile appearance, he wished he could replace Xu Jie, and he would rather be the one who couldn't see things now.

With his eyes closed, Xu Jie felt a heat in his eyes, and he hugged Xu Guanhao's hand hard. "Xu Guanhao, I'm sorry."

Both Xu Guanhao and Xu Jie knew what the phrase 'I'm sorry' was about. Xu Guanhao's expression was a little complicated and painful for a moment after hearing it, but when he saw Xu Jie's closed eyes actually dripping tears, he was startled and anxious. He hugged Xu Jie and comforted him, he couldn't care less about his uncomfortable mood.

"It's okay, it's okay, I'm fine...you don't need to apologize, Xiaojie, be good, don't cry."

Since Xu Jie was ten years old, Xu Guanhao has almost never seen Xu Jie cry, and Xu Jie has always been a very strong child. No matter what happens, if he can solve it himself, he will never tell him, unless he finds out and suffers. He will tell him about the grievances after he finds out, otherwise he must bear it by himself.When his parents were still alive, they didn't like Xu Jie at all, and they were dissatisfied with his behavior of pampering Xu Jie too much. They even secretly said Xu Jie a few times. At that time, he didn't know at all when he was in school. As usual, he couldn't see that Xu Jie had been wronged at all, and he only found out the last time Jin Bo said that he showed his mouth.

Therefore, after seeing Xu Jie shed tears suddenly, Xu Guanhao felt distressed. He wiped the corners of Xu Jie's eyes with his palm, showing all the pity on his face. Xu Jie's methods coax Xu Jie.

Xu Guanhao was afraid that the instrument he was pressing on Xu Jie's body might make Xu Jie uncomfortable, but Xu Jie held Xu Guanhao tighter and tighter, and finally buried his head in Xu Guanhao's arms, silently soaking tears on Xu Guanhao's collar .

When Xu Jie finally calmed down, Xu Guanhao hurriedly got up, touched Xu Jie's red and swollen corners of his eyes, and couldn't help but kissed the corners of Xu Jie's eyes, then got up and sat back on the chair. Xu Jie wiped his eyes, but Xu Jie's hand holding him was very strong, so he could only sit back in his original position.

"I'll get you a towel."

Shaking his head, Xu Jie held Xu Guanhao's hand tightly. After crying just now, his head hurts, and he was a little confused for a while.

Seeing Xu Jie frowning, Xu Guanhao couldn't care less about the towel, and hurriedly asked nervously and distressed: "What's wrong? Do you have a headache."

"Um……"

"Then I'll call the doctor." Xu Guanhao was about to press the button, but Xu Jie stopped him.

"I want to sleep for a while, there is no need to call a doctor..." After a pause, Xu Jie finally added another sentence. "do not go."

With a happy and worried expression on his face, Xu Guanhao hurriedly said: "Okay, I won't go, I will always be here with you, you can rest assured."

With Xu Guanhao's assurance, Xu Jie held Xu Guanhao's hand and slowly closed his eyes.

……

Waking up again, Xu Jie opened his eyes, but it was still pitch black. He was disappointed at once, but felt relieved after feeling that his hand was still held in a gentle palm.

"Are you awake? Do you want some water?"

Shaking his head, Xu Jie turned his head in embarrassment and said, "I'm going to the bathroom."

Before he woke up, he had a catheter attached to his body, and Xu Guanhao scrubbed his body after each treatment. He didn’t know he was in a coma before, but after waking up, Xu Jie couldn’t stand the catheter anymore. It was too uncomfortable for him to lie on the bed to solve it. Moreover, Xu Guanhao had to scrub him every time, which made him even more embarrassed, so as soon as he woke up today, he asked the doctor to remove those things for him.

Xu Guanhao noticed that things on Xu Jie had been removed when he came in today, and asked the doctor specifically, and he was relieved when he learned that Xu Jie could get up.Now when I heard that Xu Jie was going to the bathroom, I helped to remove some connected equipment, and then helped Xu Jie to get up.

Xu Guanhao supported Xu Jie, and when he saw Xu Jie stood up and swayed, he felt very worried, and wrapped his arms around Xu Jie, almost hugging Xu Jie's whole body in his arms.

Because he couldn't see, after standing up, Xu Jie subconsciously leaned against Xu Guanhao. After being helped into the bathroom, Xu Jie waited for a while but did not see Xu Guanhao let go, so he said in a low voice, "Go out first."

After Xu Jie finished speaking, he didn't expect that instead of going out, Xu Guanhao stretched out his hand to pull his pants, and he was startled.

"Why do I go out with you like this? What's so embarrassing? I helped you take a bath when you were a child. I haven't seen any part of your body." With a blushing face, Xu Guanhao said in a flat voice on purpose. He hesitated to help Xu Jie solve it.

Feeling Xu Guanhao holding his sense of touch, Xu Jie's head suddenly exploded. Although he couldn't see it, he still turned his face aside.

After Xu Jie finished solving, Xu Guanhao helped Xu Jie back to the bed, and then let Xu Jie lie down and went to the bathroom by himself.

Hearing the sound of water coming from the bathroom, Xu Jie knew that Xu Guanhao was washing his hands, and his face turned slightly red. After Xu Guanhao came out, he sat aside, and changed the subject a little bit, "What time is it?"

"03:30." Looking at his watch, Xu Guanhao said.

"Is it only three o'clock?"

Smiling, Xu Guanhao reached out to hold Xu Jie's hand. "It's three o'clock at night, you thought it was still afternoon."

I was surprised, but soon Xu Jie frowned. "It's already three o'clock in the morning, why don't you come back..." Xu Jie stopped in the middle of speaking, because he thought that Xu Guanhao didn't go back because he told Xu Guanhao not to leave.

"Are you sleepy, why don't you go to rest!"

Knowing why Xu Jie said that, Xu Guanhao touched Xu Jie's forehead with his hand. "I'm not sleepy, I'm here with you."

Closing his eyes, Xu Jie silently stretched out his hand to touch Xu Guanhao next to him. He really didn't understand why Xu Guanhao fell in love with him, and he didn't understand how Xu Guanhao could love him so much, no matter it was the previous life or this life, the previous life Xu Guanhao imprisoned him because he loved him, and in this life Xu Guanhao still did so many things for him because he loved him.

During this period of time, when Xu Jie was in a coma, Xu Guanhao had been guarding by the bed, and even personally fed and wiped Xu Jie, but he no longer touched and kissed Xu Jie like before, because Xu Guanhao's words that day made Xu Guanhao feel like a lightning strike, and he kept thinking about it. , Could it be that Xu Jie saw it because of his usual uncontrollable behavior? In a coma, Xu Guanhao also forced himself not to engage in those intimate acts. He didn't want to be regarded as a pervert, liking the other party is already unbearable for the other party, if he is treated as a pervert again...

After Xu Jie woke up, Xu Guanhao controlled his behavior even more, until today Xu Jie suddenly broke out, he couldn't bear it, and even more distressed, he couldn't help but hug Xu Jie to comfort him.

"why?"

He had been resisting not to pay attention to Xu Jie's hand on his face, Xu Guanhao suddenly heard Xu Jie's words, and immediately asked: "What?"

Putting down his hands, Xu Jie stared at the sky with his eyes open. "why do you like me."

After Xu Jie asked, he felt that Xu Guanhao was holding his hand stiff, paused for a while and shrank his hand tremblingly.

Turning his head to face Xu Guanhao's direction, Xu Jie continued to ask: "Why?"

Xu Jie couldn't see the expression on Xu Guanhao's face, but he could hear the embarrassment and helplessness in Xu Guanhao's voice. "……I have no idea."

In the past few days, since Xu Jie woke up, the two of them have actually been avoiding what happened, and tacitly avoided the matter of "Xu Guanhao loves Xu Jie", but what Xu Guanhao didn't expect was that Xu Jie actually Suddenly speaking.

After being silent for a while, Xu Jie said again: "Then when did you like me?"

Lowering his head, Xu Guanhao was frustrated and nervous. "I, I cut off relations with you about a year ago."

Frowning, Xu Jie said, "I was only 12 years old at that time."

With a sudden retraction of his fingertips, Xu Guanhao bit his lip hard, clenched the other hand next to him for several times before holding back his emotions and said: "I love you...I'm not a pervert. I love you and Your age doesn't matter, and I never did anything quietly when you didn't understand."

"...I know." Of course he knows this. He knows better than anyone whether Xu Guanhao has hurt him. He didn't do anything outrageous to him, nor did he force him, which is why after he knew what Xu Guanhao was thinking, he was only disappointed and angry, but not disgusted or disgusted.

The uncomfortable and anxious mood suddenly eased a lot in Xu Jie's bland words. Xu Guanhao held Xu Jie tightly again, and after a long silence, he spoke again with a bit of grievance in his tone: "Then why did you leave me?" , that appointment, if he wants to find you, it can be as early as ten years ago, five years ago, why didn't he come at that time, why did he come now... He is obviously using you, but even so, you still have to leave me Follow him."