First love that started today

"How much did Shen Qi drink?"

Hearing Gu Qingxu's voice, Gu Jing was at a loss for a moment: "Mom..."

Zhuang Tingxi originally planned to help Shen Qi in together with Gu Jing, but Gu Qingxu stretched out his hand to help while putting on a silk shirt: "It's getting so late, hurry home and don't let your parents worry."

Zhuang Tingxi glanced at Gu Jing, then turned to look at Gu Qingxu: "Excuse me, Auntie, then I'll go first."

"Xiaozhuang, tell the driver to drive slowly and pay attention to safety on the road." After the car drove away, Gu Qingxu supported Shen Qi, and said to Gu Jing who was still in a daze, "Close the door and come help mom."

Gu Jing didn't know when Gu Qingxu came out, or had he been watching their movements upstairs?

He didn't tell her what time he would come back, let alone bring Shen Qi home to rest, why did she seem not surprised at all?

Looking at the gradually shrinking gap between the door and the wall, Gu Jing let go of his fingers, turned around and slammed into Gu Qingxu's eyes full of meaning that he hadn't closed in time.

He suddenly felt something.

"Let's go," Gu Qingxu smiled slightly, and put a heavy weight on Gu Jing's shoulders, "Let him sleep in the guest room, or..."

That hesitation is proof that Gu Jing's feeling is correct, and his mother knows him no less than he knows his mother.

Since when did you know about it?

He couldn't ask for the time being, and even if he understood, he still wasn't sure about his mother's attitude.

Entering the house, Gu Qingxu seemed to intend to bring Shen Qi to the guest room, but Gu Jing pressed the floor of his room ahead of her.

Gu Qingxu slowly walked away from the elevator buttons, and said something that seemed abrupt: "It's okay to say it directly."

His fingertips retracted like an electric shock, Gu Jing was extremely anxious, and the claustrophobic space magnified this feeling infinitely. He explained with a little panic: "I just, want to take care of him."

"En." Gu Qingxu didn't say anything else. When she reached the third floor, she helped Shen Qi to rest on the bed, took off his shoes for him, stepped back and stood for a few minutes, "I'll make a cup of sober tea, you Take care of him."

During the few minutes when Gu Qingxu was standing, Gu Jing was completely at a loss. It was wrong for him to stand or sit down, it was wrong to touch Shen Qi, and it was even wrong not to touch him.

He knew that Gu Qingxu was looking at them, but he didn't know whether Gu Qingxu was accompanied by other emotions under his calm.

Gu Qingxu is an open-minded mother, yes, she has always respected her son's freedom and choice enough, but no one knows where her bottom line is.

Gu Jing has been living according to the rules since he was born, the only time he was out of line was when he liked Shen Qi.

As a mother, can she accept that her obedient and obedient son has become like this?

Not only Gu Jing was thinking, but Gu Qingxu was also thinking, or rather, she was blaming herself.

When Gu Jing was very young, she left the family for work. To put it bluntly, she was not prepared to be a mother at all.

In her mind, shining in the workplace is more valuable than raising a husband and raising children at home.

Until now, her thinking has not changed much. It is impossible for her to give up her career, but she should not always hold that "it is good to finish this job, and I will come back to teach my son after I have achieved more achievements. There is still time for everything." ", let alone think that a husband alone can take good care of a son.

Facts have proved that during the growth of a child, no matter who is missing, the child will have more or less "problems".

For example, her Gu Jing, a son who locked himself in the house and didn't like to socialize, a son who didn't know what to do without rules and instructions, would he become like this, blame his father for not taking good care of him?

No, definitely not, she knew her husband better than anyone else.

Duan Zhongyu was born in a rigid family, he is such a person himself, so what can he teach Gu Jing?So can she blame him?

It's just that she didn't expect that Gu Jing, who doesn't have much mental oppression, is more disciplined than his father. Before the age of 13, he was like a robot that was programmed, and he couldn't do things other than rules and instructions.

He is so simple and blank that he has no other entertainment except studying and playing the piano.Obviously he can do everything well, but without guidance, he will worry about making mistakes.

Later, Duan Zhongyu was promoted and brought Gu Jing to Chunxi to find her. The family of three settled down here, and she finally had a chance to make amends.

But she can do very little, Gu Jing has become such a person, she can't completely deny his past, she can't say, son, it's not good for you to be like this now, she can only offer some suggestions occasionally.

Take your time, start with the simplest breakfast together every day, and try to let him be accompanied by his parents every day when he goes home, and subtly influence him through these.

Gu Qingxu regretted it very much, but looking back, she had no choice.

People are not born for another person. She has responsibilities to Gu Jing, as well as to herself. She needs to be a qualified mother and also a qualified self.

If the former fails, then she will try her best to make up for him.

However, someone beat her one step ahead.

Sometimes she would think, is Shen Qi's appearance good or bad?

She hoped that Gu Jing would have a friend who shared happiness and secrets, and Shen Qi was undoubtedly that friend.

Occasionally, she hopes that Gu Jing can share less with Shen Qi, so that she can share a little bit with her.

Duan Zhongyu said that Gu Qingxu used to be the cold goddess on campus, he didn't lie or exaggerate.

After falling in love and getting married, there will be some changes, but the one who really makes her smile gently is Gu Jing.

At the beginning, I was busy with work, and the number of times I went home a year was very small, and there were few opportunities to meet my son.

Gu Jing was very young at the time, and he didn't like to talk. When she saw her mother, whom she hadn't seen for a long time, she would even recognize her baby, so she smiled and teased him.

She thought that smiling was the best way to get closer, and later she felt that gentleness could bridge the generation gap with Gu Jing, but unfortunately that was just her feeling that she still lost to his peers.

The bottom of the tea boiled for a long time, but Gu Qingxu stood in front of the stove and didn't notice it at all. Only when she heard the "ding" sound of turning off the fire did she feel the pain in her eyes from the heat.

After Gu Jing turned off the fire and put the lid on the pot, Gu Qingxu immediately turned his head away and quietly wiped away his tears: "Yes, it will be stuffy for another 3 minutes, and then you can drink it when it is warmed up."

"Mom, when did you find out..." Gu Jing stood side by side with her, not daring to look her in the eye, and even confessed so evasively.

Gu Qingxu knew that her performance just now was too obvious, and she didn't want to hide it, so she told the truth: "It's been a while, but I'm just not sure."

The other party's non-blaming tone made Gu Jing even more uncomfortable.

When Gu Qingxu came down, he followed her. From the beginning to the end, he didn't see any expression on her face. He knew from the movement of her back that her mother was unhappy.

Who are you unhappy for?Who else but him.

Gu Jing felt very sorry, her mother was already so sad, and she was still suppressing her emotions to speak.

"Actually," he pursed his lips, his nose suddenly turned sore, "you can scold me."

After a long time, he heard his mother sigh, her voice sounded hoarse: "You go to school with him, and you are always together on weekends. Mom thinks it's good for you to have a friend by your side."

She said to herself: "At first, I just thought that you have a good relationship, but there will be friction when you have a good relationship. Occasionally you quarrel, and you come to talk to me. Until recently, you seem to have a lot of troubles suddenly. I I found out that it might be because of Shen Qi, and I wondered if you had a fight. I asked Shen Qi’s mother, and she described Shen Qi as the same, with a lot of troubles. We comforted each other, probably because of puberty. But I am more sensitive than her, you are like this Much like..."

She paused, turned her head to look at Gu Jing, found his tears falling suddenly, and continued: "I'm not sure. To be honest, it's more because I don't know how to face you. Should I ask you directly? I will Doesn’t it scare you? I think that’s probably how you feel too, if you’re not aware of your feelings, if you’re afraid to face yourself, face me and your dad, you’re in pain.”

Seeing Gu Jing's tears streaming down his face, Gu Qingxu couldn't hold it back, and let out a little cry: "From your preparations last night and the state of your return home this afternoon, I can almost be sure that you went out with him, come back But... I originally wanted to chat with you, but I couldn't find the right time. I couldn't sleep at night, so I wanted to see you after much deliberation, but..."

Gu Jing could no longer keep silent and weep, the crying filled the moment of pause, he was crying embarrassingly, Gu Qingxu carefully touched his arched body, slowly hugged him into his arms and stroked him gently.

"Mom doesn't want you to cry because of self-blame, you can like anyone, you don't have to feel sorry for anyone." She is gentle and sincere, "In fact, I wanted to talk to you with a smile, but unfortunately I couldn't do it, but it doesn't matter. It's not disappointment or disapproval of you, but mother feels sorry for letting you figure out what liking is, the process should be very painful and tangled."

Gu Jing tried his best to suppress his crying, but his body trembled uncontrollably. Gu Qingxu's words moved him and broke him down.

The confusion and uneasiness in the past, the sense of guilt that has always existed but dare not face it, was forgiven with one sentence.

He knew that his parents would not blame him too much, so he blamed himself even more. He was like a child who despicably took advantage of his parents' love, selfish and only caring about himself.

He wanted to apologize, but at the moment he couldn't say a complete sentence, and even the crying was intermittent.

Seeing his red eyes from crying, Gu Qingxu almost surged up with the emotion that had just eased up, and raised his hand to wipe the corners of his eyes: "Baby, Mom will always love you."

Gu Jing nodded vigorously, tears still couldn't stop seeping from his eyes: "I know...I know..." He said sorry in his heart, and finally dared to look at her, "Mom, I..."

"Stop crying," Gu Qingxu wiped his tears again, "If you cry again, you will wake up Dad. This is our secret for the time being, after you decide how to tell Dad, will Mom accompany you? "

Gu Jing took a breath, unable to speak, he could only nod.

"Don't worry, daddy will understand and respect you just like mommy, you will always be our pride." Gu Qingxu gave him a hug, "Okay, okay, mommy will coax you for a while, tomorrow you have to pay back mom A little cutie, don't be sad anymore."

The back was patted up and down, Gu Jing closed his eyes, the tears gradually stopped, and the excitement was soothed, turning into air that was repeatedly inhaled and exhaled.

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The author has something to say:

Don't worry, the next one is sweet and sweet. In fact, I think these chapters are not abuse, but the sourness of growing up...

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Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 1 bottle of Dreamless;

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