The Qing Dynasty begins with Ruyi

When you have kids, that's a big deal. "

I said, "Let's talk about the future."

She nodded slightly, but looked at Yao Zhen, and said: "Has the emperor not conferred the title on the fifth princess yet? They are already more than one year old."

I said: "The emperor said that he felt that the title of the Ministry of Internal Affairs was not good. In fact, I feel very good with Jia."

Concubine Chun said: "That's right. It doesn't matter what the meaning of Hejia is. Maybe the emperor dotes on the fifth princess and hopes that she will be canonized when she is older. The title must also be chosen well. It must be in line with the princess's heart."

I sighed and didn't reply.

She said: "But now, you and I both have imperial heirs, even if Concubine Ling can turn the world upside down, it can't be done if you think about it."

I nodded slightly, and chatted with her for a while, she also said that she was going to accompany the child, so she didn't say any more.

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Saying goodbye to Concubine Chun, my heart is cold, Yaozhen, no matter what, I will protect you from growing up, and you should not waste your mother's painstaking efforts, you must grow up well!

Hailan came in the afternoon, and we hadn't had such a chat about homework for a long time.

Hailan said that the queen mother wanted me to be queen.I have no comment.

I just said that I am quite tired now, and I thought the emperor would not make me a queen too early because of his guilt towards Fucha Langya, and Hai Lan also said yes.

The two chatted a lot about the past, but they felt very sad. Fortunately, Yongqi was sensible and well-behaved, and Hailan was also relieved.

It's just strange, she suddenly asked about Ling Yunche, I suddenly froze.

He helped me time and time again, even when Concubine Shu died, I was in her palace, but it was Ling Yunche who saved me. I thought I would be buried in the sea of ​​fire, but I didn't expect it to be him.

He indulged Wei Yanwan, but he never blamed her, nor me. I have hurt so many people, but he also understands me and knows my difficulties.

It's a pity that Hongli is not.

But at that time, I could still feel Hongli's suspicion, and I demoted him time and time again. Originally, he had meritorious service, but he was demoted, but for him, it might be the best. "It's too cold at the top", I am, and so is he.

I didn't know how to answer Hyland's question other than to say, "That's his job."

Hailan didn't ask any more questions, just persuaded me a few words, and then left saying that she was going to see Yongqi's homework.

The queen's seat seems luxurious, but she doesn't know that the burden on her is a thousand catties, yes, so, how difficult it is for me to bear it?How can we go on in peace?What about the Queen?What about the imperial concubine?He has no self in his heart, it's all in vain.

The author has something to say: The recent words are always too few, and I am catching up with the progress of Mengtang's opening, and it will be more Ruyi to concentrate on Mengtang's opening! ! !

☆, Ruyi

The queen mother asked me more than once what I meant about the vacancy of the empress. I really wanted to evade it, but she is naturally a smart person. How could I just evade her casually?

The emperor probably meant that he wanted me to be a queen, but I also repeatedly shied away, saying that I was powerless, and it was nothing at first, but later, he suddenly stared at me and asked: "Why on earth do you not want to be a queen?" ? Is there something you are hiding from me?"

I just felt sad, so I smiled sourly and said: "The emperor thinks that the concubine has nothing to hide from the emperor? Even if the concubine has done nothing wrong and the emperor is suspicious of the concubine, then no matter how many things the concubine does, it will be in vain." .”

He was stunned for a long time, and said quietly, "You have changed."

I smiled faintly and looked at him, but I didn't know how to reply. Gradually, the conversation between us became less and less, and he only called me Huangguifei, not even "Ruyi". I am getting used to calling him the emperor, no matter on the surface or in my heart, he is already the emperor, and it will be difficult to return to the "Hongli" back then.

Deep Palace is really scary.I never thought that I would change like this, my heart changed, and many things changed.Fortunately, I still have my children, and Hyland.

He looked at me, as if trying to smooth things over, as if he couldn't wait, he just said, "I'll go and see Concubine Ling."

I nodded slightly and said: "My sister is young, the emperor should go and see more."

His walking steps suddenly stopped, but he slowed down, and still kept moving forward.

No matter what, even if I tried my best, I could only get him a moment of hesitation and staying, but he never even turned back to me, just walked on his own way.And I was getting farther and farther away from him, the two seemed to be walking on opposite paths in life, and I was going downhill.But he rose one step higher.I forget the world of mortals more and more, but he forgets the past more and more, and the distance between the two is getting farther and farther away, so is the heart, and so is the person.

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I will never forget that night, never.

It was a cold rainy night, it was winter, but the rain was still so heavy, Yaozhen's whole body was burning hot, and I waited quietly by her side, holding her little hand tightly, she was still so young, so naive , She didn't know anything, but why did she become a victim of the Forbidden City? !

"My lady, the princess has smallpox, my lady should..."

"Young lady, you have to take care of yourself..."

"Mother, there will be more children..."

"Your Majesty, the princess is gone, you still have Elder Brother Twelve..."

"Your Majesty, the Emperor said... that your concubine is unwell and cannot leave..."

"My mother's day is sad..."

There was a sound, but it was like a death sentence for me. I hugged her tightly, she won't leave, Yaozhen, are you going to leave Erniang alone?Erniang has already lost you, Ama, if Erniang loses you again, Erniang will really have nothing...

Yaozhen, Erniang believes in you, stop making trouble...

Regardless of everyone's dissuasion, I stayed by her side one night. Yong Xing once asked me why Ama ignored him, why I still didn't come here often after I had a younger sister, and why Ama was always with everyone else. Birthday, but I don't have...

He asked once, and I had no choice but to hold him and cry bitterly, saying sorry, sorry over and over again, it was Er Niang who hurt you, it was Er Niang who killed you... It was Er Niang, you Ama don't like you... I'm sorry... I'm sorry... With a girl like me, it's really a failure...

But Yongzhen hugged me tightly and said to me: "Yongzhen will never say anything again... Yongzhen will never make Erniang sad again..."

I can't do anything, helpless, hopeless.He no longer protects me.I only have Yongzhen and Yaozhen.If you want to capture them from heaven, how do you want me to live? !What did I do wrong...

Holding Yaozhen's thin body, I was trembling all over, but I could only comfort myself over and over again, soon, he will come soon, he will definitely come, Yaozhen, you have to hold on, For Er Niang, you have to persevere...

Physician Jiang persuaded from the side: "My lady, you will be infected like this, my lady, please let the fifth princess go with peace of mind..."

I acted as if I hadn't heard of it, I just held her tightly all the time, no one can take her away, no one can!She is my life, she is my life!Yaozhen didn't cry, but just kept looking at me with her big eyes open, there seemed to be helplessness and despair in her eyes, I comforted her over and over again: "Yaozhen...do you want to wait for you, Ama...he Will definitely come..."

Physician Jiang said: "Your Majesty. Today the Emperor turned over the brand of Lingfei Empress, I am afraid it is..."

My tears finally couldn't stop, but I didn't say anything, I just kept sobbing and sobbing. I believe he will not be so ruthless, I believe he will not forget the children, he is the emperor, but he is also a father.

Yaozhen's body gradually cooled down, I patted her lightly, and sang softly:

go to sleep my dear baby

Mother's hands gently shake you

The cradle rocks you to sleep quickly and peacefully

go to sleep my dear baby

Mother's hands gently shake you

The cradle rocks you to sleep quickly and peacefully

The night is quiet and warmed by Rido

go to sleep my dear baby

Daddy's arms will always protect you

all wishes for happiness in the world

All warmth belongs to you...

The voice became smaller and smaller until it disappeared. Her eyes closed slowly, and her body finally turned cold. I hugged her tightly and said to her, "Go at ease, it's a place without struggle and without darkness. My child... ...They are all elves who have fallen into the mortal world... Yaozhen, the sky is your place, you will have a good father and a good mother who will accompany you until you get married..."

My heart was still numb in the end, I quietly looked at the rain outside the window, it was so heavy and urgent, but I never thought of staying, never thinking of myself...

"My lady..."

My tears couldn't stop after all, but I didn't wipe them away myself, I just let him flow quietly, but I said to the side: "Biyue, look, after tonight, tomorrow will bloom ..."

Rong Pei grabbed my sleeve, cried and said: "Your Majesty, you have to cherish yourself... Fifth Princess... I don't want your Majesty to be like this..."

I suddenly smiled faintly, but I happened to face the mirror. Although the person inside was smiling, it made people feel extremely sour, a smile that was uglier than crying.I said: "After tonight, it will be spring..."

"The Emperor is here—"

The sharp sound pierced my thoughts, but unfortunately I didn't seem to hear it, I just walked back quietly, step by step, the sound from the bottom of the flowerpot knocked on my heart, uncomfortable.

Physician Jiang slapped Qian'er and said: "Your Majesty, I deserve to die for my crime... If I can't, I will be like the fifth princess. I have committed a lot of crimes, please punish me..."

The emperor frowned and asked, "What happened to the fifth princess?"

Doctor Jiang said: "It's smallpox."

The emperor was stunned for a long time before he could react, and said after a long time: "According to Princess Gu Lun's etiquette and burial, I will go to see the imperial concubine first."

Concubine Ling seemed to be hesitating at the side, and then grabbed his sleeve and said: "Your Majesty... Your Majesty is sad today, I am afraid that it is not the right time for the Emperor to go..."

He frowned, but he shook off Lingfei's hand and walked towards me quickly.

Concubine Ling was stunned, and so was I.

☆, Ruyi

I threw him away, he was taken aback, just looked at me quietly, and said for a long time: "Ruyi..."

I didn't have time to hesitate at all, I just squeezed out the word "Get out!"

The air was terribly quiet, and the concubine seemed frightened, she knelt down suddenly, and cried, "Imperial concubine... concubines... concubines really don't know... concubines... are all concubines It's my fault...the imperial concubine...the concubines don't know..."

I didn't intend to see her anymore, I just said lightly: "Get out of Yikun Palace."

Concubine Ling was slightly taken aback, Li Yu's face turned blue, and after looking at me for a long time, Fang knelt down and said, "Imperial Concubine...Actually, Your Majesty... Your Majesty, please forgive your Majesty... My Majesty... I beg you..."

I suddenly laughed out loud, but unfortunately, the terrible stillness of the air made my laughter even more permeable. I seemed to have been stabbed in the dead spot, and I just kept laughing. It took me a long time before I looked into his eyes , One word at a time: "Your Majesty? Do you know how I feel? You know that when your daughter is dying but her father is with someone else! Do you know how I feel? Haha...you don't know! You don't know...you are the emperor...the emperor has many children, but my daughter only has one!"

After finishing speaking, the tears could not be stopped at all. I supported the wooden table, but smiled miserably and stared at them, "But why? Why did my daughter die! And you are standing here?! Get out of here !” After I finished speaking, I used all my strength to pick up the stool and threw it at him. Li Yu stood in front of me and said to me, “Your Majesty, if you get angry, hit your servant! Your Majesty, Your Majesty really doesn’t know ..."

I kicked him away and cursed, "Get out!"

Li Yu knelt in front of me stubbornly, refusing to let me go, the emperor said lightly, "Let her fight."

Li Yu was slightly taken aback, "Your Majesty..."

The emperor said: "I am sorry for her."

I was stunned, the strength in my hands seemed to be taken away, and my whole body was limp on the table, but my heart was cold, "I'm sorry... just a word of apology is enough... a word of apology is a ruin My daughter's life..."

He looked at me and said to me, "There will be more children."

I smiled bitterly and said, "Does your majesty know what I regret most in this life?"

He froze for a moment and shook his head.

I smiled and said: "I... Ulanara's Qingying, the biggest regret in my life is that I looked down on the third elder brother back then, and I pushed away Princess Obscure Moon's hand! I regret so much... If I obediently Listening to my aunt's words, how could it end up like this?! I regret it so much! I regret how arrogant I was back then, when I didn't understand anything, when I was infatuated and made mistakes, how stupid I was back then!"

He wanted to come over and touch me, but when he saw the look in my eyes, he froze again.I said: "Do you know? My hands are covered with blood. For one person, my hands have become filthy. Over the years, how many wrong things have I done? How many people have been harmed? In my life, I just chose the wrong path, but ruined my whole life!"

The rain is still falling, mixed with the sound of his leaving footsteps, just as he has gradually left my life, everything is actually my fault, I... I was wrong in the end.

I am sadder than Yi, even sadder than her. I clearly know that this is a road of no return, but I still step on it. I know that I should not be emotional, but I still commit taboos. I clearly know how terrible the harem is.But still getting deeper and deeper.

Unfortunately, I can no longer go back to the past.

☆, Ruyi

Rong Pei persuaded me countless times, but to no avail.I can't solve my knot, and no one can help me.

Rong Pei said that it is impossible for the concubine Ling to be stupid enough to support the emperor knowing that the fifth princess is seriously ill. Isn't this clearly annoying the emperor?Her cleverness would not be so stupid, and the people who did not let the news flow to the emperor's ears were more aimed at the concubine Ling.That's right, Yaozhen has gone, and Concubine Ling is really unfavored now.

Although I know it, I am still unwilling, and I still hate it.

Rong Pei said that in the current situation, many people in the palace are afraid that many people will stare at the superior and make the concubine fall out of favor. This is a rare thing that happens, and everyone in the palace is eager to move.

And I just shook my head and said, "I don't want to hear that."

Rong Pei said, "The servant knows that the empress is sad, but..."

I said lightly: "In the past few years, I've been really tired. I don't want to fight anymore. I'm so tired, Rong Pei, let me rest for a while. I'm really tired."

Rong Pei didn't say anything more. It was rumored in the palace that because of the death of the fifth princess, the imperial concubine was very sad. Not only did she not see the emperor for several months, but it was not uncommon for her not to leave the palace for several months.

Now, I just want to be with my child well, and I have had enough of the wind and rain in the palace for more than ten years.

Until the queen mother came to me and said to me: "The Ai family knows you are sad, but there will be children."

I don't know what to say, I just want to be decent in terms of etiquette, I just said: "My concubine, thank you Queen Mother for your concern."

She said: "Oh...the Ai family understands...the Ai family understands...but the main palace cannot be without a master, the Ai family has told you many times, but you..."

I said: "The concubine is incompetent, she really can't take the position of empress, it's really wasting all the painstaking efforts of the empress dowager."

She was slightly taken aback, and then said for a long time: "Are you complaining about Ai's family? Look at you, you don't even want to call the Queen Mother anymore. But you don't know, the fifth princess is very difficult to save, let alone one who suppressed the concubine Ling... ..."

I said: "Chen Qie is tired, Chen Qie doesn't care about it, she's used to it, but Chen Qie's daughter isn't... She never saw her Ama until she died..."

The queen mother sighed and said to me: "After all, it is Aijia who is sorry for the fifth princess."

I was slightly taken aback, and my heart hurt even more, but luckily I got used to it, so I forced a smile and said, "Emperor Niang...don't you like Concubine Ling?"

The Empress Dowager said: "What do you like or dislike about Aijia? It's just that Aijia is old. Even though he is old, there are some things that cannot be ignored."

I nodded slightly and said nothing.

The Empress Dowager said: "You are young now, and you don't understand. If you only let the concubine dote on you alone, the harem will lose its balance, and everyone will easily accumulate resentment. My family is old and unable to do what I want, and I need someone to help my family. Only you can."

I was stunned for a moment, and only said: "The queen's mother has won the prize."

She said, "You finally agreed?"

I said: "I only feel that many things are beyond my control, so what difference does it make if I want to or not? Actually..."

She said: "It's okay to be bearish... It's good to be bearish... Aijia doesn't want you either... Sigh... Forget it... You can step down."

I nodded slightly, blessed my body and said: "The concubine will leave."

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The post-sealing ceremony was not so grand. The moment I put on the phoenix crown, I realized how heavy it was, and it locked my happiness and freedom for a lifetime.

I feel more and more sympathetic to Lang Ye. The longer I have been in this position, the more I can realize Lang Ye's helplessness and helplessness. Every day, the burden is on one person, and every responsibility is on one person. For a moment, I suddenly remembered the time back then, Lang Ye, seemed to be still there, and so was Xi Yue.

Shaking his head and sighing, he found that the palace was dazzling, but the happiness of the past was no longer there, no more.

A palace banquet was held in the harem a few days ago. Looking at the dazzling jewels and emeralds, I just felt sad and counted on my fingers. Who are the people from back then?Except for Yuyan, Hailan, and Luyun, almost all of them seemed to be gone. No wonder, the palace is drafted once every three years, and new recruits are constantly being recruited. If it weren't for this, the palace would already be empty.

There are so many newcomers, I can't help but forget, all kinds of appearances and titles, all kinds of grades, but it reminds me of the past, I shook my head, and returned to reality.

At the beginning of the palace banquet, I just chatted with Hailan, and I could see that she wanted me to be happy, but I really couldn't be happy.

Concubine Ling is out of favor now, her clothes are not as gorgeous as before, but she is even more charming like this, her face is slightly swollen, she looked at me, stood up to bless her body, suddenly there was silence in the hall, Concubine Ling Said: "The concubine is pregnant, I hope the empress can take care of the concubine's diet."

My heart was shocked, ah, I am pregnant.

She has a baby.

But my child is gone.

The emperor was stunned, and Fang said: "Really?"

Concubine Ling nodded slightly, showing shyness on her face, and said softly: "Yes, it has been two months."

I seem to be able to hear the voice of Concubine Jia clutching the handkerchief. I feel pain in my heart, but I can only forcefully smile and say: "That's great, then congratulations to Concubine Ling."

The emperor was happy, his eyes seemed to be asking for my consent, I felt uncomfortable, why did she have a child when my child left?

But I can't say, alas!This is my life.I forced a smile and said: "It's a good thing to make the concubine happy, and it's also right for the emperor to want to be promoted."

The emperor smiled and said, "It's rare for the empress to be considerate."

I chuckled lightly and said, "What's the matter? This is a happy event, and the Six Palaces should celebrate together."

Concubine Chun looked at us, seemed unable to sit still, sighed, and said: "Your Majesty, this concubine thinks this is inappropriate."

The emperor snorted and asked, "How?"

Concubine Chun hesitated for a while, then said: "Your Majesty, the fifth princess of the Queen's Empress has just left, I'm afraid it's not appropriate to be named Lingfei in this way, my concubine begs the emperor to think twice."

There was silence in the hall, as if he didn't hear it, he said lightly: "I'll talk about the Jin Feng thing later, let's eat first."

Concubine Chun was stunned for a moment before saying: "Yes."

I am grateful in my heart, Concubine Chun accompanied me for a long, long journey, I cherish both her and Hailan.

☆, Ruyi

I was so stiff all the way around, the corners of my mouth seemed to be stiff, as if I had been pretending to smile for a long time, and I couldn’t change it, no matter how unwilling, sad, angry or unwilling I was, I would laugh, everyone in the palace Is this interesting?

Interesting?

Actually boring.

Hailan helped me along the way, trying to comfort me, but really couldn't say anything else, if she wanted to say that the concubine Ling had been favored for ten years before she got pregnant, why wouldn't it be the case for me?She could only look at me, with sadness in her eyes, I smiled and said, "It's okay."

She nodded slightly before giving up and helping me to go out.Concubine Ling and Concubine Chun are walking in front, their figures are so distinct, one is getting more and more brilliant, while the other is like me, but Luyun is happier than me.

Concubine Jia said beside me: "Empress Empress... this..."

I forced a smile and said: "This is a good thing. You are almost five months pregnant, so you must take good care of it. You and Concubine Ling are both concubines, and you are both pregnant. Jin Feng is also certain."

Concubine Jia snorted, and said: "In terms of seniority, concubines are better than her. But now she and concubines are pregnant, but I want to be like her. I'm afraid that she will be higher than concubines soon. That's all..."

I smiled and said: "The emperor likes her, there is no way. You have Si elder brother and the princess, no matter what she does, she can't surpass you."

Concubine Jia said: "It's a pity that the emperor doesn't seem to like fourth elder brother very much, I hope this baby is also an elder brother, if Lingfei also gives birth to an elder brother, I'm afraid..."

I sighed and sighed, "No way."

Seeing that I was about to go down the attic, I said to Concubine Jia: "Be careful, the attic is very high."

She said: "Thank you, empress..."

Before the words fell, only a scream pierced the night sky, Hailan hurriedly looked over, frowned and said: "What's wrong?!"

There was a commotion in the crowd, and I said to Concubine Jia: "You stand here first, Concubine Yu and I will go and have a look." After speaking, I pulled Hailan and walked down, Li Yu was in front, Hailan asked: " What's going on here?!"

Li Yudao: "Just now, the concubine did not stand firmly and almost fell, but fortunately she was supported by the pure concubine, so she was safe and sound! I really scared the slave to death..."

I breathed a sigh of relief, pulled Hailan and said, "Go and see Concubine Ling."

Concubine Ling's face was pale, so was Concubine Chun's.

She wobbled a little.Seeing that I was about to salute, I waved my hand: "No."

Physician Jiang took the pulse and said, "It's nothing serious, but I was frightened and the fetal image was a little unstable, but it can recover after some adjustments."

I nodded slightly and said, "It's fine."

Li Yu said: "Concubine Ling, the emperor will come soon."

I said: "Since there is nothing wrong, Bengong and Concubine Chun will leave first. What happened today is also thanks to Concubine Chun."

Concubine Chun's face was still terribly pale.As if she didn't react, Hailan tugged at the corner of her clothes, and she came back to her senses.Walking to a secluded place, I said, "What happened just now?"

Concubine Chun said: "I don't know...it's just..."

I said, "Why didn't she stand still? Fortunately, you supported me in time, otherwise something else would happen."

She was stunned for a long time, then Fang said: "The empress...the concubine...the concubine didn't help her..."

I froze for a moment, frowned and asked, "Why?!"

She said: "No concubine. At first, I just felt that someone pushed me from behind. Concubine Ling couldn't stand firmly. She was pregnant and weighed heavily. When this concubine was about to fall, suddenly The imperial concubine held the concubine, and the two were fine."

Hailan was taken aback, "Why?"

Concubine Chun said: "The concubine doesn't know, and I also feel that this matter is strange..."

I asked, "Who was there?"

Concubine Chun said: "Only Li Yu rushed over later, and it was only me and Concubine Ling at that time."

I thought about it, and Fang said: "Forget about him. Anyway, you two are fine."

☆, Ruyi

Concubine Jia had a miscarriage.

When I first heard about this, the jade bead chain in my hand fell to the ground and shattered.

Without the crying as imagined, Concubine Jia looked extremely calm, but the blood was gone from her face.I looked at her, and another woman seemed to appear in my eyes, with the same pale face, looking at me like this.

I didn't know how to comfort her, so I sighed. I believe that the emperor has spoken a lot to comfort her in the past few days, but her abnormal calm made me chill, so I could only hold her hand and say to her, "My child..."

She said lightly: "Is the empress going to tell the concubines that there will be children?"

I said: "No. The child is an elf who has fallen into the mundane world. She has been saved, isn't it good? Why let him come into the world, this dirty world suffers?"

She froze for a moment, Fang pulled my sleeve and began to cry. Although she has many children, I also understand the pain.

Concubine Ling gave birth to a princess. The emperor was indeed very happy, but my heart was extremely cold. The emperor looked at Concubine Ling's daughter in a different way. He and I both understand. If he is really guilty... ...I would prefer that he leave his love to other children. Children in the palace are actually much more difficult than children outside the palace...

The emperor did not pursue the matter of Concubine Jia's miscarriage, so that's fine.It's not good for anyone to pursue it. In fact, everyone understands it, but they have to pretend not to understand it. To survive in the palace, one must pretend. It's a pity that after a long time, I found that my mask can't be taken off. .

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Time passed little by little, the wind in September began to turn cold, the flowers in the palace began to wither, but the palace was a bleak scene.Looking at it like this reminds me of when I was in the cold palace.

That must have been the happiest time of my life.

There is no calculation, no scheming, no pain, but it makes me feel that everyone is by my side, they are all by my side, but over the years, they have left me one by one.I became the most noble woman in the world, but also the loneliest woman in the world.I no longer have Xin Xin, Ling Yunche, or Hongli.

If possible, I wish I could never come out for the rest of my life, but it's a pity that I didn't give up at that time, I still love him.If there is an afterlife, I will definitely not live so hard, and I don’t want to meet those people. I would rather spend a lifetime with one person, respect each other as a guest, and grow old together. There is no wealth. Although there is disease and poverty, I can feel happiness.

The past reappeared one by one, but I didn’t know that Furong that year had thanked her long ago. After Furong thanked, she would open again, but my heart was dead, and I couldn’t survive.Ruyi is dead, Qing Ying is dead, then who am I?I am the successor, and I am Ulanara.

The floral fragrance gradually becomes smaller and no longer strong.I was stunned for a while, and suddenly, Rong Pei yelled - "My lady...it's not good..."

My heart tightened and I asked, "What's wrong?"

"Concubine Yu..."

I hurriedly said, "What's wrong with Hailan?!"

Rong Pei said: "Concubine Yu is fine, but Guard Ling... Guard Ling... Posted to the official..."

My brain exploded with a buzzing sound, as if being dropped by a sledgehammer, the severe pain pierced my heart, I don't believe it!I do not believe!I do not believe!Looking straight at the palace gate in front of me, as if I had exhausted all my strength and howled like a ghost, I asked loudly: "You said... who posted the official post?!"

Rong Pei was frightened by me, she quickly knelt down on the ground and said softly: "Guard, Ling Yunche."

I felt a sharp pain in my heart, felt all the suffering burst out at once, my whole body was already limp, I just held on to the palace wall, my eyes were plunged into darkness, I only felt a sudden pain in my heart, there was a sound of "chi", as if there was a fishy smell splashing from my heart out……

"Mother--"

I no longer have the energy to look back, and my mind is plunged into darkness for an instant...

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"My lady..."

My tears kept flowing, but the past became more and more clear, and it reappeared in front of my eyes one after another.

"What are you doing here? For Wei Yanwan..."

"give me back!"

"I won't give it, is it useful for you to drink? Her heart is higher than the sky, is it useful for you? You should do your best to show her..."

"Your shoes are broken, I asked Xin Xin to make you a new pair...for three years...thank you..."

"Why are you so panda-like?"

"Isn't it for you?!"

"So your name is Ruyi, I always thought you were called Xiaozhu..."

"Yanwan...she just doesn't want to suffer too much..."

"Your Majesty, I'm sorry for you..."

……

……

Again and again caught in a sea of ​​flames.Time and time again in the most critical times, I don’t have Hongli by my side, but only you. In fact, God cares for me very much, but it’s a pity that I don’t know how to cherish it. I didn’t know until this moment...

Eye sockets are already moist, I can't forget, how can I forget? !I wailed and said, "Take me to him! Take me to him!"

Rong Pei cried and said: "My lady...the emperor said that I want my mother to mourn..."

"Sorrow?!" I laughed loudly, "How to mourn?! Your Majesty, are you really so cruel?! Do you really want to do this?! He called me Jieshou? He called me Jiesai... Biyue, look, he How funny, he told me to mourn..."

Rong Pei tugged on my sleeve, and said to me: "Your Majesty..."

I leaned on the bed and cried, why?Why?God wants me to do this?Who asked me to do this?Taking people away from me again and again, like Xin Xin, Yao Zhen, and Ling Yunche!God wants me to do this!It's about forgetting me!

Rong Pei cried and said to me: "Mother...why are you doing this?"

I cried: "Could it be that we can't even see each other for the last time? He is my savior? Why? Even if I did something wrong, it wouldn't be the end of it! Tiejiaguan... Who is it? Who is it..."

Rong Pei cried: "My lady... Ling Shiwei's current appearance is horrible, my lady, you..."

I said: "It's terrible? So what? Everyone around me is gone, so anyone who is close to me should die?!"

Rong Pei wanted to persuade me, "Niang Niang..." But the words came out, but she didn't know how to continue.

Everything in my memory became blurred, only that figure was still standing in front of my eyes, he was there in the most dangerous time, and he was the one in the most desperate time, even Hongli did not believe me time and time again, but he was still there Believe me... I wanted to reach out and grab it, but it was all an illusion!He's gone...he's gone...

"Take me to see him..."

☆, Ruyi

Decades of time, many years of secret care, never leaving, even when I was the most downcast, when my life was the most underestimated, there was still him, but now, I can't do anything.

"Your Majesty... Your Concubine Ling, she..."

I seem to have never heard of it, just holding his hand quietly. This life is too hard and too tiring. I wish I could talk to him about my thoughts for many years. Just like back then, I don’t care about anything, I won’t be tied down, and I can tell the truth To be honest, you can laugh when you want to laugh, and cry when you want to cry.

He is tired.

My brows were still furrowed, as if I still had something on my mind, I said softly, "Are you tired, do you want some water? I'll pour it for you..."

He held my hand and said lightly, "Your Majesty..."

I said, "Don't talk yet."

With a smile on his face, he nodded slightly, Rong Pei looked at me worriedly and said, "Your Majesty... Your Concubine Ling said..."

I asked lightly, "Say what?"

Rong Pei said: "The concubine Ling said that she wants to see her for the last time."

After I heard this, I couldn't help laughing out loud, "She... If she really wanted to, why did she do such a thing today? Tell her to get out of here!"

Rong Pei said: "But... the imperial concubine said that if the empress does not see her, she will kneel until dawn... I am afraid that the emperor will be shocked."

I was stunned for a while, then Fang said: "Don't worry about her."

Rong Pei said: "Your Majesty!"

I sighed, and was about to turn my head over, when suddenly, my palms tightened, and Ling Yunche said, "Let her in."

I couldn't help frowning, "But..."

He smiled faintly: "I've let go of it long ago, but if she makes a big fuss, to the young master..."

It is the young master, not the empress.

My heart softened, and I smiled and said, "Okay."

Concubine Ling looked over from a distance, she really lost weight, it was true.But I still hate her, she... took everything from me, everything.

She wanted to kneel down, but I said, "No."

"Thank you madam."

I stared at her, she was really thin, her complexion was extremely ugly, but it made me look really tangled, everything was caused by her, but she was uncomfortable.Wei Yanwan, now, do you regret the past?

I said lightly: "If you want to say something, say it."

She froze for a moment, then Fang said: "Yes." After finishing speaking, she looked behind me, suddenly, tears overflowed from her eyes, but she couldn't stop, she seemed to be in disbelief, but also regretful.The tangle in the eyes, I can't tell.She pulled off the armor from her fingers to cover her mouth,