don't you regret

"What are you laughing at?" Zhuang Song put on a straight face, turned around and left.

"I didn't smile." Gu Yan immediately followed behind him, "I really didn't smile, don't smile, I have a poker face."

Zhuang Song didn't want to talk to him, feeling ashamed.

He said that he wanted to be fierce, but he accidentally broke his merits. He would not be like this normally. It was because someone fired a cannon halfway, the sunset glow in the sky, and Gu's mouth was so poor.

Zhuang Song wanted to explain to Gu Yi that this was not normal, but when he looked back and saw Gu Yi's extremely happy expression, he couldn't bear it anymore.

At least don't give him a knife right now, it's a bit cruel.

Gu Yi looked at Zhuang Song and asked with a smile, "What's wrong?"

"It's okay." Zhuang Song shook his head, "You are laughing silly."

"I'm happy." Gu Yan said.

Zhuang Song raised the corner of his mouth and continued to walk out of the street, Gu Di followed him briskly.

When Zhuang Song didn't pay attention to him, Gu Yan raised his head and looked at the sunset in the sky in a daze.

In fact, everyone knew that it was an emergency, including Gu Yi himself. Zhuang Song was hesitant to speak, and he could see clearly.

Zhuang Song is really too gentle, even facing him, he didn't have the heart to say such unfeeling words directly.

But Gu Yi himself also understands that Zhuang Song would still be so polite to him in normal times.

It hurts to think so.

But it's still a very, very good signal.

The road leading to Zhuang Song is not broken, but the front landslides, there are many stones piled on the ground, and the road condition is a bit poor.

But these are not problems, he can just shovel them all away.

-

The days returned to the familiar rhythm, Zhuang Song deliberately kept a distance, and Gu Di seemed to understand.

He didn't say anything too affectionate, and invited him to play games and dinner together as usual. Zhuang Song has always maintained a response rate of 50% for playing games and 30% for eating. Sometimes eating brings autumn, stars, and scorching sun.

On the academic side, although the project came to an end, Zhuang Song was soon invited by the Municipal Science and Technology Museum to participate in a popular science speech for children on June [-] because of his excellent academic level and personal image.

It's not a high-standard speech, but Zhuang Song is a little timid.

However, his mentor and colleagues encouraged him to go, expecting him to "rebuild the glory of electromechanical", and he finally agreed.

Zhuang Song showed his perseverance in scientific research and carefully prepared many versions of manuscripts. The day before his speech, he grabbed Gu Yi and muttered while trying to speak: "I don't have a single audience at that time, what should I do."

Gu Yan comforted him: "Don't be afraid, there will definitely be one. Doesn't the Science and Technology Museum itself have a navy?"

Zhuang Song was amused: "Are you comforting people?"

As a result, on the day of the speech, Zhuang Song not only saw a group of students, teachers and parents who came to see his speech, but also saw Gu Yi in the crowd, who applauded harder than the students and listened more seriously than the students.

Zhuang Song: "..."

Well listened, don't come again next time.

Although he complained like this, Zhuang Song had to admit that in an unfamiliar environment, when he didn't know who to interact with, he would make eye contact with Gu Yi, and his mood would be much more stable.

Zhuang Song has a gentle and lovely face. Although social fear, some small reactions in the actual interaction are very pleasing.

As a result, I was invited to participate in a series of presentations sponsored by a popular science association.

Zhuang Song borrowed a familiar junior from his mentor to come over and accumulate some experience for the junior, so that the two of them can be courageous together.

Before the speech, there was a half-month training. For the first time, hundreds of people were trained in a conference room.

Zhuang Song buried himself in taking notes.The younger brother sat next to him, also immersed himself in taking notes.

During a break after the 40-minute class, someone came up and tapped him on the shoulder.

Zhuang Song turned around and saw a handsome and gentle man in a suit who was about 27 or [-] years old and wearing a pair of gold-rimmed glasses. He smiled and reached out to him: "Hello, Zhuang Song, do you know me? I am the person in charge of the association's outreach. Qin Siyu."

Of course, the outreach of the association can be known, not to mention that the other party also knows his name.

Zhuang Song added the other party's WeChat, and Qin Siyu graduated from a key college in the neighboring province. Looking at the circle of friends, he knew that he was a traditional high-achieving student from a wealthy family, who didn't play games, loved classical music and reading, and was good at socializing.

Qin Siyu chatted with Zhuang Song for a while, his smile was very gentle, his words were gentle and polite, his younger brother looked at him more and more strangely.

When Qin Siyu left, the younger brother secretly said to Zhuang Song: "Senior brother, why do I feel that you want peach blossoms?"

The image of Gu Yan sitting in the auditorium applauding floated in Zhuang Song's mind for no reason, and he shook his head to drive this shadow away from his heart: "Nonsense."

The first day of training was over, and when I went home at night, Gu Yan sent a message to ask Zhuang Song how he was feeling.

Gu Yi has always been very concerned about Zhuang Song's life, but it's not the kind of inquisition that makes people uncomfortable.I can feel that he cares a lot, and wants to know what happened around Zhuang Song, but he is not monitoring Zhuang Song's circle of friends, so he can grasp it at an appropriate degree.

Zhuang Song thought the lecture tour itself was pretty good. As for Qin Siyu, he didn't even think of this person at the time: "I think it's pretty good, but I have to be busy again for the next period. There will be half a month of training, and then the lecture tour .”

"If you need help, tell me." Gu Yan said seriously, "I think the building where you have a meeting is far away. If you work overtime late, call me, and I will pick you up from get off work."

"Okay." Zhuang Song agreed.

He generally doesn't want to bother others, but he thinks it won't be too late, and there is no need for Gu Yi.

And even if it is really needed, it is not troublesome, Gu Yan himself gets up late and goes to bed late, not to mention that now his words and deeds are basically saying "as long as you call me, I will ask for it".

But later, Zhuang Song discovered that many of his judgments about this training were biased.

For example, Qin Siyu, from the second day after adding WeChat, he sat next to Zhuang Song every time he trained, chatting with Zhuang Song, and eating with Zhuang Song and his junior brother.

Zhuang Song is very familiar with the younger brother, and his sexuality is no secret to the younger brother.

The younger brother secretly said to Zhuang Song: "Senior brother, he absolutely likes you!"

Zhuang Song smiled and shook his head.

But in fact, he felt that what the younger brother said made sense, so when Qin Siyu took him to dinner on the fifth day, Zhuang Song planned to ask him what he meant.

Qin Siyu is excellent, but he is not the type he likes. The cold, noble and superior temperament makes Zhuang Song very uncomfortable, and it is far from his ideal type.

As a result, Zhuang Song didn't have time to ask, but Qin Siyu asked first.

The two of them faced each other in the cafeteria. Qin Siyu handed Zhuang Song a bottle of kiwi juice, and then smiled politely: "May I ask, are you single now?"

Zhuang Song pondered, but did not answer "yes", because he felt that this was some kind of hint, he asked instead: "What's wrong?"

Qin Siyu smiled gracefully, and said in a low voice: "I think we should be the same kind of people, please forgive my impoliteness if I think wrong. I admire you very much, from the first time I saw you give a speech, if you are single , would you like to try to get in touch with me more?"

"Sorry." Zhuang Song said, "I have no plans to fall in love for the time being, so..."

"It's okay, I understand." Qin Siyu still smiled gently, "If you change your mind at any time, you are welcome to come to me at any time."

When the younger brother learned that Zhuang Song rejected Qin Siyu, he couldn't believe it, and wished he could shake Zhuang Song out: "Senior brother! You are not clear-headed! You missed such a handsome guy of high quality!"

Zhuang Song listened to his beep beep beep, and finally couldn't help but flick his brains: "Aren't I a high-quality handsome guy?"

"Yes, yes, you too." The younger brother covered his forehead and grinned, "Hey, suddenly I don't think it's such a pity."

Another example is overtime work. In fact, there is a lot of overtime training, because the person in charge is very serious about building a particularly good forum.

Zhuang Song usually let his younger brother go away at five o'clock, and he continued to follow him until nine o'clock in the evening, or even at one o'clock in the night, and asked Gu Yi to pick him up twice.

"Don't bring it to me next time." Zhuang Song said so, but the food is still delicious, "Eating supper really grows meat."

"I like how much flesh you grow." Gu Yan said.

He spoke bluntly, but his eyes were fixed on the road ahead, and he didn't dare to take a look at Zhuang Song, the co-pilot.

"Nonsense." Zhuang Song said coldly, but his heart beat inexplicably.

-

So it came to the last day of training, each group reported in groups.

Zhuang Song and his younger brother were drawn to the last group, and it was foreseeable that they would have a big night. Zhuang Song sent Gu Yi a message in advance, telling him that he might need to pick up tonight.

At four o'clock, when the training session ended in the afternoon, Qin Siyu came over and asked if he could invite Zhuang Song and the others to dinner.

"I'm off work right away, and the next time we meet is a formal speech. It's nothing else, let's have a farewell meal." Qin Siyu said with a smile.

During the meal, Qin Siyu still took good care of Zhuang Song, and even did not forget to wink at Zhuang Song when his younger brother was not paying attention, and wrote "remember to find me when you are lonely".

Zhuang Song: "."

After the meal, the junior brother asked very regretfully: "Senior brother, do you really have no chance with him?"

"No." Zhuang Song said firmly, "Why are you so eager to let me find someone?"

The younger brother sighed faintly, "I think the senior brothers are single, and I have no chance to be the junior."

Zhuang Song: "..."

The trial lecture continued in the evening, and Wailan and the group that had already reported were all withdrawn, leaving about one-third of the classroom.

After eight hours of speaking, only two-thirds of the speech was completed, and the next progress can be imagined.

Fortunately, they are free when other people report, and they can do whatever they want.

"It feels like we have to delay until twelve o'clock." The younger brother said.

"Why don't you go first." Zhuang Song said, "I'm fine here alone."

"Come on, the two of us have to speak together. It's the last training session. I definitely can't go first." The younger brother said, "Besides, I can relieve your boredom."

That's right, Zhuang Song played backgammon with him at the back of the room.

Soon someone said that it was raining outside.

At first Zhuang Song didn't take it seriously, but the summer rain should not be underestimated.

After eight o'clock, the rain was so heavy that everyone in the classroom was secretly watching the real-time traffic conditions.

Zhuang Song glanced at the map of Gaode, and it was clear that the evening rush hour had passed, but the main roads in the city were still blocked in purple, as if blood vessels were beating.

This level of heavy rain is enough to paralyze traffic, and the three-ten-minute road will be blocked for two and a half hours.

"It's broken, what should I do? I didn't bring an umbrella." The younger brother was a little anxious, "It's raining so hard that you can't call a car, so you don't have to stay here until tomorrow?"

"Don't worry, the rain might stop at twelve o'clock." Zhuang Song comforted him like this, but he wanted to tell Gu Yi that the rain was too heavy and the road would be blocked, so don't come to pick him up.

Just as I was about to say that, a message popped up on the screen.

- It's raining a lot. Do you have an umbrella?

- i will wait for you downstairs in your building

-[Puppy sitting expression]

Zhuang Song: "..."

Fingertips may be warm from pressing on the screen.Zhuang Song sent a "yes" in the chat box, after thinking about it, he changed it to a [kitten nodding] expression.

-[Puppy innocent expression]

- Go get busy, go get busy~

It was true that it was twelve o'clock in the evening, and it was really raining until twelve o'clock in the evening. Zhuang Song and his younger brother went downstairs together. The younger brother clicked on the taxi app and saw that there were more than 300 numbers in line.

Just at this time, they walked to the door and saw Gu Yi open the car door and run over with an umbrella.

"Xiao Zhuang——" Gu Yan was stunned when he saw the younger brother next to Zhuang Song, and then greeted with a smile, "Hi, are you Xiao Zhuang's classmate?"

"My junior brother." Zhuang Song replied, and then introduced to his junior brother, "This is Gu Yi, my friend."

"Hello, Brother Gu!" The younger brother immediately bowed obediently.

"Junior brother, how do you go home?" Gu Yan asked enthusiastically, "Do you want me to give you a ride?"

Because the younger brother was here, Zhuang Song sat in the back seat to chat with him this time. The younger brother doesn't play games, so he doesn't know Gu Yan, but he looked at his face and sent Zhuang Song a message not long after getting in the car.

-Brother, no wonder you look down on Qin Siyu.

Zhuang Song: "..."

- Zhuang Song: You think too much, I don't have that kind of relationship with him.

-Junior Brother: Oh [disappointed]

-Jonson:...

As usual, Gu Yi bought supper and sandwiches, and handed them to Zhuang Song. Zhuang Song shared half with his younger brother, and asked Gu Yi if he wanted to eat.Gu Yi didn't eat as usual, but the younger brother ate the sandwich and said, "Thank you, Brother Gu!"

"Where do you live, Junior Brother?" Gu Yan asked with a smile, "Give me the address, and I'll open a navigation."

"Oh good!" Junior Brother is a familiar person, and said enthusiastically, "Brother Gu, you will be my great benefactor from now on!"

They continued chatting in the car, and Gu Yan would not talk so much when he wanted to concentrate on driving, but the younger brother took over his banner perfectly.

"Brother Gu, you have such a good relationship with my senior brother! Come out to pick up people in such a heavy rain! Stand up for justice!" The junior brother gave a thumbs up.

Gu Yan raised his eyebrows and smiled: "Thank you."

They were chatting, and Gu Yan kept listening. In the front mirror of the car, he saw a slight smile in his eyes, and occasionally made eye contact with Zhuang Song when looking back at the road conditions.Outside, there was pouring rain and red taillights in the car, but there was a relaxed sense of security in the car.

This situation has continued until the experience of talking to this day.

"We were unlucky enough today. We took turns to report, and we drew lots to be the last one. If we had drawn early, we would have left long ago." The junior brother sighed.

"Yes, I see that all the pain masks are left at the end." Zhuang Song smiled.

"We are unlucky, they are really not smart, just change numbers with Qin Siyu." The younger brother said, "Qin Siyu will definitely be happy, I think he would like to get the second-to-last number, sticking with you until the last second."

Zhuang Song didn't expect his younger brother to mention this suddenly, so he raised his head to look at Gu Yan with a sudden heartbreak.

The other party's expression didn't seem to have changed, but the light in his eyes was obviously gone.

If Gu Yan showed anger, Zhuang Song would not care about it, but it was obviously a loss, and he was still trying to hide it, for fear of being seen as an annoying loss.

No matter what, Zhuang Song didn't want to make Gu Yan feel sad on the night when he braved such a heavy rain to pick him up.

"Don't mess around." Zhuang Song retorted, "I don't know him well."

"You don't know him well, you can't stand him wanting to get to know you." The younger brother said carelessly, "The love dinner delivered every day is too sticky."

He still didn't forget to imitate Qin Siyu's tone and said politely: "Can we have dinner together tonight?"

Zhuang Song: "..."

He has the heart to throw his junior brother out.

I didn't mention Qin Siyu to Gu Yan before, because Zhuang Song didn't think it was necessary. He didn't talk privately, and he didn't have a meal after confessing. He was just a colleague in general training.

But now Gu Yan definitely doesn't think so.

Because Qin Siyu really has nothing to do with him, but strictly speaking, Gu Yi has nothing to do with him either. Qin Siyu can at least have dinner with him, and Gu Yi doesn't even have this kind of treatment.

So who is better?

But there are three people in the car now, Zhuang Song can't say much, he can only say something like "I don't know you well", and I don't know what Gu Yan will think when he hears it.

The road conditions were not so bad in the early morning, and after more than 40 minutes, they reached the outside of the Junior Brother's community.

The younger brother didn't bring an umbrella, so Gu Yi took out his own umbrella and asked Zhuang Song, "Can I borrow the umbrella?"

"I'll see him off." Zhuang Song said.

"I'll go, I'll run fast." Gu Yan didn't give Zhuang Song a chance to refute, he took Zhuang Song's umbrella and handed it to his junior, and smiled at Zhuang Song, "Wait for me a while."

-

It was raining heavily outside, and Zhuang Song was in a mess.

Gu Yan has always looked nonchalant, but it is obvious that he is not okay, but he is afraid of offending Zhuang Song and feels that he has no position, so he dare not show that there is something wrong.

Zhuang Song flipped over to the co-pilot seat and waited, where the view is better.After nearly 5 minutes, Zhuang Song couldn't bear to go out to find someone, and Gu Yan finally appeared in sight.

Zhuang Song leaned forward and opened the car door, Gu Yan got into the car, glanced at Zhuang Song, seemed to want to say something, then silently looked back.

"You..." Zhuang Song hesitated.

Gu Yan shook his head, "It's fine."

He smiled again: "It's raining heavily."

The rain was almost falling sideways, even if Gu Yan took an umbrella, half of his body was still wet, his hair stuck to his face, and water droplets slid down his face, feeling like he was damaged in battle.

He said it was all right, but Gu Yan didn't start the car immediately, he smiled at Zhuang Song: "I'm a little tired after driving for too long, can you take a rest before leaving?"

"Yeah." Zhuang Song nodded.

Moisture filled the narrow compartment, bringing with it the coldness outside, and an indescribable sense of loneliness.

The rain hit the car window, Gu Yan stared blankly with his eyes downcast, like a wounded puppy.It should be because he is really in a bad mood, otherwise he probably wouldn't even show these depressions.

I don't want to mind.

Don't mind either.

Zhuang Song felt a dense sourness in his heart, as if he had also been drenched in the rain.He turned back and took a few tissues and handed them to Gu Yan, who was taken aback for a moment before taking them.

He held a tissue and slowly wiped his face, not so much wiping his face as he was struggling. When he put down the tissue, he suddenly said, "Can I ask a question?"

He quickly added: "If you can't, don't ask."

"Ask." Zhuang Song looked at him.

Gu Yi didn't look at Zhuang Song, he looked down at his hands on his lap, and finally couldn't hide his depression anymore.

Although he got the permission, Gu Yi was still quiet for a while, and then asked in a low voice: "Who is that Qin Siyu?"