don't you regret

Zhuang Song closed the game client, and the hot sun in YY voice asked, "Why are you offline?"

"Someone is looking for it." Zhuang Song replied.

"Oh." Lie Yang paused, "That ordinary friend?"

"Ah." Zhuang Song wanted to laugh a little, "It's that ordinary friend."

"Why are you looking for me?" The scorching sun asked, "Do you want to reconcile?"

"It seems so." Zhuang Song said, "Actually, it doesn't matter what you want to do."

Wouldn't agree anyway.

The scorching sun changed the subject: "Then you don't want to play in the league now?"

"Hmm..." After all, Zhuang Song didn't want to go up and be questioned, he said, "Play something else?"

"Okay." The scorching sun said, "Go and eat chicken, I'll call Xiaohan to wake up."

According to Zhuang Song's understanding of Gu Yan, after being rejected once, according to his personality that if he is turned into a beast, he will definitely be a violent big rooster with bright feathers, and he is so proud that even if he dies, he will die with his head up. Come back a second time.

So when he went online the next day, he was quite surprised when he saw the "absolutely unintentional" ID was on again, and he sent a message at the first time.

- Not on purpose: do you hate me?

- Kitty's Claw: ... no

- no intention : is that okay

- Kitten's Claw: No

- not on purpose : ok

Zhuang Song didn't come back, and went to play and eat chicken for another day.

It went online on the third day, and it was the same story again.

-Never meant to: do I still have a chance?

- Kitten's Claw: I want to say no, are you asking me to climb a mountain?

- no intentional:  …

Fourth day.

- It's not intentional: I'm so afraid that you ignore me

- Kitten's Claw: Not so much

- not on purpose : that ' s good

Zhuang Song didn't plan to escape from the game to play chicken this time, anyway, Gu Yi didn't keep sending messages.

He directly opened the ranking by himself.

The scorching sun said, "If you want to bother him, just delete him."

Zhuang Song smiled: "That's not necessary, and it's not the end of kindness."

After thinking about it, he added: "And delete him now, he probably can't bear it."

Looking at Gu Di's posture of chatting privately when he goes online, Zhuang Song knows that Gu Di really wants to contact him now.

He doesn't plan to reconcile, he doesn't even want Gu Yi to keep looking for him, he doesn't really want to see Gu Yi now.

But he could understand Gu Yan's mood.

When you want to contact someone no matter what, if the other party disappears from your life decisively, it is like taking away the only piece of driftwood held by a drowning person.

It's hard to imagine, but it's how easily one can inflict this level of pain on another.

Zhuang Song had experienced this kind of thing during the quarrel in high school. At that time, Gu Yan just didn't reply to the news for one night. For him, it was already a torment that he couldn't sleep all night.

Later, he said that it was too sad not to ignore people, so Gu Yan didn't do it anymore, he just ignored each other. If Zhuang Song found him, he wouldn't stay overnight. From this point of view, he is not completely human.

So Zhuang Song can't treat Gu Yan like this now.

He couldn't treat anyone like this. After experiencing such a painful feeling once, he would never want to let others suffer this level of pain because of himself.

"You are too gentle." Lie Yang sighed, "Thinking about it this way, I feel that ordinary friends deserve death."

Zhuang Song smiled, "Of course he deserves death."

Zhuang Song's life has been like this for about a week, and every day is indifferent.

When he went online, he was asked by Gu Yi if he would ignore him, and he said no, and was invited to play games by Gu Yi, but he refused.I started the game by myself, and Gu Yan went offline after shelving it for a while. It should be a live broadcast.

He felt that Gu Yan was trying his best to curry favor, like a puppy who had done something wrong and circled around his master's legs, but he really couldn't give more feedback.

Just don't want to continue.

Zhuang Song understood that what Gu Yi said and did all the time was not deliberately trying to hurt anyone.

"It's not intentional", it's because I was spoiled, so I do my own way and am presumptuous.

But the knife stabbed by an innocent child can also hurt people, and it matters whether it is intentional or not when trying to forgive.

Zhuang Song doesn't want to forgive now.

So he can accept the apology, that is, just accept the apology.

Getting along with Gu Yan was very good at the beginning, but after Gu Yan got used to his pampering, especially in the past few months, he began to become tired like walking a tightrope.

Zhuang Song is the kind of person who hides sad things, but he has no position to show off the happy things during this relationship.Gu Yi said that it is better for him to look happy, so Zhuang Song has always maintained a gentle and happy look.

But being gentle while being wronged means that all emotions have to be digested by yourself, and you can't laugh or cry, which is actually more tiring.

So I don't want to have anything to do with that person anymore, and I don't want to form a team with him anymore.

Then there was a bad day.

At the freight station during the day, the experiment was very bumpy, and everyone collapsed to the point where they almost canceled the project and went home to reselect the topic.

Zhuang Song and the younger brother at the laboratory checked for a day, only to find that there was a problem with a decimal value.

When I got home, I found that the cat was tearing up the house after a long absence, not only scratching the sofa release, but also scratching Zhuang Song's favorite pair of shoes.

Zhuang Song was very tired after packing everything up, thinking that he would not play the game today, when he received a text message on his phone.I am not used to such a traditional communication method, so it was Gu Yi who sent the message, and sent a link to the webpage.

-Gu Yi: Look!

Looking at the link, Zhuang Song recognized Gu Yi's live broadcast room. He was a little tired, but he went in according to the location and saw the title of the live broadcast room at a glance.

-【Waiting for the first day of helping Dad】

Although Zhuang Song's name was not clearly stated, some viewers in the live broadcast room were already asking, which assistant father, Xiao Zhuang?

Zhuang Song's mind buzzed, and he suppressed all his emotions to text Gu Yi back, you download the broadcast first.

Gu Di didn't quite understand, but he downloaded it immediately.

After that, Zhuang Song gritted his teeth and logged into the game, went online, and pulled Gu Yan into the team.

-

Gu Yi was very happy when he saw the invitation to form a team. He originally named this title because he remembered that once before he said that he would change the title of the live broadcast room to [Xiao Zhuang takes me to the master]. I remember that Zhuang Song was very happy at that time.

So he thought, with such a title to show his favor, Zhuang Song should be happy too.

But even after the voice entered, before he had time to say Ah Song, he heard Zhuang Song's trembling voice on the opposite side: "Are you crazy, Gu Yan?"

Gu Yan was stunned, and he said, "I..."

Zhuang Song didn't give Gu Di a chance to say anything at all.He was still emotionally suppressed in the first sentence, but collapsed in the second sentence.

He yelled in a particularly loud voice: "Are you crazy Gu Yan! We are all like this, why do you want to kidnap me morally!"

Gu Yan was stunned.

Zhuang Song really broke down.

The emotions of the whole day, the emotions of these seven years, have been suppressed for so long, and finally hysterical once.

"I don't want to play with you anymore, can't you see? Why do you keep dragging me! Why do you want me to reply to your messages every day! You put me in the title of the live broadcast room to drag me over to talk to you Do you form a team? Do you still want to force me?"

"Don't be angry, I was wrong, I'm sorry." Gu Yan didn't expect this to happen, and hastily admitted his mistake, "I closed the live broadcast room and changed the title, so please don't be angry. I feel bad for you like this."

"You don't feel bad if you love it!" Zhuang Song shouted, "Why don't you think of me when you make things difficult for me!"

"I didn't mean to embarrass you, really." Gu Yan hurriedly explained, "I remember you liked changing the title before, so I thought maybe you would be happy, I—"

"That was before!" Zhuang Song interrupted him excitedly, "I don't give it when I want it, and I don't want to bother you every day, am I a toy? I don't want to do anything with you anymore, why are you still refusing?" Let me go!"

"I don't want it now!" Zhuang Song repeated again, then paused for a moment, and shouted hysterically, "Are you an idiot, Gu Yan!"

This voice was obviously full of energy, but the ending of the last "Gu Yi" was trembling.

With a faint cry.

The moment he realized Zhuang Song's crying, Gu Di felt that his whole heart was grabbed by someone.

Then screw it hard to death.

Distressed that he was about to die.

Only then did he realize that he had brought so much sadness to Zhuang Song.

He used to think that Zhuang Song had a gentle and energetic character, but now he suddenly realized that the person opposite him had always been very fragile, like a flower that would break if held in the palm of his hand, so how did the vitality come from before.

Gu Di couldn't think about it, he was completely confused, guilt and regret, and the feeling that he was a beast mixed together and overwhelmed him.

"I'm just an idiot." Gu Yan hurriedly coaxed, "I'm sorry, don't cry..."

"I didn't cry!" Zhuang Song roared again.

"Well, you didn't cry. I'm an idiot. I won't bother you anymore." Gu Yan said.

He didn't know what to say to describe his current mood, and it was not enough to show his heart to Zhuang Song, Zhuang Song didn't need it at all.

He could only keep apologizing and admitting mistakes.

"I'm sorry Song, I don't know that you don't want to see me, no, I know but I don't want to admit it. I accept it now, I really don't bother you, I don't hinder your eyes, don't be sad, don't be angry, okay? ?”

Zhuang Song was silent for a while, and said fiercely: "Okay."

Then hung up the voice abruptly.

In the dead silence, Gu Yan found that his eyes were wet. He used to think that he was very kind to Zhuang Song and helped Zhuang Song to block a lot of wind and rain. Today he realized that he seemed to be the knife that stabbed Zhuang Song the most, but Zhuang Song There is no need for his distress and regret now.

-

After that day, Gu Yan really didn't come to see Zhuang Song again.

He did what he said, no longer talking about Zhuang Song in private, no longer annoying him, as if he really didn't pay attention to him anymore.

Zhuang Song really regained his composure after that collapse. The forbearance ending before always felt that there was something missing, and Gu Yi owed that scolding.

Now it is time to fully return to a peaceful life.

The experiment is progressing steadily, the kitten is quite obedient, Zhuang Song plays games every night, sometimes with the scorching sun, sometimes with other people.

He is a very top-level support, and he is comprehensive. Many people want to play with him. Sometimes Zhuang Song is too busy to play a few games, and sometimes he plays for a longer time in retaliation.

The one who played with him that day was a young AD, and he played until after two o'clock in the morning without knowing it. Although he played many nocturnal animals in the league, most of them fell asleep after two o'clock.

So when the game came out, Zhuang Song found that only one of his friends was online.

This is not the point, the point is that Zhuang Song discovered that Gu Di's state is "watching the game", that is, he is watching the game of his friends.

And after he ended this round, the state of "watching the battle" also ended immediately.

So I was watching him play games.

Zhuang Song didn't care about being watched, because it didn't affect him. Besides, there were always people watching him in the past, and even chatted privately while watching the battle to praise him for his good fight. At least Gu Yi did what he said before, and didn't type to recruit him.

But watching people play games in the middle of the night is really not boring.

In the next second, as if seeing that Zhuang Song didn't start the game again immediately, and guessing that he was looking at him, the unintentional ID suddenly turned red, and the status changed to "Leave".

Like couldn't help but want to look at him, but didn't dare to talk to him, for fear of annoying him, hurriedly pretended not to be there.

It's also like a big brother who secretly looks at the big brother he admires, and then turns his head quickly when the other party looks back, for fear that the other party will find out the annoying child.

"What's wrong?" asked the AD in the duo, "Why haven't you joined the team?"

"It's okay." Zhuang Song smiled and clicked into the team, "Let's go."