don't you regret

When Zhuang Song said these words, Gu Yan's face changed abruptly.

He was still wondering if he had spoken too seriously, but Zhuang Song's words made all his blood rush to his brain in an instant, and he was so anxious and angry that he almost lost his ability to think.

Gu Yi never thought that one day Zhuang Song would say such things to him, and what made him even more unimaginable was that one day Zhuang Song would be with someone else.

Zhuang Song, who has been around him all the time, and Zhuang Song, who has been by his side all the time, personally said that even if he is with someone else, it has nothing to do with Gu Yan.

This is completely unacceptable or even impossible to imagine for Gu Di.

"It has nothing to do with me?" Gu Yan repeated through gritted teeth.

"We are just good friends. Do good friends have to care so much?" Zhuang Song asked.

This sentence was like a blow to the head, and it stunned Gu Yan.

He has always known that good friends don't need to worry so much, but Zhuang Song is different, he and Zhuang Song are not like this.

Zhuang Song was standing opposite Gu Yi when he was talking, and the misty moonlight shone from behind him, so Gu Yan couldn't see his expression clearly.

But compared with Gu Di's strong and chaotic emotions at this moment, Zhuang Song looks so calm.

Gu Yan suddenly felt that Zhuang Song was far away from him, as if he would blow away with the wind anytime and anywhere.

This kind of thought made him anxious, his only thought was to hold on to Zhuang Song and pull him back to his side.

But just like seeing Zhuang Song and Lie Yang talking side by side and laughing side by side, and being stunned by jealousy, Gu Yan, who has been living in the pursuit of others for a long time, doesn't know what to say when he is emotional. How to talk is to hold on to a person.

"Okay, then we're together, and then you deleted him, are you satisfied?" Gu Die said.

Gu Yan said these words very loudly, almost with an echo, buzzing in the not-so-spacious small street.

He thought that all the problems could be solved in this way, but unexpectedly, after saying this sentence, Zhuang Song who once asked "Do you want to try together" just looked at him fixedly with bright eyes.

After a long time, Zhuang Song finally bent his mouth slightly.

He was smiling, a very delicate and beautiful smile, but when Gu Yan saw this smile, he suddenly felt a stabbing pain in his heart.

He clearly felt that something was going to happen, and this feeling made him panic and anxious. He felt that he had to do something, but he didn't know what to do.

"Gu Yan, I have imagined many scenes where you told me that you want to be together." Zhuang Song's voice was very soft, like a layer of tulle being blown to pieces in the night wind.

"But I just didn't expect that it would be such a mood that made me completely lose all thoughts of you."

"What do you mean?" Gu Yan heard himself asking.

He had actually guessed it, and his heart sank even before his brain, but he didn't believe that Zhuang Song couldn't give him the answer.

But Zhuang Song did say so.

He gently pulled the corner of his mouth, and replied: "It means, sorry, I can't promise you."

-

For a moment, Gu Yan couldn't describe the feeling in his heart.

Loss, anger and frustration gripped his heart tightly like a huge iron clamp, making him unable to breathe and think.

Zhuang Song rejected him.

He didn't know what to do.

It has always been that if Gu Di encounters people, things or things that make him feel uncomfortable, he chooses to throw them away.

He doesn't need to be nostalgic, there will be new people swarming over, there is no difference.

But when Zhuang Song said "lose all thoughts about you", when Zhuang Song rejected him, he felt that a piece of his heart had been severely gouged out.

He didn't know what substitute would fill the gap, and he didn't want one at all.

In the past 20 years, Gu Yi has never had to face such a scene that he has to face, so he doesn't know how to face it.

The anger he felt when he saw Zhuang Song having a happy conversation with Lie Yang just now, coupled with the urgency, loss, and panic he would never admit, all these irreplaceable emotions caused Gu Yan to be crushed to death. In this emotional swamp.

The violent stress response made him only use counterattacks to cover up his feelings at the moment of hearing the answer.

"Okay." Gu Yan said fiercely, "Remember what you said, you'd better never come to me again."

After saying this, he didn't look at Zhuang Song at all, and turned around without nostalgia like he did to many people before.

But after walking a few steps, he couldn't help looking at the shadow on the ground from the corner of his eye.

Zhuang Song stood there quietly, just as he asked, and did not catch up.

The car that picked up the anchor was parked on the other side of the bar. Gu Yi is the big anchor and arranged a special car for him. When the driver saw him walking quickly by himself, he tentatively said: "Mr. Gu, your..."

As soon as he got started, the driver didn't dare to ask about that handsome young man, because Gu Di was now filled with a strong irritability, with an expression of wanting to kill.

"Don't care about him." Gu Yan angrily got into the car and closed the door, "Drive."

The driver didn't dare to say any more, and obediently turned on the engine.

There is actually quite a distance between the bar where the event was held and the hotel where the hotel was staying. Gu Yan sat on the car and watched the feasting lights passing by the window expressionlessly. After watching for more than ten minutes, countless messy thoughts whizzed through his mind.

Why did Zhuang Song reject him? Didn't he like him?Didn't you follow him all the time?

Why did he leave Zhuang Song alone by the roadside.

On the way here, Zhuang Song has been taking the car provided by the platform. He doesn't know where the bar is or where the hotel is.

Adults, with mobile phones, should learn to use navigation software by themselves.

It's not appropriate to leave Zhuang Song there alone.

It was Zhuang Song who made him angry first.

But it's not appropriate to leave Zhuang Song there alone.

He has a lot of experience in independent living and will have no problem.

But it is inappropriate to leave Zhuang Song alone.

……

Gu Yan was silent for a while, and said to the driver, "Master, go back to that bar."

After more than 20 minutes, the car got off the complex elevated plate, and Gu Yi hurriedly opened the door and rushed out of the car.

He wanted to take Zhuang Song back no matter what, and talk about the quarrel and reconciliation later.

Although Zhuang Song went too far this time, after he said "with me" for the first time just now, he suddenly felt that this is not an impossible option, and it seems to be not bad, as long as Zhuang Song's attitude is a little softer, and then they will It's okay to talk seriously...

Gu Yan stopped in a daze.

He had walked the entire back and forth down the street.

The lights of the buildings in the distance were on without rest, and occasionally a car passed by the side road silently.The moonlight spread coldly in the alley, and spread across the red and old green signboards of the bar next to it.

The streets were empty.

Zhuang Song is no longer here.

-

Gu Yi was really dumbfounded now.

Although thinking carefully about Zhuang Song, it is unlikely that he would stand here stupidly, but Zhuang Song suddenly disappeared, and he didn't know where to find him.

In the past, he and Zhuang Song would occasionally quarrel and disconnect, but as long as he wanted to find him, Zhuang Song was always there.

The experience that he had never had before made Gu Yan at a loss, and he didn't care about what to ask Zhuang Song to admit his mistake, so he quickly took out his mobile phone to call Zhuang Song, but no one answered the call twice, think about it for the third time Hit and found that it was blocked.

Gu Yan looked at the red exclamation mark on his phone, his mind went blank, he turned his head and shouted at the driver who was trying to keep himself out of the matter, "Lend me your phone!"

The driver is also a human being. He just checked his words and expressions in the rearview mirror and put together the current scene in a mess.

He coughed lightly, and persuaded Gu Yan tactfully: "You just use a strange mobile phone to add him as a friend, and if he finds out that it is you, he will definitely delete it immediately, there is no need."

Gu Yan's face was pale, and he was silent for a long time, his expressionless face was so cold.

Just when the driver was already mourning that he was about to lose his job because of his reckless speech, Gu Yi finally said, "Yes, you are right."

Gu Di didn't make things difficult for the driver, he suddenly found that he seemed to be kind to everyone except Zhuang Song.

Zhuang Song couldn't be contacted, so he had to take the car back to the hotel again. Maybe Zhuang Song would go back. After all, Zhuang Song has always been very good-tempered and gentle. Even if they quarreled, as long as he softened his attitude, he would be fine soon. Accept the request for reconciliation, and Gu Yan knows that Zhuang Song is a very kind person, and he can't bear to do anything.

But when he arrived at the hotel, he knew that he had thought too much.

The room was empty, and there was no one in the lobby. Gu Yi didn't give up and asked the front desk again, but the front desk said, "There is neither a Mr. Zhuang nor a message for Mr. Gu."

Gu Di began to worry a little. Although Zhuang Song is such a big person, there shouldn't be any safety problems in a bustling tourist city like Meizhou, but normally, Zhuang Song would not treat him like this.

So Gu Yi went to have a private chat with Qiu Ri. Although it was embarrassing, he still asked him if he could help find out where Zhuang Song was.

Qiu Ri was quite surprised to hear this request, but he was still sensible after all, and he didn't ask "Brother, aren't you with Xiao Zhuang?" This kind of question that would make Gu Yi explode/explode instantly, he said, "Okay, I'll ask ask."

Gu Yi thought that if Zhuang Song couldn't be contacted in Qiuri, he might have to call the police, but it seems that the case will not be filed if the disappearance does not exceed 24 hours...

He hadn't even finished thinking about it, and Qiu Ri had already replied: "Brother, Xiao Zhuang is in KTV with his teammates from the previous anchor competition, and he sent me a video, he sings very well, I forwarded it to you?"

Zhuang Song and the scorching sun went to KTV?

Gu Yan's face darkened instantly: "Forward a hammer!"

Seeing that something was wrong, Qiu Ri immediately withdrew the voice note and resigned at the speed of light.

Gu Yan walked into the room with a sullen face, slammed the door hard with his backhand, and sat down on the sofa as soon as he entered the room, feeling extremely bad.

He was worried about Zhuang Song here, but Zhuang Song actually went to KTV with the scorching sun and the others.

He was so impatient, Zhuang Song was singing happily?

He also blocked him and sent a video to Qiu Ri, meaning that he was the only one who didn't want to talk to him?

Gu Yi was very angry, but for some reason, he couldn't get angry as thoroughly as before, and there was always a faint feeling in his heart that Zhuang Song was coming for real.

But Zhuang Song blacked him out and went out to play with the scorching sun that he cared most about, Gu Yan really didn't want to apologize.

Wait until Zhuang Song comes back.

What Gu Yan didn't expect was that he sat on the sofa until the next morning, and Zhuang Song never came back.

Frankly speaking, Gu Yi only said to open the house when he was in a hurry, because Zhuang Song didn't seem to be on his side, he just wanted to vent his emotions with the most ruthless words.

He regretted it when he said it, and now he doesn't feel that Zhuang Song's absence at night had something to do with the scorching sun. He sat here all night, and his emotions changed from the initial rage to guilt.

What he said yesterday seemed to be too harsh, and the request for "being together" was too frivolous, so although Zhuang Song's refusal later made him very angry, he can also apologize first as before.

Gu Yi played another voice for Zhuang Song, but was still blocked, so he had to call Qiu Ri again, asking him to ask where is Zhuang Song's KTV.He was going to apologize by himself.

As a result, Qiuri said cautiously, "Brother, Xiaozhuang has already returned to Jiangzhou."

Ah? ? ?

Autumn attached a screenshot of Moments, and Zhuang Song posted a sentence "A new day is also a good weather".

Moments of friends with positioning, at Jiangzhou high-speed rail station.

Gu Yi was stunned again. It should be said that from last night to now he has been in a state of being knocked out with a sap and then woken up by a basin of cold water. All the developments of the situation were beyond his expectation.

Gu Yan looked at Zhuang Song's schoolbag side by side with his schoolbag on the luggage cabinet in front of him, and asked in disbelief, "His luggage is still here, and then he returned to Jiangzhou?"

"Uh, at least that's how it looks from the circle of friends." Although Qiu Ri was rather straightforward, he knew something was wrong after what happened last night and now, and he said cautiously: "Brother, let me ask a question, you and Xiao Zhuang This time... what happened?"

In the past, Gu Yan was definitely not a person who would talk about the things between himself and Zhuang Song. These conversations are too outrageous. He doesn't like others to know so much about himself, and he doesn't want others to notice his faint homosexuality. He couldn't even face it himself.

But now the situation is special, Zhuang Song blocked him, Zhuang Song took nothing and went back to Jiangzhou alone, Gu Di felt that the situation was unusual this time, so he hesitated for a while, and finally told the story of what happened last night to Xiang Autumn came out with everything.

Although Qiu Ri is a bit straightforward, he is still a person who has seen big scenes, even though he heard Gu Yan narrate such as "He was drinking and chatting with the scorching sun happily laughing side by side, can you bear it for you? "I was in charge, so I asked him if he still wanted to open a room with someone else. I knew I was wrong." "I said let him stay with me, but he didn't agree." A few memes expressing shock, but generally quick to accept these new events.

Then he said sincerely: "Brother, don't scold me, but what you said is really not a thing."

Gu Yi was not angry at all, because he himself felt that something was wrong, especially the sentence about opening the house, he regretted it when he said it, but when Zhuang Song came back later, he exploded in anger. pull black.

But Qiuri said again, "The words that you let him be with you are not a thing."

Gu Yan was stunned, and asked if it was so?

Autumn said, isn't it?If someone likes you, you tell him that you can be together in order to make him delete his friends?Are you putting other people's wishes under your feet?What do you think in your heart?Is this jealous or what?Do you like him or are you fishing for him?Fuck brother, I started to get angry with the real feeling while I was talking, so you should hurry up and apologize.

Gu Di didn't fully understand Qiuri's theory. Zhuang Song wanted to be together, so he proposed to be together, and he didn't think there was any problem with it.

But he remembered Zhuang Song's reaction last night, and he also vaguely felt that those words were said hastily and without thinking.

And he still wants to reconcile with Zhuang Song, so there is no problem with apologizing.

Zhuang Song will only post on Moments when he is very emotional, maybe he is very happy, or he may be very unhappy, it is obvious that he is very unhappy now.

Gu Yi said yes, I understood, I hung up the phone, picked up my backpack and Zhuang Song's backpack, and took a taxi to the high-speed rail station.

Since Zhuang Song blocked him, he went to Zhuang Song's house to apologize.

Although Gu Di was still angry, he felt that Zhuang Song's actions were inappropriate, and he didn't like Zhuang Song and the scorching sun and the others going out to play, but he still understood the priorities of the matter, and it was right to apologize.

Although Zhuang Song has a good temper, he is always a little bit awkward. He was really not good enough to Zhuang Song before, so he will change from this time on, apologize seriously, and stop engaging in the cold war.

So Gu Yi bought the nearest high-speed rail ticket, took the train for more than an hour to return to Jiangzhou, then took a taxi, and reported the address of Zhuang Song's home with ease.

He has been to Zhuang Song's house more than once, and he found the correct building and went upstairs. Zhuang Song lived in 502. He ran over quickly when he got off the elevator, only to find that the door of Zhuang Song's house was ajar.

Gu Yi wanted to push it away, but the next moment he felt it was impossible, so he knocked lightly on the door three times to be polite.

The door was quickly pulled open.

"A Song, don't..."

"who are you?"

Gu Yi's voice overlapped with the voice of a strange man. He raised his head in astonishment, looked at the middle-aged man with a blank face in front of him, and quickly stepped back to look at the house number.

502, nothing wrong.

"Who are you? Why are you at my friend's house?" Gu Yan immediately became alert.

"This is my house, why can't I be here?" The middle-aged man glared at him angrily, "I don't know who your friend is."

"My friend is your tenant, and he lives here." Gu Di realized at this moment that this person was the landlord, and he had seen the photo of this person, but he was still very dissatisfied that the other party opened the door of Zhuang Song without authorization.

He asked, "Didn't my friend come back today? Can you enter the tenant's house without authorization because you are the landlord?"

The landlord gave Gu Yan an angry look: "He has withdrawn the rent! I can't come and clean up the house after the rent has been cancelled, can I?"

Withdrawn?

Gu Yan's head buzzed: "Where did he go?"

"I don't know!" The landlord was annoyed by Gu Yan's questioning, and now he has a bad face, "Besides, even if I know, I can't tell you, I will believe you when you say that you are his friend ?who do you think You Are?"

After the landlord sprayed the person, he found that the young man opposite was pale and bewildered, and completely lost the aggressive aura just now.

In addition, he was carrying two backpacks by himself, and he seemed to be looking for someone, and he looked really good. The landlord sighed in his heart, and finally felt a little pitiful for him.

So the landlord finally said: "Your friend said that he has changed his job and is no longer in Jiangzhou. You can ask him about anything else."

Zhuang Song is not in Jiangzhou anymore?

Now Gu Yi was completely taken aback.