wake up from dream

"Ziqing, no matter what, you must accept this plan. Only if you agree, can this plan go ahead. The emperor has already decreed yesterday that he will marry the daughter of the governor of Guangdong and Guangxi at another date. We can't delay it any longer. , Yun'er, and the fate of Yun'er's family are in your hands!" Ning Runyi heard Geng Juzhong say that Zi Qing was unwilling to marry Rong Ruo, so he came to persuade him the next day.This time, Lu Lingyun did not come. Perhaps, in her opinion, her status is embarrassing. To ask another woman to marry instead of herself, although Ziqing also likes Rongruo, but it is a matter of life, how can she make a hasty decision like this? What?

"Marriage? Why so fast?" Zi Qing didn't expect it to be so fast, and thought that there was still a long time before she could think about the way to go.

"Yes, Lu Xingzu is anxious now like an 'ant on a hot pot'. If, on the wedding day, Yun'er has not appeared, then the Lu family will be charged with the crime of deceiving the emperor, and maybe they will be executed... "

"So serious? You're not kidding me, are you?"

"You also know that the emperor has the right to designate marriages... and Yun'er did not participate in the draft and decided to live for life... What are you worrying about?"

"My worries? Apart from Geng Juzhong and Yanluo, what else can I worry about?" Zi Qing smiled wryly, "I still owe Geng Juzhong too much...Yanluo is still young..."

"This is your reason for running away from everything! Do you think that you can settle everything once you die? You are wrong, when you die, it is not a one-stop solution, but... loved ones hurt, enemies fast!"

"The enemy is fast? Where did I come from the enemy?"

"Even if there are no enemies, do you want to abandon those who love you? You just ask yourself to hide, hide, and ignore Geng Juzhong and Nalan Rongruo?" Ning Runyi kept talking softly Waiting, but Ziqing still looked indifferent, so she had to resort to aggressive methods, hoping to make Ziqing change her original intention.

"Why would I ignore them? I... just because I was too concerned about their feelings... that's why I didn't dare, you know? Tell me, how can a man hand over the woman he loves to others? Rong Ruo, How will Rong Ruo accept me, I am already someone else's wife!"

"So that's what you really think! Geng Juzhong...you don't have to worry too much, he already knows that Rou Jia will die in the coming year, he won't force you to stay by his side, he doesn't want you to die by his side By your side, he wants you to live! Live happily!"

"How lucky I am to meet a man like Geng Juzhong..." Zi Qing couldn't stop her tears, the better Geng Juzhong treated her, the more guilty she felt.

"He will be fine too, he wants to see you happy!" Ning Runyi approached Ziqing, grabbed Ziqing's shoulder, and comforted her.At this moment, Ziqing saw that Ning Runyi, who was indifferent before, would have red eyes like this, perhaps because he was moved by Geng Juzhong!

"For me, Geng Juzhong's love is too heavy. I always feel that I can't bear such a deep love. In fact, I really can't bear it... So, I will only owe him more and more. More and more..." Ziqing knelt down, covered her face and began to cry.

"You are a modern woman, you shouldn't dare to love like this...you are nothing like..." Ning Runyi sighed, shook his head and said.

"Hehe, I think so too, Yun'er is also braver than me! In comparison, she is more like from modern times, right?" Zi Qing looked up at Ning Runyi and smiled, but her smile was full of helplessness and bitterness.

"It's because of your character! This time, you should learn to be brave, for yourself, for Geng Juzhong, for Rong Ruo, for Yun'er's family, and also, the lifelong happiness of Yun'er and me is in your hands." Ning Runyi knew that Ziqing had begun to be persuaded by him, so he brought out a lot of characters to ask Ziqing not to say "no". Since Ziqing herself is not brave enough, then I can force her to be brave... …

"Ning Runyi...I just feel that I can't feel at ease marrying Rong Ruo like this...I feel like a bad woman who failed Geng Juzhong, but now I want to abandon him and go to another feast! "Ziqing always has a sense of guilt about her marriage to Rong Ruo. Whether it is for Geng Juzhong or Rong Ruo, the guilt for Geng Juzhong is self-evident. For Rong Ruo, although Zi Qing loves her, But after all, I was afraid, afraid that I would hurt him, the name Rongruo... Kangxi's anger...

"Life is composed of many stations, one station after another, after passing this station, you will definitely face the coming of the next station, the house will not stop, it will just keep walking until you get off the bus, I have found your destination...Maybe, your destination is not Geng Juzhong..."

Ziqing didn't answer, but just bowed her head and meditated alone... Seeing this, Ning Runyi said, "As for Rong Ruo, you don't have to be afraid that he will mind your marriage with Geng Juzhong, don't say that you are not husband and wife. Even if there is, is your love so vulnerable to Rong Ruo?"

"But the thinking of ancient people has always been..." Before Ziqing could finish speaking, Ning Runyi stopped her and said, "Rong Ruo still loves you after all! You just need to remember this!"

"Have you asked Rong Ruo's opinion?"

"No, the less people know about this matter, the better." Ning Runyi didn't talk to Rong Ruo, partly because Zi Qing hadn't agreed to marry Rong Ruo instead of Lu Lingyun, and partly for the sake of keeping it secret.

"Kerongruo is one of the parties after all... We should ask his opinion." Ziqing is not sure that Rongruo will be willing, after all, ancient people and modern people think differently, even if she and Gengju There is nothing in being faithful.

"Then I'll ask him!" Ning Runyi thought so, even if he kept it a secret, Rong Ruo was always one of the parties involved, so he should know everything.

"okay."

After Ning Runyi left, Zi Qing felt very complicated. She was afraid that Rong Ruo would mind, but she also feared that Rong Ruo would not mind, so she ushered in the dinner time with this apprehension.At dinner, Geng Juzhong came to eat with Ziqing as usual, while eating, Geng Juzhong joked, as if all the things he knew these days had nothing to do with him, laugh as he should, eat as he should , no difference.On the contrary, it was Ziqing who seemed a little uncomfortable.

"You all go down!" Geng Juzhong asked the servants who were waiting on the side to retreat, and asked: "Ziqing, you said that we are still friends, why do you treat your friends like this?" Geng Juzhong asked in a retorted tone, She seemed a little angry, but Ziqing knew that it was Geng Juzhong's faking, because he could still see the doting in his eyes.

"I... just worry about you..." Zi Qing looked at Geng Juzhong and said.

"Don't worry about me, you should worry about yourself. You've lost weight these days..." Geng Juzhong added food to Ziqing's rice bowl, and the smiling Geng Juzhong thought he was smiling very calmly, but he didn't know his loneliness It all fell into Ziqing's eyes.

"You seem to have lost weight, eat more." Zi Qing put a chopstick of vegetable in Geng Juzhong's bowl.

Geng Juzhong didn't say anything, just ate the rice in big mouthfuls, and after a while, he finished the rice in his hand, turned the bowl upside down to show Ziqing, chewed the rice with a smile, and said after swallowing: "Listen For you, eat more. You should eat quickly too, in winter, the food is easy to get cold."

"Okay." Ziqing was eating, but she didn't know what to eat.

After dinner, Geng Juzhong said to Zi Qing who was reading a book: "I think from now on, I will move to the study to sleep. Anyway, we just had a quarrel, and we will treat it as you, the princess, who gave birth to me." My son-in-law's anger is healed." Geng Juzhong pretended to be relaxed and said these words, but his eyes were still full of helplessness and loneliness, as well as the much-desired sadness.

"You decide! I have no objection." It's not easy for Ziqing to keep him, just like what she said before, if you can't afford it, don't give it.so as not to cause him more pain.

"Mmm." A vague "hmm" fell into Ziqing's ears.

Ziqing continued to read her book, but it was just for show. The more she owed to the man in front of her, the less she knew what to say. My own apology, so I didn't say anything at all.

"I'll tidy it up." After saying that, Geng Juzhong moved his hands to take out the quilt and pillow that he usually sleeps in from the closet, took it to the door and asked his servants to take it to the study.In fact, there is still a quilt in the study, but Geng Juzhong feels that this move will strengthen his determination to let Ziqing go...

Zi Qing was speechless, and didn't dare to see how Geng Juzhong left this room. This man was the one she didn't want to hurt the most. Since she came here, she has always brought her warmth and happiness. The deepest thing... I only heard the door creak, and Geng Juzhong closed the door when he left. Maybe at that moment, the door separated everything between the two, including fate...

Xiaoju entered the room, ready to serve Ziqing to sleep.

"Princess, the forehead...why are you still in the study? Didn't the princess forgive the forehead?" Xiaoju asked, taking off the jewelry on Ziqing's head.

"Xiaoju, where's Mammy?" Zi Qing didn't answer Xiaoju, but asked about Mammy's situation.

"Nurse is still coaxing little Grid! Little Grid just woke up."

"Well, Yandiao has grown up a lot! Can you talk a lot?" Zi Qing has been thinking about her future these days, but she put Yandiao aside.

"I can say a lot of things, but..." Xiaoju didn't say any more when she said this, or she didn't dare to say it!

"what happened?"

"Little Gege kept calling Ama yesterday! It must be Xiaoge who wants to... the emperor." Xiaoju said cautiously, afraid that Ziqing would not be happy that she mentioned Kangxi, and also afraid that the wall would have ears.

"That's right! After all, they are relatives by blood, why would she not want to?" Ziqing thought that she was not Yanluo's mother-in-law, and here, Yanluo has no relatives.

"Xiaoju, go and get Mammy! I have something to tell her." Zi Qing thought about telling Mammy everything, after all, Mammy is also a close relative to Roujia, so she should tell her too. She has something about Joo Chia...

"Yes, I'll go right away." Xiaoju put down the comb in her hand that was going to comb Ziqing's hair, and ran out the door.

After a while, the nanny came to Ziqing, and Ziqing sent Xiaoju away. Xiaoju was too innocent, and it was better for her not to know some things.And Mammy has lived most of her life, so her mental endurance will be stronger.

"Princess, what do you want to tell the old slave?" Mammy asked.

"Mommy, today I want to tell you something, you have to promise me not to say it." Zi Qing pulled Mommy to the stool by the table and sat down.

"Princess, this old slave will remember the princess' instructions."

"Mommy, I'm actually not He Shuoroujia! I just look the same as her..." Zi Qing didn't go on, she had to worry about whether Nanny could digest her own words.

"Princess?" Mammy's eyes were full of shock.

"Joujia...maybe she's gone..."

After Ziqing finished speaking, Mammy began to cry. "Princess, this... this is impossible..."

"Mother, listen to me, the reason why I want to tell you this is that I may be gone soon... I'm afraid you won't be able to bear it then, I know you treat Roujia like Treat your own children as you would, and take good care of them, and Yanluo will have to be taken care of by you when the time comes."

"How could it be? Princess, don't scare the old servant!" Momo said, grabbing Zi Qing's arm immediately.

"I don't mean to scare you, I just know some things, but I can't control my own life and death, so I want to tell you in advance, mother, you are an old man in this house, I hope that you can take the tobacco I entrust it to you. Xiaoju is also very good, but she is still young, and I was afraid that she would not be able to accept what I said, so I sent her away."

"Princess, why... why does the princess know that I will not be here?" No one can know his own limit, unless he is a terminally ill person, but isn't the 'princess' in front of him still well?

"I just have a hunch about something... I'm not sure, but I'm afraid that if I don't tell Mammy about it now, it will be too late... Mammy, now that you know the truth, you don't need to talk about it anymore." Call me a princess, just treat me like an ordinary person." Zi Qing couldn't tell Mammy that she came from time travel, the matter was already complicated enough, there was no need to complicate it further.

"Princess, although you are not a real princess, you treated Lao Nu and Xiao Ju very well. When Lao Nu first met the princess, I felt a little different. I just didn't expect that there are people who look so similar in this world. But As long as you are a princess, this old slave will be loyal to you forever, I believe Princess Roujia will agree with this old slave when she knows about it."

"Thank you Mammy! Thank you for treating me like this. In fact, I am just an orphan here, with no father, no mother, and no home... It is really my luck to meet you." Hearing Mammy so warm Zi Qing was very grateful for her words, but was even more moved.

"Princess, what are you talking about? You've broken this old slave." Mammy suddenly heard the news of Roujia's death. She felt very sad, and her tears kept streaming down. Go out in a good mood, lest people see anything.