wake up from dream

"What we have to accomplish? Is that so? But... how do you know, I won't just leave like this? I mean, death..." Zi Qing was not sure that she could continue to live, instead of Lu Lingyun, Correcting her reversed horoscope...But this method is undoubtedly fatal to Ziqing, so she can be with Rongruo...

"Because I don't know, so I have to 'prevent'. As for whether you will die, I think the chance is very small. If you are really pregnant, you may die because of dystocia, but now you are not pregnant, and your body Not bad, of course I can't rule out accidents, but we have to be proactive and make all the preparations."

"But, I'm leaving, Geng Juzhong..." Ziqing felt that the guilt towards Geng Juzhong had reached the point where she couldn't repay it, and now she wanted to hurt him again?

"This is also fate..." Ning Runyi sighed, and said again: "Besides, Lu's fate... We also know that it is only three years, but don't say it is after three years, it is just in these three years Here, there's not much we can do or control. Just follow history!"

"Follow history? To be honest, I really want to stay by Rong Ruo's side, but... I don't know if all this can go smoothly according to history. I'm afraid that if history changes ?”

"You just have to remember one sentence, history cannot be changed. If you don't replace Yun'er, another Lu family will naturally appear. Is this the result you want to see?"

"Let me think about it!" After all, Zi Qing can't go to Rong Ruo's side recklessly. Here, she is no longer alone. Although Geng Juzhong and Geng Juzhong are not husband and wife, they still treat him as a relative after all. regardless of his feelings.And Yanluo, the biological child of a woman who looks exactly like him, how could he just leave and pursue his own happiness?

"Okay, then think about it! I'll go find Geng Juzhong." Ning Runyi said.

"Are you looking for him? Are you going to talk about this?" Zi Qing immediately stopped her.

"There are some things... Geng Juzhong should know..." Ning Runyi held Ziqing's hand on his shoulder instead, and said slowly.

"whats the matter?"

"Don't worry! I know how to measure."

At this point in Ning Runyi's words, Zi Qing couldn't stop him again and again, but she didn't want to add to Geng Juzhong's worries, as she had already not cleared up what she owed him.

"Zi Qing." Not long after Ning Runyi left, Ling Yun appeared in the room.

"Ling Yun." Zi Qing forced a smile, but she couldn't help it. She was so confused that she didn't know how to choose between the two forked roads before her.

"If you can't laugh, don't force it. Do we still need to see each other like this?" Lu Lingyun is a woman with a true temperament, and a woman whose thoughts are beyond this backward dynasty.

"You know everything about me and Ning Runyi, aren't you afraid of us?" Zi Qing recalled that Lu Lingyun already knew about her life experience.

"Afraid? Why should I be afraid of you? You are not bad people, you are just a little different from us." Lu Lingyun said.

"However, we are different after all! But I'm glad to hear you say that. To be honest, I sometimes feel like a monster. I can't think or behave like you. We have suffered Free and equal education, coming here, is very different from your views..."

"I've heard Run Yi say about your world. Even if there are bad things there, at least there is freedom and equality. It's not like here, where marriages are all blind marriages. Manchurians are better. It's not like that. But it’s not much different. I was also thinking that if possible, I hope to go to your world one day, but then I thought again, if I go to your world, then I must be extremely lonely. After all, my thoughts and You are far apart."

"How could it be? You are braver and more modern than me in marriage!"

"Modern?" Ling Yun asked in confusion.

"Didn't Run Yi say that? Our era is modern."

"Oh I got it."

"Are Ning Runyi and Geng Juzhong in the study?" Zi Qing finally couldn't help asking.

"Well, I think it's time for them to finish talking, let's go to the study to find them!"

"Hmm..." Zi Qing seemed a little embarrassed, as if her husband found out about her cheating.

When they came to the door of the study, Geng Juzhong and Ning Runyi had just finished talking and came out of it. Geng Juzhong looked solemn, and Ning Runyi also looked serious.When Lu Zhuoyun saw Ning Runyi, he immediately went to his side like a bird, leaving only Ziqing and Geng Juzhong to meet their eyes, but they were speechless.

"I think you should go to the study to talk!" Ning Runyi said, before the two protagonists agreed, Geng Juzhong and Zi Qing were pushed into the study by Ning Runyi and Lu Lingyun, and they cared for them. They closed the door.

"What did Ning Runyi tell you?" Zi Qing broke the awkward atmosphere first.

"Your affairs...and his affairs." Geng Juzhong went back to the stool and sat down, his brows were tightly frowned, and Zi Qing also sat down.

"Our real identity?"

"Yes, you are a woman from 300 years later..."

"That's right. Aren't you afraid of us?"

"You are not tigers, wolves and beasts, what are you afraid of?" Geng Juzhong said with a smile.

"We are not, but we are also different from you! Are you really not afraid at all?" Zi Qing wanted to scare Geng Juzhong.

"I... I'm afraid! I'm afraid you'll disappear, I'm afraid I'll lose you." Geng Juzhong said with red eyes, and continued: "No, I never got you, so why lose it?" Said Then he laughed, a kind of irony was self-evident.

"I'm sorry, maybe we are destined for each other, right?" Ziqing didn't know how to comfort Geng Juzhong, he was really good, but it was not her destination.

"Fate? I have no fate with Jiaer, and no fate with you, so who should I have fate with?"

"I'm sorry." What else could Ziqing say besides being sorry?

"Do you like Chengde?" Geng Juzhong asked this sentence. He knew that as long as he asked this sentence, there would be no possibility for himself and Ziqing. How much effort he had to spend to persuade himself to say this What about one sentence?

"You want to hear the truth?"

"Yes."

"Yes, I like him. I have liked him for a long time, but I never dared to expect to see him before..." Zi Qing looked at Geng Juzhong and said, but Geng Juzhong listened expressionlessly.

"Are you... willing to marry him?"

"I...I don't know... I really don't know. When I first met him, I just regarded him as a friend. I didn't know that I liked him until he told me that he wanted to be with me. ,only……"

"It's just because of me." Geng Juzhong was desperate, hearing that sentence was enough, enough, Ziqing really liked Chengde, but didn't she already know it?Otherwise, she wouldn't have forced her to kiss Ziqing that night. She thought that Ziqing was her wife and would fall in love with her in the end, but she still had to face this day. In the end, Ziqing would still leave her.

"Do you have to say that? I... this matter has nothing to do with you, it's not because of you..."

"Forget it, if you like him, how can I force you to stay by my side?" Geng Juzhong lowered his head and covered his eyes with his hands, as if to stop tears from flowing out.

"Geng Juzhong..." Zi Qing couldn't bear to see Geng Juzhong like this.

"You marry him! I quit." After saying that, Geng Juzhong was about to walk out the door.

"I... I won't marry. I thought that love could lead to a marriage, but now I understand that marriage not only needs love as the foundation, but also needs too many conditions to make it happen. I won't pursue My own happiness has hurt so many people, especially you Geng Juzhong. You are like a relative to me. I cherish the fate between you and me. Unfortunately, I did not fall in love with you. Sometimes I Also thinking, if I can fall in love with you, that would be a good thing, at least, under the influence of your happy atmosphere, I will spend every day happily. But, I can’t control my heart at all, I can’t If you don't think about Chengde, you can't force yourself to accept you." Zi Qing stared at Geng Juzhong, and narrated it calmly, telling him word by word.

"Since you love, go for it. This is what Ning Runyi told me. Now... I give this sentence to you!" This is the third time in Geng Juzhong's life that he feels powerless.The first time was when I received the news of Rou Jia's death; the second time was when I tried my best to prevent my brother Geng Jingzhong from participating in the rebellion; and the third time was at this time...

"Love is about to be pursued... Geng Juzhong, I'm sorry, I really don't know what to say other than I'm sorry." Zi Qing was already in tears at this time, how lucky she was to meet such a man, but love never It all develops like this, you love me, I love him, so it is so difficult to find someone who I love you and you love me too!

"I just want you to live well and live happily. Ning Runyi said that we can still be a married couple for another year. I only hope that in the remaining year, the memories between us... will be in your heart , will be unique..." Geng Juzhong looked at Ziqing and said sincerely.

"For me, every friend I meet here is unique in my memory, and I will remember you until the day I die!" Zi Qing was as firm as an oath.

"So we're still friends?" Although Geng Juzhong didn't sort out his emotions, he finally thought about it. He just wanted Ziqing to be happy, and the rest was not important to him.

"Well, of course, it is my honor, Xia Ziqing, to have such a good friend as you." Ziqing said with a smile.