honey color

I thought that when the story came to an end, he would show me all the content paved along the way.Had I known this to be the case, maybe I shouldn't have walked with him from such an ideal position in the first place.

Although in the end, he said the four words "never regret it" to me.

……

Chitose seems to have noticed that Yukimura and I have become more and more acquainted after the summer vacation. After learning about our trip to Kamakura together, he finally dispelled his doubts.

I also showed him the painting called "Sea" after the new semester started.He said that he likes the sea like this, and that my feeling is still full of challenges as always.But unlike the previous shocks, this painting seems to be stained with some Yukimura-style peace, which is a different attempt from the past.

But Chitose himself still retains that quiet temperament.Sometimes it feels like he is not close to others, but after the painting is over, everything is as usual.I told Chitose about my promise with Yukimura, and he shrugged playfully:

"Always repeating a single routine of life seems to be an important reason that affects our contact with the world. I think Yukimura also has this consideration."

"Yeah." I nodded, looked at his dark blue pupils and pursed my lips into a smile.

In many cases, Chitose seems to feel more like an elder brother, more like an elder who can give good advice.Although I know that he is the same age as me, I have to say that this person possesses such power.It is the calm and decisive temperament that allows him to easily resolve the powerful difficulties. This is not only due to his own wit, but also the mentality that I always envy is extremely important.

So I trust his judgment very much, as if he stands outside the world, with absolute wisdom, and the attitude of doing good in everything, which is why he has a deeper understanding of life than I do.

But I lack such ability, even when it comes to friends, I am always timid.

I knew that something must have gone wrong during Lan's trip to Tokyo during the summer vacation, but I was afraid to ask her. I was afraid that if I asked, she would get away with a perfunctory attitude.Of course a friend shouldn't be like this, so if this is the case, does it mean that my relationship with her is not good enough for her to confide in me?

After procrastinating for a semester, she finally told me an amazing news before the winter break:

"Hey honey, I'm going to Tokyo for winter vacation to meet that friend again."

I remember at the time I just looked at her uselessly and couldn't even say a word.And from her eyes, I read the three words "don't ask".So I shut up, just uselessly shut up.

It wasn't until the first day after the start of the winter vacation that I was doing rehabilitation exercises in the rehabilitation center, and when I met Kenya who was visiting here, I finally got up the courage to ask him if he knew about Ran's going to Tokyo.

"I know." He exhaled, the air conditioner in the room was very warm, but he raised his eyes to look at the incandescent lamp pouring down from the top of his head and sighed.

Seems to be very frustrated.

"Lan... what happened to her?"

"The man in Tokyo is my cousin." When he came back to his senses and turned to look at me, I finally saw the helplessness in his eyes.

"Eh?"

"When my cousin was in the sixth grade of elementary school, he ran away to Tokyo alone because he liked a sister named Yuzi."

"..." I suddenly remembered that there seemed to be a librarian named Yuzi in the Osaka Prefectural Central Library. The reason why she noticed it was because she and Lan went to borrow books together. She once said meaningfully to herself this person.

"It's so strange, we are like a ring." This is a sentence that Lan said at that time, and it is a sentence that I have not been able to understand until now.

"So my cousin has been studying in Tokyo until now, but I, Lan and my cousin Yushi are childhood sweethearts, so our relationship has not been alienated by the separation of the two places." Qianye narrated calmly, and we sat On the bench resting, his golden hair was baked almost transparent by the bright incandescent lamp.But the expression on his face has deviated from his usual lively appearance, it is so deep that I have never seen before.

"Then why would Lan..."

"That's her spiritual pillar." Qian also interrupted me, but this sentence suddenly reminded me of the meaningful sentence that the girl asked me when I started school in autumn.At that time, I didn't answer, and I just let my friend be so confused for a whole semester. "She plays bass because Yoshi says she's the best for it."

"...Is that so?" I was a little surprised. I thought that I was the master of all love or hate in the world, but I never thought that Bess, whom Lana seemed to like desperately, had such a huge relationship with this person. relationship, because this person is her spiritual support.And now, if the spiritual pillar falls down, if it just disappears from your face, what will you do?

"Lan she likes Yushi, and has liked him since a long time ago." When Qianye said this lightly, he finally leaned back on the back of the chair, his expression was full of loneliness, and I was surprised at This sentence in my ear.

From a long time ago, I thought that the person Lan mentioned was "Kenya Ninzu", because they were childhood sweethearts, and there was almost no distance between them.And my delusion was only proved at this moment, and it was wrong from the very beginning.The boy sitting next to me is a superfluous person in the story, and the one who is really caught in the whirlpool has already put everything on the gambling table and went to Tokyo alone to get the final answer.

Every character is very sad, and although I have never tried such entanglement, I can understand their pain.Understand the meaning of "ring" in Lan's mouth, and understand the fear of "disappearing" she said.

"As for Yushita, of course he gave up knotting a long time ago, but instead, this time, he seems to really want to have a good relationship with a girl."

"That person...isn't Lan?" I asked him cautiously, and the nurse beside me smiled and nodded to me. The gray sky outside the window was so gloomy that it almost destroyed all the houses.

"No."

"..."

There was a long silence between us, at which point my painstaking hand for consolation reappeared.But...but even then, at least something should be said, such as:

"Hey Qianya, are you going to watch Lan sad in Tokyo like this?" When a voice that was so calm that it was almost pale appeared, the boy finally turned his head and looked at me with extremely surprised eyes.I didn't stop the next sentence because of his gaze:

"That's someone who is very important to you, shouldn't you lend her a shoulder at this time?" I understand that for Lan this time, the blow is inevitable, but at least let her see clearly that her Behind her, there was obviously someone supporting her.

So in the end, when his golden pupils faced the gray sky outside the window, the boy only whispered a word:

"Honey, maybe you're right."

45Chapter45. The end of the road

The author has something to say:

Probably, the next chapter and the next chapter will be online.“_“

After that, the weather took a turn for the worse.

When large dark clouds swam across the sky of Osaka, the city finally ushered in the first snow in 2002.

Not long after that conversation, I heard that Kenya went to Tokyo with Ran, so this year's shrine worship was missing them, but Chitose and I were more.

Thinking back to this day last year, we ran from the crowd because we insisted on going our own way.I gave up praying and hid in a small studio, but I made a very powerful friend.Perhaps the dependence on Osaka began at this time, because I finally met someone similar to myself.

Some people say that in the final analysis of life, people are constantly looking for people who are similar to themselves.And Chitose Chisato at that time must have had a similar state of mind to me, that's why we left Shiraishi's team so bluntly after meeting and headed home alone.

For the weather that has been raining and snowing for several days, the clear sky today is really rare.Fortunately, my wheelchair was pushed onto the road smoothly.

Compared with the cringe when I first came to Osaka a year ago, now I have gradually become familiar with the scenery around me.Not only the changes related to time, the differences related to space, but also the sudden addition of these people around.

In the past, I never thought that I would be able to enter this world. I thought that my friends were limited to those few, but I never thought that the "passion of Osaka people" that Shiraishi joked about really played an unimaginable in this short period of time. strength.

I'm an uninitiated person, terribly willful with myself, but completely impersonal with others.Perhaps because of this character, in the past ten years, I have always lacked close friends.

I often think of Yukimura's words:

"If it wasn't for that accident, maybe I wouldn't be able to get to know Hanada Mi. So from a certain point of view, I'm even grateful for that incident."

Even if I don't want to, I have to agree with this sentence.If there is no such turning point, then I will definitely not wait for my father who came back, and I will definitely not meet these friends in Osaka.

Some people say that a person will meet 600 million people in his lifetime.But among so many people, there are only a few who can really become friends.So I must cherish the encounter with them, and I must thank fate for the arrangement given to me.

That's not a compromise, it's a forgiveness for the injustice of fate.

After a year, I was finally lucky enough to see Imamiya Ebisu Shrine.The ten day army is the most important event of the year for it.When I was pushed into the crowded crowd by Chitose