The fate of provoking a mad beauty

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This hit Huo Junxian too hard, she sat motionless in the yard, her eyes fell on the small grave.

At first, Gu Siyu was in a daze with her, and sat here to blow the cold wind. Later, Gu Siyu felt that this was not possible. Huo Junxian was too dull. She could sit for a long time, like a dead tree firmly rooted in the soil but no longer Germinated, more and more decayed with the passage of time.

She softly called Huo Junxian to get up, but Huo Junxian didn't move, so Gu Siyu stood up and pulled Huo Junxian into the room.

Huo Junxian fell directly to the ground, her eyes looking up.

Gu Siyu met her gaze, his fingers trembling, and was frightened by her empty eyes at that moment, Huo Junxian seemed to have become a piece of paper without a soul.

Gu Siyu squatted down and touched her face with his fingers. Her delicate and beautiful face was blown cold by the wind at the moment. Gu Siyu held her face with both hands, thinking of sharing the warmth with her.

"Huo Junxian, don't be like this, okay?" Gu Siyu comforted her.

Gu Siyu can accept Xiaoyu's departure because her feelings are not as strong as Huo Junxian's. She also expected it early and made enough psychological preparations, so she can handle this sadness well.But Huo Junxian was different, Teddy's departure was a disaster, and it hurt her hard.

Gu Siyu didn't expect that Huo Junxian's sadness would make her so sad. Seeing Huo Junxian like this, she really wanted to have magic to bring Teddy back to life.

Huo Junxian felt her fear, so she closed her eyes first, her lips moved, as if she was saying something.

Gu Siyu knelt down to listen, only to hear her say: "So sad."

Gu Siyu's heart throbbed.

So sad, and so was she.

How can I get better?

"I want to sleep for a while." Huo Junxian said in a low voice, "I keep falling asleep like this, pretending I don't know anything."

Gu Siyu tried to cheer her up, "Don't be like this, we have to cheer up, are you hungry, I'm hungry, do you want to eat?"

She touched Huo Junxian's face, and Huo Junxian hadn't shed a single tear since Teddy left.Gu Siyu wanted her to cry, to vent her sadness.

Adults can understand this feeling, and tears can't flow when they are especially sad.

Huo Junxian was still in a daze and couldn't accept it. She didn't want Teddy to leave.

Gu Siyu lowered her head and touched her forehead, she said softly: "It will get better, it will definitely get better, believe me, we are not in a hurry, and come out slowly."

Huo Junxian didn't eat or drink for two days, she was not interested in anything, she had no desire for anything, as if she would die like this.

Gu Siyu didn't call Huo Junxian to get up, she went to the kitchen to cook noodles, noodles in clear soup, one bowl for her, one bowl for Huo Junxian, Huo Junxian didn't move, she couldn't finish it.

Teddy has been with Huo Junxian for so many years, and suddenly leaving Huo Junxian is completely unacceptable, but fate can't resist.

After Gu Siyu finished eating the noodles, she pulled Huo Junxian up again. She brought another bowl of noodles and blew it to Huo Junxian's lips. Huo Junxian shook her head, meaning she didn't want to eat it.

"Can you eat a little? I know you are sad, but if you embarrass your body like this, think about how sad that silly dog ​​will be." Gu Siyu comforted her, and now she can only use this method.

Huo Junxian's lips moved, and Gu Siyu stuffed the noodles into her mouth, staring at her to eat.Huo Junxian's eyes were red, and her nose moved. She might want to cry, but found that no tears came out.

"It's okay, you don't have to cry to express your sadness." Gu Siyu helped her to lean on his shoulder.

When Huo Junxian was in better condition, Gu Siyu dragged her into the house, brought in the bowl, and when she was about to close the door, her gaze went to a corner of the yard, and her fingers loosened again.

"It's not closed today," she said.

After going upstairs, Huo Junxian didn't know what to do. Gu Siyu led her to the bathroom, took off her clothes and helped her take a bath, then wiped her clean and changed into her pajamas.

There was mud on Gu Siyu's clothes. She took off her clothes and put them on the floor. The floor was quickly dirty. She tied up her hair and washed it casually. Huo Junxian stood by and watched her move.

"Go to bed." Gu Siyu led her out, and Huo Junxian followed her barefoot.

The two were lying on the bed, Gu Siyu pulled up the quilt, turned over and hugged Huo Junxian, Huo Junxian stared at the open door.

Gu Siyu just came back to her senses, she subconsciously didn't close the door, and still kept the habit when Teddy was around.

Sad and caught off guard, Gu Siyu couldn't adapt to this kind of parting, why did that little Teddy leave so unexpectedly.

She buried her head in Huo Junxian's neck, "Go to sleep, go to sleep, you will be fine tomorrow."

They pin their hopes on tomorrow, which is a panacea. No matter how sad things are, time will always dilute their emotions.

However, tomorrow came, and it still didn't get better.

Not to mention that Huo Junxian was not used to it anymore, even Gu Siyu's first thought when he got up was to tease Teddy, when he went out and saw the empty kennel, his heart began to hurt.

Gu Siyu went back to the bedroom to get clothes from the closet, and then opened the curtains of the room to let the sunlight in.

Huo Junxian looked sideways at her and everything outside the window. The morning clouds were still thin.

She's probably going to rot here.

rotten.

She sucks too.

After changing her clothes, Gu Siyu stood in front of the cabinet and asked her, "Which outfit do you want to wear?"

Huo Junxian pointed to a set of clothes, Gu Siyu looked at it, took out the sportswear, "Put this on."

Huo Junxian got up with her hands up, slowly got up and went to the bathroom, took a shower, washed her hair, washed her face, cleaned herself up, and came out wearing the home clothes she had chosen.

Huo Junxian fell into a compulsive endless loop, trying to recreate the day before Teddy's death every day.

Cook the same dishes, say the same words, even prepare a lot of the same clothes in the closet, and wear the same clothes every day.

"Good morning, Xiaoyu."

"Gu Siyu, after dinner, today's cooking is..."

Gu Siyu is almost tired of eating the same meals.

Gu Siyu was afraid and worried, because she had to cooperate with Huo Junxian, she was afraid that this would go on forever, with no end in sight, and she was worried that breaking this balance would make Huo Junxian unbearable.

He even regretted that if she had done more things that day, instead of sitting on the steps with Huo Junxian, Huo Junxian would not be in a daze on the steps every day.

Huo Junxian kept revisiting and engraving, remembering every detail clearly.

After two weeks like this, the outside is getting brighter and brighter, the winter is completely over, and I don't feel the bone-chilling cold anymore, but everything in the house is still repeating the winter.

Gu Siyu tried to break the balance. She rushed to get the bowl to wash in the kitchen. Huo Junxian immediately stood up and brought the chair behind her to the ground. She didn't allow Gu Siyu to enter the kitchen, so Gu Siyu said with a smile: "Eat your food every day, and I will make it up to you."

Having said that, Huo Junxian nodded in agreement, Gu Siyu carried the bowl into the kitchen, she looked back and saw Huo Junxian cleaning up the food in the dog bowl.

She adds food to it every day. She probably knows that Teddy won't eat it, so she cleans it up in time every time.

Repeat the steps tirelessly, over and over again.

Gu Siyu didn't dare to look any more, she suddenly remembered that Teddy was doing things behind the refrigerator that day, she put down the bowl, wiped her hands with a handkerchief, and then pushed the refrigerator away a little, first she found a small bell inside.

Gu Siyu hooked out the bell, followed by a box. Gu Siyu took out the box and looked at it. There were many shiny things in it, except for those small gems, there were more coins and banknotes.

On the first floor and on the top is the red envelope that she and Huo Junxian gave Teddy during the Chinese New Year.

Gu Siyu was stunned, these things...

She watched the video before, saying that small animals have the habit of hiding treasures, and they will find them all when they are about to die.

Many owners will choose to bury small toys together.

Are these... are they specially hidden?

Are you afraid that Huo Junxian will have a hard time after you leave?

For a while, Gu Siyu didn't know whether to show it to Huo Junxian, she was afraid that Huo Junxian would be even sadder seeing this.

If she guessed correctly, Teddy, that silly dog, hid so many treasures and money. He didn't want Huo Junxian to take it to be buried with him. He wanted to...

Leave a fortune to Huo Junxian.

Gu Siyu took a deep breath, stood up against the wall, looked down at those "babies", and murmured, "Why are you so stupid."

Gu Siyu would rather that she thought too much and thought too smart about that dog, otherwise I really don't know how to forget this Teddy.

Can a dog be so kind to its owner?

How much effort should Huo Junxian use to get back to normal?

Gu Siyu flipped through it again, and besides the money, there were actually a few pieces of gold inside, which Huo Junxian took out for it as a toy.

How can this be worth it.

How willing.

Hearing the movement outside, she quickly put the box back and went back to the sink to continue clearing the dishes.

Huo Junxian took the dog bowl and stood beside it to wash, wiping the corners earnestly. The two stood side by side without saying a word.

During the period, Huo Junxian's finger touched Gu Siyu's hand, Gu Siyu hooked her finger and said, "Huo Junxian, why don't you go to the hospital?"

It's useless to ask, Huo Junxian won't go.

She was very understanding, she was not in good condition and the doctor suggested that she see a psychiatrist, she was very resistant at the time, at that time Huo Junxian also taught herself psychology books to try to unravel her.

Gu Siyu disliked that thing very much, and now she felt helpless, she thought to find out first, and learning the basics should be able to comfort people.

Huo Junxian remained silent.

"Let's go out for a walk." Gu Siyu took her hand and looked at Huo Junxian seriously, but Huo Junxian remained motionless as if frozen.

Gu Siyu pulled her to the gate of the yard, she opened the door, pointed to the signs of decay in the yard, and said softly: "Look at what it looks like, if Xiaoyu comes back, do you think it will dare to enter the door?" ?”

These words stung Huo Junxian, she relaxed her efforts to recover, Gu Siyu took advantage of the situation and pulled her into the yard.

A lot of sunlight fell on the eyelids, so strong that people couldn't open their eyes. Huo Junxian closed them twice, and then looked at her yard. Weeds were overgrown on the ground, and the dead branches that fell in winter had not been cleaned up.

Although her body was not moving, her mind was moving.

The yard is so dirty, it doesn't look like their home anymore.

Gu Siyu went to the living room to get a comb, she asked Huo Junxian to sit on the steps, and stood behind her to comb Huo Junxian's hair. It was hard to imagine that such a delicate woman was covered with dirty hair at this time.

Gu Siyu felt sore, she went to get water again, dipped the comb in water to comb her hair, Huo Junxian buried her head and lay in her arms.

Xiaoyu's death hit her too hard.

It's not that she can't feel it, it's that she doesn't want to admit it.

During this period, Chen Tao came several times to see if Huo Junxian wanted to enlighten her, but Huo Junxian couldn't open the door. If Gu Siyu opened it, Huo Junxian would collapse, squatting and shaking all the time.

Gu Siyu didn't dare to let Chen Tao and the others come over. She secretly called and asked Chen Tao to go to the doctor, but Chen Tao said it was useless.

Huo Junxian had such a time before, when her father passed away, she was in exactly the same state as now, and even went to prevent her father from being buried.Huo Junxian didn't want to believe the fact that her father died. At that time, Teddy was with her, no matter what she did, Teddy would follow her.

Gu Siyu wanted to ask, but dared not.

She wanted to ask, is Huo Junxian really okay?

She combed Huo Junxian's hair and braided it into a ponytail, "Going for a walk?"

The eyes of the two people looked at each other.

The absurdity of the past few days has been drunk like a dream, and he should be a little sober.

Huo Junxian might also want to get better, she didn't force herself to do anything, she just looked at her fixedly.

Gu Siyu was taken aback, thinking that she was not feeling well, and quickly reached out to touch her head. Huo Junxian's body temperature was cold, and she said, "I'm fine."

"Hmm." Gu Siyu didn't understand what she meant, so he asked her again, and Huo Junxian said, "Sorry, everything is so strange."

In fact, it is still painful.

Her heart was occupied by panic, she didn't know what she was panicking about, there was a hole in her heart, her limbs were sore, she didn't know what to do.

I felt broken and never got better.

But thinking this way would make her panic even more, she held Gu Siyu's hand, not daring to let go.

"Let's go out for a stroll, and I heard that the flowers outside are blooming."

Time passed quickly, the tail was almost seen in March, and the outside world had changed a lot, Gu Siyu said: "I will take you by motorcycle."

"Okay." Huo Junxian nodded.

Everything is fine, Gu Siyu gave the comb to Huo Junxian, asked Huo Junxian to deliver the comb to the living room, and then don't think about waiting for her here.

Gu Siyu went to the garage to pick up the motorcycle, she pushed the car out, and Huo Junxian was still in the living room.

Gu Siyu asked: "What are you looking for?"

After asking, she regretted it a bit. The habit Huo Junxian developed could not be changed at all. She took a dog leash, thought for a while and said, "Look for Xiaoyu."

At this moment, Gu Siyu almost collapsed.

She let go of the handlebar, covered her face with her hands, and took a deep breath. It was undeniable that Huo Junxian scared her.

She felt that Huo Junxian was too neurotic.

It is not so much that she is looking for the rope that holds Teddy, but rather that she is looking for the string that holds her own.

What made Gu Siyu even more sad was that she really couldn't understand.

Didn't Huo Junxian grow up pampered? Why did she grow into such a character, so extreme, so unforgiving.

why?

If only she was as gentle as her surface from the inside out, she wouldn't be so sad because of a parting.

How much pain did that silly dog ​​leave for her?

Can't you hurry up, please don't torture yourself.

The nose was sour, and Gu Siyu also felt very uncomfortable.

Gu Siyu said softly: "Huo Junxian, don't be like this, don't you feel uncomfortable, recognize the reality, Xiaoyu has already left, life, old age, sickness and death. We have to learn to accept it and make ourselves feel better."

"It's not just birth, old age, sickness and death, but also accidents." Huo Junxian said, "I'm sadder now than yesterday, and I don't think I'll get better."

Huo Junxian has always known what reality is like, it's just that reality hurts, and she doesn't want to admit it, living like a dream like an illusion, at least she can still have fantasies.

She tugged on the rope tightly, and retreated all the way to the back of the sofa, so that Gu Siyu could not see her.

She knelt down, buried her head in her arms, and said, "Let's be like yesterday, so that Xiaoyu is still there. I just can't find it, but... I haven't buried it yet."

"It's not that you have nothing, don't you still have...and..." Gu Siyu choked up, "You still have your mother, didn't you agree to visit her next holiday?"

"I don't want to see her at all." Huo Junxian said in a low voice, "She killed my father."

"What did you say?" Gu Siyu felt that he heard clearly, but he didn't seem to hear clearly.

Teddy's death pushed Huo Junxian's emotional door open. Huo Junxian's father died not long ago, and now Teddy has also passed away.

She was picked by bad luck and couldn't escape.

"As long as it is like yesterday, everything will be fine." Huo Junxian insisted on this belief and even took action.

Gu Siyu suddenly remembered the days when Huo Junxian first came here. Every day, Huo Junxian had a regular life, cooking, taking Teddy out to play, and talking to someone at a fixed time.

Huo Junxian's life is also very bad, but she likes to freeze the beauty on that day, rehearse and relive it over and over again.

"Huo Junxian, it's fun outside." Gu Siyu seduced her, saying that there are mountains and water, and that the sunrise and sunset.

Huo Junxian asked seriously: "Then come back?"

What should I do when I come back?

"Then do you want to live like this?"

Gu Siyu really hoped that it was her own tinnitus, otherwise, how would she explain that "hmm", and she would go crazy if she cycled like this for the rest of her life.

"Huo Junxian, how can you get better?" Gu Siyu asked her, feeling so distressed that he couldn't get over it.

Huo Junxian didn't reply.

Gu Siyu felt a little bit resentful, hated that she knew too much about her feelings, she was used to maintaining a state, this state made her feel at ease, she would keep shrinking, if this state could not make her feel at ease, she I will struggle crazily to regain the peace of mind before.

Because of the pain, I know how much Huo Junxian is suffering.

In fact, they all know that there is a particularly good way.

Huo Junxian was trembling all the time, she said to herself: Gu Siyu, please lie to me, I am really sad.

Gu Siyu walked into the living room step by step.

Her heart was hurting, her comfort was always encouragement, she wanted Huo Junxian to come out by herself, let Huo Junxian choose to forget.

She didn't give Huo Junxian a vision and hope for the future.

Because of fear, because she is also timid.

However, I couldn't bear it.

Forget it, her cowardice is not worth mentioning.

Gu Siyu walked forward, she was standing behind the sofa.

People's sad and sad postures are all the same, no one's posture is better, Huo Junxian should be crying, although Gu Siyu didn't see her face, but she saw Huo Junxian's shoulders trembling.

"It hurts me too when you cry."

"If you don't know what to bond with, just use me as the bond."

"Whether you hate me or like me, you will recognize me in the future."

"You are three or four years older than me, and you may live three or four years longer than me. So, from now on, live a positive life."

Gu Siyu closed her eyes, said the most important words, and coaxed her gently: "Don't be sad, I can accompany you forever."

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