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Cheng Ya has been a little out of shape for the past two days, and sometimes she will suddenly lose her mind when she looks at Jin Chu, but she doesn't say anything to anyone who asks her, just smiles and says it's okay.

The itinerary for a family of four arranged by Zhao Junyang was finally scheduled at the end of the month, which was Jin Chu's birthday. Although Jin Chu and Qin Mufeng had one by themselves, Cheng Ya and the others didn't know about it.

Cheng Ya said, "Xiao Chu is 18 years old, it's time to have a good birthday. Uncle Zhao and I will prepare any birthday present for you."

Zhao Zhichuan answered at the side, "Mom, why would you ask someone what they want while giving a gift? It's not sincere at all."

Cheng Ya smiled and said, "Which year did you celebrate your birthday? We decided for you, and you asked for it yourself." After speaking, she realized that she didn't spend a birthday with Jin Chu.

Jin Chu said, "It's good to go on a trip, I don't need a birthday present."

Outside Longyuewan, Jin Mingxi came again. This time he didn't make trouble at the door like before. He was wearing a suit today. It looked a bit old, like a style from many years ago, thanks to the popularity of the past two years. Retro, his outfit doesn't look strange, and there are still a pair of very ordinary leather shoes under his feet.

Jin Mingxi came early and waited for a long time before seeing the familiar stretched Lincoln.

Lao Lin drove slowly. When Jin Mingxi rushed out, he stopped the car in time. Zhao Junyang frowned, "Old Lin, what's going on?"

"Sir, it seems to be the same person before."

Zhao Junyang lowered the car window and saw Jin Mingxi standing beside him, "Mr. Jin, I told you not to show up here again."

Jin Mingxi was no longer as domineering as before, and he didn't listen to Zhao Junyang's words. He said, "Mr. Zhao, I have something to meet with Cheng Ya. Don't worry, I won't trouble her. I'll leave here after I finish speaking."

Zhao Junyang took a look at Jin Mingxi. Although he still looked listless, he looked much more pleasing to the eye than before.

"Talk to me if you have anything to say."

Jin Mingxi insisted, "Mr. Zhao, I'll just find Cheng Ya. If you don't worry, we will do it together."

Zhao Junyang looked at his watch and said to Lao Lin, "Turn around and go back." Then he took out his mobile phone and called Cheng Ya.

When he came out again, he changed into a spacious and easy-to-travel SUV, which was driven by Zhao Junyang himself. Cheng Ya sat in the passenger seat, and he stopped in front of Jin Mingxi, "Come on."

Jin Mingxi pulled up the back seat and got up without asking where Zhao Junyang was going. He sat in the back, looked at the two people in front of him, and suddenly felt that time had really passed too long. Looking at Cheng Ya, this woman who lived with him for several years and gave birth to a child, seemed like a lifetime away.

The car stopped beside a tea room, and the waiter just opened the door when he saw Zhao Junyang and shouted respectfully, "Good morning, Mr. Zhao."

The three of them were ushered into a private room and sat down. The waiter served a pot of black tea, poured it for each of them, and went out.

Jin Mingxi didn't touch the cup of tea either. Seeing that the person had left, he looked at Cheng Ya and said slowly, "Lin Qing is dead."

Cheng Ya was startled, and Jin Mingxi went on to say, "He told you all about it."

"Well, he told me everything." Cheng Ya spoke with difficulty.

Jin Mingxi showed a smile, his sallow and haggard face seemed to be able to find some shadows of the past at this moment, "That's good, it saves us all the hard work, I was the one who failed you in the past."

Cheng Ya didn't answer him.

"You are right, I am not worthy to be Xiao Chu's father, and I will not come to you again in the future. Before Lin Qing died, he kept telling me that we are sorry for you, and let me apologize for him. He hoped that I could do the same. My apologies."

"Xiaoya, I'm sorry for involving you innocently."

Cheng Ya's heart was churning, she could never forgive Jin Mingxi, and she couldn't forget all the unpleasantness because of Lin Qing's death, but she felt so uncomfortable, she couldn't blame Jin Mingxi hysterically, because everything happened for too long , she just hoped never to see this man again.

Everything related to this person suffocates her. Even Jin Chu, as long as she thinks that he was born under such circumstances, Cheng Ya feels her heart hurts like being pricked by a needle. Why is it her? bear these.

Cheng Ya suddenly felt dizzy. She looked at Jin Mingxi's face, and felt nausea in her throat. She grabbed Zhao Junyang's hand and said with difficulty, "Junyang, I don't want to stay here anymore. Take me back."

Jin Mingxi was in a daze, his face was the same as the suit on his body, exuding an old and corrupt atmosphere, like sadness and confusion, Cheng Ya didn't say anything, only Zhao Junyang said, "Mr. "

Jin Mingxi lowered his head, his right hand tightly held the sleeve of his left hand, he suddenly let go, and gently touched it with his hand. This was the first time Lin Qing bought him after he came out from Xiangshui County to find Lin Qing. Lin Qing kept a suit for him for more than ten years. He wore this suit to send Lin Qing off for the last time, and also bid farewell to his wife and son who once had traces in his life.

Walking out of the tea room, it was sunny outside, and the neat suit on his body began to look a little out of place, just like him, it seemed that he shouldn't be here.

Lin Qing was not buried in his hometown. The old lady buried him in a cemetery far away from the outskirts of Yuncheng with her life savings and donations from kind-hearted doctors in the hospital, because Lin Qing said that going back was too hard. He wants to be outside.

The old lady had guarded her son for many years, but in the end she still couldn't go home with her, and she was left alone on the bus back to that dilapidated small mountain village. Perhaps in her whole life, she would never have the chance to see Lin Qing's tombstone again.

Later, Jin Chu and Qin Mufeng went to the hospital again, and were told that Lin Qing had passed away, they never saw the old lady again, and even Jin Mingxi disappeared, but in just a few days, everything changed, and it seemed like everything usual.

The war between Qin Mufeng and Qin You finally broke out in repeated silences. Qin Mufeng ran away from home. Jin Chu went to the hotel to find him. Cheng Ya was in a low mood recently, so she didn't ask any more questions. She just said that Qin Mufeng should stay at home first. When she calmed down and went back, she couldn't see a child outside, alone, which reminded her of Jin Chu's past situation.

Zhao Junyang and Zhao Zhichuan didn't have any objections either. It seemed that the family had suddenly entered a harmonious stage recently, and everyone put away their sharp edges.

After all, Qin Mufeng was a little awkward. He ran away from home and lived in his boyfriend's house. Under the eyes of his elders, he couldn't hold his boyfriend's hand, let alone kiss and hug him. After taking a bath at night, the two of them lay on the bed and talked about the recent Qin Mufeng was always dishonest about things.

Jin Chu was furious by him, and when he was about to do something, there was a knock on the door.

Qin Mufeng rolled away and pretended to be sleeping, Jin Chu sat up and said nonchalantly, "Please come in."

Zhao Zhichuan entered the room with a set of exercises, he looked up at the two people who got off the bed, and snorted softly.

The fire on Jin Chu's body was extinguished when Zhao Zhichuan came in, he got up and pulled a stool to sit by the table, and Zhao Zhichuan also sat down, "I don't understand one point about this question, please help me to figure it out. "

Jin Chu took it over to have a look, good guy, Jin Chu had to take a good look at Zhao Zhichuan's questions for the first year of high school, "What are you doing for the questions for the first year of high school? You will be in the third year of junior high school in the second half of the year."

Zhao Zhichuan snorted again, "Just say what you want, what do you care about so much?"

Jin Chu smiled and said, "If you keep humming, you'll become a humming monster." He didn't tease him after finishing speaking, and began to give him lectures seriously. Zhao Zhichuan listened very carefully. I did a few more questions of the same type, and after making sure that there was no problem, I started to ask the next one.

Qin Mufeng took the time to wait for the two brothers to finish speaking. He was bored lying down, and he didn't pretend to be asleep. He got up and picked up his mobile phone and started surfing the Internet, scrolling through Moments and Weibo.

His eyes fell on Zhao Zhichuan, and he always felt that the boy did it on purpose. Every time he came to Jin Chu, as long as the two of them were alone, the boy would have a reason to show up.

When Zhao Zhichuan finally went out with the exercises, almost two hours had passed, Jin Chu looked at the time, it was eleven o'clock, almost everyone in the family was asleep by this time.

Jin Chu sighed and sat down on the bed, "This kid, why are you working so hard? You've already started to watch high school courses."

Qin Mufeng asked, "How old is your brother?"

Jin Chu thought for a while, "13 years old."

"He fights harder than you." Qin Mufeng said.

"Well, he worked very hard. In the school I went to before, many people's families were in very good conditions. There were not a few people with good conditions like Zhao Zhichuan, but he was the only one who worked so hard like him. In fact, he just had a bad temper. It’s rare for a child to be so self-disciplined.”

As he said that, Jin Chu changed the subject, "Why did you and your father fall out again this time?"

Qin Mufeng held Jin Chu in his arms from behind, his voice was a little low, "The day after tomorrow is my mother's death day."

Jin Chu held the hand in front of him and turned his head to look at him. Qin Mufeng stepped forward and touched the bridge of his nose, "It's okay, I have already accepted the fact that my mother is not here, but Qin You is going to celebrate Qin Qing's birthday the day after tomorrow. Yes, I didn't control my emotions for a while, so I quarreled with him, do you think I'm a little naive."

Jin Chu shook his head, "Then shall we go see Auntie?"

"I can't go, my mother is not here, she is in Guancheng."

Jin Chu suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, "I'm sorry, Mu Feng, if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have returned to Yuncheng so early."

"It's okay. I'll go back to see her on November this year. She has a good temper, and if she knows that I have someone I like, she will be very happy."

"You said if she knew I was a boy, would she accept us?" Jin Chu asked.

Qin Mufeng thought for a while, "Yes, you don't know how good my mother is. You can tell by looking at my grandma. Grandma likes you so much, and my mother will definitely like you too. Our family's aesthetics are very consistent."

Jin Chu was amused by him, and the two hugged Slimy and whispered, and by the way, they did what was interrupted before.

Both of them were very restrained at home, and couldn't do a full set like before. Qin Mufeng pressed against Jin Chu's forehead and wiped the fine sweat for him, "I really want to hide you, put you in your pocket, and carry it with you all the time , see you all the time."

Jin Chu laughed, "Then you have to work harder, you have to find a wish bag, otherwise it won't hold me."

"Just wait." Qin Mufeng lowered his head and bit Jin Chu's chin. Before Jin Chu could react, he picked him up and went to the bathroom to "wash."

Jin Chu had no choice but to quickly hook him around his neck, fearing that he would fall. After all, he was a young man in his early 1.8 meters, so Qin Mufeng didn't feel any difficulty at all.

"Are all those who practice sports as good as you?"

"Which aspect is better." Qin Mufeng put him down, wrapped him in his arms and kissed him.

Jin Chu panted and responded to him, "Every aspect."

"I don't know much about others, but for your words, I'm trying to develop in an all-round way."