Night Labyrinth

Shouting outside, calling Lin Yuejin to help in the kitchen, interrupted his next words.

As soon as Lin Yue came in, I asked him what he wanted to say just now, did he want to say that he was gay?Are you saying that it's all a lie?

Lin Yue lowered his voice, and instead of answering the question, he said, "Can't you tell that the girl outside likes you? Even I could tell when I just met her!"

I said it's none of your business, so don't make claims for me!

Lin Yue looked at me for a while, then said, "I think you like her too."

I do not speak.

Lin Yue said, "Since we both have intentions, why not give each other a chance? It's still too late to explain clearly."

At that moment, I was really tempted, but I didn't want to do it at this moment.

So I said, "Never mind anyway, it's not the time yet."

What am I waiting for?

Waiting for me to have an independent economic foundation?

Wait until I dare to tell my mother about this?

Waiting for Lin Yue and her boyfriend to achieve a positive result to show that it is feasible?

In fact, I don't know what I'm waiting for, maybe it's just that the attitude of avoiding has been too deep-rooted, so I unconsciously chose this way when I was panicking.

I took out a box of mushrooms from the refrigerator and said that Lu Fei liked to eat them, then I left Lin Yue to cook in the kitchen and went to the living room by myself.

Lu Feian sat quietly on the sofa, looking a little cautious.

I didn't know what to say for a while, so I took a sip of water first, then turned on the TV, and stuffed the remote control into her hand.

In the end, she said that there was no TV in the dormitory, and she didn't know what to watch, so she returned the remote control to me.

When I looked at Lu Fei's lonely face, I felt that she hadn't changed at all, she still had all her thoughts on her face, which was very easy to guess.

But I am no longer the He Lin who said "happiness is too false".

I started to get in touch with reality and started to think more.

She turned her head away uncomfortably when I looked at her, and I realized the abruptness of my eyes.

I tried to laugh and said, "You are still the same as before."

She just said "Really" and then fell silent again.

I responded and started looking for a station, but I couldn't see anything at all.

When it was switched to a TV drama where a wedding was going on, Lu Fei suddenly asked me, "How did you and Lin Yue meet?"

How did you meet?

"Because of this house," I told her.

Seeing Lu Fei's puzzled expression.I said we rented together, each person shared a room, and then we developed feelings for each other.

I tried to speak in the direction of misleading her, and when my heart was in chaos, reason prevailed again.

"The buildings near the water, the sunny flowers and trees, it's very good." Lu Fei said and took two sips of water.

I couldn't bear it at first, so I said I'll get you some more, and got up with the cup and went to the water dispenser.

When I handed her the cup, I found that she burst into tears at some point!

At that moment, I felt so distressed, I said what happened to you?

She reached out to touch her hair, only to find that her face was wet when she rubbed her hand, didn't she even realize that she was crying?

I took out two tissues and handed them to her, she took them, smiled at me and said it was conjunctivitis.

Lin Yue came out of the kitchen, and asked why she was crying and laughing when she saw it, and asked if I bullied her.

Lu Fei quickly explained that his conjunctivitis was the cause.

Then Lin Yue asked me to give her some eye drops.

I went to the bedroom to get eye drops for her, turned on the light and saw the decorations of the two people in the room, I wondered if Lu Fei should see these.

Then I asked her to come in, and sure enough she stood still at the door, with an expression of about to cry again.

I made up my mind, let her in, lay on my back by the bed, then bent down and gave her some eye drops.

In fact, at that time, I had an urge to kiss Lu Fei, but it was only for a moment.

Then she got up from the bed and walked onto the small balcony while I put away the eye drops.

I also walked over and asked her what she was looking at.

She said that looking at the stars was really a random excuse, where did the stars come from in the sky of Beijing.

But I followed her and looked up, but I really saw a very dazzling star.

It is so dazzling that the whole starry sky is moved by it.

I turned my head to look at Lu Fei, and she let out a breath, which reminded me of how I rejected her that cold spring night.

"Go back." After I finished speaking, I walked into the house first, and Lin Yue's meal was already ready.

We sat down at the table, and Lin Yue asked Lu Fei what time the train was while serving food, and where her home was.

I blurted out that I was from T City, and then I saw Lu Fei take two mouthfuls of rice. I thought I shouldn't have said it, and I regretted it.

Then Lin Yue said that since it was so close, he might as well refund the ticket and play for two days before leaving.

I panicked, afraid that Lu Fei would agree.

If she did stay another two days, or just in the other bedroom, I'm not sure what I'd do, tell her the truth about it all.

Fortunately, Lu Fei did not agree, saying that his family wanted to go back early by himself.

And Lin Yue didn't invite again.

Lin Yue asked me again if Lu Fei and I belonged to the same department.

I think he talked too much today, so I simply kept silent.

Then Lu Fei told him that we met in the studio. Lin Yue looked at me in surprise and asked me that I could still paint.

And Lu Fei also raised his head and stared at me, as if he was asking me why Lin Yue didn't know.

Then I smiled and said, "I don't even know how to hold a pen now."

Lu Fei must be sad again, in fact, I feel sad too.At that time, I still said that I wanted her to surpass me, but now she has really surpassed me, but I no longer paint.

We chatted one after another, and Lin Yue suddenly asked Lu Fei if the mushrooms were delicious, and said that I made them for her.

I hastened to say that it just happened to be in the refrigerator, and then I saw Lu Fei burying his head in eating and eating all the mushrooms.

Looking at her, I felt distressed, and I even wanted to slap myself hard.

But what can I do?

I really don't want to have conflicts between family and love like Lin Yue did, that's the last thing I want to encounter.

After dinner, Lu Fei and I sat on the sofa to watch the weather forecast, and Lin Yue went to the kitchen to wash the dishes.

Lu Fei glanced at the black tea box on the coffee table and said to me, "Drink scented tea in spring, green tea in summer, oolong tea in autumn, and black tea in winter."

I guess that's what I told her once, but I just smiled and said "You know a lot."

At this time, Lin Yue came over with a plate of oranges, and then picked up the knife next to him to cut.

I subconsciously stopped and said, "Don't cut it, it's better to peel it by hand."

After I finished speaking, I saw Lu Fei staring at me with wide eyes, and then realized that she told me this sentence, and after that I really kept peeling oranges with my hands and eating them.

Actually, I also remembered what she told me, didn't I?

I regretted my blurting out again, and I felt that I couldn't be so hesitant all the time.

So I said, "Who told me that?"

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Lu Fei looking at me expectantly, and then I said, "I remember, it's Song Qian."

The anticipation in Lu Fei's eyes turned cold all of a sudden, I felt that I was really cruel, but I couldn't turn back.

So I handed the orange to Lin Yue and said, "Reward yourself for washing the dishes."

Lu Fei glanced at that orange, stood up suddenly and was about to leave.

Lin Yue was stunned for a moment and hurried to persuade him to stay.

But Lu Fei just said that it was really time to go.

We are finally saying goodbye, are we finally saying goodbye?

I tried my best to calmly say to Lin Yue, "I'm going to rush out a book later, you can give it to Lu Fei."

Then Lu Fei smiled at us and said that no one needs to give it away, she can do it herself.

Lin Yue didn't agree, and went out with Lu Fei's luggage.

Lin Yue will see you off on the way, and my family will pick you up when I go back, so I can rest assured.

The three of us stood at the door, and I thought that this might be the last time Lu Fei and I met, and maybe she would try to forget me when she went back, and we have never met since then, and we have no reason to create intersections since then.

With that in mind, I called her name and held out my hand to her.

For the last time, I want to hug her like she once wanted to do to me.

It was also at this moment that I suddenly understood that Lu Fei wanted to say goodbye to me that night, but she couldn't let it go, and now I finally understand.

Lu Fei walked into my arms obediently, and I tried hard to restrain myself to resist the urge to hug her tightly, and I felt her body was awkward and stiff.

I felt sad for a while, and instantly understood how she felt when she held my shoulder.

In the end, she was the first to retreat from my arms.

Lin Yue patted her on the shoulder and said, "It's not like they will disappear in the future."

And this sentence makes me want to cry, because I know that it is very likely that we will never see each other again.

Lu Fei just nodded and waved goodbye to me.

I also waved goodbye to her, and then watched Lin Yue wrap her arms around her shoulders, and they turned and walked towards the elevator.

I turned around before the elevator doors closed. I knew I was selfish, and I was always the one who turned around first.

I went back to the house and stood on the balcony. After waiting for a while, I saw Lin Yue and Lu Fei walking out of the building. I watched their figures get farther and farther away, and tears finally flowed out.

This is the first time in a long time that I shed tears for Lu Fei, she was the one who cried for me before, and cried for me so many times.

I know I'll never get her back.

After a while, my colleague called me and said that he would not come over tonight if he had something to do.

After hanging up the phone, I put the things of the two of us back in the bedroom, thinking that this was arranged for Lu Fei.

I shed tears silently for a while, feeling that there was nothing I could do.

Walking to the sofa, he saw that the cup Lu Fei had used was still there, so he used this cup to make himself a cup of black tea.

I really fell in love with Lu Fei, since I knew I would never see her again.

Later when Lin Yue came back, I asked him if Lu Fei got in the car?He said it was sent to the ticket gate.

I nodded and went back to my room.

Lin Yue stopped me and said he wanted to talk to me. I knew what he wanted to say, but I didn't want to hear it.

He insisted on stopping me, so I sat on the couch.

He said, "I really wanted to tell Lu Fei the truth just now, I really couldn't bear to lie to her."

I said, "I know, I know."

He asked me "Then why are you being so cruel to her?"

how?Now even Lin Yue is going to accuse me of being cruel?

I laughed, "Don't you think you talk too much today?"

Lin Yue took a deep breath, and then I said, "Tell her the truth, it's still too late."

My heart ached again, I turned around and walked into the house, and I said, "I have nothing else to do and I will go back."

But Lin Yue stopped in front of me again, and he said, "I know I'm meddling in my own business, but you all have feelings, at least give each other a chance, or you'll regret it later."

I looked at him and asked, "Then what? Drag her into this muddy water, break up with the family, break with the whole world?"

Lin Yue didn't speak.

I said, "We are not middle school students anymore. We have to consider a lot of things. We can't just make a decision on the spur of the moment. It's easy to make a decision, but what about after that? What will happen after so many things? I can't give her anything now? I Why do you love her?"

Lin Yue retorted, "You don't have to give her anything, she just wants you to love her. You can figure out what to do next, but if you miss this person, you may never have a chance for the rest of your life."

I just laughed, and I said, "Then it's like you are now? Don't dare to tell the family, and quarrel with him every night! It's ridiculous."

Lin Yue was irritated by my words, he said, "At least I dare to say that I love him, at least I have been actively solving problems, instead of running away like you! When will you face up to your feelings and stop being a coward! "

I said, "I don't have the capital, and my family's situation can't make me self-willed. I know I'm sorry for her, but there's nothing I can do."

Lin Yue said, "What kind of capital is needed to love someone! How can you say that you can't do anything if you haven't tried it!"

I said, "Yes, you don't need capital to love someone, but you do need it to be together! Why are you so naive when you are two years older than me!"

Later we quarreled, this was the first time I had quarreled with Lin Yue since I knew him.

I don't understand why everyone is pushing me?

Am I really doing something wrong?

But I'm not thinking about the momentary pleasure, but about the future of the two of us.

Maybe it seems cruel now, but they will understand later.

Lucy, I hope you are well.

Really hope you are well.

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