paranoid dependence

Gu Zhi didn't directly say yes, but he didn't insist on leaving either. He seemed to want to try, to see how far he could control himself for Shen Nian.

Shen Nian understood his thoughts and didn't force him any more, stroked him lightly, then noticed something a few seconds later, approached his neck and sniffed, and asked him: "Have you not bathed for a few days?"

Gu Zhi: "..."

"Have you been hiding in the tree and haven't washed?" Shen Nian pushed him away: "Go take a bath."

Gu Zhi hasn't hugged enough, he hasn't hugged Niannian for a long time, even after reunion, he restrained himself from hugging, now he just heard him say that he likes him, he doesn't want to do anything, just want to hug him, be good Hug him and fill the 8-year gap with hugs.

Now being pushed away by Shen Nian, and with a tone of disdain for himself, Gu Zhi felt somewhat aggrieved, looking at him like a scolded pet.

Shen Nian looked at him amusedly: "We are in the same room, even though it is a suite, there is only one bed. If you want, we can cuddle all night, but we can't do without taking a shower."

His little cleanliness has not changed even after 8 years.

Hearing that Shen Nian said that he could be hugged all night, Gu Zhi's grievance was successfully appeased, but he still reluctantly gave him another hug before turning around and going to the bathroom.

Seeing that the bathroom door was closed, Shen Nian also breathed a sigh of relief. Anyway, he calmed down Gu Zhi tonight, but Gu Zhi's state is not so easy to solve. No one knows when he will There was a sudden explosion, and no one knew where he would lose control because of what.

But these are not problems. When people come back, they will get better slowly by their side.

Time is a good medicine, it can make Shen Nian reach a reconciliation with himself, then it will definitely cure stubbornness.

Thinking of this, Shen Nian also relaxed, the pain in the corner of his mouth became more and more vivid, Gu Zhi bit hard, Shen Nian turned around to look at the situation through the French windows, but paused the moment he turned around , on the glass window, Shen Chongshan was standing not far behind and was looking at him, his eyes were not very agreeable.

Shen Nian and him looked at each other for a few seconds, then looked at the wound on his lip, it was not serious, but it was bleeding, he licked it lightly, and said softly:

"I can't let him go, and it's impossible to let him go. I will accept any consequences. Don't look at me like this again. I am not the same Shen Nian as I was eight years ago."

Shen Chongshan did not disappear, and still looked at him like that, but Shen Nian closed his eyes and stopped looking at him.

When did Gu Zhi come out of the bathroom after taking a shower, Shen Nian didn't notice it until his palm fell on his shoulder before Shen Nian woke up like a dream, and then opened his eyes, only him and Gu Zhi were on the glass window, Shen Nian smiled:

"finished Wash?"

"See it again?" Shen Nian's reaction couldn't escape Gu Zhi's eyes.

"Yeah." Shen Nian didn't hide it: "I'm used to it, it's fine."

Gu Zhi wanted to say something but didn't know what to say, Shen Nian saw Shen Chongshan because he liked him, but he couldn't say "don't like me anymore", he really missed him too much.

He hoped that Shen Nian would be good, for Shen Nian to be good, he could ignore himself, but he finally got this love, and he was reluctant to let go.

As if knowing what Gu Zhi was thinking, Shen Nian took his hand and led him to the sofa to sit down, then went to the bathroom to get a new towel, stood behind him and wiped his hair, but it was getting slower and slower.

The towel is white, and the hair is also white, he can hardly tell the difference.

No matter when Shen Nian sees this white hair, Shen Nian still can't control his heartache, as if reminding him of what Gu Zhi went through in those five years, let alone Gu Zhi going crazy, Shen Nian touched it a little. Those who may experience things will be painful to breathe.

When I was a child, I was almost suppressed by loneliness and became a lunatic, but Gu Zhi is really amazing to be able to reach the current state after experiencing these.

As if he knew what he was thinking, Gu Zhi grabbed Shen Nian's hand that was barely moving, and gently squeezed it: "Don't be sad, I'm fine."

No one would be in more pain than Gu Zhi, no matter how painful Shen Nian was, it was just imagination, but Gu Zhi had experienced it himself, but even so, he was still able to comfort Shen Nian at the first time when Shen Nian was sad, Shen Nian I couldn't bear him like this, and didn't want to touch those wounds again, so I suppressed my emotions:

"Brother Zhi, can I discuss something with you?"

"it is good."

Shen Nian scratched his hair, and said softly, "Don't worry about Ning Wen's affairs, okay?"

Shen Nian just mentioned Ning Wen, but Gu Zhi's hand started to tremble again. Shen Nian went around the sofa and squatted in front of him, stretched out his hand and held it tightly:

"If you don't care about this matter, let's go through it like this. Even if you can live through it, I can't swallow this breath. If you don't let this matter be handed over to Liang Qiu to handle it. His family's business is now It has done a lot, and it was listed the year before last, and he has more methods and means than us, and he also said that the result will definitely satisfy you.”

Gu Zhi didn't speak, Shen Nian looked at his expression carefully, it seemed that he was about to lose control, the veins on his neck proved that he had endured a lot of hard work, Shen Nian was silent for a few seconds, got up and kissed him, he didn't know if this trick would work or not It will be as easy to use as before, but he has no other choice but to try it.

Fortunately, Gu Zhi blinked his eyes lightly twice, and his body slowly relaxed.

Shen Nian breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that if her kiss was a sharp weapon to suppress his madness, it would be fine.When he wanted to evacuate and return to the position just now, Gu Zhi clasped his waist and pressed him on his legs, in a straddling position.

Shen Nian's ears were even redder than before, Gu Zhi wanted to get up but he didn't let go.

"Let me go down." Shen Nian whispered.

"Don't move." Gu Zhi's Adam's apple rolled, and he stared at him without blinking: "Sit here, okay? Only in this way can I calm down, and let you go down after finishing speaking."

His tone was clearly negotiable, but his eyes and movements were strong.Shen Nian looked at him for a few seconds and didn't insist anymore, but moved back a little to avoid the vital position, and it took almost a minute before he recovered his voice.

"Brother Zhi, I know you want to do it by yourself. The hatred can only be happy if you get it back by yourself. I know what you think." Shen Nian looked at him and said softly: "But you were in his hands five years ago. After suffering a loss, his strength will only be stronger than before five years later, neither you nor I will be able to get any advantage from him, and maybe he will be tricked by him again."

"But Liang Qiu is different. He has a team and capital. No matter from which point of view, he is more suitable to fight with him. Liang Qiu is our friend, and he represents us. If he wins Ning Wen, it means you win."

Gu Zhi listened to Shen Nian's words, but he still wanted to do it himself. If Ning Wen didn't pay back the pain Ning Wen inflicted on himself, he would have a thorn in his life, but at the same time, Gu Zhi also knew, If he does it himself, he will definitely lose control, maybe he won't have the opportunity to hold Nian Nian again.

There are gains and losses.

For Gu Zhi, nothing compares to Nian Nian.

It's just that I can't be reconciled. I can't kill that person with my own hands. I'm really reconciled.

"I know you'll feel wronged if you do this, and you won't be able to let it out, but it's for me, okay?" Shen Nian begged him in a low voice: "Please, I don't want to be separated from you anymore."

After a long time, Gu Zhi raised his arms and held him in his arms, and said softly, "Okay, I'll listen to you."

It was getting late, after Shen Nian took a shower, the two of them went to the bedroom, lay on the bed and prepared to rest, Shen Nian was held in Gu Zhi's arms like when he was a child, he originally wanted to hug Gu Zhi, after all it seems that Gu Zhi Zhi needed more comfort and protection, but he hugged him from behind just before he lay down, and Shen Nian was silent for a few seconds without saying anything else.

Perhaps such a scene similar to his childhood would make him safer.

"Can you sleep?" Shen Nian asked softly, leaning on his arm.

"Not too sleepy." Gu Zhi said, "Go to bed first."

"Not too sleepy or afraid to sleep?" Shen Nian turned to look at him: "Have nightmares?"

Gu Zhi didn't speak, but the silence at this moment is undoubtedly another answer, Shen Nian turned over and faced him:

"Shall I coax you to sleep? Just like you coaxed me when I was a child."

As Shen Nian said, she was about to get up and hug him, but Gu Zhi forcefully pressed his hands and trapped him in his arms: "Sleep with you."

He was reluctant to part with Shen Nian because he stayed up all night.

Shen Nian struggled in his embrace for a while before giving up, and asked him again after a while:

"Let's leave here tomorrow and go back to Jianjia Lane for a while, shall we?"

All the memories of the two of them, the good ones and the bad ones, all happened in Jianjia Lane. Shen Nian wanted to take Gu Zhi back to have a look. He didn't expect him to return to his original boyish appearance, but he hoped that this place would make him stop being so. Tension, relax a little.

Shen Nian agreed to everything about Ning Wen, and of course Shen Nian can say whatever is left: "Listen to you."

Shen Nian laughed and praised him: "So good."

No one slept well this night, Gu Zhi was worried that he would hurt Shen Nian again if he had a nightmare, and Shen Nian was worried that Gu Zhi would be half asleep and half awake until dawn, but he didn't sleep for too long Time, when he woke up, Gu Zhi was still hugging himself, his open eyes showed no signs of sleep.

Shen Nian didn't poke him, and said good morning with a smile, and said:

"It's like a dream."

"Me too." Gu Zhi said, "I dare not sleep all night, afraid that Nian Nian will disappear when I wake up after sleeping."

In the past five years, he had this dream countless times, and every time it ended in tragedy, he was really scared.

Shen Nian touched his face distressedly: "It's not a dream, I found you."

Gu Zhi didn't speak, but his eyes fell on Shen Nian's mouth, wanting to kiss him.

Some things can be tolerated when you haven't tried them, but once you know how sweet he is, you always want to lick it, and then lick it again, just like the current Gu Zhi is looking at Shen Nian, looking at his eyes full of wanting The desire to kiss.

Shen Nian can feel it at such a close distance, it's not that he can't kiss, but he can't accept kissing without brushing his teeth in the morning, so when Gu Zhi leaned over, he raised his hand to cover his mouth:

"No, I haven't brushed my teeth yet."

Gu Zhi, on the other hand, stood on top of his body as if he didn't hear it, and looked at him with burning eyes. After a few seconds, he raised his hand and grabbed Shen Nian's wrist, which was holding him back, and pressed it on top of his head, while the other hand grabbed him. chin, forcing him to open his mouth and kiss her.