paranoid dependence

Shen Nian didn't want to continue cooking as if nothing happened, he couldn't recite the words, so he just stood in the kitchen for a while and went back to the north room.

Gu Zhi had already got up, the quilts on the bed were neatly folded, but he was not in the room, Shen Nian stood at the door of the room silently for a while, heard a sound from the bathroom, and walked over.

Gu Zhi squatted on the ground, the clothes that should have been in the washing machine were taken out by him and placed in the sink, and he was scrubbing vigorously.

The water temperature was too low, his hands were red from the cold, like carrots.

If Shen Nian saw such a scene more than ten minutes ago, Shen Nian would subconsciously soften his heart, but now, more than ten minutes later, Shen Nian can do nothing, just looking at him, like watching a play.

A person stood at the door, blocking Gu Zhi's light in the bathroom. He looked up and saw Shen Nian and smiled:

"Nian Nian got up so early today."

Shen Nian ignored this sentence, but asked with a smile: "Why don't you use a washing machine?"

Shen Nian doesn't smile very much, even though Gu Zhi tried his best to please him, he can only smile once in a while. At this time, Gu Zhi hadn't done anything yet, Shen Nian just smiled, this doesn't fit Shen Nian's personality , so almost the first time Shen Nian showed this smile without any smile, Gu Zhi already noticed something was wrong.

He stared at Shen Nian, pulled his hands out of the cold water and got up, his hands naturally hung down on his sides, the water droplets on them slowly gathered to his fingertips along his fingers, and then dropped to his feet drop by drop. The only sound in the almost depressingly quiet space.

Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian, and finally spoke after a long investigation: "When I came to wash up, the washing machine had stopped spinning. I turned the switch several times but it still couldn't be turned on. It's broken. I'm afraid you don't have any clothes to bring when you return to school. , I want to wash it out by hand.”

"It's broken..." Shen Nian repeated these two words softly, but the smile on his face didn't change much. He still looked at Gu Zhi and asked, "Why is it broken? I broke it myself? Or did someone break it on purpose?" of?"

Gu Zhi is a smart person. He understood Shen Nian's meaning almost immediately after Shen Nian asked this question. He was a little surprised, but he was also a little surprised, but he didn't panic. Already expected.

Knowing what was going on, Gu Zhi slightly tilted his head, his expression was no longer innocent, his eyes were no longer pure, revealing his truest side.

In the past, Shen Nian was not afraid of Gu Zhi, but at least he was a little jealous, but at this moment, he didn't feel anything about Gu Zhi, and even thought, let's quarrel, let's fight, or just destroy it like this. It's fine, he's got a fire inside him, he never realized he had the potential to go crazy too.

But now he does want to go crazy.

"Wash it in cold water, how do you want me to feel after seeing it? You should call me, in case I haven't come to see you after you wash it, won't I suffer from the cold in vain?"

The sarcasm in Shen Nian's tone was so obvious that no one could ignore it. Gu Zhi stepped over the basin and stood in front of Shen Nian. After all, he was a little shorter than the 15-year-old Shen Nian. Look up to see his eyes:

"What does Nian Nian mean by asking that?"

"You're so smart, don't you understand what I mean?" Shen Nian looked down at him, Gu Zhi saw aggression inside for the first time.

Gu Zhi felt that he was a little excited.

This person is finally no longer lifeless.

He has known Shen Nian for such a long time, and he has never seen Shen Nian show such a look in front of anyone.

This kind of Shen Nian can only be seen by himself.

Gu Zhi smiled: "I'm also stupid sometimes, Nian Nian don't dislike me, tell me."

"Liquefied petroleum gas." Shen Nian was too lazy to play riddles with Gu Zhi, and said directly: "You did it on purpose, you obviously could change it yourself, but you didn't, you just wanted me to see you hungry when I came back , let me be soft-hearted and distressed to you, right?"

Gu Zhi's eyes lit up, he was more excited than ever before, the distance between the two of them was obviously close enough, but he still took a small step forward, their clothes were squeezed together, But it was also because of this that Shen Nian could see the madness in Gu Zhi's eyes more clearly.

Gu Zhi asked him: "Does Nian Nian feel distressed?"

Shen Nian frowned, why did this person miss the point?

But for Gu Zhi, he didn't catch wrong, this is his focus, all his deeds and intentions are just for such a result.

His focus is there, and it hasn't changed since the beginning.

Shen Nian wanted to take a step back to increase the distance, but Gu Zhi disagreed and grabbed his wrist: "Nian Nian hasn't spoken clearly yet."

Shen Nian wanted to break free from Gu Zhi's restraint, but his grip was too tight, Shen Nian couldn't break free, he could only maintain this posture with Gu Zhi, and said with a sneer:

"What are you doing this for? What exactly do you want from me?"

"Before I answer your question, Niannian will answer my question first." Gu Zhi looked at him without blinking his eyes: "Yesterday when Niannian came back and saw me eating cold steamed buns, it was because she felt sorry for me. ?"

Shen Nian didn't speak, but regretted what she said to him just now.But Gu Zhi seemed to have gotten the answer he wanted to know from Shen Nian's silence, he laughed, let go of Shen Nian's hand, and took a step back:

"Why do I do this, what do I want to get, this is the answer, I want Niannian to love me."

Shen Nian actually understood what Gu Zhi's purpose was from the moment he knew that Gu Zhi did all these things on purpose. When he said that he still had a grudge against him and needed time, Gu Zhi might have already planned these things. It might be part of his plan that he agreed to go to live in school, because only in this way would he have the premise of leaving him behind, and it would be easier for him to feel guilty if something bad happened to him.

And guilt can lead to a lot of compromise.Those who are owed will also get something that they don't usually get.

For example, once Shen Chongshan felt guilty towards Shen Nian, he would care about him like never before and wanted to make up for him.

Shen Nian may not be as good as Shen Chongshan, but he did have strong mood swings when he saw that Gu Zhi had done badly because of his own negligence.

"You can do better." Shen Nian looked at him with some pity: "Now the plan has just started, right? I just found out like this, don't you think it's a pity?"

Gu Zhi nodded with a smile: "One point, because I planned to make myself sick to make you more tender and distressed. You also know that it is easy to have a fever in this weather. I think maybe at that time you I will move back from school, and now I can't see your expression when I'm sick, it's really a pity."

"Shall I act for you?" Shen Nian looked at him: "Although I'm not as good as your acting skills, I can also cooperate with your drama and make up for your regrets."

"Forget it." Gu Zhi smiled: "Nian Nian you have all the emotions written on your face, you can't act well."

Shen Nian recognized this, turned around with a chuckle and wanted to leave, even though he didn't know what he was going to do after leaving, but now there was a fire in his heart, and if he stayed any longer, he might be on fire, but he Don't want to reason with a madman, even if he hasn't gone anywhere normally himself.

But Gu Zhi grabbed him again and didn't let him leave.

Gu Zhi didn't speak immediately. He looked at the red ring on Shen Nian's wrist that he had grasped forcefully before, and frowned slightly. He rubbed it gently with his fingertips, as if he felt distressed. He wanted to take it back, but Gu Zhi didn't let it go.

He stopped looking at the red marks on his wrist, and looked up at Shen Nian:

"Is Nian Nian angry?"

"Shouldn't I be angry?" Shen Nian asked.

"Why are you angry?" Gu Zhi looked at him incomprehensibly, "I did play a little trick, but did you suffer? You didn't. No matter what my reason for doing this is, it's all about you. , I didn't hurt you, and I didn't intend to hurt you, I did cook for you, and I did cook those dishes to let you find what you really like, I don't think this is any reason to be angry."

"Are you for me? You are for yourself!"

Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian strangely: "Giving you what you want while satisfying myself, isn't that the purpose of our being together? Does Nian Nian regret it now? Or do you just want to get what you want? , you don’t want to satisfy me?”

Shen Nian was speechless as if he had been exposed.

Gu Zhi saw all his expressions, and smiled lightly:

"Nian Nian, this is not good."

"I'm a lunatic, but I'm not a fool. Don't you think that if you cook me a few homemade meals and buy me a few fried skewers, I'll be satisfied?" Gu Zhi looked at him with a smile: "Nian Nian I don’t know if I really don’t know or I’m just pretending, you are kind to me, and the small favors you give me from time to time will indeed make me treat you better and meet your needs, but it will also make me, a lunatic, more and more dissatisfied with the status quo, I care more and more about you, and I want to keep you by my side more and more."

Shen Nian looked at him: "I said, one month to half a year."

Gu Zhi nodded, but still smiled, that kind of smile seemed to see through everything about Shen Nian, he tilted his head and looked at Shen Nian:

"Nian Nian, are you lying to me, or can't you recognize yourself? With your character, if I don't do something, do you really think you can accept me in half a year and let you belong to me alone?"

No, Shen Nian had no such plan from the beginning.

"That's why you lied to me?"

"Is it a lie?" Gu Zhi was a little puzzled: "Did Nian Nian not lie to me? You don't want to belong to me at all, you don't want me to possess you at all, and you don't want to get too close to me at all. You even want to give me back the harm I did to you, don't you?"

"But you promised me when I asked you to think clearly, I didn't expose you, I didn't blame you, I just wanted to make you feel for me a little bit, change you, accept me, and get everything back on track Come up, come back to the original agreement, let each other do what they say, is this a lie?"

"I don't think so." Gu Zhi said, "If so, it's because of you because of Niannian. You lied to me first, and you promised but didn't want to do it. Niannian treats me like a child."

This is not a child, no child has such scheming and eloquence, as well as the ability to read people's hearts, the logic is so clear that Shen Nian can't find any loopholes.

Shen Nian didn't know what kind of things he had gone through to become so terrifying, but he clearly realized one thing, he was not Gu Zhi's opponent, he was not crazy enough, ruthless enough, not even smarter than Gu Zhi, no general would not want to It's good to cover up what Gu Zhi sees.

In the game between him and Gu Zhi, it seems that he is controlling the rhythm, when the relationship is close and when the relationship is alienated, he has the final say, but in fact, he has already entered into Gu Zhi's setting without knowing it. in the trap.

That trap was very warm and peaceful, with food, drink and companionship, Shen Nian stepped into it without hesitation while persuading himself to calm down.

He's lost from the start, though he's not tamed either.

Seemingly seeing that Shen Nian's thought was being destroyed, Gu Zhi relented in a timely manner:

"Nian Nian, I did use means, I admit it, but I really won't hurt you, I want you, I want to be with you, everything I do is for our own good, what I can do for you, Not only these things now, I can do a lot for you, I can do everything you can think of, and you can't think of it."

He softened his eyes and almost begged him: "Let's be good, shall we?"

Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi, he didn't speak for a long time, he had the urge to stop, this kind of company, calculation, he didn't want it anymore, he couldn't afford it anymore, he was too tired, it might not be bad for him alone.

But he has eaten and suffered alone, talking to the wall to himself, and hallucinating the experience of an empty room, and he doesn't want to bear it again.

Don't you want to confront?Now that what should be said and what should not be said has been said, then everything has been clarified, so what is there to do?

Anyway, they are not good people.

"How are you doing well?" Shen Nian asked him: "Pretend nothing happened, continue to deceive, play tricks?"

"Gu Zhi, you are right. I lied to you. I never wanted you to possess me from the very beginning. I just wanted you to be with me. You have done so many hurtful things to me. I put You stay at home and let you feel my loneliness and grievances, what's wrong?"

"You want me to change, you want me to soften your heart, you want me to accept you? You used the wrong method." Shen Nian chuckled lightly: "You may make me feel soft-hearted and feel guilty if you use scheming, tricks, or deceit, but you can't help it." That's all, I can forget everything that happened at home when I go back to school, and you will never be the person I really want to be close to."

After Shen Nian finished speaking, he took a step forward, shortened the distance that Gu Zhi just retreated, and said to him under Gu Zhi's rarely flustered gaze:

"If you have the ability... come into my heart and let me be possessed by you willingly, can you do it?"