paranoid dependence

Gu Zhi really understood himself, and he really saw himself through.When he saw through him, he also clearly knew what he wanted and what he was afraid of.

They are really suitable to be together, such a person can really give what he wants, he is not stingy with giving and giving, even every time he gives, he can accurately hit Shen Nian's weakest point, in this way Under such circumstances, the grudge that Shen Nian once said would not last long and would be defeated.

This is the only feeling Shen Nian has at this moment.

He didn't even think about whether what Gu Zhi did today had ulterior motives or sincerity, it didn't matter, he couldn't resist that was the point.

Shen Nian admitted that what Gu Zhi said was very tempting, and he really wanted to ignore it and agree, as if as long as he agreed, he would never be cold again.

But Shen Nian's ashen heart was frozen for too long and too deep, so that even if he was touched, his heart was still like a rock. He could also feel that he was still afraid, still cautious, and still didn't dare to give a share easily. Promised, even though he had said long ago that he and Gu Zhi would accompany each other, for Shen Nian, companionship is one thing, and heart-to-heart trust is another.

If Gu Zhi said a year ago, he might have believed it, but now it is very difficult.

He has been disappointed for 15 years. If he can still believe in a meal based on stubbornness and a few words now, then he has not grown at all.

Furthermore, he wasn't sure that he could indulge Gu Zhi's paranoia forever. If he couldn't, it wouldn't be a bad thing for them to keep trying and keep each other.

It's good to have someone with you.

So Shen Nian never responded to him, and after a long silence, he just said: "Go to sleep."

The light in Gu Zhi's eyes dimmed little by little, and he asked, "Does Nian Nian believe me?"

Shen Nian looked at the air conditioner, the wind blowing from the vent gradually covered the whole room, he felt comfortable, if Gu Zhi next to him didn't stare at him like this.

Gu Zhi seemed to see through Shen Nian's discomfort and that he would never speak again, so after a while, Gu Zhi stopped looking at him and stared at the air outlet of the air conditioner like him, muttering to himself: "I I will make you promise."

Shen Nian turned over in silence for a few seconds, Gu Zhi looked at him for a few more seconds, smiled, and reached out to turn off the light.

The room was turned into darkness, and people's hearts seemed to be quiet.

The next day when Shen Nian woke up, Gu Zhi had already got up, the bed was cold, he didn't know how long he had been up, and what to do again, Shen Nian glanced at the time on the phone, but it was only 7 o'clock.

The air conditioner was still on, and the whole room was so warm that people became lazy and didn't want to get up. Shen Nian got up after being lazy for a while, and when he turned off the air conditioner and walked out of Gu Zhi's room, the rushing The cold air made him shiver involuntarily, it was only the beginning of December, how could it be so cold.

But the weather outside the house is very good. At this time, the small courtyard has been shrouded in sunlight. Although it is mixed with cold air, standing in the sun still feels warmer outside than inside. Shen Nian stood on the porch for a while, and heard After a sound came from the kitchen, he stepped over.

Gu Zhi had already made the porridge and was serving it on the table, when he saw Shen Nian coming in, he smiled: "Why did Nian Nian wake up so early?"

Shen Nian wanted to laugh when he said this: "Aren't you earlier than me?"

"I think you will have breakfast as soon as you wake up, so it should be earlier." Gu Zhi said everything frankly and plainly, making Shen Nian almost overwhelmed. He staggered his eyes and wanted to cook something. When I was eating potatoes, I was stopped by Gu Zhi: "Just scramble an egg, there is no need to be so troublesome for breakfast."

Shen Nian looked at him: "Don't you like potato shreds?"

"Shen Chongshan told you?" Gu Zhi looked at him with a smile: "I don't like it. At that time, many dishes in the restaurant were unpalatable, but the shredded potatoes were okay. I ate two more bites and he thought I liked it."

Shen Nian didn't speak, but felt helpless, Gu Zhi saw the expression on Shen Nian's face, and walked over to look at him:

"Shen Chongshan also made you wronged because of this?"

"Don't you know?" Shen Nian smiled, put down the potato in his hand, walked over to wash his hands, and prepared to scramble eggs: "I thought you knew."

Gu Zhi was silent for a few seconds, followed him, and tugged at the hem of his clothes with a flattering look on his face:

"Is Nian Nian still angry about the things I did before? Please forgive me."

This coquettish behavior was too blatant, Shen Nian glanced at him sideways, but did not see the slightest trace of disobedience on his face, as if he was born to be like this.

"It's agreed to be one month to half a year, how long is this?" Shen Nian stopped looking at him, not letting himself soften his heart any more.

Gu Zhi stared at him for a few seconds, then sighed in compromise: "All right, I bullied you for a year, if you let me off so easily, it would be really unfair to you, I'll just wait for you."

After speaking, he took out a few eggs from the cupboard, when Shen Nian took them, he glanced at him, smiled and didn't speak.

When the eggs were beaten into the bowl and stirred by the chopsticks, Gu Zhi, who was silent at the side, suddenly uttered a sound, with elements of surprise:

"Nian Nian, you think I like shredded potatoes, and you want to make them for me, right?"

Shen Nian didn't want to respond to this sentence, as if he didn't hear it, Gu Zhi didn't care at all, as he acquiesced to his own answer:

"Nian Nian, how can you be so good? I'll regret it if you're good."

This sentence surprised Shen Nian, and looked at him sideways: "What do you regret?"

"I regret that I was blind and didn't notice you when I first met you." Gu Zhi said, "If we found out earlier, wouldn't we be better off than we are now?"

Shen Nian thought for a while about what Gu Zhi said, but couldn't figure it out. At that time, he had Grandma Qin and Liang Qiu by his side, and even had expectations for Shen Chongshan. He himself was forced to accept basic politeness.

Under such a situation, it seems that the relationship between them will not go well no matter what, Shen Nian can't just be nice to Gu Zhi, and Gu Zhi won't believe that a 14-year-old child can give him what he wants.

So, one step earlier, they may not be better than now, they can only get the current result when they meet at the end of the road.

Gu Zhi seemed to have thought of what Shen Nian was thinking, and said with a smile:

"It's just right now."

Not one step earlier, nor one step late, just happened to pull each other when they were about to fall.

After the meal, Gu Zhi had to wash the dishes. After all, Shen Nian cooked the dishes, but Shen Nian cared that his hands were hurt and did not let him move. Gu Zhi smiled happily, just like last night, he helped clear the table and sat next to him To see him.

When the cleaning was finished, Gu Zhi wanted to drag Shen Nian to his room. Although he had learned how to cook this week, Shen Nian hadn't missed the homework that Shen Nian had given him, but there were still some things that he didn't understand and left questions. Ask Shen Nian.

It's just that Shen Nian rejected him, saying: "Let's go in the afternoon, I'll go shopping in the morning."

Gu Zhi didn't ask him what to buy, but asked: "Then can I go together?"

"can."

Gu Zhi laughed and went out with Shen Nian.

Maybe it's because of Saturday, many people choose to go to the city at this time, there are many people on the bus, although Shen Nian and Gu Zhi have no seats on the bus, and standing is still quite comfortable, but as more and more The closer to the urban area, the more and more people get on the bus, almost to the point that no one needs to hold anything and will not fall down.

But Shen Nian didn't feel crowded from the beginning to the end. Gu Zhi squeezed out a small space for him in the middle by the window. He didn't meet anyone, and no one touched him, but Gu Zhi It was very difficult to hold on, and the hands that were placed on the window were bruised.

But still not a little relaxed.

"No need to do this." Shen Nian looked at him: "I'm fine."

"It's because I don't like it." Perhaps it was too crowded, Gu Zhi had a face that anyone would feel displeased with: "I don't like people touching you."

Shen Nian was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect that Gu Zhi's possessiveness was not good in this aspect, after all, there were strangers next to him, after getting off the car, maybe he would never meet them in his life, could he even accept this?

"Is Nian Nian always crowded like this every time he returns to school?" Gu Zhi looked up at him with deep eyes.

"No." Shen Nian said: "Most of them are day students, and there are not many accommodations, so there are not many people on the bus back to school on weekends."

Gu Zhi heaved a sigh of relief when he heard the words, and continued to act like he was protecting the cubs. Shen Nian looked at him and wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything.

After finally reaching the place, Gu Zhi helped Shen Nian get out of the car, and the two of them crossed the road and entered the shopping mall together.

Gu Zhi originally thought that Shen Nian's so-called shopping was to buy school supplies, but Gu Zhi didn't expect that Shen Nian came here just to buy an electric blanket. He suddenly realized and looked at Shen Nian in surprise:

"Did Nian Nian buy it for me?"

Shen Nian didn't say yes or no, but said: "With the electric blanket, it won't be so cold when you sleep at night, but you still have to cut off the power before going to bed, otherwise it will be very dangerous."

Gu Zhi watched him for a long time without making a sound, so long that Shen Nian couldn't help but look over:

"what happened?"

"Nian Nian, have you noticed that you treat me better and better?"

Shen Nian silently ignored him for a few seconds, but did not refute, and went to check out with the electric blanket he had chosen.

For what Gu Zhi said just now, Shen Nian actually has feelings too. He doesn't like to owe others, so while Gu Zhi is for himself, even if he still has some grudges about what Gu Zhi has done, he still feels that the relationship between each other It's a little awkward, but I can't help but think about my stubbornness in some things.

Just like last night when he saw Gu Zhi crawling into bed so cold that his teeth chattered, he already planned to buy an electric blanket today.

This is a natural thing, and Shen Nian can't control it.

"I like you like this." Gu Zhi looked at him with burning eyes, "Shall we sleep together today?"

"En." Shen Nian responded lightly.