paranoid dependence

On the way back, I passed a crossroad, and there was a fried skewer snack truck parked on the side of the street. Shen Nian didn't like this kind of snack, so he didn't even cast his eyes on it. When he was holding on to the food truck, he realized that Gu Zhi had stopped in front of the snack cart at some point.

Just like the time I saw him at the school gate before, I looked at him eagerly, as if I really wanted to eat.

Shen Nian looked at him for a few seconds, then walked back, but he still didn't find himself:

"Want to eat?"

Gu Zhi turned his head to look at Shen Nian, his head moved, probably wanting to shake his head, but the desire to eat still prevailed, he just looked at Shen Nian like that, and asked cautiously: "Is it okay?"

"You've already made your own money, and you still ask me?"

Although Shen Nian didn't know how much he earned from picking up scraps these past few months, maybe it wasn't much, but there should still be some money to buy a fried skewer.

But Gu Zhi didn't seem to intend to use his own money, and looked at him mysteriously: "The money I earn has other uses."

"What's the use?"

"I can't say it for now." Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian with bright eyes, "Can Nian Nian buy it for me?"

What Gu Zhi didn't want to say, Shen Nian didn't know how to ask, just when he was about to say yes, the proprietress smiled and said:

"My pot of oil was just changed today, and it's clean. If my brother wants to eat, buy him a few skewers."

Shen Nian bought a few fried skewers for Gu Zhi, which he chose himself, fried mushrooms, fried potatoes, and a chicken chop. When holding the hot fried skewers in his hands, Gu Zhi's eyes almost crooked into smiles. Crescent moon, Shen Nian paid the money and turned to look at his satisfied face, and couldn't help being stunned for a moment.

Shen Nian could tell that the smile on Gu Zhi's face at this moment was real, it was for a few skewers of food.

"You eat too." Gu Zhi handed a bunch of mushrooms to Shen Nian, Shen Nian shook his head and refused: "I don't like it, you can eat it."

Said that he had taken the suitcase that Gu Zhi put beside him before and was about to leave, but Gu Zhi held his hand, looked at him with Shen Nian's puzzled eyes, and asked:

"Then what does Nian Nian like to eat?"

This question made Shen Nian stunned for a moment, it's not that he couldn't answer, but he couldn't remember what he likes to eat for a while.

As long as I can remember, You Xiaoyue gave herself a bite to eat. She never asked what she likes. Later, You Xiaoyue left and Shen Chongshan went out. It is lucky that he is not hungry at home. Take care, and never dare to say what you like.

Everyone has their likes and dislikes, but Shen Nian even missed the chance to discover this.

"I don't know." Shen Nian answered this question honestly, and walked forward one step ahead. Gu Zhi stood at the same place and watched Shen Nian's leaving back, suddenly realized that what he lacked might be much more than himself.

On the way home, Shen Nian told Gu Zhi that Shen Chongshan would not come back for the time being, and that he might have to wait for a while to enroll. Gu Zhi didn't react when he heard this, as if he didn't care about it at first, but Gu Zhi He didn't care about it, but Shen Nian cared more than him. After returning home for lunch, Gu Li often went to wash the dishes, and Shen Nian went straight back to the north room.

When Gu Zhi washed the dishes and came to look for him, he unexpectedly found him in Shen Chongshan's room, squatting beside the bed and about to get something out from under the bed. Gu Zhi walked over curiously and squatted down in front of him:

"What is Nian Nian looking for?"

"Book." Shen Nian didn't raise his head.

Gu Zhi thought it was Shen Nian's need for study, although he was curious why the books used were placed in such a hidden place, he still helped Shen Nian drag the box out from under the bed, it was a very heavy box.

Using a rag to wipe off the dust on it, Shen Nian used scissors to cut open the tape that was sealed on it. The first time the carton was opened, Gu Zhi looked over it curiously, suddenly a little surprised, and looked up at Shen Nian:

"Did Nian Nian find it for me?"

The books in the box are all junior high school textbooks and tutorial books, Shen Nian is now in the first year of high school, so naturally he doesn't need these.

"En." Shen Nian responded, and picked out the books that Gu Zhi needed from the box one by one: "Even if you go to school now, the homework that you missed is in the end, you can't go to school now, if you have nothing to do at home, you can study by yourself, no It doesn't matter, I can teach you."

Gu Zhi didn't speak, Shen Nian didn't care, he went to find the book, until Gu Zhi stretched out his hand and held his, Shen Nian stopped and raised his head to look at Gu Zhi.

His eyes were bright, with a little surprise that people could easily detect, he asked:

"Nian Nian, can you always be so good to me?"

Is that all right?

If it counts, then Gu Zhi is actually easier to tame than Shen Nian imagined.

But Shen Nian didn't think it was a good way for him. After all, no one knew better than him why he was looking for these books. He just wanted to find something to do for Gu Zhi at home, and he didn't want him to leave again. He likes to be picked up when he gets home, and he likes to leave home knowing that someone is waiting for him.

He likes this feeling.

Since Gu Zhi can't go to school for the time being, he should just stay at home obediently.Find something for him to do, maybe he won't be so bored that he wants to go out.

He wanted Gu Zhi to be at home.

Now Gu Zhi misunderstood Shen Nian's meaning, and Shen Nian didn't correct it. It wasn't a bad misunderstanding for him, but he didn't answer Gu Zhi's question whether he could treat him well forever. Sealed the carton and pushed it back under the bed:

"When I'm not at home, you read the book first, and I'll come back next week to bring you some test papers to touch your foundation."

Not getting Shen Nian's answer, Gu Zhi was not disappointed, he still looked at him: "I will let you treat me better and better, and I will also, treat you better and better."

Shen Nian glanced at him, smiled faintly, got up and left with the book.

After putting the book in Gu Zhi's room, Shen Nian went back to study in his own room. His grades were good and he was always at the top, but Shen Nian knew very well that he was not a talented player, he just put in more time than others , more effort.

He wants to get out of here, take control of his own life, and no longer be attached to anyone, so he has to work harder than others. This is the only thing he can do at this stage.

When the door was knocked, Shen Nian looked back, Gu Zhi was standing at the door with two books in his arms, looking at him:

"Nian Nian, I want to stay with you."

Shen Nian stared at him for a while, turned around and picked up his test paper and got up, Gu Zhi looked at him suspiciously, Shen Nian said:

"The desk in my room can't fit two people, so go to your room."

Gu Zhi smiled instantly: "Okay."

Gu Zhi's room is almost twice as big as the room Shen Nian lives in now. Even the desks are shared by two people. The two of them sit side by side to study and read. A good student at study, but Gu Zhi was the troublemaker at first glance, he didn't know if he couldn't stand it or what, his eyes fell on Shen Nian's face after a while.

Shen Nian was a little slow to react, until he finished one side of the test paper, turned it over and glanced at the textbook in front of Gu Zhi, only to find that it was the first page, and then he looked at Gu Zhi, and then saw his eyes looking at him, focused Also mild.

"Look at what?" Shen Nian asked.

Gu Zhi was not ashamed at all when he was caught, and even frankly expressed his feelings:

"Nian Nian, you look so good-looking."

Shen Nian: "...Thank you."

The time when two people were together was much faster than alone, and it was almost time for Shen Nian to return to school without feeling anything. Gu Zhi could see his depression, but Shen Nian turned a blind eye to it. School.

Shen Nian packed up some old clothes and shoes and wanted to send them to the children in the dilapidated building. Gu Zhi didn't know what he was going to do at first. It was only when he was in the schoolbag that he realized that his face was even uglier than before:

"What do you want to do?"

"I can't wear these clothes anymore, I'll send them to that kid."

Gu Zhi came over and held down the clothes that Shen Nian was about to fold: "I don't have any clothes to wear, why didn't Nian Nian give them to me?"

Shen Nian paused to look at him, once again seeing possession in Gu Zhi's eyes, not strong, but enough to be ignored by people, Shen Nian had no intention of arguing with Gu Zhi on this issue, to make him unhappy, so almost The idea was dropped without a single moment of thought:

"If you don't want it, I won't send it."

Shen Nian's answer was obviously beyond Gu Zhi's expectation, he was taken aback for a moment before asking in surprise: "Really?"

"En." Shen Nian responded lightly, and looked at him: "But these are old clothes of mine, I have worn them for several years, if you have no clothes to wear, you should buy new ones."

"No." Gu Zhi snatched the clothes from Shen Nian's hand that he wanted to put back into the closet: "I want these, I don't have money to buy new ones."

It may be helpless to use Shen Chongshan's money to go to school, but Gu Zhi doesn't seem to intend to accept it in other aspects, Shen Nian didn't persuade him anything, watching him leave with his clothes in his arms.But after a while, Gu Zhi came back again, still holding the clothes in his arms, but not the ones he carried away just now.

Gu Zhi put the clothes he carried on the bed:

"Shen Chongshan bought these for me last year, you can give them to fault tolerance."

Shen Nian looked at those obviously new and good clothes and said nothing, but Gu Zhi seemed to know what he was thinking, and said, "I don't know how to wear them."

He doesn't allow Shen Nian to give the clothes he has worn to others, but he can accept to give away his own things. To Gu Zhi, Shen Nian is his, and Shen Nian's clothes and used things are also his. Shen Nian would never be allowed to give it to others.

He can't take it.

But the clothes that Gu Zhi sent out were too good, even Shen Nian knew that these clothes were not cheap, Shen Chongshan had never treated Gu Zhi badly, and what he gave him was the best within his ability.

It's a pity that what Gu Zhi wants most is not the best.

The clothes are very good, anyone who sees them will be reluctant to wear them, but Gu Zhi really doesn't wear them if he says he doesn't wear them, so it's useless to keep them, so Shen Nian tidied up a little bit and left with him.

It's just that Shen Nian didn't expect that when he transferred to the dangerous building, the dangerous building was already surrounded and was being demolished, and the staff inside told him that no one lived here.

The kid named Tolerance should have left, but Shen Nian didn't know where he went, and he never saw him again.

The time the two of them spent together passed quickly, but Shen Nian's life at school was not too slow. Before he could feel the boredom of studying, it was already Friday.

Snow has fallen twice within this week, the whole world seems to be frozen, Shen Nian almost slipped and fell when he got out of the car and walked home.

The door of the house was open, and it was only at this time that Shen Nian realized that he was relieved. He was worried that Gu Zhi would run away from home again when he didn't even realize it, but fortunately, Gu Zhi was at home.

Shen Nian originally thought that the small courtyard must still be full of snow, but when he went in, he found that the courtyard was clean, the snow had been swept away and piled up in the flower pond to the east, there was also a pile of snow under the jujube tree, probably The cleaners were a little bored, and piled the snow into an ugly snowman, which was really ugly. If it wasn't for the snow, you wouldn't think it was a snowman's ugliness at all.

Shen Nian laughed ugly, he didn't know if Gu Zhi's aesthetic was like this, or if he had tried his best.

He was about to go to the north room but heard a noise from the kitchen. Gu Zhi was in the kitchen?do what?

Shen Nian changed direction, opened the curtain and walked in. Unexpectedly, besides the hot steam, there was also the smell of food, and then he saw Gu Zhi who was busy in front of the stove.

His movements are so unfamiliar that he can't even tell the difference between salt and sugar. Before using it, he has to dip some in his mouth and taste it. This time, he probably tasted the salt, and his face instantly wrinkled into a ball, but he just coughed. After two beeps, they continued to cook.

This scene was unexpected to Shen Nian, so much so that he stood still and forgot to say hello and say that he was back.

Shen Nian scanned the kitchen, only to find that Gu Zhi had cooked more than one dish, there were fried tomatoes and eggs, fried pork, and ribs soup on the table.

He remembered that Gu Zhi didn't know how to cook, why did he seem to be able to do it all of a sudden?What happened to him this week?

When Gu Zhi turned his head to pick up the plate, he saw Shen Nian standing at the door. He was stunned for a moment, but he quickly reacted and smiled happily:

"Nian Nian is back."

Shen Nian saw the dirty marks on Gu Zhi's face, and also saw his sweating profusely in this winter.

"I'm back." Shen Nian replied, only to realize that his throat seemed to be a little uncomfortable.

Gu Zhi didn't notice this, and said with a smile:

"I also made a dish of boiled pork slices, it will be ready soon, you sit down first."

After saying this, Gu Zhi turned back to turn off the fire and serve the dishes. Shen Nian remained silent for a few seconds before realizing that he stepped over to help, but Gu Zhi didn't stop him and smiled at him.

The dishes were all served on the table, and both of them sat down. Gu Zhi's eyes were eagerly placed on Shen Nian, and he looked at him nervously and expectantly:

"Try it to see if it tastes good."

As he spoke, he picked up a piece of chili fried meat and put it in Shen Nian's bowl. It was at this time that Shen Nian noticed that there were two scalded blisters on Gu Zhi's hands, and some places were still red even though there were no blisters. He wanted to ask a question, but Gu Zhi found out first, he shook his hand indifferently:

"It's very good to do this for the first time, and it won't happen in the future. You can try it quickly and see if you like it."

For Gu Zhi, nothing seemed more important than Shen Nian complimenting him on the deliciousness at this moment. Shen Nian should have a lot to say, but at this moment, he suddenly ran out of words. To be honest, the meat that was picked up was a bit old and salty, but Shen Nian still gave it affirmation:

"good to eat."

"Really?" The joy on Gu Zhi's face couldn't be concealed, and he ate a piece, and then the smile on his face gradually faded, he frowned and looked at Shen Nian: "It's salty."

Shen Nian laughed: "It's delicious."

"Next time." Gu Zhi promised, "Next time I will definitely improve compared to this time."

Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi: "Aren't you good at cooking?"

"I learned from the lady at the corner grocery store. I helped her organize the shelves, and she told me how to cook."

This answer surprised Shen Nian: "Why?"

"Nian Nian said that he doesn't know what he likes to eat. I feel a little distressed." Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian with focused eyes: "There is no one who doesn't know what he likes to eat. If you don't know, we will gradually find out. I know how to cook." You'll always know what you like."

"I will learn slowly." Gu Zhi said.

Shen Nian looked at Gu Zhi, suddenly speechless.

At this moment, Shen Nian didn't want to distinguish between Gu Zhi's acting and his sincerity. Even if Gu Zhi had ulterior motives, Shen Nian would admit it. He wanted to believe that what Gu Zhi said was true, and he was willing to believe that he learned these things for For himself, as for what the purpose is, Shen Nian doesn't want to care about it.

Even if the warmth of this moment is fake, he still wants to keep it.

Gu Zhi was brought back by himself, and he was also the one who asked him to stay at home with him, but Shen Nian never thought that one day he would meet such a scene when he returned home.

Three dishes and one soup, a common meal.

These seemingly simplest things are also the most poignant.

Shen Nian never thought that what he had been missing for 15 years would one day be found in Gu Zhi.

When You Xiaoyue is at home, she hardly cooks. Most of the time, she goes out to eat without Shen Nian. Even when she is at home, she can handle it well. Cooking a bowl of instant noodles and warming up two steamed buns is already considered good. Yes, for Shen Nianyu You Xiaoyue, it is best not to have trouble, not worth wasting energy.She would only cook when Shen Chongshan came back, but those so-called meals were not made for him, he was just passing by.

Although Shen Chongshan can cook, he is not at home all the year round, even if he is at home, he has never prepared it so carefully, because he is too busy, he doesn't even wait for himself to eat.

Now there is a person who studies little by little, tries little by little for himself, to let himself know what he likes to eat, Shen Nian can't be indifferent, nor can he be untouched.

He is just an ordinary person, an ordinary person who cannot resist warmth.